【Asongichi Kara】Grow up

09

Matsuno Komatsu took a can and sat down by the door.Tonight, he didn't hold beer in his hand, but ordinary carbonated drinks.It is also a jar that makes a puff when it is opened, and Xiaosong no longer has the expression of enjoyment when drinking a drink in the past.The sweet smell of the soda made him frown. This overindulgent and sweet taste did not allow him to immerse himself in the world of blurred consciousness as he wished, so as to escape all the unsolvable problems in reality.

Those things that even as the eldest man, there is nothing he can do.

He only said one word to Kazumatsu.

"what do you mean."

In response to the fact that he had rummaged through his entire closet and stuffed a suitcase at the moment.

Yisong sat on the floor, stubbornly straightened his back, and turned his back to him, because he was not moving fast enough and was blocked by Xiaosong who was going home, secretly angry at this matter. T-shirts and underwear were spilled all over the floor, and a small piece of pillow that was not fully packed in the box was still sticking out of the zipper.

"I'm moving out," he said muffled.

Xiao Song took a sip of the soda, staring at the condensed water droplets outside the soda can dripping down his fingertips onto the floor.Familiar perceptions ached in his head, the kind of alcohol-repressed feeling that had been going on in his life for over a year, but he had never spoken to anyone about it.

"No matter what kind of decision you make, you must discuss it with me in advance in this family. This is what we talked about when we first moved in."

"It's just an agreement you made on your own. And then again, why did you choose to be with me?" Kazumatsu said sharply, "Obviously when you make a choice, there is a better candidate. "

"Because I don't worry about you," Xiaosong replied, "not only me, but also Kongsong and Liansong, who are younger brothers, can't let you go out alone. consensus."

"So you really discussed it."

"Put the things back." Xiaosong said flatly.

"Everyone is an adult, even Brother Xiaosong has no position to give me such an order."

"Before I admit that you can live independently, I will not agree with you to do such nonsense."

Xiaosong turned his head to look at Yisong's face, the tone of his words was emphasized on the word "nonsense", and the depth of his eyes seemed to see through his younger brother, so Yisong turned his head guiltily, that period of darkness The looming scene came to mind again.

About those sticky sweats, those uncontrollable madness, empty body temperature, empty smell, empty neck, and suppressed moans leaking in the air.

Yisong clenched his fists and stood up angrily from the floor.

"That's your own business!" he yelled, "Whether you don't worry about me, or the responsibility of the so-called eldest son, it has nothing to do with me!"

"What are you going to do after you move out?" Xiao Song said calmly, "Do you have the ability to solve the problem independently? Or are you going to keep avoiding the things you don't want to face and let it rot completely?"

"It's only when you say it clearly and logically."

"what?"

"So what about you?" Yi Song asked, "Have you solved all your own problems, brother Matsuno Komatsu?"

Yisong met Xiaosong's eyes head-on, and the two faced each other tit-for-tat at the cramped doorway, neither of them backed down.

"What do you want to say?" Komatsu said with a warning tone.

"Seeing other brothers stepping into the normal life one by one, brother Xiaosong has not felt flustered for a moment? What should I do? They don't need me anymore, they will have their own lives, and I will no longer play any roles. An important role. When I told you that a woman came to confess, you were very disappointed, although I pretended not to care. If even I leave, even I, the most hopeless person who lives at the bottom Slag doesn't need you anymore, are you thinking about it?"

"What are you talking about?" Xiao Song suddenly smiled, he put down the empty soda can, raised his head and covered one eye, "How can I be disappointed with Easy, because I know that guy, even if he is It is not so easy to become a winner in life smoothly when a woman comes to confess, he is such a worthless person, I am not saying that he has too many worries and wears people down."

He blushed from laughing, took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it at the door of the room and started smoking.

"Don't underestimate the eldest man," he said to Yisong, smoking a cigarette, and casually dropped the ash into the empty soda can,

"You people, I know all of them very well. It is because I know so well that I dare to say that-you, you did something stupid to Kong Song."

Without warning.Komatsu mentioned the name that made Kazumatsu's heart beat a beat faster.It's a silly thing, Yisong gritted his teeth, and couldn't refute Xiaosong's statement.At that time, he was furious because the other party gave up on himself so easily.Although he doesn't actually have the qualifications to be angry about it.That is Kongsong's own personality, whether it disappears or perishes, it is all Kongsong's own business.Even if I need him and yearn for him, the other party has never heard such a voice from the bottom of my heart——

"However, if the target is Kongsong," Xiaosong said suddenly, "that guy is different from the others, and he will never blame you. No matter who among the brothers did the same thing, he would Not blaming anyone."

This guy who was smoking a cigarette and dazed at the same time spoke the cruelest line in front of Kazumatsu with such a casual gesture.The thorn that has been deeply planted in the heart for a long time.

No matter who you are, you can't get angry. It doesn't matter if you are gentle or stupid. This fact does not cure anyone.

"Did you come here on purpose to laugh at me?" Yisong clenched his fists. He wanted to say more, but he tightly covered his mouth with his palm.

"I'm just stating the facts."

"So why are you telling me something I already know!" Kazumatsu yelled, bending over and arching his body on the floor,

The only thing that good-for-nothing guy has too much to use up is tenderness regardless of the occasion.Of course I know it's the same for everyone.It doesn't have to be me, even when he did that thing, what he saw in his eyes might not be me, probably, it's just a younger brother that people can't rest assured after all.

What's the use of this gentleness, it's simply disgusting.

He closed his eyes tightly, preventing the sore nasal cavity from forcing excess tears out of his eyes.He didn't want to cry, didn't want to shed tears for that kind of person.

I hope he only has me in his eyes, and only this humble and unspeakable wish.

I hope that guy sees me differently from everyone else.

Lying on the floor, Kazumatsu let out a sob, and leaked out the only true words from the cracks in his fingers that were so hard that his fingertips turned white.

The eldest son of the Matsuno family stood up.He quietly closed the door for Yisong, the nicotine made his throat sore.On the floor in front of the door, he left the house key.Brothers... have grown up too.Xiao Song, who returned to the living room, squeezed out a bitter smile in the darkness.

Idiot Yisong, he thought while looking at the burning sparks of his cigarette, if I liked Kongsong who was so tolerant that he seemed to have no heart, brother, I would have said everything without hesitation.After smoking the cigarette completely, Xiao Song shook his head, each had their own difficulties, and it seemed that the oldest one always had to think the most.

—TBC—