go too far

To 20-year-old Jiang Yu:

happy Birthday.

In fact, it is February 19th, the first night of your [-]th birthday, and I started writing this love letter a year in advance.

If the first two love letters were written about the past, then this one, I want to write about our future.

The dance I danced for you today, the original video is actually a flash record for a marriage proposal.

For some reason, when I saw this video for the first time, my first reaction was that I wanted to surprise you and say this to you.If the average human life expectancy is calculated as 80 years old, I have spent a quarter of it with you, and if the future medical technology is more advanced, it will become a fifth.But no matter the remaining 60 years or 80 years, I want to spend it with you.

However, when I was 19 years old, I didn't dare to make too distant and unrealistic promises to you, so I only dared to use this dance to hint first, but I didn't expect that you didn't watch that video. Poor planning.

What Brother Qiao said that day also stuck in my throat.I know that neither of us can be sure that each other's parents will accept it, nor can we be sure that the people around us will be malicious to us.Moreover, we can't really get the certificate in China, and we are even two years behind in age.

Sometimes I really can't hold back the words in my heart, so one year ago today, I want to write this sentence for you here first.

Jiang Yu, we met when we were three years old, fell in love when we were 17 years old, and committed to each other.Then at the age of 20, I want to make a promise with you for life.

Would you like to spend the years and years to come with me?

He Lin

After reading this "first draft", Jiang Yu suddenly didn't dare to look up.

If we say that the dance hint at the beginning was indeed a bit cryptic, so that it was the first time in many years that he successfully received the other party's intention after questioning.These words in the letter now are a real confession and an invitation about the future.

He still lowered his head, and almost couldn't wait to open the second envelope, so he didn't see that He Lin bent over and took out something from the cabinet just now.

The second love letter does not start with a familiar sentence, it is more like an additional draft——

That... I didn't expect that shortly after writing that love letter, our relationship was known by the counselor.

When I went to the office some time ago, Mr. Tang showed me some photos, which were photos of me kissing you when I was in Happy Valley.

I am sorry.

I was too reckless, and I will change it in the future.

I still remember that when I was approached by the teacher for the first time to talk to me, I was still in the office. After weighing the relationship that was still weak at that time and the trouble it might cause to the other party, I decisively made the decision to break up.But now, I hesitated.

I don't want to break up with you.

I know that this road is more difficult than puppy love, and maybe until the end, we will not be able to hold hands with each other in public, but I don't want to give up, and I don't want to let go.

Jiang Yu, if you are afraid, you can tell me, I will not let you follow the adventure.But if you also think the same as me, then I'm afraid I will beg you to go through this time with me.

I know that our love started as a funny bet, but, Jiang Yu, it was definitely not a mistake.

I don't know how to like someone, how to like someone.I only know that after being with you, everything became natural, like an instinctive reaction that was originally engraved in the bones of human beings - I instinctively learned to hold hands, hug, kiss, and make|love step by step.Among them, whether I already had unusual feelings for you before, or whether love was born during our relationship, it is impossible to study, but the only thing I can be sure of is——

I love you.

And I think, I may not fall in love with others anymore.

Jiang Yu, you are like an intoxicating addiction, which has turned into a poison over time, not only affecting the nerves, but also seeping into the blood.

It is your existence that taught me how to love, but you are an unqualified teacher, who only taught me to love you, and I am also a student who cannot draw inferences from one example, and only learned to love you only.

If we still cannot be recognized here in the future, we will go to a place where we can be recognized.We held hands in the street openly and kissed in the amusement park, without worrying about being disturbed by strange eyes, let alone being photographed inexplicably.

The world is so big, there must be a place for us.

He Lin

Written on April [-]th

——This additional manuscript is all over here.

He Lin stood back beside Jiang Yu, and he had browsed through it twice in silence, but Jiang Yu didn't look up for a long time.

He shouted: "Jiang Yu?" The other party didn't respond, so he lifted Jiang Yu's chin, and then bumped into a pair of tearful eyes.

He Lin was in a hurry, and bent down to kiss him, kissing the corner of his eyes.He Lin seemed to be able to feel that the other person's eyelashes fluttered slightly with his kiss, and he softly asked knowingly, "Why are you crying?" Then he persuaded in a soft voice: "Don't cry, don't cry."

Jiang Yuben only had tears in his eyes, but after being persuaded by such a kiss, the tears fell like a torrent.He secretly scolded himself for not living up to expectations, but when he thought about the straightforward "love" in the love letter, his emotions burst out even more uncontrollably.He Lin hugged him tightly in his arms, soothing him gently, and it took a long time to feel the sobbing in his arms subside little by little.

"That..." He Lin coughed, and suddenly said in the ear of the other party, "Actually, I bought this for you at that time."

Jiang Yu moved when he heard the words, and slowly withdrew from He Lin's embrace, seeing that he was holding a small square box in his hand.

He Lin opened the box with some embarrassment, and took out a ring from it.Jiang Yu looked at him with bewildered eyes, at a loss, until He Lin pushed the ring onto the root of his ring finger.The slight coolness brought by the ring made him dazed, he stared at a small diamond on the ring, and asked in a daze, his voice still a little hoarse from sobbing just now.

"When did you buy it..."

"During my sophomore year," He Lin chuckled, "I spent the money I was planning to spend on buying a camera."

But at that time, they had clearly broken up...

Jiang Yu moved his gaze back to He Lin's face in a daze, saw some invisible redness on his cheeks, and moved his mouth, but He Lin picked up the "Additional Draft" before he could ask, and spoke with him. He explained: "When I finished writing this letter, I had this idea, but I didn't have enough funds at that time, and I didn't save enough money until my sophomore year, so I still bought it."

Jiang Yu muttered: "You are not afraid of wasting money."

"I'll put it on for you." He Lin put the ring box into Jiang Yu's hand and said, "You help me put it on, too."

Jiang Yu let out a "hmm", took out another ring of the same style from the box, and slowly pushed it into the root of the other's ring finger.

The bright light from the study penetrated through the gap between the shoulders of the two of them, and shone on the two rings of the same style, shining brightly in front of their eyes.

"It's so beautiful..." He Lin murmured, using his left hand to hold the opponent's, and deliberately let the two rings touch each other, making a slight sound.

"That sounds good," he said again.

Just when He Lin was still focusing on the ring, Jiang Yu suddenly leaned forward to kiss him.

He pulled out his hand and put it around He Lin's neck instead.

After tasting it, his lips parted, and Jiang Yu called out in a low voice: "He Lin."

He Lin put his arms around him, stroked his lower back with the ring-wearing hand, and replied, "Huh?"

"I...my body has recovered."

As if anticipating what he was going to say from this, He Lin hugged him tightly in an instant.

But Jiang Yu said surprisingly: "I've got things ready..."

He Lin was stunned for a moment, then laughed out loud, "When did you buy it?"

"During lunch break two days ago." Jiang Yu replied.

He Lin hugged him like this, and suddenly fell silent.He looked closely at Jiang Yu's still red eyes, suddenly picked him up, and walked out of the study to the bedroom.

With both feet off the ground, Jiang Yu's arms suddenly tightened, and he whispered in He Lin's ear, "Go to the bay window." on the window.

"It's in my nightstand over there."

Jiang Yu reminded, He Lin immediately got up to get it, he took off his pajamas by himself, and went straight to greet He Lin when he came back.

"If you feel pain or feel uncomfortable, just tell me," He Lin pressed against him at last, and reminded, "I'll stop immediately."

Jiang Yu learned from him not to answer, and after looking deeply at him, he raised his head and kissed him.He Lin gradually pressed him on the cushion.

When they first came to He Lin's house, before the two talked about it, Jiang Yu was afraid that he would be too nostalgic when he left in the future. Every night, even if He Lin was not at home, he would not dare to climb up the bay window alone.Until this week, I just squatted on it for a while.

Now his entire bare back was covered with upholstered fur.He Lin was afraid that the cold wind would make Jiang Yu catch a cold when he was sweating naked, so he adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner to 28 degrees. After a while, Jiang Yu felt a layer of sweat on his back.

This time, the preparation in advance was unprecedentedly long. He Lin was afraid that he would be hurt, as if he took all the patience he had treated others in his life, and gave it to Jiang Yu alone. Even in the end, Jiang Yu became impatient. Actively begged He Lin, saying: "It's alright..."

In the past few years in reality, Jiang Yu has not experienced such a sharp pain for a long time, as if returning to the jerky first time in the hotel.He Lin felt the hands on his back tighten his back, he paused and then continued.The corners of Jiang Yu's eyes were dyed even redder, and his skin color, which hadn't darkened in the past few years, further matched the charm in his eyes.

He raised his hand, hooked it on the back of He Lin's neck, and pressed the back of the other's head towards himself. He raised his head and kissed He Lin. He couldn't help but lose his mind in the long-lost intimacy, but he forced his consciousness to move his lips again. Leaning close to He Lin's ear, the whole person fits perfectly with him.

"I love you."

He whispered in He Lin's ear.

He Lin's movements stopped slightly, and then broke out in silence.Jiang Yu's every word was gradually fragmented under the comfort, but he still persisted, talking to He Lin every sentence that he was too lazy to say before.

"I love you..."

He Lin bowed his head and kissed him, touching the corner of his slightly raised lips.

"I love you..."

Suddenly, He Lin whispered his name: "Jiang Yu..."

In the next second, the deep voice pierced into Jiang Yu's ears irresistibly, making him tremble involuntarily and tend to go crazy.

He Lin said to him: "I love you."

In detail, the love and love that He Lin had said to him were actually quite a lot. Some of them revealed their true feelings in revolving doors, some secretly told him about it, and some of them were written in letters but could not be shown to him. But only now, in real life, when he held him, held him, and said to him the words that both of them were ashamed to say.

Jiang Yu wanted to open his mouth to respond again, but He Lin suddenly blocked his mouth, and tried his best to prevent him from uttering a word, leaving only ambiguous breathing in the room.Until the end, he felt the other party's eruption deep within him.

He Lin gasped and kissed him, pecking at his blurred eyes, his hot lips collided with his scorching skin, as if trying to create a fire that could burn both of them to death.He tilted his head back slightly, his wet hair touching the white cushion that had already been soaked in sweat.He held up He Lin's sweaty face, sincerely, sincerely, and very earnestly read——

"I love you."

What I was too lazy to say, what I couldn't say, will be finished in the future, and conveyed to the other party without reservation.

I love you, no longer just hidden in my heart.