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Seeing Kuang Huaiye lying on the floor in a curled up position, Gao Xun's initial rejoicing of "fortunately found this guy", was answered within a few seconds by "how could he be lying on the floor like this..." replaced by questions. "Could it be?" He didn't dare to think about it easily, and immediately stepped forward to observe, and after confirming that there was no suspicious thing such as blood stains around Kuang Huaiye, he stretched out his finger and probed under Kuang Huaiye's nose.

Breathing, confirmed alive.

Gao Xun breathed a sigh of relief. The man was lying on the floor and fell asleep, with headphones still plugged in his ears.

No wonder there were so many WeChat messages and phone calls on the mobile phone thrown aside, none of which was listened to.

Now just wake up Kuang Huaiye and take him back to school.

Gao Xun sat on the floor and watched the frowning Kuang Huaiye for a while, quietly losing his usual arrogance.Teacher Gao was moved with compassion, forget it, she fell asleep so unconsciously, and now the third class has to be over when I go back, and I can't escape this half-day absence anyway, so it's better to let Kuang Huai sleep for the first half of the night Hours, rush back before lunch break.

He set the alarm clock on his mobile phone, took off his coat, and lay down slowly at an arm's length away from Kuang Huaiye, looking at the room from bottom to top.

Navy blue wallpaper and curtains, a workbench and chairs next to the entire bookshelf, a metallic floor lamp standing next to it, next to the lamp is... an easel?From the angle of lying down, Gao Xun couldn't see the painting on it very clearly. He was a little curious. Kuang Huaiye didn't mention that he was painting recently.

Gao Xun sat up lightly, moved away from Kuang Huaiye, and pushed his glasses to see more clearly.

Then he found that the painting was completely invisible, and the word "Gao Xun" was written under the painting.

With an indescribable mood, Gao Xun turned a few times back and forth between the painting and the back of Kuang Huaiye's head, thinking, did this student draw with hands or feet?

How can he draw a self he doesn't know at all?

Gao Xun discussed for a while, and seeing that there were several sheets of paper under the painting, he quietly opened it again without giving up.

Okay.

Compared with the ones below, the top one is not very different.

The corners of Gao Xun's mouth twitched, but he immediately thought of Kuang Huaiye's paintings and the code of the door lock. The hidden things behind it seemed to be ready to come out to the point that he could not selectively ignore them.

Kuang Huaiye once said under the moonlight hanging high in the night sky that he would help Gao Xun, and Gao Xun did not doubt that what he said came from the heart.However, when he understands what this kind of sincerity means but cannot respond to Kuang Huaiye with the same emotion, isn't it too despicable for an adult to accept Kuang Huaiye's help pretending not to know? ?

Gao Xun thought about this matter in his heart, and his eyes moved away from the easel and fell on a familiar-looking book not far away.

He moved over there in the posture of sitting on the floor, and when his outstretched hand was about to touch it, Gao Xun suddenly felt his heart beat so fast that it was uncontrollable.

This book...

He opened it, and every sketch in it was neatly signed with a Chinese character [玊].

The tunnel of time and space was forcefully opened, and it finally returned to Gao Xun in such an incredible way.

How could this thing be here at Kuang Huaiye?

Gao Xun clearly remembered that at the bus station on a rainy day, he casually gave it to a kid who was drenched in the rain and looked as embarrassed as himself to cover the rain.

Wait a minute, do you mean?

The alarm clock on Gao Xun's mobile phone that was placed on the ground suddenly rang.

It's half an hour.

Accompanied by the vibration of the ringtone, it finally woke up Kuang Huaiye.

After a moment of turning over, there was silence as if the air had condensed.

"Gao Xun."

Gao Xun's waist was tightly encircled by Kuang Huaiye's outstretched hand.Gao Xun hesitated for a few seconds: "Are you that kid back then?"

Kuang Huaiye rested his forehead on Gao Xun's shoulder, and it took him a long time to say "hmm" in a dull voice.

Gao Xun nodded and murmured: "So that's the case, no wonder you knew from the beginning that I like the same sex, and you also know that I have a crush on Kuang Huaigu... no wonder."

Gao Xun's tone was very calm, but Kuang Huaiye heard something strange from inside. He was flustered for a while, and wrapped around Gao Xun from behind with all his hands and feet: "Are you leaving?"

Kuang Huaiye asked.

"...No. You can lie down for another 10 minutes to adjust, and then we'll go back to school."

"You know what I'm asking." Gao Xun didn't try to break free, he was in his arms, but Kuang Huaiye felt unable to hold him: "Are you going to leave?"

"Aye." Gao Xun could have treated Kuang Huaiye with a more indifferent and alienated attitude, telling him that they could not and should not have any other relationship other than teacher-student relationship.However, as long as Gao Xun thinks that the one holding him and refusing to let go is the little boy standing next to him in the rainy day, keeping his head down in the rain silently, and Kuang Huaiye even carefully stored this sketchbook for ten years. Years later, my heart became so sore that I couldn't be indifferent and alienated: "A Ye, don't like me."

This was the first time Gao Xun called him that in a non-*sex scene.

But he couldn't be happy, because he knew that the balance between them had been broken.

"...I don't like you." If he said no, Gao Xun wouldn't leave.

"I'm not as good a person as you imagined. You just have obsessions. In addition, we have been sleeping all this time, and you will cause confusion..." Gao Xun continued, but Kuang Huaiye Unable to listen anymore, she wrapped her arms around his waist and forced him to face herself, interrupting him angrily: "Don't you understand, I said it, I don't like you!"

"Okay, you don't like me." Gao Xun looked at him and changed the subject: "You didn't come last night, and I ran twenty laps myself."

"……What do you mean?"

"Whether it's going for a run or going to bed together, we can't go on anymore."

10 minutes should be up.

Gao Xun gently pulled Kuang Huaiye's hand around him, and stood up from the floor, but Kuang Huaiye didn't stop him.

"Go back to school. You have classes in the afternoon, and you have a Christmas party tonight." Gao Xun picked up the coat that was on the ground, walked to the door of the study and waited for Kuang Huaiye.

Kuang Huaiye looked at Gao Xun, not intending to get up.

What is he still doing?

Since Gao Xun was able to come in, he must have pressed the correct password on his birthday. In addition to the paintings in the room with Gao Xun’s name written on them, and the intact sketchbook that has been preserved for ten years, which one is not clearly exposed? His favorite?

"Gao Xun, I just like you, I don't want to force you to fall in love with me, you don't need to do this."

If he hadn't seen the sketchbook from back then here today, Gao Xun would have had a vague impression of the little boy who was drenched in the rain, but now that he knew it was Kuang Huaiye, he would be able to reconnect the two of them in an instant. up.

Perhaps it was because whether it was Kuang Huaiye who didn't have an umbrella, or Kuang Huaiye who was sitting on the floor in front of him, they all looked at him with a sad outline.

"We go to bed frequently, you may have the illusion of infatuation. I came from your age, and I know that the goodwill caused by this hormone is easy to dissipate." Gao Xun's back and forth words are contradictory when put together, For a while it was said to be a long-term obsession since childhood, and for a while it became an infatuated illusion that easily dissipated.But he didn't care about unifying opinions anymore, his mind was already in a mess, and the calmness on his face was because he hoped that Kuang Huaiye could choose any one of these two statements to believe.

Kuang Huaiye laughed: "What is this, showing up to explain it? Is it just like the affection you once had for Kuang Huaigu?"

Gao Xun really wanted to go up and cover his eyes, he couldn't see such a sad gray-green color, it made him shy.

"Yes, like that."

"You're so self-righteous, Mr. Gao."

"I've already said that I'm not who you think I am."

A very despicable impulse flashed in Kuang Huaiye's heart, he should tie Gao Xun's hands again, lock him here, and then have sex with him non-stop, even if Gao Xun begged for mercy no matter how much he would not let go he.No one knows the secrets of Gao Xun's body better than him. He has the ability to make Gao Xun indulge in the sex and happiness he gives, and use this to blackmail Gao Xun.

But he can't.

Because he promised at Gao Xun's bedside that if Gao Xun didn't want to, he wouldn't force him.

"Don't imagine one by one, are you me? Do you know what I imagine you look like? You don't plan to sleep with me again, so what will you do when you want to do it?"

"Didn't you teach me to do [-] laps a day. When my body gets used to it, the [-] laps won't be too tired to lift my hands, so I can increase it."

"You don't like running!" Kuang Huaiye finally got up from the floor anxiously.

"I don't like running. But I don't like using you even more."

"Why did you take advantage of me??" Kuang Huaiye squeezed the knuckles of his fingers with great restraint.

"It's taking advantage of you as if you don't know what kind of thoughts you have and continue to have sex with you." Gao Xun said.He shouldn't be here anymore, alone with Kuang Huaiye.

Kuang Huaiye scolded me in his heart: "I don't care if I use it or not, and I don't want to argue with you about whether it fits your imagination, whether it's an obsession, an illusion, or whether hormones are not easy to dissipate. I I just know that after I figure out how my mother died, the person I want to see the most is you!"