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This time, the nurse found that Ji Yue seemed to be different. After Qi Dong came, Ji Yue became a lot more active. He no longer squatted by the window and waited every day. He turned on the TV after eating in the morning , watch some TV programs, and after lunch, he will take a rest, and then he will pick up the books that Chairman Qi asked to send to read.

When Director Qi came, Ji Yue was still very happy, but in the words of the nurse, he was no longer thinking about Director Qi like a dying person holding his breath.

Both Zong Lin and Qi Peisheng felt that Ji Yue was getting better, but only Ji Yue knew that his emotions had become stable, but things were not going in a good direction, and he became more and more unable to control himself.

He often stares at the pages of the book in his hand, feeling that his soul is withdrawn from his body, and he looks at this ridiculous body with cold eyes, struggling in vain. He hears the sound of wind, rain, music and lines from the TV, Everything around him neither hurt nor touched him.

Even when Qi Peisheng came, Ji Yue couldn't get out of this state.He guessed what new industry Qi Peisheng invested in today, or started some big projects that could shake the domestic economy. He watched Qi Peisheng, who was able to move mountains and build seas, appear in his ward every day, and praised himself with concern and tenderness. , will only feel absurd and inexplicable.

Then he opened his eyes in the dead of night, and looked at Qi Peisheng lying beside him in the dim light of the moonlight, and clearly saw the wrinkles on his face and the gray hairs in his hair one by one. Hair, he heard his own voice, vaguely and indifferently asking himself why.

Why is Mr. Qi so tired.

How long will he continue like this, how long will he live like this.

Why should he encounter these things.

--it's me.

--because I.

On the way from Guangsheng headquarters to the hospital, Qi Peisheng was still conducting transnational conference calls. In the past, he had to deal with all kinds of affairs, but now, in order to spare time to ensure that he could go to the hospital to see Ji Yue every day, he even treated one day as three days.

During the short gap, even Zheng Chuxuan couldn't help showing worry, Qi Peisheng's workload was too much these days.

Qi Peisheng hung up the phone and sighed: "Chu Xuan, I told Xiaoyue where I stand and what I want, and I have to pay the price and bear the corresponding responsibility. It's the same for me to tell myself."

Zheng Chuxuan was slightly taken aback, but finally he could only say: "Director Qi, take care of yourself."

"It's okay." Qi Peisheng shook his head.

However, at this moment, Qi Peisheng's cell phone rang suddenly while sitting in the car driving steadily towards Zonglin Hospital.

Looking through the rearview mirror, Zheng Chuxuan could only see that Qi Peisheng's face turned as cold as ice.

The car was parked downstairs in the ward, and when I looked up, I could see a figure standing on the edge of the roof, like a butterfly with broken wings, teetering on the edge of danger.

Qi Peisheng closed his eyes and said angrily, "Who told him to go up?!"

Qi Peisheng let out a low voice, and the birds in the sky scattered and fled for a while. Zong Lin's assistant and the doctor on duty stood at the door of the hospital, not daring to speak at all. Qi Pei panted heavily in anger, and then ran to the rooftop.

"Xiao Yue!——"

Qi Peisheng has experienced many things, big and small, and his voice is a little broken at this moment.

"Director Qi..."

There were a lot of medical staff standing at the top of the stairs, and they were both shocked and frightened when they saw Qi Peisheng.Ji Yue was wearing a large hospital gown, and his whole body was so thin that he became a solid hanger. The wind from the rooftop poured into his cuffs, as if it could blow people up.

He turned his head and said in a hoarse voice in surprise, "Sir..."

Qi Peisheng suppressed the trembling of the tip of his tongue, only he knew that his palms were wet with sweat at this moment, he looked at Ji Yue, took a tentative step forward, then stretched out his hand towards Ji Yue, and said in a deep voice: "Xiao Yue, come here. "

However, Ji Yue shook his head, looking in a daze, staring at Qi Peisheng blankly, Qi Peisheng had no choice but to take another step forward slowly, and at the same time repeated: "Xiao Yue, be obedient."

Ji Yue leaned on a little guardrail, and came back to his senses for a moment. When he saw Qi Peisheng, tears burst into his eyes. He shook his head and sobbed: "Mr. Qi, I can't control myself anymore. I tried my best. I take my medicine on time, and I also read books and watch TV, but something is wrong with me...uh...I...I still can't control myself..."

Ji Yue made all the efforts he could, but he saw more and more clearly a struggling self.This is understandable, he was sick, and he was beyond his control.But it's not necessary, he's not worth dragging Qi Peisheng into the vortex of illness and suffering together.

Qi Peisheng patiently slowed down his voice and said: "You are sick, Xiao Yue, it's not your fault, let's not rush, take your time, you have to trust the doctor and me. Be obedient and come down first, okay?"

Ji Yue pursed his lips, listening to Qi Peisheng's comforting tears streaming down his face, the corner of his mouth was numb, hesitating to speak, but in the end Qi Peisheng only heard him say: "I don't want to trouble you any more."

Immediately, Ji Yue's body shook.

At that moment, Qi Peisheng was suffocated, as if seeing the flashing photo of Ji Yue eight years ago, he was really good-looking, otherwise he wouldn't have caught Qi Peisheng's eyes.As time passed, Ji Yue was also treated kindly. At this time, the pictures overlapped. He was still the good-looking college student back then, with bright eyes and bright teeth, looking forward to shine.But at this moment, Ji Yue's figure was on the verge of falling, and Qi Peisheng felt that his heartbeat was about to stop. The moment Ji Yue was about to fall, he stepped forward and pulled Ji Yue back from the high platform. He was so angry that he blurted out: " Aren't you giving me trouble?!"

Qi Peisheng panted heavily, and the heat of his breath completely leaked his emotions. Qi Peisheng pinched Ji Yue's waist and put him down. From the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of the safety air cushion that had been prepared downstairs, and felt his heart drop. Back to the original position.

Ji Yue slumped and sat on the ground, covering his face with his hands involuntarily, sobbing and crying loudly.There is nothing wrong with falling in love with someone, but it is his fault to fall in love with Qi Peisheng.Not only is he wishful thinking, but now it is becoming more and more difficult to face the harm this feeling brings to others. He doesn't know how to bring this absurdity to an end, and he has nowhere to go.

The people around rushed forward at once, Qi Peisheng shook his head wearily and told them to leave.

When Qi Peisheng was in his early twenties, he also met a lot of people who wanted to be with him, but later such people became less and less, not because no one was interested in Qi Pei anymore, but because he gradually He no longer gave others room to imagine, and he no longer allowed things to happen uncontrollably.In the world of flowers and flowers, thousands of things have all fallen into Qi Peisheng's hands, and they are not worth mentioning. Only matters of life and death are still valued by Qi Peisheng.

He lowered his head to look at Ji Yue, sighed, and squatted down slowly.

"Xiao Yue, what do you want?" Qi Peisheng said softly.

Ji Yue trembled all over and cried even harder, but Qi Peisheng was extremely patient: "Be yourself, what do you want? Tell me."

Ji Yue shook his head and refused to speak.He wants a love from Qi Peisheng.But it is doubtful whether ordinary people will still look forward to love at Mr. Qi's age.And Qi Peisheng is 40 years old, he absolutely does not need love.What Ji Yue is looking for may be something that Qi Peisheng himself does not have.

Qi Peisheng seemed to be a little sullen again at this time. The corner of his mouth was tightened with a blade, and he lowered his voice. He pushed away Ji Yue's wet palm and looked at his face: "To be honest, what do you want? Say it! What else can you have?" Is there something I can't afford?"

"Say!"

Ji Yue also clenched the corners of his mouth, and subconsciously bit his lower lip. However, he never expected to win in the confrontation with Qi Peisheng. He trembled a little under Qi Peisheng's not-so-stern gaze. Fainted by the aggrieved water, Ji Yue said in a hoarse voice that only he could hear: "I want you."

"I want you, I want you to love me, can you give it to me?" Ji Yue almost despaired.

Qi Peisheng was slightly taken aback when he heard the words, but then let out a chuckle from his nasal cavity as expected: "Here."

Ji Yue pouted, he couldn't believe what he heard, and asked repeatedly: "...can you give it to me?"

In Ji Yue's shocked eyes, Qi Peisheng's tone seemed to approve and sigh: "Xiao Yue."

"If you want it, I'll give it to you." He slowly clenched Ji Yue's fist, patted it, and said, "Xiao Yue, why do I want you to come by my side, why do I want Chu Xuan to teach you how to do things? Are you Can't figure it out, or are you pretending to be stupid?"

For nearly 20 years, Qi Peisheng was selfish due to loneliness. If Ji Yue's signs of illness were not so obvious to him, even if he expected it, he would not care about Ji Yue's pain, and he would not care about Ji Yue's suffering.But when he noticed something, he didn't intend to turn a deaf ear and turn a blind eye from the beginning.It's a pity that I don't know if it's because he's too superior, giving everything like charity, or because Ji Yue has been afraid for too long, so he didn't want to understand.

Qi Peisheng sighed, his eyes became darker, looking at Ji Yue, gathering more softness and helplessness, he touched Ji Yue's cheek, and whispered: "Xiao Yue, you have always been very good. If you need me If it becomes the reason for you to live, I will not reject you. If you want to respond to your feelings, I am willing to give it to you. But if you close your eyes because of fear, you will miss too much scenery, and dare not hold your hands tightly because of fear, even if I put it in your palm, and you can't hold it."

Hearing this, Ji Yue almost bit off a piece of flesh from his lower lip, his eyes were full of mist, and his face was full of sourness and bitterness fermented by too many old helplessness.

Before he answered, Qi Peisheng's tone became a little serious, and he said slowly: "If your feelings for me are just an excuse to let yourself live, it will not do me any good. You say, if it were you, you Want it?"

Ji Yue shivered, Qi Peisheng spoke cruelly, but moved gently, reaching out his hand to wipe away the tears on his face.

"I told you before that if you want to be by my side, you have to make yourself strong. Don't be afraid if you can't stand for a while. I will support you. But after a long time, a pile of empty shells will fall apart even if I support them. Yes. I can give you what you want, a promise, a position, but Xiaoyue, people can’t be so capricious. I will give you what you want, but you say you can’t afford it and dare not take it. You If you look up and feel tired, I can also bow your head and bend down to accommodate you. You say you love me, is this your love? If you don’t want to take a little courage and take a step forward, you have a child’s heart and a robber’s logic.”

Ji Yue raised his head, and Qi Peisheng's words were like silver needles, piercing into the wound that had been festering for many years, and the bones were deep enough until the pus and blood gushed out. Ji Yue opened his mouth, he felt pain and wronged, and the corners of his eyes slipped Live more tears.

"I know that getting sick is not your choice. As long as you cooperate with the treatment, I am patient enough to accompany you. But you have to find the meaning of life yourself, even if the meaning of your life is me..." Qi Peisheng closed his eyes and said At this point, he also found it difficult. This is actually beyond the scope of Qi Peisheng's understanding. After a pause, Qi Peisheng simply backhanded and sat on the ground. The magnificent sunset is all over the sky.

Qi Peisheng continued: "I can pave the way for you and give you an unimpeded road, but you have to walk the road by yourself after all. You have to breathe by yourself and open your eyes to see the sun every day, Xiao Yue."