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The mental stress was too great this day, Ji Yue was exhausted, and fell asleep very early after taking the medicine. He thought he might suffer from insomnia and open his eyes until dawn, but Ji Yue did fall asleep, but woke up before dawn come over.

Ji Yue didn't turn on the light, as long as he got used to the environment in the pitch darkness, he could see his surroundings clearly by the moonlight.

This is a completely strange place.

Ji Yue was a little dazed, and then he suddenly understood where he was.

Immediately, all kinds of things from yesterday came to mind, making Ji Yue seem to be dragged into the sky for a while, but he did not feel the familiar tension and fear for a long time. All kinds of emotions seemed to disappear without any response. His perception diminished and he sank into a new sense of nothingness.He didn't feel pain, but tiredness, like being stuck in a swamp, and he didn't want to struggle in vain.

Ji Yue closed his eyes, wondering if the feeling of emptiness in his heart was the healing process.If so, it would be better than he imagined.

But he does not believe that he can recover. Ji Yue is very clear about this. The source of his illness is not a sudden unexpected blow in life, but a long period of emotional depression and disappointment. That is wishful thinking.He opened his eyes, thinking that it doesn't matter whether he is cured or not, his life has become meaningless, even if he recovers, it is meaningless to be happy.

Ji Yue couldn't help thinking of Qi Peisheng, he restrained himself from thinking about whether Qi Peisheng would come to see him, and didn't want to bear a little bit of disappointment because of hope.

Ji Yue hugged his knees, buried his head in his arms, Qi Peisheng left him here, and said that he could go back when he recovered, maybe it was just comfort, Ji Yue didn't dare to take it seriously, he did read the information when he was online before. Patients who have been cured, but more are people who have never been cured, and are still suffering from repeated attacks. The damaged cell remains are left in the body, and they are looking for weak points.

Ji Yue thought, if he can't be cured, he won't be able to go back.

Staying here all the time, he remembered that he had no connection with this society other than Qi Peisheng, no one would try to find him, and how much would the treatment cost if he stayed here all the time?

Oh...Ji Yue just realized that to Mr. Qi, what can be solved with money is nothing, he doesn't care at all.Ji Yue thinks that he is just a lover who needs to be eliminated, and someone will fill his void soon.

Without the pain of physical stress, he did become calmer, but also more pessimistic and desperate.

Qi Peisheng boarded the plane to country A the next day, and spent more than half of the next week flying in the sky. After returning to Pu City, ten days had passed, and he was still using his mobile phone to continue chatting with country A when he landed. During the conference call at the side, the traffic was heavy, Qi Peisheng made a gesture, and Zheng Chuxuan, the co-pilot, clearly told the driver to divert to Zonglin Hospital.

"You're here." Zong Lin breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Qi Peisheng.

"What's the matter?" Qi Peisheng asked anxiously.

Zong Lin transferred Ji Yue's observation records for the past few days, handed a copy of the document to Qi Peisheng, and said, "It's pretty stable now. A few days ago, he had some physical reactions due to the side effects of the drug, and his mood was also a little depressed. But you Don't worry, I came to you because of another matter, and I have to tell you face to face." Zong Lin paused, seeing that Qi Peisheng's face was not very good when he read the document, he tentatively continued: "Actually, Mr. Ji The pathological reaction of the patient was more serious than my diagnosis, and the initial assessment questionnaire showed this, and I felt a little strange at that time, and I even had doubts at the time of diagnosis."

Hearing this, Qi Peisheng temporarily closed the document in his hand, looked up at Zong Lin.

"Usually patients with daily reactions as serious as Mr. Ji's will lose passion for life, lose desire, fall into a kind of unmotivated daze, and feel that life is meaningless, but Mr. Ji is not like this, including in his assessment test, You can clearly find the opposite of this description, including his so-called suicide behavior and impulsive thoughts that you described to me earlier are all restrained. Except for the influence of anxiety, it is more that he did not completely deny that he lived in In my communication with him, judging from his state and reaction, he does indeed have desires, but he is deliberately concealing them."

"Of course, this does not mean that he is not sick, but I think maybe we can consider starting from this perspective and prescribing the right medicine." Zong Lin said slowly.

Hearing this, Qi Peisheng put his elbows on his knees and touched his chin. He frowned and looked at Zong Lin silently.

Xiao Yue's desire is really easy to guess.

"You mean Xiaoyue thinks he's living for me?" Qi Peisheng said in a low voice.

Zong Lin took a deep breath and relaxed. Even if he saw it early in the morning, he couldn’t help but open his mouth. It would be great if Qi Peisheng would admit it, and he said slowly: “Yes, I think, he created a You make a living logic closed loop, so as to convince yourself to live.” Zong Lin paused, and added: “In fact, many patients with depression will encourage themselves to fight the pain of the disease because of the existence of family and friends. In most cases, the doctor will advise the patient's family members to accompany the treatment. Mr. Ji's condition is similar. After his father passed away, he became more dependent on you for various reasons, and he will unconsciously give himself psychological hints. You are his life-saving straw, in the short term, if accompanied by your encouragement, his treatment will get twice the result with half the effort."

Although he can be regarded as half of Qi Peisheng's subordinates, as a doctor, he still has the priority to consider the patients. After all, staying in the environment of the hospital is not a good thing for Ji Yue's long-term recovery. Close family and friends will also aggravate the hints and pressure in your heart about your illness.It's just that the relationship between Qi Peisheng and Ji Yue is really not that of parents, not to mention that Qi Peisheng has a lot of things going on, even if he wants to, it may not be easy to really cooperate.So Zong Lin finished speaking cautiously, feeling a little apprehensive in his heart.

Qi Peisheng took a deep breath when he heard the words, and after thinking about it, he said in a deep voice: "I will come here as often as possible." would abandon him, so insecure, right?"

Zong Lin was startled, this was no longer Ji Yue's illness, but Qi Peisheng's private matter, he didn't dare to comment, and silently lowered his head.

"Little fool, hey..." Qi Peisheng sighed, and then he looked at Zong Lin, his expression gradually became dignified and deep, and said, "But are you sure that you entrust your life to another person like him? Is it a disease? Such an improvement, recovery, can it be regarded as a real recovery in your medicine?"

Zong Lin was dumbfounded for a while, and he carefully explained: "The primary problem now is that drug treatment cannot relieve his psychological pain in a short period of time, even if the best plan is matched with the best drugs, the patient needs to come out on his own. So the problem now is actually how to ignite his hope, let the vitality in his body run again, and feel that there is hope for life. In other words, in the short term, he can't get out on his own. He needs a trust. People who support him and accompany him to the next stage. As for over-dependence, this is a problem that needs to be considered in the later stage of treatment. Many patients have found new meaning in life in the process of gradually recovering. In fact, the dependence on family and friends will be somewhat The reduction is not a serious problem."

When Zong Lin said this, he became more and more aware of why Ji Yue was so humble. It was difficult for ordinary people to treat Qi Peisheng as an equal, let alone Ji Yue.Falling in love with Qi Peisheng is simply asking for death, no one can be reckless and fearless.