we didn't flirt

Qin Yuxian's words caused ripples in Guan Yan's heart, she thought in a daze, together all this time?Of course she wanted to be with Ye Rong all the time, didn't she put in so much effort just to be with Ye Rong?

On the phone, Qin Yuxian's voice was full of tenderness: "You seem to take it for granted that the two of you broke up, and the appearance of Mu Yao just made this result come earlier."

"I didn't think so." Guan Yan felt as if a layer of fog had formed in her heart, which made her suddenly unable to see her heart clearly. She said without confidence: "I just feel that I have no way to deal with being too influenced by the past. Ye Xing, I'm afraid that if I continue to be with her, it will make her hurt more and more."

"Hmm..." Qin Yuxian's tone became a little more leisurely: "I think this is just an excuse you made for yourself."

"..."

"In short, if you want to break up with Xing Xing, I won't stop it. I even think you don't have to think about making up for her. It's not a good thing for you to continue being together with the mood of making up. She is very strong and won't Because she can't live after being injured, there will always be someone who can heal her in the future."

"……"future?Guan Yan felt very uncomfortable, as if she and Ye Rong had already broken up.

"But you can give yourself more time and don't make a decision too quickly."

"Ah."

After hanging up the phone, Guan Yan felt even more confused. Qin Yuxian didn't give her any advice, but said a bunch of inexplicable words instead.

Sitting in a daze for a while, Guan Yan knew that he couldn't make a decision for the time being, so he sighed lightly and prepared to go to rest, let's talk about it after sleeping.

As soon as she got up, the mobile phone in her hand rang, it was an unfamiliar number, Guan Yan raised her eyebrows, and subconsciously thought it might be Mu Yao, she and Ye Rong left so quickly, Mu Yao must be very worried about Ye Rong's situation.

After answering the phone, Mu Yao's voice really came: "Sister Guan, I'm Mu Yao."

"Well, Ye Rong is fine, he's already asleep." Guan Yan didn't want to talk to Mu Yao, and went straight to the point.

"That's good." There was guilt in Mu Yao's voice: "I'm sorry, I wanted to apologize, but I didn't expect..."

Unexpectedly, he gave Ye Rong another knife.Guan Yan said indifferently: "When Ye Xing's mood stabilizes tomorrow, I will talk to her again. Let her decide whether she wants to see you again."

"Thank you, Miss Guan."

After hanging up the phone, Guan Yan returned to the bedroom, Ye Xing still maintained the same posture as before and fell into a deep sleep.Guan Yan gently lifted the quilt and lay down, looking at Ye Xing curled up, feeling very complicated.She raised her hand to lightly touch Ye Xing's face, and Ye Xing leaned into her arms as if she had sensed it.

Holding him into her arms, Guan Yan sighed secretly in her heart, what should she do with this little bastard?

*****

The next morning, when Guan Yan woke up, she found that Ye Xing had already woken up and was looking at her quietly. There was almost no emotion in her eyes, but it made her worry.Recalling what happened yesterday in her mind, Guan Yan knew that the hesitation in her heart was still there.

Raising her hand to caress Ye Rong's cheek, Guan Yan gently hugged Ye Rong, and said softly: "I'm sorry, I didn't realize your need in time."

Ye Xing slowly closed his eyes, and leaned into Guan Yan's arms, enjoying Guan Yan's embrace reluctantly. "Um."

Guan Yan caressed Ye Xing's hair lightly, obviously Ye Xing was in her arms, obviously she could really feel Ye Xing's body temperature, but she felt a kind of confusion that she had never felt before.

"Muyao called yesterday to ask about your situation, do you still want to see her?"

After a short silence, Ye Xing calmly said: "It's gone."

Guan Yan was a little surprised, but after thinking about it, Ye Rong really didn't need to see Muyao again. For Ye Rong, the reason for the breakup was the only thing she wanted to know. For Ye Rong, whether there was any apology and explanation from Muyao It's not very important anymore.

Hugging Ye Rong in her arms, Guan Yan couldn't help thinking that if Mu Yao had matured a bit back then, maybe she wouldn't have caused such great harm to Ye Rong.Yesterday she complained to Muyao, and felt that this apology came too late, she thought it was purely for Muyao's self-satisfaction, but now she felt that even a late apology might be better than nothing.

Back then, I didn't even know the reason for the breakup. That intense but fruitless relationship probably left Ye Xing with no chance to grow and heal. Now that the wound has been reopened, Ye Xing finally has the opportunity to face up to the past, and maybe he can fade it away. The scar that became distorted under the seal of time.

It's just... In the process of healing, if a new injury is added, what will happen to the injury?

Thinking of the harm she had done to Ye Xing, Guan Yan felt tight in her chest, and the confusion in her heart became more intense, but she didn't know whether this confusion came from her own hesitation, or from something else that she had never touched before. .

With a heavy heart, Guan Yan took a light breath, pretending to be relaxed, and said, "Do you want me to call her back for you? Or do you call her yourself?"

"...I will fight myself."

"it is good."

The two lay quietly, and neither of them wanted to end the good time, because they both knew that after leaving here, they might never be able to enjoy the feeling of embracing each other quietly like now.

She didn't know how long she had been lying on the bed, but Guan Yan's fingers were gently hooked by Ye Xing, and she heard Ye Xing whisper: "If you don't want to continue with me, it's okay to just tell me."

Guan Yan's heart tightened and he was speechless.

*****

As usual, stay in bed, get up, wash, eat, drink a cup of coffee comfortably, lie down comfortably and take a nap.

However, they all knew that today was different from usual.

When Ye Xing woke up, Guan Yan was still sleeping soundly, and the room was filled with the setting sun, dyeing everything into a hazy beauty.Seeing Guan Yan's sleeping face, Ye Xing was full of reluctance, because she knew that she might lose Guan Yan.

Throughout the day, even though Guan Yan tried hard to make herself look the same as usual, she could still feel Guan Yan's hesitation and struggle in her heart, and she knew that this uneasiness was brought to Guan Yan by her.

If there was any luck before seeing Muyao yesterday, after seeing Muyao, she knew that she had no way to stay by Guan Yan's side anymore. The knot of not going away.She couldn't regard the awakened emotion as non-existent, and Guan Yan...probably couldn't ignore the existence of Mu Yao.

Before meeting Muyao, she didn't know that she was so bound by that relationship, but after hearing Muyao's words yesterday, she realized that she had never gotten out of that relationship, and now she is not qualified She stayed by Guan Yan's side, and she did not allow herself to stay by Guan Yan's side in this state.

Now she finally knows why she was so shaken when she saw Muyao. At that time, she probably subconsciously realized that she was too seriously influenced by Muyao, so serious that she would insinuate it on Guan Yan. It was too unfair for Guan Yan, and it was destined to make her lose Guan Yan.The conversation yesterday made her completely convinced of this.

Before she gets rid of Mu Yao's influence, she can't stay with Guan Yan, this state will change her relationship with Guan Yan beyond recognition.She is not strong enough now, and because she is not strong enough, she will be in chaos when she sees Mu Yao, which will bring uneasiness to Guan Yan.She had to make her heart stronger and grow up, otherwise she would not be able to protect her relationship with Guan Yan.

Ye Rong couldn't help raising her hand to touch Guan Yan's face. She was very annoyed. Why didn't she realize her fragility earlier? Why didn't she discover her problems ten years ago? If she could grow up at that time, she wouldn't lose Guan Yan now. cigarette.

Guan Yan's eyelashes trembled slightly, and his beautiful eyes slowly opened, with the haze of just waking up from sleep.

The two people met their eyes and looked at each other quietly.

Ye Xing saw her shadow in Guan Yan's eyes, and when she thought that she would disappear from these eyes, she felt extremely uncomfortable.She was reluctant to leave, but she told herself that she could not let her emotions corrode Guan Yan, this was her lover, and she wanted to keep this person instead of letting him become unrecognizable with her.

After waking up, Guan Yan first saw Ye Xing who was watching her quietly. The setting sun fell on Ye Xing's face, drawing delicate lines on her pretty face, and carved deep shadows on her facial features.

Guan Yan looked at the person in her arms, and felt that the tide was surging in her heart, making her unable to calm down. She had a hunch that Ye Xing had already made a decision.

In the afterglow of the setting sun, Ye Xing's eyes were shining brightly, and she said softly: "I know that Mu Yao's existence will make you mind very much, and so do I."

"..." Guan Yan had a vague premonition of what Ye Rong was going to say next, and she wanted to stop her, but she couldn't say anything.

"Now I will pass all the anxiety she brought me on you. This is what I don't want to see. I need time to adjust myself."

Guan Yan looked seriously at Ye Rong's eyes, she felt that she probably expected to see some hesitation or hesitation in these eyes, but... There was nothing in Ye Rong's eyes, and she couldn't even see her own print clearly. The contours in Ye Xing's eyes.

Ye Rong smiled softly and warmly, and that smile in the afterglow of the setting sun was more beautiful than any smile Guan Yan had ever seen on her face.Ye Rong said: "I don't want to lose you, I'm very afraid of losing you, so I will make myself stronger and won't make you uneasy anymore, so...before that, let's temporarily...save this relationship, okay? good?"

Her breathing seemed to be stagnant. For the first time, Guan Yan felt heartbroken. She thought, this is probably love.