Admit defeat

"Don't cry, baby, be good."

Ever since Cheng Che picked up the duckling in Luoyao's villa, the duckling has been crying.

The wind was howling outside, and under the street lamp, Cheng Che wrapped the duckling in his coat, but no matter how much he hugged and shook him, and tried his best, the duckling kept crying.

"Please, duckling, please be good."

Cheng Che was almost begging, Cheng Che could feel the physical fear of the duckling when he left Luo Yao, and this kind of fear happened to make Cheng Che's uneasiness invisible.

Ducky Ducky kept crying, and many passers-by around looked at him with wrong expressions. They probably thought he was a child abductor. Being stared at by such unfriendly eyes one after another, Cheng Che's already chaotic thoughts were finally ignited.

"I told you not to cry! Do you hear me!"

This time, the duckling was stunned by the yelling. Once the crying stopped, he burped with his mouth open, and immediately burst out into a louder cry.

A gust of wind blew past and pulled Cheng Che back from the brink of collapse. He suddenly realized that he was extremely abnormal. The duckling was only three months old and still at an age that didn't understand anything. How could he lose his temper in on the child?

He hurriedly apologized to Duck: "I'm sorry, Duck, Dad didn't do it on purpose, please forgive Dad..."

The duckling was tired from crying for so long, and soon lay down in Cheng Che's arms, hiccupping from time to time.

Cheng Che carried the duck egg into a shopping mall. After a gust of wind blew wildly outside, he woke up a lot. Just now, when his brain got hot, he threw his mobile phone at Luo Yao's house, and he quit the bachelor apartment rented to him by the institute He rented it and suffered from high-tech losses. Now he only has less than 50 yuan in cash. In this metropolis with high prices, he can't even find the cheapest hotel.

He wanted to go to Professor Xu for help. Although Professor Xu had always treated him like a child and would definitely help him, but he went to his teacher with a baby in his arms at night. How decent was that?

Cheng Che frowned, leaned over and rubbed the duckling's tender cheek with his cheek.

Just when Cheng Che didn't know where to go, he suddenly thought of Rong He, who was in a hotel in H City right now.

Cheng Che took a taxi with the cash in his hand, and soon arrived at the hotel where Rong He was staying.

When Rong He saw Cheng Che, he was very surprised, because they separated not long ago in the afternoon and met again in the evening, and Cheng Che looked very bad at this time, with red eye circles and disheveled hair. He was gentle and refined, but what shocked him the most was the child in Cheng Che's arms.

"Cheng Che? What's wrong with you?"

"Rong He, help me..." Cheng Che's voice was hoarse as soon as he spoke, as if blown dry by the wind.

The hotel room was much warmer than outside, Cheng Che managed to warm up his palms, and gently rubbed the duckling's belly according to the method Rong He taught him, finally made the child stop hiccupping.

"Some babies cry in the wind, and they are prone to hiccups when they inhale the cold air."

"Yes, I just yelled at him." Cheng Che blamed himself very much.

"Children are too young, and they can't make sense when they are disobedient. It is true that they are annoying sometimes, so don't blame yourself too much."

"No..." Cheng Che shook his head, "Do you know Rong He? The duckling is very, very good, it's my fault, it's me..."

Cheng Che didn't say any more, how could Rong He know?He didn't say anything to Rong He, he only said that this was his child.

Sure enough, Rong He smiled, thinking that he cared about the child too much, then mixed warm water with the baby bottle bought by the hotel staff, skillfully fed it to the duckling, and helped put the child to sleep.

"Thank you, Rong He."

"It's okay, I'll go to the bank tomorrow morning to get cash, and then I'll lend you money."

"Ah."

"Okay, baby is asleep now, I'll go back to my room first." Rong He stood up, "By the way, what are your plans for tomorrow?"

"I..." Cheng Che seemed hesitant to speak.

"Don't worry, I just want to see how to help you. I won't ask you too many questions. Our roommate for several years, don't you know me yet? If you want to tell me, you can tell me anytime."

Rong He is the head of the dormitory, the monitor of the class, and the president of the club organization. He has always been reliable.

"No, I haven't figured it out yet."

Cheng Che never thought that one day he would be driven out of his home by Luo Yao in such a state of embarrassment. His wallet containing bank cards and other documents was left at Luo Yao's house. He didn't know how to get it back. It was absolutely impossible for him. He will go back again, but luckily he has his ID card in hand.

Cheng Che thought for a while, "I will report the loss of my bank card tomorrow, and then I will find a place to live."

"Do you need me to accompany you?"

Cheng Che shook his head, "You still have to meet the client tomorrow."

"Then if you need anything, just call me, okay?" Rong He said, and gave Cheng Che a business card, "This is my number. You don't have a mobile phone right now, so use this to remember."

Rong He was just about to leave after handing over his business card when a call came from his cell phone.

"Luo Yao?"

As soon as Cheng Che heard Luo Yao's name, he immediately became nervous, and his lips, which had regained their color, turned pale again. Rong He, who was good at observing words and expressions, immediately understood that this phone call must have something to do with Cheng Che.

Rong He answered the phone and turned on the speakerphone.

Luo Yao's urgent voice came from the receiver instantly: "Rong He, is Cheng Che with you?"

Rong He looked at Cheng Che, Cheng Che hurriedly shook his head, and looked at Rong He pleadingly.

"I'm in the hotel and I'm not with him, but we did meet in the afternoon."

Luo Yao was probably outside, when the whistle sounded from the phone.Cheng Che held his breath, not daring to breathe out.

Luo Yao was silent for a while, and then said: "If he contacts you, please tell me, please."

Luo Yao's voice was full of anxiety and hopelessness, as if he had been crushed by someone, which made people feel a little worried.

Rong He looked at Cheng Che, "Okay, I will."

"Thank you."

"Need not."

It wasn't until Luo Yao hung up the phone that Cheng Che breathed a sigh of relief.

Rong He looked at Cheng Che thoughtfully. In a short period of time, he was solemnly thanked by Cheng Che and Luo Yao one after another. It is absolutely impossible to say that Cheng Che's strange behavior today has nothing to do with Luo Yao. It seems that the relationship between them is not as simple as he thought they had already broken up.

Rong He sighed, left Cheng Che's room without saying anything.

Cheng Che was disturbed by Luo Yao's phone call. He almost subconsciously thought that Luo Yao had come to leave the duckling.Luo Yao is indeed sincerely kind to Duck's egg, and Duck's egg also loves Luo Yao very much.

As Cheng Che thought, he looked back at the duckling sleeping soundly on the bed, and then pressed his face against the duckling's body.The little duck's body was hot and soft, Cheng Che shrank himself beside him, trying hard to absorb the heat, the sleeping little duck seemed to feel something, and involuntarily leaned towards Cheng Che, Cheng Che said silently Feeling the subtle empathy, I couldn't help but get moist eyes.

The last point belongs to his warmth, and he will never give it up to anyone.

It took a week to reissue the bank card. Cheng Che went to Professor Xu first, and Professor Xu agreed to help Cheng Che continue to rent a house in the family area of ​​the research institute without saying a word, and the rent was postponed.

"By the way, Xiao Cheng, Luo Yao called me in the middle of the night yesterday and asked if I had seen you. I told him that we hadn't seen each other for several days, but you came to see me today to see him You look quite anxious, have you two been in touch now?"

Cheng Che was suffocated, and even Professor Xu was looking for him, Luo Yao really didn't intend to let him go easily.

"Teacher, please don't tell him my whereabouts."

"Oh, the teacher is old, and I don't understand the things between you young and young."

Cheng Che pursed his lips and did not speak. Everyone knew that he and Luo Yao were in a relationship. Professor Xu often joked about them, saying that everyone was a witness and warned Luo Yao not to bully him. It became what it is now.Professor Xu didn't know at all that the duckling was actually Luo Yao's child. Except for Yan Lang and Luo Yao, he didn't tell anyone who the other father of this child was.

Back to the apartment where he lived before, because he had only left for half a month, the layout here has not changed in any way.Cheng Che lifted the dust cover and simply cleaned it.

Because of running around with Cheng Che and changing the living environment, the originally energetic duckling also became very spiritless.

After Cheng Che fed the duckling and put him to sleep, he also lay on the bed.

Although he was tired after waking up early from the nightmare last night, he still couldn't fall asleep. He was afraid of this absolute silence, and even the duckling stopped crying.

The quieter the surrounding was, the louder his heart became. Eleven thousand different voices were telling him: You are not worthy.

Thinking back to the days when he and Luo Yao reconciled until they broke up completely, he felt like he had made a joke, and the bamboo basket fetched water in vain.

He couldn't lie to himself anymore, he was not Luo Yao's only one, and he couldn't compare to the radiant Bai Zhen when he flattered a horse.

He had an ostrich mentality before, and he was timid, thinking that if he didn't ask or tell, if he covered his eyes and covered his ears, Luo Yao would always change his mind completely.At that time, he felt that Luo Yao's heart was still biased towards him, so he silently accepted Luo Yao's past empathy. After all, Luo Yao sacrificed his life to save him and even apologized to him. It didn't seem like hypocrisy, but the facts told He didn't have the so-called "reform" at all, Luo Yao was still bored, Luo Yao just chose Bai Zhen after feeling both sides, and abandoned him.

Luo Yao's methods are too superb, and he only needs to release a little tenderness to tease him around. However, he is still deeply involved in the play, and even constructs a false happiness by himself.

If I had known earlier, I shouldn't let my involuntary feelings go, and I shouldn't get close again. Even if it's difficult to leave Luo Yao, at least I took the initiative, and it's better than the heart-wrenching pain after Luo Yao came and called me. pain.

After settling down, Cheng Che bought a new mobile phone and changed the phone card. Rong He also finished his work and left City H. When he left, he didn't have the energy to deliver it. However, Rong He expressed his understanding and told him that if he needed anything For help, be sure to contact him.

Cheng Che spent a few days in a daze in the small apartment. Apart from feeding the ducklings and ordering takeaway, he just lay on the sofa in a daze.

There is no Weibo in the new mobile phone, and there are no all kinds of star chasing software. He will not use it anymore, because he no longer needs it.

In the end, it was the work of the institute that barely pulled him into the right track.

After the disaster, the research institute restarted operation. The first batch of instruments that arrived were the ones used by Cheng Che. They were all in vain. Cheng Che, who had not yet found a nanny, could only entrust the duck eggs to his teacher for the time being. When the duckling arrived, the teacher's wife was very happy. She is a gentle woman who is knowledgeable and polite. She is a Beta just like Professor Xu. She retired early. Since her son and daughter are living abroad, I usually imagine other old people taking care of their grandchildren. No way, this wish finally came true.

When the members of the same group reunite, everyone seems to have endless things to say, especially those little girls who are chasing stars, they will be "white" when they get together. After a fire, all of them have not changed. , only Cheng Che has become more deaf to what is going on outside the window, he even refuses to talk about anything about the entertainment industry, just like an old pedant.

The three-month estrus period is coming soon. Cheng Che has been taking the inhibitor for a week. Before Omega was marked, the estrus period was once a year, but after being marked, it will be shortened to once every three months. Inhibitors are not as effective as they were before they were marked. Although they are not so hot that they cannot control the pheromones, they still feel empty and yearn for the touch of their own Alpha involuntarily. The longer the time, the worse it was. Counting the days, he hadn't slept with Luo Yao for almost a year.

So after getting off work on Friday, Cheng Che didn't go to pick up the duckling immediately, but went to the mark cleaning center.

Due to the end of the working day, there are more Omegas cleaning the marks at this time.

Like Cheng Che, most of those Omegas went alone, and only a few were accompanied by their parents or relatives.

A large and cold slogan is pasted on the door of the Mark Cleaning Center: Think Twice Before Acting.

Marked in bloody red font.

Cleaning the mark will be accompanied by great pain, and there is no anesthetic that can relieve this pain. Cheng Che heard before that it is a pain of being stripped of the soul, and even needs to be held down by several doctors.

Cheng Che stood at the door, surrounded by people coming and going, most of them went in with a sad face, and then came out with a blank face, as if washing like this could really wash away everything related to the previous Alpha in his life. same traces.

If Luo Yao had never appeared in his life...

Eight years ago, at the south gate of H University of Science and Technology, Luo Yao did not come to the rescue...

This assumption made Cheng Che's heart tremble, and he felt a little pain, so that he held his chest impatiently. If Luo Yao hadn't been here, then he wouldn't be who he is now.

He shaped himself because of Luo Yao, and lost himself because of Luo Yao.After going around for a long time, I returned to the original place with my heart full of holes.

Thinking about it this way, why isn't it a great sadness?

Cheng Che took two steps forward in a numb manner, and was bumped hard by someone.Cheng Che staggered from the bump, and when he turned around, the man had already run away.

The interior of the marking cleaning center is similar to that of a hospital, and it is also that kind of cold white. When Cheng Che went to the front desk to go through the formalities, he found that the wallet was missing, and the ID card inside was also lost. He remembered the person who bumped into him just now.

The determination he had finally made was instantly slackened. Even though he had lost his wallet, Cheng Che felt a sense of relief. It was a feeling of loss of strength, as if he had been trying to hold on before, and was drained of all his strength at the moment of liberation.

Cheng Che said "sorry" to the nurse at the front desk, then turned around to leave, but before he took a few steps, he saw a person standing at the gate.

It's Luo Yao.

It doesn't seem to be Luo Yao.

Luo Yao in front of him seemed more depressed than ever, his face was not even shaved.

Luo Yao was looking at him steadfastly, his deep eyes were full of sadness and pain, which Cheng Che could see clearly even from a long distance away.

Cheng Che's first reaction was to run away, but he had no strength left, so let it be, anyway, the duckling was not with him, and even if Luo Yao wanted to snatch it at this time, there was nothing he could do.

"orange……"

The moment they passed by, Cheng Che heard Luo Yao calling him, but he continued to walk forward as if he didn't hear him.

"Why are you here? Don't you want me?"

Here it comes again, this attitude of pretending to be wronged.Cheng Che almost wanted to laugh. He remembered very clearly that just half a month ago, Luo Yao spoke to him in the same tone, and then bit by bit he made him sink into the mud again. After the illusion was torn apart, Luo Yao Want to do it all over again?

Cheng Che's right hand, which was in his pocket, clenched tightly into a fist.

It wasn't a coincidence that Cheng Che met Luo Yao here. In fact, Luo Yao knew Cheng Che's whereabouts as early as the second day after Cheng Che left, but he didn't dare to show up directly. He planned to find out everything. , and then apologized to Cheng Che with the truth and asked for forgiveness, but today, he actually watched Cheng Che walk in here.

Fortunately, Cheng Che didn't complete the formalities in the end, otherwise he really didn't know what he would do. He might arrest Cheng Che on the spot, lock him up, and lock him by his side forever.

"Chengzi, I was mad and lost my mind that night and said those things to you. It's all my fault."

"Yan Lang hugged you, and he even kissed you..." At this point, Luo Yao still couldn't help gnashing his teeth, but immediately, this kind of forbearance turned into longing, "Are you actually taking revenge on me, right? In retaliation for me getting together with Bai Zhen, you actually have nothing to do with Yan Lang, you see, you didn't go with him."

Cheng Che thought he had heard it wrong, but Luo Yao actually mentioned Bai Zhen himself, and even in such an extremely aggrieved tone, as if it was not Luo Yao but him who was the treacherous and unreasonable troublemaker.

Being turned upside down by Luo Yao again, Cheng Che was furious for a moment, and he sneered, "Revenge? Luo Yao, you think too highly of yourself."

That night he wanted to explain his relationship with Yan Lang, but was interrupted by Luo Yao, and now, he doesn't want to explain, anyway, these are no longer important.

"Cheng Zi, but the person you photographed that day was not me, and the person you said kissed Bai Zhen at the banquet was not me either."

"Not you?" Cheng Che laughed angrily, "Do you want to say, do you have a twin brother?"

"I don't know...Damn it! But that person is really not me, and I don't know what the fuck is going on!" Luo Yao scratched his hair, looking a little manic.

He doesn't know Bai Zhen's purpose now, so if he went to question him rashly, he might startle the snake, and it would be counterproductive. He first sent someone to secretly investigate the people around Bai Zhen, and checked them one by one. He didn't find such a person for several days, and there was no evidence. , it would be impossible for him to explain clearly to Cheng Che, because that person was so similar to him.

"Just treat him as another person, Luo Yao, you don't need to explain anything to me, and I don't need to explain to you, because we have nothing to do with each other, and you brought this up first."

"do not do that……"

Every word of Cheng Che's words was like a knife, and the knife was fatal.

"Don't follow me anymore, and don't pay attention to the ducklings."

Cheng Che's pace was always fast, he half turned his head and finished saying this, then turned his head and walked towards the road, without noticing the changing traffic lights at all.

"careful!"

There was a screeching sound of brakes and the driver's curses. Before Cheng Che could react, Luo Yao hugged him to the side.

"let me go."

"Chengzi! Please, don't come to this kind of place again, I'm afraid." Luo Yao's voice muffled close to Cheng Che's ear.

Behind them is the building of the entire marking and cleaning center.

"Afraid?" Cheng Che's voice had a hint of indignation, but more of indifference, "Fear is unmarked, will I never be played by you like a fool again?"

Luo Yao's movements froze, and Cheng Che took the opportunity to hit Luo Yao's firm abdomen with his elbow. Luo Yao let out a muffled grunt, allowing Cheng Che to escape smoothly, but Luo Yao did not follow.

Cheng Che walked a few steps, and heard Luo Yao behind him say, "I won't let you have another chance to enter the cleaning center."

Finally, Cheng Che got on the bus and dumped Luo Yao.

He first went to Professor Xu to pick up the duckling, which was taken care of by his wife. When Cheng Che went, he was giggling at the little toy in his wife's hands.After receiving the duck eggs, he walked back to his residence.

From afar, he saw Luo Yao's car, which was parked under the apartment building. He turned a blind eye and went straight upstairs, but subconsciously hugged the duckling tightly.

Luo Yao never got out of the car, and watched Cheng Che and Xiao Yadan go upstairs. When their figures disappeared in the corridor, Luo Yao slammed the steering wheel hard. He felt that as Alpha and his father, he had failed completely.

When Cheng Che returned home, he put the snack that his wife gave him into the refrigerator. He had no appetite to eat, so he drank a bag of oatmeal hastily and fell on the bed.

The street lights outside the window were dazzling, he got up and closed the curtains, but saw that Luo Yao's car was still downstairs, and Luo Yao was leaning on the car, looking up at him, he was startled, and pulled the curtains .

At eight o'clock the next day, Cheng Che woke up naturally from sleep. The duckling who drank milk in the early morning was still sound asleep. The first thing he did was to open the curtain and look down. Luo Yao's car was no longer there.

Cheng Che heaved a sigh of relief, got up to wash up, and then did some weekend cleaning.

The little duck is still sleeping, and now the sun will come out and the temperature will rise. Cheng Che touched the back of his neck, and he was a little sweaty. Cheng Che changed him into a thinner quilt.

He opened the door and was about to put the two bags of garbage collected at the door, but suddenly he saw a person sitting at the top of the stairs, his eyes were bloodshot, he hurriedly closed the door, and gasped for the door in shock.

Did Luo Yao come early in the morning, or did he not leave at all?

In fact, Luo Yao didn't leave all night. He originally wanted to send someone to watch over Cheng Che to prevent Cheng Che from going to the cleaning center again, but he was worried about leaving it to others.