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After hanging up the voice call, Xu Chen put the phone on the coffee table.

He turned on the TV, and didn't turn the channel. He didn't take a look at the big screen until the voice of the voice rang in his ears, and realized that it was the same crew as him, and Yu Cheng, who played the male lead, was a little hit school drama before.

He hugged his legs and sat on the sofa, although he was facing the TV screen, he didn't know where to put his eyes.

Xu Chen actually wondered when he was so desireless, when he was so indecisive.

I am really not like the previous self.

However, as Zhu Mingyou said, Xu Chen felt that he was really tired.

So what if you have money, so what if you have status. After all, some things that you really want to save are not irretrievable.

Such as life, such as sincerity.

The mentor was very disappointed with him back then, and advised him to think about the future, not to live in a daze, without consciousness, without motivation, like a wandering soul.

Xu Chen felt that what the instructor said was right, isn't he just a wandering soul?

Wandering in a fictional dream, looking for something that I don't know what it is.

Xu Chen sighed, for a person like himself, in the eyes of others, living might be a waste of resources.

Not self-motivated, unwilling to struggle.

After the former manager Zhan Hongren signed him, he even insulted himself several times, saying that he had misjudged the person. Several times, he gave up some roles that he could obviously take on, which could bring him a step closer, but he gave up, or said he did not act. .

"Xu Chen, what's the point of living in this world for a person like you. You give up good opportunities to others for nothing. You think you are magnanimous and amazing, don't you? But now, others regard you as a fool , a rare fool in the world."

"Don't you just rely on your good acting skills, good acting skills, good acting skills are of some use,"

"Why did I sign you in the first place, and I took a fancy to you? I was really blind."

"You might as well go back to your hometown quickly, and stay in the entertainment circle, what a mess."

"Don't you all eat together?" Xu Chen remembered that he replied back then.

Obviously, Zhan Hong was so angry that he was speechless at the time. He glared at himself for a while, then sneered.

"Okay, Xu Chen, don't you want to make a living? You go on your own, I quit."

Zhan Hong left. This Chengxing's gold agent, his Bole, left, and he left very neatly. Later, the company randomly arranged a female agent for him, who is now Zhang Wen.

Naturally, this man had heard about him leaving Zhan Hong in anger, so he treated him indifferently and let himself go.

All in all, just don't care about him, just let him do.

Xu Chen was also happy and relaxed.

He likes to take on scripts that he has never heard of before his rebirth. They are neither popular nor popular, and there are a few characters that are somewhat distinctive, and it is enough for him to play them. As for the roles, Xu Chen doesn't care.

He doesn't make a living from acting, and he doesn't spend much money.

At noon, as Jiming said, someone brought food over.

It was a young man, tall and aloof.

Without even saying a word, he took the food delivered and left.

In the afternoon, Xu Chen fell asleep, and he didn't even know how he fell asleep.

After waking up, it was already night, and when I came to the restaurant, I wanted to pour myself a glass of water, but there was a meal and a thermos on the table.

During this period, Ji Ming did not send any news.

As if, this person never existed.

himself, but lived in his apartment.

It's really like being trapped, Xu Chen couldn't help thinking, just thinking about it, Xu Chen was happy again.

It's really like a nine-rate novel script, unfortunately, I am the protagonist.

At night, Xu Chen leaned on the sofa and didn't fall asleep for a long time.

At night, before the lights were turned off, Xu Chen looked for a movie to watch.

He found the "Story by the Cloud" that he had acted in, which was well preserved and put in a separate place.

Xu Chen remembered Jiang Huai's evaluation of him back then.

"Sweet and tasty, just right."

Xu Chen acted according to his own ideas. It can be said that he is an experiential school. He is not from a major, so he has to figure it out by himself.

Excluding the personal documentary made by the tutor, this movie can be said to be Xu Chen's first work on the big screen, and it is his debut.

He is obviously a person who has never acted before, and has been on the set many times, but unexpectedly, the effect is not bad.

Jiang Huai talked about why he chose himself.

He said it was confusion, that vague temperament of confusion, the sense of separation that is incompatible with this world.

When Xu Chen was selected, there was actually some controversy.

Because Xu Chen was neither from a major, nor had he ever acted before, so he had no experience at all.

Even just looking at the image and temperament, it doesn't match the character.

Xu Chen was not confused, not rebellious, nor young, on the contrary, he was quite stable and mature, not like a student on campus.

However, he wants to play a young man in a small town who loves music, is obsessed with rock and roll, and indulges in love.

Commonly known as Kill Matt.

But when Xu Chen entered the role and started filming neatly, everyone began to praise Jiang Huai's vision again.

Who would have thought that this person, with simple makeup, dyed yellow hair, and those non-mainstream accessories and clothes, would actually look like that in front of the camera.

It is not far from it, and it captures the spirit of the characters.

Even Xu Chen himself didn't think about it. It turned out that he could really stand in front of the camera.

It's like becoming another person, forgetting all kinds of reality.

Really enviable.

On the night after filming the first scene, Xu Chen lay on the bed in the hotel and cried silently.

Xu Chen didn't fall asleep until after two o'clock in the morning.

He turned off the light and leaned back on the sofa.

Fragments one after another kept popping up in my mind, those pasts that have passed for a long, long time.

Yield to the real self, not reconciled to the ordinary self.

Struggling hard, wanting to save it all, unwilling and remorseful.

In the end, nothing was left.

Nothing but money.

He has nothing but money.

Once, Xu Chen felt that time could forget everything. The so-called feelings fade away with distance and time, and maybe everything will be forgotten.

Even if you miss, even if you are concerned, you are no longer impulsive.

But it's not, everyone in the world is suffering, suffering from not being able to get what they want.

For what I can't get, I always want to grab it desperately.

If you can't get it, you will worry about it and try your best to get it.

Once you get it, you will get tired of it and no longer cherish it.

What a shame.

Xu Chen is very greedy, he wants someone who will always love himself and never abandon himself.

Although, he himself knew that he was dreaming.

However, the feeling of being loved is so good.

He doesn't want to pay, doesn't want to get hurt, just wants to be loved.

It's greedy enough, and bad enough.

When Ji Ming got home, it was already past three o'clock in the morning.

After opening the door, he turned on the light.

In a three-bedroom apartment, the living room is not particularly large, but the layout is fairly comfortable.

If he came back after ten o'clock, Ji Ming would still look forward to whether Xu Chen would be waiting for him.

But now in the middle of the night, after a busy day, Jiming is also tired and a little depressed, why can't he come back earlier.

However, when he walked near the sofa, he saw Xu Chen lying on the sofa, huddled up in pajamas.

His face was turned sideways to the outside, obviously fast asleep.

With shallow breathing, Ji Ming looked at his handsome face and his curled body like a small animal.

After thinking about it, I turned off the light, went to the bedroom first, and took a shower.

After taking a shower and changing into his home clothes, Ji Ming took a blanket and came to the living room, bent down, intending to carefully cover him with the blanket.

But in the end, put the blanket on the other side.

Afraid that Xu Chen would sleep lightly, he didn't dare to bother him too much.

He squatted down, looked at the hair wrapped around Xu Chen's side face, stretched out his fingers lightly, and brushed the hair out.

Sleeping on the sofa and waking up the next day is not comfortable.

Jiming was deeply touched by this, and he called out "Xu Chen." softly.

no respond.

Ji Ming shouted again.

Still no response.

Only his shallow breathing could be heard, and Ji Ming gently hugged Xu Chen who was on the sofa.

Xu Chen is not heavy, on the contrary, it is too light.

The light one just wants Ji Ming to fatten him up, maybe it will be healthier.

On the way to the bedroom, for a short distance, Jiming was indeed full of thoughts.

He would wonder what if he woke up.

Will you refuse?

Or, dislike it, who told me to make my own decisions.

However, until he put Xu Chen on the bed, he still didn't wake up.

He just closed his eyes quietly and fell asleep quietly, as if nothing had anything to do with him.

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Ji Ming sat by the bed, first looked at him for a long time, then couldn't help it, stretched out his hand, and helped him to brush a few strands of hair from his forehead.

As if feeling that it wasn't enough, Jiming bent down and touched his lips secretly.

He kissed lightly, and tasted it.

But Jiming didn't expect that the person under him actually kissed back.

The touch of lips being licked is so clear, although it is only shallow and jerky.

Ji Ming was undoubtedly shocked, but what followed was excitement.

As if going crazy, he tightly clasped the hand of the person under him, and kissed it forcefully.

This rare, first response seems to have ignited a fire in Jiming's heart that was waiting to be sent out at any time.

My heart was pounding, and the impulse seemed irrepressible.

Jiming knew he couldn't bear it anymore, and he didn't want to.

He was burning and releasing, the long wait, the long restraint, and the pretended calmness all collapsed at this moment.

Jiming knew that he couldn't go back.

He can only let himself sink.

Pull the person under him and fall with him.

Xu Chen felt that he was holding on to a piece of driftwood tightly.

He was afraid, afraid of falling into the surging flood below him.

Therefore, he could only hug this driftwood.

This is a dream, Xu Chen thought, he who lost his mind, himself who lost his mind.

Everything is messed up.

But Xu Chen didn't regret it.

At this moment, he just wanted to lose his reason, his hesitation, his hesitation.

Just let him have a dream, an intoxicating dream.

Even if you wake up from the dream, people will leave.

At this moment, he has no regrets.

The author has something to say: friendly reminder, the author may have to let himself go...