tempting

Su Tang was consistent ideologically, but physically he almost regained his old love.

That night made him realize that no matter whether Cheng Zhiya would choose him or not in the future, Shen Ling would always be the thorn between them.

If the thorn cannot be removed, hugging is also impossible.

He tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep, stayed up until the sky was slightly bright, and went to the school's central playground to run against the rising sun.

The north wind blows, and the runway is full of yellow fallen leaves, which make a clicking sound when stepped on.

The sound of hurried footsteps was getting closer and closer, someone overtook him and ran in front of him very rudely. It was Shen Ling who was doing morning exercises.

Neither of them spoke, they ran one after the other.

After sweating profusely, Shen Ling turned around and saw no sign of Su Tang.

"looking at what?"

Su Tang went around from behind him and threw a bottle of mineral water into his arms.

Shen Ling stopped looking around and said "Thank you".

After drooling, he asked, "Su Tang, won't unrequited love for Cheng Zhiya be very tiring?"

Su Tang pondered for a moment, then asked: "Why don't you ask, am I tired when I love you?"

Shen Ling was so choked that he couldn't speak, Su Tang asked himself and answered: "It's really tiring. Because I am very obedient to make you happy, I have to hide my living habits and any temper to cater to you, and I have to pretend not to be happy. Knowing that you were with another man a few hours before you came to see me..."

Shen Ling interrupted: "We are willing to fight and suffer, I didn't force you. And you don't seem to be so infatuated. If you say no, I don't want it. You are more cruel than anyone else."

Su Tang was quiet for a while, and only said baldly, "That's not the case, I have given you many opportunities."

Shen Ling looked at him suspiciously, with an expression of waiting for him to continue.

"For the first time, you said you wanted to go to Tibet, and you promised to wait until my college entrance examination was over. I went for a long-distance run before dawn in my second and third year of high school, looking up a lot of information about Tibet, but within a few months you went with someone else. Later, it was probably the same person who sent text messages to force me into the palace, posting all the house opening records, and letting me know how many times you have slept.

The second semester of the second year of high school was my last ball game. You said you would come, but you didn't come.I am very worried about you. I almost blew up your mobile phone as soon as the game started, and finally a man picked it up.He said you went to take a shower, but the next day you lied to me that you were in the library all day, this is the second time.

The last time I came out, my dad said I was a freak who stabbed men, and a teacher with a higher education called me the dirtiest thing possible.I skipped class to find you, and saw you kissing someone else.I waited for you at the station all night, and even thought that if you came to me before sunrise, I would forgive you.

As a result, you didn't come until almost noon, and I woke up, knowing that I had to give up on you. "

Seeing Shen Ling's beautiful eyebrows wrinkled, Su Tang laughed again: "It doesn't matter whether you apologize or explain now, do you know why?"

He paused, "Because, I don't love you anymore, so it doesn't matter. It's not your fault that you don't like me enough, it's just that we don't have this fate."

"So, get rid of your restlessness and treat Cheng Zhiya well. If you don't like it, break up directly, don't be greedy."

Su Tang's last words wiped out Shen Ling's rare sadness at once.

It was Cheng Zhiya who dared to say such words earnestly.Now he is blinded by the inexplicable anger, and his eyes are full of Su Tang's indifference to him. In stark contrast, Su Tang is not giving up on Cheng Zhiya and pretends to be generous.

He made a sarcasm: "Oh, of course you want me to break up, and then you can take advantage of the situation, you two live together?"

Su Tang suddenly felt that his heart was confessed in vain, and it was a waste of words and emotions.

Not to be outdone, he fought back: "To be honest, you just took advantage of the opportunity. If I had known him earlier..."

"For love, isn't timing the most important thing?"

Su Tang suddenly misfired.

What Shen Ling said is right, love is time-sensitive, one step earlier and one step later will kill.

"Also, if I tell him now that we were together, what do you think he will do to you?" Shen Ling smiled wickedly. He made it clear that he wanted Su Tang to recognize the reality, and then return to him with all his heart, " Liar, liar, he values ​​the honesty between people so much, with his rigid and serious personality, even if he breaks up with me, he will not be with you. He will mind, very mind. "

Su Tang was sensitively aware of the desire for revenge revealed in Shen Ling's words, and a very bad idea quickly formed in his heart.

He lowered his face and said in a cold tone, "You hooked up with him just to annoy me?"

When Cheng Zhiya plucked up the courage to confess, Shen Ling yelled in his heart, look, the person you've been in love with so much confessed to me.If you are not with me, you deserve this sadness and loss.

He has had evil thoughts in his heart for a long time, and the more Su Tang fell in love with him, the more depressed he became, so much so that he used this kind of sexual revenge method of setting himself up.

Facing Su Tang's pressing questions step by step, Shen Ling shrugged and only drank water without answering.

This guy's brazenness has reached a new level.

Su Tang was so angry that the top of his head was smoking, and he grabbed his collar with his upper hand, but his fist stopped when it was less than a few centimeters away from his face.

Shen Ling wasn't afraid, and didn't blink: "You dare to hit me? Are you going to hit me for him?"

Su Tang looked at him for more than ten seconds, but suddenly let go as if discouraged, and sighed: "I used to doubt, did you really love me? You don't love anyone, you love yourself the most No, there is nothing wrong with loving yourself, but you only love yourself."

He remained silent, and after a long time, he gritted his teeth and squeezed out a sentence: "Go tell Cheng Zhiya, tell him that we were together, tell him that you are just using him, tell him all."

Shen Ling responded with an eye for an eye: "I don't."

Su Tang's eyes turned red with anger: "Then I'll tell him."

Shen Ling seemed to hear some joke, and suddenly laughed out loud: "Tell him, will he believe it? Do you have any evidence to prove that we were together? Photos? Those photos of cuddling and hugging when we were young, the slightly more intimate ones Bamboo horses are likely to be photographed, so there is some credibility. What about the witnesses? But, apart from you, me and Zhou Shang, who else really knows that we have been together?"

While talking, he still hugged Su Tang's shoulder, and kissed his ear with his lips: "And, Tangtang, do you really dare to tell him? Be honest, you won't be angry because he was cheated. Injured, you are not reconciled and afraid, you are not reconciled why I can win you with such uneasy and kind intentions, and you are afraid that with such an incident, it will be even more impossible for the two of you."

Su Tang was stabbed until his heart and lungs were damaged, he only stared at him with his canthus cracked.

Shen Ling, who had won a complete victory, was brave in words, but he began to distance himself from the long-distance career in action, although he still had some physical nostalgia.

Su Tang's disobedience made him angry, but he was helpless.

He goes to the bar to get drunk, flirts with people with ease, and tries his best to prove to himself that he is still the "immoral" Shen Ling.

After the reunion, Su Tang once said in a joking tone that he had no faith or sense of morality in love.

He didn't take it seriously, and retorted, can those rules and regulations be eaten as food?

Love is his lifelong interest, the most important thing is to enjoy the initial ambiguous pleasure, let go in time, so that love can stay fresh forever, and any sense of morality is just a lingering rhetoric.

"You don't understand," Su Tang shook his head and sighed, "It's only been a few weeks for love to be in the brain. When the dopamine burns out, it's gone. Getting along is the most important thing. You're always good at getting started. After you get along for a long time, you'll get along." Want to escape. It sounds cool, but it’s actually a coward. Falling in love is a simple mode, and getting along is an advanced mode. If you play the simple mode very well, you think you are an advanced player. Are you ashamed?"

Shen Ling was not convinced: "What about you? Don't you just change people and clothes now?"

"Yeah, I think I can change people faster than changing clothes," Su Tang admitted shamelessly, "I also once thought that being like you would make me happy for a long time, because being the first to leave That, it will never be hurt, but..."

"But?"

"He made me realize that what I want most is not a person who plays action movies with me every night, and it's not that I don't want to, it's just that I want to find a partner who will watch movies and discuss with me more. Heartbeat is certainly charming, Peace of mind is what I want most.”

Su Tang's face was full of smiles, Shen Ling naturally knew who the damned "he" was.

These words are very irritating, but what is irritating is that Shen Ling understands that what he said is right.

Before that, Su Tang was an emotionally good student and an idealist. Being loved by him felt like a hidden treasure.His attitude was so calm, as if it was a normal but wonderful thing for a man to fall in love with a man.

When in love, Su Tang put him in his future blueprint more than once, and solemnly told him how much he wanted to share the past, present and future with him. They would live under the same roof, cook together, chat, When sleeping, you will quarrel endlessly because of trivial matters, you will try to let go of each other's hands because you can't resist the temptation, and you will want to escape because of the boring and rigid life, but the fear of these is no match for each other's love and persistence.

But it was this solemnity that made him retreat a little.

They have been inseparable since they were very young, and Su Tang's accommodating and loving care for him is like the only eternal truth in the universe, just as self-evident as people need water and sunshine.But when he thought that this might be the final outcome, and he would have to face the same face for decades to come, he couldn't breathe.

He loves and fears this overly certain sense of security.

So he went to the feasting to absorb the lack of stimulation and excitement, and then pretended nothing happened, and returned to Su Tang to continue to enjoy the unconditional sense of security.Repeatedly, he greedily asked for it, until one day he played too much and completely lost Su Tang.

After a sensual walk, he missed the security he once had.Rather than saying that he likes Su Tang, it is better to say that he hopes to be treated like this, and that he can learn to do the same.

His parents' marriage failed completely. Long before the moment they signed the divorce agreement, they were a loving couple before and after each other, and he never really learned such a thing as moral sense from them.

He only learned one thing, that being too foolish and loyal to feelings will pay off in the world.

Shen Ling is a tourist who takes pleasure in time, he wanders around, and when he encounters a nice scenery, he takes a photo of a tourist, and it is enough to have a good time.