tempting

Shen Ling was not so blind that he couldn't see the text message at all, so he arrived late the next morning to pick up someone at the station.

Su Tang looked innocent, and didn't mention a word about coming out in front of his family. He just said that he suddenly missed him, so let's take a look.

Shen Ling didn't ask any more questions.He had classes during the day, but Su Tang didn't accompany him, and slept in his dormitory all day.

In his dream, he relived the moments with Shen Ling. In the past, when the love was strong, he had naively promised that he would become little old men together, and that he would support each other even if his hair was white.When Dameng first woke up, Fang was surprised and said that he was already so old.

Shen Ling saw the cold sweat on his head, and gently wiped it off with his hands: "Did you have a nightmare?"

Su Tang paused for a while before answering: "No, it was a good dream."

"There must be me in that dream."

"you do not say."

Shen Ling smiled contentedly. When he laughed, his eyes narrowed and the corners of his mouth curved, like an old cat basking in the sun.

The face he once loved the most hurt him the most now.

Su Tang looked at him carefully, as if admiring his most shocking scars.

That night, Shen Ling felt that Su Tangwo was too boring in the dormitory, so he took him to the bar to experience the world of adults in advance.

Su Tang was not interested in the feasting and feasting, and sat in the corner blankly, staring into the distance blankly.

Seeing that Shen Ling and the third party from last night pretended to be ordinary friends, playing with the relationship with ease, seeing him so easily become the focus of the crowd, enjoying the pursuit of everyone.

Su Tang suddenly felt as if he had never known Shen Ling before.

It's been ten years.

He couldn't see a person clearly.

With trembling hands, Su Tang knocked out a cigarette from the cigarette case, and looked for a lighter in his trouser pocket.

Shi Shiran, a handsome boy in leggings and a vest, approached him slowly with a cigarette in his mouth, and lit the cigarette against the cigarette.

Su Tang's eyes were dim, and he slid from the opponent's eyes all the way to his heaving chest through the smog.

"I heard that you are Shen Ling's little boyfriend."

"Ah."

"I really envy him, there is such a little fresh meat hidden in the house."

The boy said, slowly exhaling smoke rings at him.

The concentration of ambiguous factors in the atmosphere soared, and it seemed that something charming was about to happen.

Su Tang narrowed his eyes, and replied in a strange way: "Then...do you want to try?"

*

In the last space of the men's room in the bar, the boy's lips covered his lips, and Su Tang suddenly got goosebumps all over his body, and pushed him away violently.

Just now he actually thought, since Shen Ling finds someone casually behind his back, then he should do the same, this is fair.

How did I become such a person?

Su Tang felt scared after a meal.

After calming down for a few seconds, Shen Ling kicked open the toilet door with sullen eyes.

He grabbed the boy's collar fiercely, punched him down, and said coldly: "Is the person who touched me under my nose getting impatient?"

The boy ran away in fright, but Su Tang started to giggle.

Shen Ling said angrily: "Have you failed your studies? Who told you to mess around?"

Su Tang was still laughing. It turned out that the thief shouted to catch the thief.He knew that many words could hurt Shen Ling's lofty self-esteem at this moment, but his heart softened and he didn't say it after all.

Shen Ling only thought that Su Tang was drunk and was not in the mood to play anymore, so he led him directly to a hotel.

That night, Su Tang seriously had fun with Shen Ling for the last time.

Images of Shen Ling having fun with others kept appearing in his mind, the heat wave of his body quickly faded away, leaving only a coldness in his heart.

He thought that love could keep him warm and help him survive the countless cold winter nights in his life, but in the end it was love that created the deepest chill for him.

Su Tang lay on the bed and looked at the cracks on the ceiling, and heard his own voice very calmly: "Brother, let's break up."

Shen Ling was so shocked that he couldn't speak, and it took a long time before he spoke: "Su Tang, do you know what you are talking about?"

No matter how crazy he was outside before, he could see Su Tang obediently waiting where he was when he turned around. This is like an unquestionable truth of the universe.

Now, Su Tang said that he was going to leave without waiting.

"I've had enough," Su Tang resisted the pain of his heart twitching, and his tone was still light, "I saw you kissing other people downstairs in the dormitory that day. There were also one or two inexplicable people who sent text messages to me before, Threatening me to break up with you."

Shen Ling pretended to be calm: "I can explain."

Su Tang nodded obediently: "Well, I believe you will give a lot of reasonable explanations. But I don't want to hear it anymore, I have heard enough."

"If you say it like this, you can divide it. You are not afraid of regret, and you are not afraid that I will ignore you?"

"Brother, I thought about it all night, and finally made this decision. Just take it as a way to forgive me."

When Su Tang said these words with a smile, it was no different from acting like a spoiled child, but his eyes were flushed with suffocation.

Shen Ling hated others disobeying his wishes, hated others saying the end first, hated seeing Su Tang holding back the tears that were about to burst out of his eyes, hated himself who softened and blamed himself because of all this.This is a red flag for him, who is used to coming and going freely.

After all, he only likes Su Tang who is obedient and doesn't make trouble, wagging his tail like a little milk dog to please him. He doesn't like this one in front of him who deliberately makes him feel guilty and guilty, and he can't bear it so much that he doesn't want him to cry. Su Tang.

Ni Lin was touched, but he was not willing to say a word of comfort, and put down the ultimatum in a cold tone: "I will give you a chance, I will pretend that I have never heard what I said today, and I will go back and think about it before making a decision."

Su Tang shook his head: "No need, I've figured it out."

Shen Ling lit a cigarette, and when he finished smoking a cigarette, he gritted his teeth and said the last sentence: "Okay, remember, it's not you, Su Tang, who don't want me today, but I, Shen Ling, who don't want you."

Su Tang acquiesced, put on his clothes quietly, and said before taking it to the door: "Brother, thank you for being with me for ten years."

The remaining half of the sentence that I didn't say is, until this moment, you are still my favorite person.

It's a pity, I can't like it anymore.

The next day, Shen Ling completely deleted Su Tang from all social accounts, and the co-poster Zhou Shang also tactfully never mentioned this matter.The two don't contact each other and don't inquire about each other, that posture is rushing to never communicate with each other.

Shen Ling still lived among thousands of flowers, very happy.

He lives in a more indulgent way, like solving a proof problem, proving that he is not only Su Tang.

As for Su Tang, he was beaten solidly as soon as he returned, and became confused with a high fever, so he missed the college entrance examination that year.After he recovered from his illness, he repeated his studies at home and prepared for the exam like a normal person, accepting everything given to him by the outside world.

Fa Xiaozhou still wanted to comfort him, but Su Tang thought it was too noisy and affected the performance of the candidates, so he was invited out of his grandmother's house after a while.

During the day, his mind is full of derivatives, tropical monsoon climate, three provinces and six departments...

Only when everything was silent, he was willing to uncover the hidden scars and admire them all night long.During the countless dark nights when he was alone, he withdrew his surging love bit by bit, and he saw Shen Ling clearly, and he also saw himself clearly.

Only then did he truly believe that his ten years had come to an end.

*

Later, they met again in a bar. The two were from different departments of the same university, one was studying medicine and the other was studying journalism.As alumni of the same school, Shen Ling restrained his former arrogance, and Su Tang still appeared to be friendly and easy to get along with. The two became friends again, but they were able to get along with each other like the wind.

Shen Ling was naturally accompanied by a beautiful woman, but Su Tang's face could not discern any flaws, and he generously blessed him.

It was as indifferent as if they had never been in love, and even the happy time when they were childhood sweethearts was a mirage.

After that, Shen Ling witnessed Su Tang wandering among all kinds of people in the bar, casually pulling out dirty jokes from astronomy and geography, and flirting with so-and-so in a leisurely manner. The refreshing, shy and innocent boy in his memory disappeared.

An unknown sense of loss suddenly rose in Shen Ling's heart.

Su Tang seemed to see his thoughts, and deliberately asked: "Is it not good for me?"

Shen Ling remained stubborn: "Dong Shi imitates me."

"Really?" Su Tang was not angry, he touched the wine glass and said to himself, "I used to think about it when I saw you like this, are you really so happy? I won't know until I try it, it's really interesting, no You don’t need to wait for someone, you don’t need to be cheated by anyone, you can leave as soon as you want, it’s really cool.”

Shen Ling glanced at him: "Are you hurting me?"

Su Tang showed a hooligan smile, and teased: "I've grown up, and I finally know that I'm not good?"

Shen Ling retorted: "But haven't you also become a person like me?"

Su Tang fell silent. In those few years of separation, he has indeed become another Shen Ling.

"Yeah, I became another you, but we are not the same people after all," he said while covering his head with his hands, half lying on the sofa and sighing, "I used to be too foolish and loyal to love, and I couldn't see the world clearly More is better. Now that I have visited many people’s worlds, I realize that the most important thing is not to be an irresponsible tourist, but to find the right person and build a new world with him.”

Shen Ling asked: "Then what am I?"

Su Tang smiled: "What else can you be? You must be the wrong person."

"Then you are also my wrong person."

"Of course, I'm glad I'm not."

This back-and-forth fightback has never happened before.

Shen Ling finally knew that Su Tang's obedience to him was really a thing of the past.

During a college joint activity, Shen Ling met Su Tang again, and the latter brought a newcomer, Cheng Zhiya, to know that the two knew each other.Shen Ling used to work as a model for the Academy of Fine Arts next door to earn some extra money, and he knew Cheng Zhiya much earlier than Su Tang.

The good-looking Cheng Zhiya was encouraged by a group of girls to go up and sing. Su Tang watched intently from the audience, for fear of missing any details.Shen Ling sensitively caught Su Tang's bewildered gaze, but felt that this gaze was very annoying, he had monopolized it and hated it.But now Cheng Zhiya can get this kind of gaze, what can he do.

An ominous premonition loomed.

"You like Zhiya?"

Su Tang choked on his long island iced tea at this sudden one-shot. He nodded, wondering if he had gone too far.

Shen Ling still has bad intentions, and his mouth is not forgiving: "Cheng Zhiya is cold and serious, not interesting, with a cold face. Changed his taste?"

Su Tang's complexion suddenly sank, apparently very displeased to hear Shen Ling's self-righteous comments, so he replied: "I used to like coquettish women, but now I like noodles in clear soup."

"Who is the coquettish ****?"

"It's whoever returns."

Shen Ling was so blocked that he couldn't speak, and after a while, he said a sour sentence: "Do you like him so much? What do you like about him?"

"I don't know the origin of the love, but the love is deep." Su Tang muttered words, with a smile on his face

For a moment, Shen Ling thought of Su Tang staring at him stupidly: "If you like it, you like it, just like some people like pancakes and fruits, some people like soda buns, and some people like hot pot, what's the point? Good talk."

He hasn't changed.

Even if he becomes a master in the field of love, when he really falls in love, he is as focused, restless, and defensive as a high school boy.

Such a lovely person is no longer his own.

This thought disturbed Shen Ling.