【Asongichi Kara】Grow up

05

Nor do all nights begin with waking and persistent fatigue.The problem of not being able to sleep, when it developed to the point where Kazumatsu realized it was a problem, he himself didn't feel the slightest sign.

He only remembered lying down, and after dozens of hours of sluggishness, he began to try to recall the last time he fell asleep peacefully. He thought of the old house that belonged to his parents, the bedroom where the six brothers lived together and the old bed. The quilt reminded him of a time when it rained, he woke up in the middle of the rain, and there was only Kongsong, who was sleeping with his arms wide open, against his forehead.

Pat, something wet stuck to Yisong's eyes.A drop of water leaking from a crack in the roof bounced off Yisong's eyelids and fell into Kongsong's unconscious palm.Those fingers trembled twice, Kong Song uttered a raving, and naturally changed his posture, covering Yi Song's cheek with his palm.

Pat, clack.More drops fell, snaking a thin line along the hollow arm, soaking his sleeves.

Yisong opened his eyes, and felt that the line under the right eye was the palm of the other party.Warm, soft, unreasonable and irritating from Kongsong's shelter, he never needed that kind of thing, but got it so easily.

At the beginning, Yi Song even thought that God's sudden deprivation of his sleep was revenge for this unearned reward.Otherwise, why can't it be changed by anyone, only by Kong Song's side can he close his eyes properly.

"Wow, I didn't look carefully when I first came here, but now I realize that they are really twins—"

The station manager of the gas station couldn't help sighing when he handed over the work uniform to Yisong.

No, not twins, but sextuplets.But it's really not a family worth showing off, let alone talk about it.

With that in mind, Kazumatsu silently took the uniform.

Today is the first day of his probationary work. As he said in his seemingly whim-like proposal, he really called the office according to the job advertisement posted at the gas station. There is an urgent need for a night shift worker. , It is not a difficult job, so I finally got the trial qualification smoothly.

"It's amazing... At first glance, it looks familiar, but it's completely different from Kongsong-kun. From this point of view, even if they are twins, they have their own personalities." The station master said still unsatisfied.

No, not at all.Just kidding, I looked around the lounge without a trace, and there were many schoolbags and textbooks piled up in the open wardrobe, and the record cases and magazine pages of idol stars were protruding from the corners.Most of the people who will work here are college students who just want to save money to buy a concert ticket during the holidays, or take their girlfriends to Hakone as a birthday present.People at this age who still regard the gas station as an honest job are nothing but fools.Compliments such as "Your brother is very serious about his work" are just a few polite words.

After the station master who briefly explained the work content left, Yisong grabbed his overalls and shook them around.I don't know what it is for, it's obviously not a particularly motivated job, but I came two hours early by some kind of ghost.Before it was time to change shifts, Kazumatsu sat down on the bench in the lounge, and it was impossible to tell from his expression what he was thinking.

When Kong Song finally finished all his work and returned to this room, the first thing he saw was a person curled up on a bench and fell asleep.He couldn't help taking a breath, and tiptoed over.He was not mistaken, Kazumatsu was indeed asleep, under his sunken eye sockets was the shadow of tiredness, and what he used as a pillow under his body was the rolled up empty space. The regular clothes Song planned to change into.

Yisong's nose was pressed against the neckline of the top of the blue dress, and his breathing was so quiet that Kongsong maintained a posture that did not dare to move, and he was reluctant to wake him up.

The last thing that broke this strange state was the ringing of the alarm clock that my colleague placed on the table.

Yisong frowned, and Kongsong, who was staring at him, instinctively got up and backed away. Their eyes met after this series of actions. Kongsong's first reaction was to escape from embarrassment, but was thrown away by Yisong. The old jacket covered the head.

"One, one loose?!" He exaggeratedly shouted, "So you can fall asleep like this!"

"I didn't know that I could sleep before, I just tried it." Yisong replied, "Also, are you an idiot? Why do you set the combination lock as your own birthday? Isn't everyone's birthday the same day?"

Yisong stood up, rubbed his stiff neck from sleeping, he glanced at the clock on the wall, it was almost seven o'clock, and his evening shift was at 07:30.

"Are you hungry?" Kong Song asked while holding the clothes in his hand.

"Shouldn't you be back by now?"

"Because I saw you fell asleep, I didn't dare to wake you up, and I was afraid that you would miss the meal time." Kong Song replied, "Just now I was thinking, there is a convenience store next to me, I can go buy bread, how much can I do before work starts?" Eat some."

"You don't eat with ease?"

"Qiang has been working overtime recently. Now is a critical period for him, and he can't relax for a moment at work."

"almost……"

"what?"

"I think it's about the same," Yisong said impatiently, "Brother Xiaosong is also, anyway, he is always driving outside, and he is never at home during normal meal times."

"So you've been alone all this time?"

"I've always been alone." Yi Song replied.He looked away, and Kong Song fell silent.A few minutes later, he heard the sound of the doorknob, and a few minutes later, the familiar sound of footsteps turning back, and the crisp sound of wrapping paper in the plastic bag.Kong Song rolled up the sleeves of his overalls, and opened a steaming lunch box for Yi Song.

When he passed the box to Yisong, there was a smile on his face that never changed.

It was that face again, Yi Song thought, as if he wanted it very much but didn't know why he wanted it, it always made him lose his patience.

"During this period of time, I have been alone for a while, do you mind if I have a meal with my brother?"

Yisong took the bento, but he didn't eat it. Compared with hunger, another sentence came to his mouth more quickly and unsuspectingly:

"Since you don't like being alone so much, tell me clearly."

I have been working overtime recently, and I am very lonely.Always eat alone, I am very lonely.I'm lonely with no one to accompany me.It's not hard to speak, aren't you living together?Wasn't it the guy who said it was a big deal that he came to support you?

"Say it will only make him distressed. Just as a brother, I am useless enough." Kong Song replied with a smile.

"Aren't you working? Have you made money? Where's the money? You've also taken money from home, right?"

"I saved it," Kong Song replied, "because it will be useful when you get married easily."

Ichimatsu frowned deeply.

"What nonsense, he doesn't even have a serious girlfriend now."

"Anyway, sooner or later."

"Are you looking forward to getting married so easily? What good is it for you? When you were young, you were a loafing vagrant. After you get married, you will abandon your family like us without hesitation. No matter who you are Same. After being thrown out of the house, what can you do?"

"Even if you ask me to think about it now, I can't think about it." Kong Song raised his head and looked at the ceiling,

"But even then, I still hope that I can get married easily. If I have to ask why, it's probably because I know in my heart that at this stage of his life, what he needs is not any of us."

"cut."

Yisong didn't respond.He lowered his head and put the beef in the lunch into his mouth. The smell of soy sauce full of industrial flavor filled his mouth.

"Hey," while chewing, Yisong heard the other party's voice suddenly, "Why does Yisong want to come here to work all of a sudden?"

"It's just a coincidence..." he replied vaguely.

"Although this is also very good," Kong Song said, "what happened just now made me suddenly think that if you can sleep here for a few hours like that every time you change shifts, it will be very good for Kazumatsu. At least , rather than going to a hotel every time when things get really bad."

"Even if you can sleep for a while, so what?"

"I don't know if I can get used to it gradually, and then slowly cure this problem." Kong Song said as if talking to himself.

"It's not a big problem. You are an idler. I can find it whenever I want to sleep. Why bother to cure it?"

"Although that's what I said..." Kong Song replied, he turned to look at Yi Song who was eating, with a serious expression on his face, "Being selfish, even if it will always be like this in the future, I have to be there I can’t go to bed until I relax, and I’m overjoyed when I think of this possibility, but it’s impossible to go on like this forever.”

"Why?" Yi Song hesitated for a moment before asking.

"Because Yisong, you don't need me." Kongsong shook his head and said, "The first person who wanted to start an independent life was you. Everyone also started to live separately after listening to your ideas. Although I am not particularly Clear your mind—”

Kong Song looked at his watch, it was 26:[-], it was really bad, it was the time for Yi Song to start his official work on the first day soon.As an elder brother, the most important thing for him to do at this time is to stand up silently and not say anything.He didn't reveal anything, and didn't burden other family members, he knew it all too well.

But maybe it's because the alcohol he drank last night is still affecting his body, or maybe it's because the moment of sitting and talking with Yisong is too rare, Kongsong couldn't restrain his impulse at this moment.He leaned forward suddenly, grabbing a loose cuff.

"There is something I wanted to ask you a long time ago." He stared at Yisong's eyes with flickering eyes, "Why did you suddenly want to move out of the house?"

—TBC—