want to touch my muscles

He told him to talk to him alone, and he wanted to talk about something, but there were still students here, if it continued, the influence would be bad, and he would have to rely on opening a studio to support the man with three cars.

Yan Yu turned to the outside, "Go out and talk."

Xu Rongjing took off his apron and threw it into Lu Shu's arms, "I'll go out for a while."

"Rong Jing, are you really going?" Lu Shu worried.

"Well, don't worry. Am I the kind of person who will suffer?"

After Xu Rongjing comforted Lu Shu, he dragged his injured leg and walked out slowly.

Lu Shu sniffed and cursed Yan Yu.Just now Xu Rongjing said, is he the kind of person who will suffer, usually not, but not necessarily when he meets Yan Yu, he was hurt so deeply back then, and he finally got out.

Yan Yu brought Xu Rongjing into his car, one sat in the driver's seat and the other sat in the passenger seat, Yan Yu looked ahead, while Xu Rongjing turned his head and looked out the window on the right.

Yan Yu sighed and said, "How long have we not seen each other?"

Xu Rong respectfully replied, "Two years."

"Xu Rongjing...you have changed."

"What have I changed?" Xu Rongjing felt that Yan Yu's words were strange.

"You were very different before and now."

"Before was before, now is now."

Yan Yu turned his head to look at Xu Rongjing, the person in the car was still the same as two years ago, even the curvature of the chin and the outline of the cheeks have not changed a bit.

Xu Rongjing was a little impatient: "If you have something to do, just say it, I'll go back if it's nothing, let's not waste each other's time here, okay?"

Yan Yu asked: "Do you like that man that day?"

"My private business has nothing to do with you."

"Are you with him?"

"It has nothing to do with you, don't you understand human language?"

Yan Yu frowned slightly, stared at him and said, "You never spoke like that before."

Xu Rongjing closed his eyes slightly, a little tired, "Yan Yu, that's because you never really understood me..."

Yan Yu opened his lips: "Rongrong..."

Xu Rongjing felt disgusted when he heard this name. He used to be good, and Yan Yu would always call him that to coax him, "Yan Yu, I don't want to beat you up. If you call it again, see you at the police station."

"Xu Rongjing!" Yan Yu called out through gritted teeth.

"Hey, you say."

Yan Yu stretched out his hand and grabbed his arm, "Let's do it again... will it work?"

Xu Rongjing directly pulled out his arm, pushed the door of the carriage and walked down, saying mercilessly: "A good horse doesn't eat grass that turns back, Yan Yu, you are not a good horse, if you want to eat grass that turns back, you can go there Eat, no one is stopping me, I am not a grass, I am a human being."

Xu Rongjing slammed the car door hard and walked towards the studio.

Yan Yu also got out of the car, grabbed his shoulder from behind, and refused to let him go, "Xu Rongjing, didn't you have no one around you for the past two years?! This one that suddenly appeared now, it's just because of your enthusiasm and impulsiveness." .”

Xu Rongjing frowned and turned around: "Have you investigated me?"

"No," Yan Yu's tone softened, "Can't you wait for me for a few more years, the relationship between me and you will be exhausted in two years?"

Xu Rongjing broke free from his shackles, although he could hear that there was something in Yan Yu's words, but he was not curious and didn't want to know at all, "It's over?"

Yan Yu's face was tense.

"Go away when you're done."

Xu Rongjing no longer looked at him, straightened his back and walked forward.

Chapter ①⑨

Xu Rongjing didn't understand what kind of medicine Yan Yu had taken wrongly, and came to ask him for peace today, why didn't he ask for peace sooner, but even if he came to ask for peace earlier, Xu Rongjing would not agree.

He Xu Rongjing is so strong that he is treated like a shoe, thrown away after being worn out, how could he be thankless and reunite with Yan Yu to torture himself again, although he is arrogant, but he knows how to love himself.

Xu Rongjing decided to think about Luo Yan a hundred times a day, to cleanse his mind that was polluted by Yan Yu just now.

Lu Shuchu was watching the wind at the door like a door god, and when he saw Xu Rongjing came back, he went up to him nervously, "How is it? What did you say? Did you make a move?"

Xu Rongjing smiled: "Why, I hope something happens to me."

"Tsk, I'm not joking with you, seriously."

"It's okay, I said a few words and left."

"So what did you say?"

"Ah..." Xu Rongjing glanced at the worried Lu Shu, "I forgot...why should I remember what the bad guy said."

Seeing that there was nothing unusual about Xu Rongjing, Lu Shu breathed a sigh of relief, "Damn it, if he comes again next time, I'll beat him so badly."

"In a society ruled by law, let's not do anything." Xu Rongjing went upstairs and continued to brush his drawing board.

After putting the board back on the shelf, Xu Rongjing leaned against the window and took out his phone to send Luo Yan a WeChat message.

Xu Rongjing: Do you have time tonight?

Luo Yan: There is an appointment.

Xu Rongjing: Then wait for me at noon tomorrow.

Luo Yan didn't return, but Xu Rongjing knew he saw it.Xu Rongjing doesn't like being too pestering on the phone, because he can't see his feelings when chatting on the phone, and there may even be deviations in understanding emotions. He always believes that face-to-face is the best way to express his heart.

Luo Yan had an appointment at night, and Xu Rongjing originally planned to draw in the studio, but Lu Shu rushed down from the third floor, took his hand, and expressed his affectionate confession.

"Teacher Xu!"

Xu Rongjing had a bad feeling, "What?"

"Come with me to Nora tonight."

"Don't go."

Yeliang is a famous bar in this city. As the name suggests, it is very wild. No matter what your orientation is, you will accept them all, and no matter how rough or wild you are before, you will find true love in it and be good.

Xu Rongjing didn't go to the bar for a long time, because he was asked to take out his ID card whenever he went, and he was really depressed about this.

With his underworld face on his face, Lu Shu started to roll around like a baby, "Teacher Xu, brother Rong, please!"

"Don't go..."

"Rongrong, how about using my half-year annual leave in exchange for a night in your bar?"

"Half a year? Really?"

"real!"

"make a deal."

Xu Rongjing dismissed his dog's paw and went upstairs, "Call me at night, I'll go to sleep first."

"no problem."

Xu Rongjing walked a few steps, then turned around: "Didn't you just pick up a girl a few days ago, and you broke up again so soon?"

Lu Shu: "What people value is my money, and they don't care about my inner self at all."

"...What kind of connotation do you have? It would be nice to be able to fancy your money."

"I'm sad—"

Every time Xu Rongjing started to speak venomously, Lu Shu would cry out his sadness at the top of his voice.

Xu Rongjing waved his hand, "I'm too lazy to tell you."

Lu Shu said cheerfully, "That's right! Today is Nora's annual festival, it's a big party, maybe you'll see a man you like more than Luo Yan."

Xu Rongjing smiled, and went straight upstairs, thinking, it won't happen... It's not like he hasn't been to a bar for two years... He has only been attracted to a man like Luo Yan for so long, other men can't catch his eyes , what's more, even if Luo Yan is fierce against him now, he still thinks he is a good person, and he is in a frenzied unrequited love.

Xu Rongjing fell asleep within a few seconds while lying on the bed in the attic. He has recently relaxed physically and mentally, and his sleep is particularly easy.

Asleep, he began to dream.

All are related to Luo Yan, and there is no happy ending. He even dreamed that he was holding Luo Yan's hand and weeping. In the end, Luo Yan disappeared into the night, and everything was covered with a layer of white mist. Dim, never touchable again.

"Rong Jing, Rong Jing." Lu Shu shook Xu Rongjing for a long time before Xu Rongjing opened his eyes.

Xu Rongjing sat up propped up, he was very tired from sleeping this time, he wiped his face, damn, he really cried...

Lu Shu looked him up and down several times, "What did you dream about? Yan Yu?"

Xu Rongjing shook his head, his voice was still a little hoarse, "No, it has nothing to do with Yan Yu, I dreamed about Luo Yan..."

Lu Shu patted him on the shoulder meaningfully, "Hurry up and take a shower, let's hurry up and take you to have fun."

Xu Rongjing yawned, "Well, wait for me for 15 minutes."

"to make."

After taking a shower, Xu Rongjing looked like a good guy again. When he opened the door and came out, Lu Shu looked at his attire, it really didn't look like he was going to a bar.

"Don't say that people always suspect that you are underage. You say that you are dressed so youthfully. If I hadn't known you since I was a child, I would have called your parents and told you to go home and study hard every day."

Xu Rongjing: "What nonsense, hurry up and leave."

In the car driven by Lu Shu, Xu Rongjing sacrificed his life to accompany his brother. He limped and entered the bar, so people might say that he is physically disabled.

There was Xiao Si in the bar who specializes in car poker, Lu Shu threw the key to him, and walked in side by side with Xu Rongjing.

After entering, the music made Xu Rongjing's ears hurt, he pinched his earlobe, and was taken to a corner by Lu Shu.

Lu Shu was very familiar with the group of people sitting with him, some of them Xu Rongjing had also met, so he nodded his head as a greeting.

Tonight’s New Year’s Eve in Nora began. First, the lights were turned on, and the bar was pitch-black. There was nothing else except the red and green beams from the turning lights on the wall. Everyone screamed and roared in excitement. Finally, the venue was important. The stage was raised, there was a sound of discs, the DJ came on stage, and a man and a woman danced pole dance on the stage.It is estimated that in order to cater to the public, different genders are specially arranged.

Xu Rongjing was almost blinded by the light, he hadn't come for a long time, not only his ears couldn't get used to it, even his eyes began to feel uncomfortable.

Sure enough, what is Tongyan, people still have to obey the old.

Lu Shu next to Xu Rongjing was excited with everyone, so he was the only one in this corner who was calm.

Xu Rongjing raised his forehead, so why did he sacrifice his precious sleep time to come here to spend time with Lu Shu.

But Lu Shu was right to bring Xu Rongjing here, at least the frequency of girls coming here to strike up a conversation was the highest in the audience, and even the men came in an endless stream. Lu Shu was very happy, but Xu Rongjing gave a toast to this one with a cold face, and a toast to that one later , almost reached the peak of anger.

Lu Shu patted him on the back, and signaled buddy to wait a little longer, and you will retire after a while.

Xu Rongjing simply changed places with Lu Shu's friends inside, and made it to the innermost corner, so that even if someone came to chat, someone outside would block him.

He was facing the dance floor, drinking a glass of wine, switching back and forth between the charming purple light and the dark blue light. He took off his glasses, and his eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of fog, making it difficult to see people clearly.

A whistle, and now it's time to dance.

A group of people rushed onto the small stage, and under the stage, everyone also jumped up and down a few times, which was considered meaningful.

Xu Rongjing was so tired that he turned his neck, looked towards the second floor, his eyes passed by a person whose back was very familiar.

He squinted his eyes and wanted to grab his glasses, but a buddy next to him wiped his glasses off. He bent down to pick them up, and the person on the second floor was gone.

Xu Rongjing stood up abruptly, brushed aside the group of revelers, and went upstream, walking, he was dazed by being entangled, and finally gave up.He didn't wear glasses, maybe he saw it wrong.

Xu Rongjing glanced at the noisy dance floor, decided to go to the bathroom to wash his face, and then took a taxi home.

The bathroom should be the quietest place in the whole bar, Xu Rongjing pushed open the door drunkenly, turned on the cold water and poured it on his face, sobered up a lot.

"I told you to come, why did you come and leave."

"Don't keep talking, I heard that there is someone around you recently?"

"Dumb?"

Xu Rongjing heard someone talking in the aisle, but the other person didn't answer.

"I only came here for your sake. I'm not interested in it. How are you doing after you leave the army?"

The other person spoke, Xu Rongjing was completely awake.

Luo Yan.

Luo Yan's voice.

He was right just now, Luo Yan was really here.

"It's pretty good. Everyone is worried that you're not doing well. Looking at it now, it's pretty good, Boss Luo." The man said with a smile.

Luo Yan didn't answer, but Xu Rongjing could guess Luo Yan's expression, probably just smiled.

Standing in the bathroom, Xu Rongjing decided not to go out, it's not good to disturb people's conversation.

He didn't intend to go out, but people outside came in.

Luo Yan pushed open the door, and met Xu Rongjing's face, his hair was wet with water, a few strands hung on his forehead, his eyes were slightly red, his ears were also a little red, his lips were moist, his cheeks were quite white, but It can be seen that he drank a lot of alcohol.

The friend beside Luo Yan smiled: "Ha, minors are allowed in here? I have to report it."

Xu Rongjing held his breath: "...Who is underage! Do you want to see your ID card? Do you want to see it! Show it to you! Do you want to see it? Give me a word!"

Luo Yan cracked his lips into a smile, his temper could be ignited at any moment.

"Luo Yan, say something!" Seeing Luo Yan smiling, Xu Rongjing dragged him into the water. He wanted to pretend he didn't know him, but now he doesn't want to.

"You know him?" The people beside Luo Yan were surprised.

Luo Yan nodded: "Yeah, I know him well. He's a fool with a lot of money. He's also fierce. He bites people when he sees them. He's probably a dog."

Xu Rongjing stared at him, heard what he said, rushed up and bit his arm.

The person next to Luo Yan smiled, and stretched out his hand to Xu Rongjing, "Luo Yan's friends are also my friends, hello, my name is Sun Chao."

Xu Rongjing let go of Luo Yan's arm, leaving a row of tooth marks, and shook Sun Chao's hand reluctantly. After all, he held grudges. Just now, the person called him a minor, "Hello, Xu Rongjing, Xu Xian's Xu, Mother Rong Mammy's face, respectful respect, you can think of it as Xu Xian Jingai Rong's mammy."

Sun Chao laughed heartily: "Luo Yan, your friend is so funny."

Luo Yan folded his arms and stared at Xu Rongjing, "Are you still here?"

Xu Rongjing shook his head: "Are you going, together with you."

Sun Chao was unhappy, "Luo Yan, we agreed to stay overnight."

Luo Yan pulled Xu Rongjing over and grabbed him by the collar, "Underagers want to go home to study, I will return to Lei Feng and send him back."

Xu Rongjing raised his eyes and stared at him, thinking, you are only a fucking underage!

Chapter ②⑩

Luo Yan and Xu Rongjing walked wildly, Xu Rongjing had a leg injury and walked slowly, Luo Yan also specially slowed down to wait for him.Unexpectedly, Sun Chao followed them and shouted behind them: "Luo Yan, let's go and have a late-night snack."

Luo Yan turned his head, Xu Rongjing who was behind him also turned his head, Xu Rongjing pouted, thinking, this person is too ignorant, didn't he see that he wanted to live a two-person world with Luo Yan.

Sun Chao hooked Luo Yan's shoulders, met Xu Rongjing's resentful eyes, and said, "Why don't you send him back first? It's not good if he doesn't go home when he's not grown up."

Xu Rongjing was unhappy: "I'm underage all the time, there's no end to it, Luo Yan, tell him, am I an adult yet?"

Luo Yan replied calmly: "He's an adult, he's 28, don't call him a minor."

Sun Chao looked at them with a smile, "Then who told me I was underage just now?"

Luo Yan: "Just kidding."

Brother Po drove out Luo Yan and Sun Chao's car, Luo Yan was still the Porsche, and Sun Chao's was an off-roader.

Luo Yan said to Sun Chao, "You've been drinking, call a substitute driver."

Sun Chao nodded and called for a valet driver.

After hanging up the phone, Sun Chao took the key and said, "Luo Yan, you go ahead and look for a barbecue restaurant. You are definitely more familiar with this place than I am. I will take my car with the driver."

Luo Yan didn't refuse, turned to look at Xu Rongjing, and motioned for you?

Xu Rongjing pushed his glasses: "Let's go together, I didn't eat dinner."

When Xu Rongjing said that he hadn't eaten dinner, Luo Yan frowned slightly. Xu Rongjing was afraid that he would contradict him, so he was a little guilty, but Luo Yan turned around and got into the car without saying a word.

Xu Rongjing was limping, quickly opened his passenger seat and sat on it, for fear that he would regret it.

Luo Yan drove to the place where he would occasionally invite fitness trainers to drink and eat skewers.

When the car arrived at the destination, Xu Rongjing hurriedly got out of the car to catch his breath. Luo Yan hadn't answered him a word when he was chattering along the way just now.

"Hey, Luo Yan," Xu Rongjing's temper flared up again, and he wanted to argue with Luo Yan, but Luo Yan just glanced at him, and didn't even make a sound.

Xu Rongjing followed up reluctantly, "Didn't I just miss dinner, why are you so angry?"

Luo Yan stopped, and Xu Rongjing almost bumped into his back.

Luo Yan turned around, Xu Rongjing raised his chin and stared at him, Luo Yan's eyes darkened, and he said coldly: "If you can't take care of yourself at all, you can just do it yourself."

Xu Rongjing understood the meaning of these words, Luo Yan was saying that if he continued like this, he would not be given a chance.

Xu Rongjing's heart trembled at the moment, he didn't expect it to be so serious, his temper was so violent, now he wanted to take back what he said just now but he couldn't take it back.

After Sun Chao parked the car, he could see the fire and gunpowder between the two from afar, "Go in quickly, don't block the boss from doing business, you have to quarrel inside, and you will have the strength to fight when you are full."

Xu Rongjing turned his head and stared at him, this man just stood and talked without pain in his back, and watching the excitement was not a big deal.

Xu Rongjing pushed Luo Yan away, and found a decent place in the shop to sit down. He ignored the two of them, and ordered food at home first.

Sun Chao took a few steps forward and stood side by side with Luo Yan, looking back and forth between Luo Yan and Xu Rongjing, "Luo Yan, there is a situation, this could not be the person next to you in the rumors, right?"

"Not yet."

Sun Chao laughed again after hearing this.No, no, the answer is no, which is very intriguing again.

Sun Chao hooked Luo Yan's shoulders and walked towards Xu Rongjing's place, and whispered as he walked, "I should have found out at the bar just now that you are not right with him. I don't see you talking so much in normal life, and you still like to joke."

"Okay." Luo Yan signaled him not to talk nonsense.

Sun Chao whistled, probably understanding that the two people might be at the end of their ambiguity.

Xu Rongjing ordered a lot by himself, Luo Yan picked up the menu and scanned around, and felt that these were enough to eat, so he called the waiter to give them the menu.

Sun Chao is also quite eloquent. He is tall, with a straight back, and he is loyal.

Xu Rongjing sized him up and asked, "Are you Luo Yan's comrade-in-arms?"

"Yo, do you know this?"

"No, I heard a few words in the bathroom just now, so I probably know it."

Sun Chao poured wine for Xu Rongjing, "What I didn't expect was that you actually knew that Luo Yan was a soldier."

"I heard someone say it once..." When Xu Rongjing said this, it might be the effect of alcohol, he was a little depressed.

What about Luo Yan was all told to him by others, or he overheard it.

Luo Yan put one arm flat on the table, poured wine for Sun Chao with the other hand, and drank some himself. From the corner of his eye, he glanced at Xu Rongjing who was suddenly dejected, wondering what happened to the VIP.He was so fierce just now, but now he is so sad, he is learning to change his face, every second.

The waiter started the barbecue, and Luo Yan pushed the eggplant in fresh juice, which looked fairly plain, in front of Xu Rongjing.

Xu Rongjing stared at the baking tray, then looked up at Luo Yan.

Luo Yan signaled him to eat with his eyes, Xu Rongjing understood it, got a little comfort, picked up the chopsticks and started to eat honestly.

Luo Yan gave him the steps to go down, and he had to go down quickly, otherwise he would not be able to contact anyone for several weeks.

Sun Chao started to talk about the past by himself, "I was at the same time as Luo Yan, but to be honest, he was not as tough as him, and he was all-rounder. At that time, the leaders looked at him and said that if he continued, he would be the king of soldiers. To be able to go and serve justice where others can't reach."

Xu Rongjing listened carefully.

"But...it's miserable...Maybe God doesn't want him to go so smoothly." Sun Chao sighed, looked at Luo Yan, and didn't continue.

Xu Rongjing lowered his eyes, Ren Lei told him.

Luo Yan judged from Xu Rongjing's regretful expression that he knew what was going to happen next, he frowned and said coldly: "You know?"

Xu Rongjing raised his head in a daze, then pursed his lips.He won't lie, it's clearly written on his face that he knows.

Xu Rongjing: "A little bit..."

Sun Chao patted the table, "So I knew it, so I almost thought I said something wrong just now."

Xu Rongjing didn't say a word.

Sun Chao sighed, and then said gratifiedly: "You said that Luo Yan has taken care of so many things in the family by himself, and now it's the end of all hardships, and life is going well."

Luo Yan clinked glasses with Sun Chao, "It's fine, don't mention the past."

Sun Chao: "Okay, brother said what."

Luo Yan shook the small wine glass: "I'm 32, and you're also discharged from the army. Time doesn't forgive people, Sun Chao, are you going to start a family?"

Sun Chao chuckled: "That's right, you're even pulling on me. My mother has already given me a round of blind dates."

"Missed?"

"There is one, it's not something we're talking about now."

"Congratulations, call me after a wedding drink."

Sun Chao's eyesight was sharp, and seeing Xu Rongjing put away his temper, he asked Luo Yan, "What about you, Luo Yan, don't you want to have a family?"

Sure enough, when this was mentioned, Xu Rongjing became interested, he became more energetic, he raised his head abruptly, his eyes were shining brightly, and he stared at Luo Yan alone, staring at him and answering.

Sun Chao added: "You know... your mother's place is... sad..."

Xu Rongjing frowned after hearing this, he seemed to know something.

Luo Yan squinted at Sun Chao, "Don't mention this, there is always a way."

Sun Chao nodded and looked at Xu Rongjing's appearance. It seemed that this person didn't know anything.

Several people chatted without saying a word, and the nightclub was almost closed, and the idea was still unfinished.

Xu Rongjing went to the bathroom, Luo Yan and Sun Chao were waiting for him outside the gate.

There were few vehicles on the main road, Sun Chao put his hands in his trouser pockets, and said earnestly, "Luo Yan, you didn't tell that kid about your mother?"

"What to tell him." Luo Yan said coldly.

"After that, you really became successful, but it's a huge difficulty, you can't deny your mother."

"Then talk about it later."

"Hey..." Sun Chao patted him on the shoulder, "I've convinced you."

Luo Yan glanced at the time, "It's getting late, you and your surrogate driver should go back first, my surrogate driver won't be here for a while."

"Sure, then help me tell that kid of yours."

"Ah."

Sun Chao patted him on the shoulder again, got in the car and left.

When Xu Rongjing came out from the bathroom, Luo Yan was the only one outside the door, "Where are your comrades in arms?"

He looked left and right, and saw that the car was gone, "Let's go first, don't even say hello to me."

Luo Yan stood upright, looking at Xu Rongjing with his head tilted.

Xu Rongjing lowered his head to play with his phone, noticed his gaze, and looked up.

The two looked at each other, but they were speechless.

Xu Rongjing didn't understand why Luo Yan looked at him like that, he seemed to see contradiction and forbearance in his eyes.

Xu Rongjing said softly: "Luo Yan...do you have something to tell me..."

Luo Yan said coldly: "If I say, it will be difficult if you are with me, what do you say?"

Xu Rongjing smiled: "Then I have to talk to you first."

Luo Yan's expression was very cold. In the early morning of summer, Xu Rongjing felt like he was in the cold winter.

Xu Rongjing stopped laughing: "I, Xu Rongjing, am not the kind of person who backs down easily, and I don't know how to write the word "giving up."

Luo Yan grinned, "It's rare for me to see some good qualities in you."

Xu Rongjing was not convinced: "What was I like in your heart before that? Eldest young master? Pampered? No finger touch? Delicate?"

"more or less."

"Damn it, I'm a real man, okay?! Don't use those cute words to describe me."

Luo Yan grinned: "Okay, a real man."

Xu Rongjing didn't bother to tell him why this person couldn't make sense.

Luo Yan didn't argue with him, "The driver is here, let's go."

The driver drove and gave the name of the place, Luo Yan asked him to send Xu Rongjing back first.

In the car, Xu Rongjing looked at the speeding scene outside, thinking about what Sun Chao had just mentioned, and planned to say something to Luo Yan.

But seeing that the surrogate driver was there, he took out his mobile phone, typed the content, and sent it to Luo Yan.

Luo Yan felt his phone vibrate and took it out to check.

Xu Rongjing: Does your mother not want you to find a boy?

Luo Yan didn't return.

Xu Rongjing continued: I understand you.

Luo Yan turned his head to look at Xu Rongjing.

Xu Rongjing continued: My master is the same, after he found out, I put him in the hospital with anger, I know it is not easy for him to cultivate and teach me, but...

Xu Rongjing: I didn't do anything wrong in this matter, so I don't know how to correct it, and I can't correct it.

Xu Rongjing: People like us also have the right to be happy.

Xu Rongjing finished posting these and did not post again.

Luo Yan stared at Xu Rongjing's side face by the street lamp outside, he was very quiet, completely different from the one who lost his temper, his side face was filled with firmness, Xu Rongjing also turned his head, smiled at him, his eyes sparkled.

There was a momentary soft-hearted impulse in Luo Yan's heart, in fact, there was nothing wrong with being with Xu Rongjing.

He has a heartbeat and a little liking.

But reason and reality killed those impulses, and he turned his head the other way, not looking at him anymore.

What was uncontrollable was that Xu Rongjing's eyes and the outline of his side face could not be lingered in his mind.

Chapter ②①

Luo Yan's mother was discharged from the hospital two weeks later than expected because she failed all physical indicators.He got home very late last night, and today he still got up early to go through the discharge procedures. After finishing, he helped his mother pack the clothes. The hospital wore a hospital gown, and he didn't bring much of his own clothes. He packed them all in a handbag and left. .

When tidying up the drawers of the bedside table, Luo Yan saw the greeting card on the top shelf, it was the one that Xu Rongjing had sent flowers to before.

Zhang Yuefen sat by the side and glanced at it, then asked with a smile, "Why don't the flower delivery kids call home for a meal sometime?"

Luo Yan stuffed the greeting card into her bag and shook her head: "No need."

Zhang Yuefen lowered her eyes in thought, stared at Luo Yan's face and said, "Xiao Yan, is the person who sent the flowers a man or a woman?"

Luo Yan paused for a moment while unzipping the bag, and said honestly, "Men."

Half of the smile on Zhang Yuefen's face disappeared, "Is it just a friend?"

"Ah."

Zhang Yuefen didn't say anything else, she quietly watched Luo Yan lift the bag.

Luo Yan: "Mom, let's go, I'll take you home."

Zhang Yuefen nodded.

After getting in the car, Zhang Yuefen tentatively said, "Xiao Yan, your Auntie Zhang said that she would introduce you to someone. That girl has a good family, graduated from university, and looks very quiet. Why don't you go and see her?"

Luo Yan coldly refused: "Mom, no need."

Zhang Yuefen turned her head to look at Luo Yan who was concentrating on driving, and said in a slightly harsh tone, "Mom doesn't want you to die alone."

Luo Yan: "Then do you agree?"

"Agree to what?"

"Allow me to find someone I like."

Zhang Yuefen's whole face was pulled down, her eyes were red, and she spoke fiercely: "Men just can't do it! What does it look like to find a man!"

Luo Yan remained calm: "Then I won't look for it, I'll be alone all the time."

Tears welled up in Zhang Yuefen's eyes immediately, "Why is it you... In the past, other people's family was gay, and my mother just joked about it and let it go. I didn't expect that one day my son would also be gay."

"Mom." Luo Yan called her, signaling her to stop talking.

Zhang Yuefen opened her mouth, but couldn't stop, "Your father left early and didn't know about this. If he knew, he would crawl out of the grave in anger. Mom has nightmares at night, and I always dream that your father blames me, blames me for not doing it. Teach you well, teach you to be like this."

Luo Yan sighed: "Mom, if Dad is still alive, he will support me."

Zhang Yuefen pursed her lips and turned her head to the other side.

Luo Yan then said: "Mom, if you want me to be happy, then you just nod."

Zhang Yuefen said angrily: "Even if I die, I won't nod my head!"

Luo Yan remained silent, no longer trying to say anything.

The relationship between Luo Yan and his mother is actually good, but as soon as love and marriage are mentioned, his mother seems to be a different person, and she will never talk to him softly.

Luo Yan understands that older people can't accept him. Back then when he came out to his mother, his mother almost beat him to death. She beat him to the hospital with a stick.

Zhang Yuefen wiped away her tears: "When that person lived in our house, you also said that he was a friend, but in the end, what kind of friend would a friend have sex with you?"

"Mom, don't mention that."

"Don't mention it? Why didn't you mention it?" Zhang Yuefen began to count carefully, "I regarded him as your good friend. Seeing that he has no father and mother, I took care of him like a second child. In the end, the two of you stood by me. Tell me in front of you, you want to be together and get married, a man marrying a man?"

"Have you ever thought about what it feels like to be a mother? I suspected that I was dreaming, so I slapped myself and begged God to wake me up quickly, but..." Zhang Yuefen choked up, but she confirmed it several times , only to realize that she was in reality, and it was true. Her son told him that he liked men.

Zhang Yuefen wiped away tears.

Encountering a red light, Luo Yan stopped the car, and reached out from the back seat to get a box of napkins for Zhang Yuefen, "Mom, wipe away your tears."

Zhang Yuefen lowered her head, she has short and long hair, just enough to be tied into a low ponytail at the back of her head, black hair mixed with white hair, tied tightly, Luo Yan felt uncomfortable watching it, but he is not a comforter Yes, I can only watch his mother cry silently.

The car started to drive again, Zhang Yuefen blew her nose and her voice was hoarse: "Then you two broke up, you see, you didn't last long, Homura, why couldn't you find a good girl to marry."

"Mom, if I really find a girl, then I will delay her for the rest of her life. Are you at ease?"

Zhang Yuefen sighed, she didn't know, and she had a bad conscience, but if she wanted her to accept her son marrying a man, then she would rather have a bad conscience.

Luo Yan suddenly remembered Xu Rongjing's side face last night, that person gave him enough courage at that moment.

Luo Yan parked the car on the side of the road, turned to Zhang Yuefen and said, "Mom, do you think I'm happy?"

It was the first time for Zhang Yuefen to see her son talking to her so seriously in the past few years. The son was born by her. He usually had a cold face and looked serious, but not really serious. Only this time was different.

"Mom, I've been like this all my life, and I can't change it. I also want to have someone who can grow old with me, but that person can only be a man. "

"Mom, I know that in your eyes, I'm not filial, and I'm sorry for my dad over there, but..." Luo Yan's mind flashed the words Xu Rongjing sent him last night, he smiled slightly, and said to Zhang Yuefen, "Is it wrong to like someone? There is nothing wrong with liking, so I don't know how to correct it, and I can't correct it."

"Mom, I'm 32, and I don't want to be alone all the time."

Zhang Yuefen listened in a daze. Luo Yan seldom refuted her on weekdays, and she was always reticent to her. It was rare to say so much today, but she said it so solemnly. She was surprised, sometimes happy, sometimes worried, and also a little anger.

Finally, she opened her mouth and said nothing.

Luo Yan accepted it as soon as it was good, take your time.

Luo Yan sent Zhang Yuefen home, because Zhang Yuefen was old and in poor health, Luo Yan was afraid that something might happen to her at home alone, so this time she simply hired a nanny for her.

Luo Yan just said, "Why do I earn so much money? It's just to make you live a better life."

Zhang Yuefen tried to evade again and again, but in the end she was speechless because of Luo Yan's cold face, and could only agree.

After Luo Yan left, exhausted physically and mentally, he went back to his apartment outside, slipped off his shoes and entered the room, then lay down on the sofa, staring blankly at the ceiling with his eyes open.

"Hey..." He let out a long sigh, sighing to himself.

The phone in his pocket vibrated, and Xu Rongjing sent him a message.

Xu Rongjing: I had fried beef tenderloin for lunch today. I asked my aunt to taste it, and she said it was delicious.

Luo Yan: Don't tell me you're going to surprise me today?

Xu Rongjing: I don't want to give it today. I have dark circles under my eyes. I got up early today and went to the vegetable market with my aunt. This is my first time to the vegetable market!It's really not the same as the supermarket...

Luo Yan: Why is it different?

Xu Rongjing: Smelly, but fresh.

Luo Yan grinned, but didn't reply.

How could Xu Rongjing let him go, and continued to post: I changed a super big lunch box for you today, you will definitely be full.

Luo Yan: Oh.

Luo Yan: Are you in the studio now?

Xu Rongjing: No, I haven't gone out yet, the person who made an appointment this morning canceled it, I will go in the afternoon, and I will go to your place for dinner at noon.

Luo Yan: I'll pick you up, your car is still with me.

Xu Rongjing had just finished filling his meal, when he saw the news from Luo Yan, he wiped his hands and smiled and replied: "Okay, thank you Boss Luo for condescending to be my driver."

Luo Yan: ...

Xu Rongjing pushes forward: Can you always be my driver?Until my legs are good?You don't want me to become a street killer, or squeeze the subway every day.

Xu Rongjing is trying to sell miserably, but in fact he can take a taxi.

Luo