taste of honey

There are always some problems in this world that cannot be solved. The three words "why" are empty and boring.

Jiang Yi chopped potatoes with a knife, and the sound of cutting vegetables mixed with the sound of boiling soup became the only sound in the kitchen.Zheng Yun was silent, as if deliberately ignoring the answer, busy with his own business, not knowing what he was thinking.

Acceptance is a difficult process, and two or three words cannot be expected to change her.

Jiang Yi pursed her lips and said, "This can't be changed, just like you like Uncle Chen, if there is no Duan Qingxu, there will be Li Qingxu and He Qingxu in the future."

It could be anyone, but it must be a woman.

When she said this, she actually wanted to tell Zheng Yun that sexual orientation cannot be changed.

In the last century, homosexuality was a kind of neurosis, and ignorance caused one tragedy after another. Many people could not stand the torture and finally chose to die. The hero of the war, he saved the whole world but couldn't save himself. At that time, homosexuality was not only regarded as a disease, but also a sin. But after so many people died, this "disease" did not disappear and still existed.

Today, the charges are gone, and the name of the disease is gone, but the prejudice of the society and the family have become the biggest obstacles.It's normal for Zheng Yun to find it hard to accept, but Jiang Yi can understand, so she chooses to communicate with her slowly.

Zheng Yun choked up and said: "Have you thought about it in the future? What will you do when you are old? When you are seventy or eighty and can't move, go to a nursing home. Can the nursing home be so good? Who will take care of you at that time, and no one will find out when you die at home. You Now that I’m young, I don’t care about anything when my brain is hot, and when I’m old, it’s too late to regret.”

The status quo of society is like this. There is no sound pension system guarantee at all, and there are many doorways in nursing homes. It may be paralyzed when you are old, and money will not work.And the old concept of Chinese people has always been to raise children to guard against old age, not to be waited on to live a comfortable life, at least someone will collect the body after death, and cry twice.

Coming out of the closet is difficult, and here lies the difficulty.

Jiang Yi didn't dare to say anything about test-tube babies, and she had to break her leg after talking about Zheng Yun.

Now that science and technology are advanced, lesbians can also have children, but the process is actually very bitter, and it can even be called "humiliating". If you really understand it, you will know what's going on. Doing test-tube babies is all about health. As easy as imagined.

Not to mention that Zheng Yun would not agree, even Duan Qingxu would not agree.It is undoubtedly great to bring a small life into the world, but the sacrifice is equally huge, and behind the greatness must be hardships.

She thought for a long time, looked at Zheng Yun, and replied: "I can't provide for myself, but I can provide for you, so that you can spend your old age in peace and stability. It's enough for you to retire."

As for those who will not die after eighty hundred years, if you think about what to do so far away, you can't take care of it while you are alive, but can you take care of it after death?

Zheng Yun didn't speak, just turned his back.

It was very quiet in the kitchen.When Jiang Yi was about to cut the potatoes, Zheng Yuncai said again: "I'm your mother, so I'll take care of you."

In a word, the atmosphere instantly eased a lot.

Jiang Yi hesitated for a while, then said softly, "I know."

Zheng Yun ignored her, said nothing, wiped away his tears, and went out for a while.

A conversation failed to bring out anything, Zheng Yun's attitude was still the same, it was temporarily impossible for her to accept it calmly.

But at any rate, the relationship between the mother and daughter is no longer so stiff. This is a good start, as long as they are willing to talk, it means that there is room for maneuver.

In two or three minutes, Chen Yuqiu and Zheng Yun came in together, and the family of three cooked together. Zheng Yun didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, and Chen Yuqiu acted as a peacemaker in the middle.

Dinner was a simple three dishes and one soup. Jiang Yi served a bowl of soup for the couple. Chen Yuqiu drank it, but Zheng Yun didn't even touch the bowl. Jiang Yi wanted to get her a piece of ribs, but she didn't want it either.

Jiang Yi felt uncomfortable and bored all night.

Before going upstairs, Chen Yuqiu said in a low voice: "She has such a stubborn temper, don't take it to heart."

"Ah."

"sleep earlier."

Jiang Yi didn't say anything.

In the afternoon, it was still dark and cloudy, but at night, it was full of stars, and the starlight complemented the street lights on the road.

Her heart was a little heavy, she put her hands on the window and looked out, the light was on diagonally opposite, Duan Qingxu stood by the window and looked here, apparently waiting for her.

Jiang Yi raised her hand and combed her hair, just looking at it without doing anything else.

The same goes for Duan Qingxu.

In the dead of night, they accompanied each other silently.

Until lying on the bed, Jiang Yi sent a message to this person, asking: What are you doing at the company this afternoon?

The chat interface immediately showed that the other party was typing, and a reply popped up after a while: deal with the contract.

She turned over, not knowing what to talk about, staring blankly at the dialog box.

Probably because the conversation tonight was not going well, and Zheng Yun behaved like that again at dinner, he was really panicked, even though he knew that this matter would be resolved sooner or later, he still couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.

Duan Qingxu asked: Have you talked with your aunt?

I can guess anything.Jiang Yi typed a line, wanting to talk about tonight's situation, but deleted it halfway through, and changed it to: talk.

The other party didn't ask how the conversation was going, but said: What are you going to do tomorrow?

What else can I do, unlike going to the branch office to do chores during the winter vacation, I will stay at home to read and review this vacation.She replied: Do nothing, what about you?

The chat interface was silent.

Jiang Yi thought there was something wrong, and after a while, the person called directly. She subconsciously looked at the door, thought for a while, and opened the door again. The light in the couple's room had already been turned off. Wrap yourself tightly in the quilt and beat back.

Quick pick up over there.Duan Qingxu's voice was rare and gentle, and he asked, "Is it convenient to answer the phone?"

Jiang Yi shrank a little under the quilt. Feeling too hot, she raised her foot and shook the corner of the quilt, and said in a low voice, "No, I can pick it up."

"You are in a bad mood." Duan Qingxu said with a firm tone.

Jiang Yi's heart was sour immediately, and her emotions surged up, but she finally held back, and said in a muffled voice: "It's okay..."

Duan Qingxu tried his best to comfort her, but he didn't say anything about Zheng Yun. This man has always been sensitive and knows when to say something so as not to make her sad again.

Jiang Yi knew it all, and after listening to it for a while, she couldn't help but smiled slightly, feeling a bit better.

It would be much better if someone talked at this time, she got under the quilt and spoke in a low voice, Duan Qingxu listened patiently, her tone was extremely gentle.

Before hanging up the phone, the man unexpectedly said, "Good night."

Then wait for her to hang up first, Duan Qingxu never hangs up her phone first.

Jiang Yi got out of the quilt to breathe, her forehead was so hot that she was sweating finely, she took two breaths of fresh air, calmed down, pressed the phone tightly to her ear, and said softly: "Duan Qingxu, good night."

During these dreary days, she surrounded Zheng Yun all day long, thinking about how to solve the matter, which resulted in Duan Qingxu being left out in the cold. Calm down and think about it. Didn't do it, but paid attention to myself all the time.

Jiang Yi was never alone.

Duan Qingxu didn't move, it doesn't mean she didn't get involved, it's just that it's not the time for her to appear.

She is just waiting.

Jiang Yi turned to face out of the window, looked at the starry sky above the window, and unconsciously fell into a dream.

The next two days were the same as usual. After the conversation, they entered a cooling-off period. Compared with those radical parents, Zheng Yun behaved fairly peacefully, neither scolding nor beating. A few times, she seemed to want to talk to Jiang Yi again , but in the end no.

Jiang Yi couldn't figure out what she was thinking, and wanted to take the initiative to chat, but Zheng Yun didn't want to.

It was very difficult for Chen Yuqiu to be caught in the middle. While persuading Zheng Yun, he said to Jiang Yi, "Give your mother some time."

Jiang Yi had to wait until Zheng Yun figured it out before continuing.

And this time, wait until Zheng Yun is on a business trip.

The business trip was requested by herself, and she probably wanted to go out to relax. This matter was on her mind all the time, and it was really stressful.

Chen Yuqiu was with her, and Jiang Yi was the only one left at home.

On the first day of leaving, Duan Qingxu came over, just to take a look.Jiang Yi left this person behind and didn't let him go at night.

"Duan Qingxu..." she shouted, touching this man's lips.

The night was thick and quiet, the lights in the room were brightly turned on, and the curtains were drawn.

Duan Qingxu embraced her, leaned over to kiss her, and said a few words of comfort.

What Jiang Yi needs now is not comfort, she kisses Duan Qingxu's lips, eager to feel it, so that she can feel at ease.

Duan Qingxu grabbed her on his body and did what he had to do.

The more this is the case, the more important the existence of the other party is. Jiang Yi raised Yang's slender and fair neck, and wanted to turn off the light, but was stopped.

The lights didn't turn off until two or three o'clock in the morning.

Jiang Yi was lying on her back paralyzed, so tired that all those messy thoughts disappeared, she didn't think about anything, she just needed to hug Duan Qingxu.

After resting enough, she cleverly pressed against it, leaned in front of this man, and said in a low voice: "Duan Qingxu, say you like me."

Duan Qingxu stroked the side of her face, touched her rosy lips, pressed the girl against her body, and then pulled the quilt over to cover her.

Jiang Yi watched intently, waiting for this person to speak.

Duan Qingxu stepped back a little, lowered his eyes halfway, and said after a while, "I like you."

This is not enough.

Commitment and behavior are the most reassuring, and strong love fills people up.