[Wei Yong] Looking for Lilia

-15 minute ago-

Yuuri glanced at Victor one last time, his eyes pitiful.His lips moved, but nothing came out.

"Okay..." he said, turning and walking towards the buffet.It wasn't until he was out of earshot that Victor said, "That's rude, Chris."

The man named was looking at the back of the spoon with interest in the mirror, touched his gelled hair, and whistled.

"I know!" he said. "He didn't ask you what you want to drink. It's really not very authentic, but it's understandable-I'm too bright, he will forget you when he sees me." He threw Victor The wink of a hippie face who squirts the word "um" from his nose.

"Oh, don't do that!" Chris called out, "I have my own reasons!" He moved towards Victor again, and the two of them stuck close together, and he put his arms around Victor's shoulders, "Follow me Tell me, what happened last night?"

Victor frowned, "What 'what'?"

"Tsk," Chris said impatiently, "don't lie to me, I can smell adultery."

"Then you should drink less alcohol," Victor said, "It's not auspicious to have a problem with your sense of smell at such an age, after all, you are only 50 years old."

"Haha, haha, it's so funny," Chris said dryly, "Oh come on, are we still going to play this trick? I ask, if you don't tell me, I will ask again, we talk a lot of sarcastic things, drink a lot of nerve poison Wine, anyway, in the end you'll talk, and you know you'll, because there's something mean about all people, no matter how glamorous they look — one can't take secrets to the grave."

Victor looked at him helplessly, and finally smiled resignedly.

"Well, 'we' happened."

"You what?"

"Let's...don't play dumb." Victor said wisely, "You know it."

Chris slapped his hands in mid-air. "Oh!" he exclaimed, "how could that happen?"

"It's a long story," Victor said, "and at that point... there seemed to be no other options."

He fiddled with the knife and fork and took a deep breath.Chris' eyes moved with his movements.

"So what?" Chris asked after a while, "How bad is it?"

Victor sighs, he needs to organize the words in his head, he knows he should characterize what happened between him and Yuuri, put a label, he knows Yuuri wants that too, was it a one-night stand on the spur of the moment, or something else?Their past relationships and boundaries have been completely pushed down, and they need to draw new boundaries, about the definition of intimacy, about the physical relationship, about... about where they should go in the future.The last thing they need now is to let this matter go by in a daze, otherwise they will no longer know what is "normal" and what is "out of bounds" in the future.

But he's just... hesitating.He's flattered that Yuuri treats him so well, he's been hesitant to draw a line in this relationship, because he knows that once the line is drawn, they're going to stick to it, and he wants to break it next time How long will it take even a little?Does he have that much time?

"I... I can't tell," he said. "I don't know. Bad, I think."

Chris put his hands on his forehead, as if thinking.

"You don't know much about the species of 'virgin'." He said, "The first time is a disaster, and slowly..."

Victor smiled bitterly, Chris obviously underestimated the difficulty here, this is not a simple compatibility, to be honest, his and Yuuri's bodies are actually quite compatible.

"It's not like that. I'm not... I mean... I don't know," he said. "I drank too much, I was... very hopeless, and I was kind of on the edge."

Chris raised an eyebrow.

"I don't want to say this, but I still have to say, I told you not to drink and have sex!"

"I'm not..." Victor said, "When did you say that?"

"I...Of course I said it." Chris said, thumping the table to express his anger, "You never listen to my words! Let me tell you that you have suffered so much!"

Viktor finds himself on the verge of being laughed at by Chris, who insists on treating himself and Yuuri as two normal quarrelsome couples, when in reality their entanglement is more complicated than that, Viktor just can't be sure, between him and Yuuri Between Yuuri's so many debts and resentments, is there any feeling left in Yuuri's heart for Victor?A little bit, even just the size of a fingernail, would be enough for Victor, but does he have it?Or was it just pure drunken sex last night, or worse, Yuuri just saw through the truth of his retention under the guise of making up, and he used the trick to make him nowhere to go?

"He's not..." He paused, "He's not the Yuuri I knew anymore. I... I broke down last night and I don't know how else to make it up to him." He tried to explain that This feeling, but found that the language has become very weak.He bowed his head and thought for a while.

"What do you mean, you got to bed and suddenly found that he was different from what you imagined?" Chris asked.

"No..." Victor said, "I didn't...I didn't imagine what he was like in bed, it's true." He saw the expression on Chris's face and added, "You must be Just kidding" expression.

"I think we're past the age where pretending to be innocent will give you extra points, Professor Victor." Chris said, "What do you mean never imagined it? Are you sure you really feel that way about him? Shouldn't... Shouldn't it be?" Maybe you yourself just confused friendship and love."

"Believe me, it's hard to be confused after having a friend like you," Victor replied. "How could I have imagined that? He was just a kid back then. I was half a kid myself."

"And after that?" Chris said, "I can't believe every time you've watched him drink and dance over the years, you didn't think anything?"

"Last night was the first time I've seen him dance in eight years," Victor said. "You know it takes a lot of things for him to get into that state—he needs to be heckled, he needs to feel safe from being laughed at, oh yeah, And there has to be booze, which you're not likely to find around professors, are you? And we've said more in one week than we've said in three years combined."

"That's also..." Chris clicked his tongue, "It's too platonic! Well, what's wrong with that?"

"There's nothing wrong," Victor said, "he's not the little boy I knew...he's...he's grown up, he's more mature, he's more confident, you know what's the funniest thing? I thought I was right His feelings are because he always obeyed me unconditionally in the past. I thought I missed the past because it made me feel safe, but in fact, what I can often think of is the scene of our rivalry-so this new him, This new him makes me more... I just..."

There was a smile on his lips, and whenever he thought of Yuuri, he felt warm inside.Chris coughed.

"And Plato, and soul mates, and friends who can," he said. "What's wrong with that?"

"The problem is I don't know why he does it," Victor said. "I know why I have sex with him because I'm attracted to him and I want to do it—even though I'm using 'compensation' as a shield, but deep inside I Know that's not true. And what about him? God," he covered his face, "I shouldn't have done that after all the drinking he's had, it's all ruined, and now I can't even be sure What do you think...but..." He smiled a bit, "but he's really... different today, you know? He...he made me a whole bunch of breakfast for me to eat in bed, He even brought clothes in front of me for me to wear! That made me wonder...I couldn't help but wonder if there was a possibility between us."

Chris tsk-tsk, "You are too satisfied... the breakfast in bed makes your heart beat?"

"You don't understand," Victor said impatiently, "Giving food to others is the highest way of showing affection in the eyes of the Katsuki family. Whenever Yuuri wants to show kindness, he will give people something to eat... "

"Well," Chris said, "normally people go to... ask, you know, like, 'Hey baby, I thought last night was good, what do you think, want to go for a coffee and a meal and come back Shall I continue making out?’ That’s it. Now’s a good time, he’s near the buffet where there’s nothing but food.”

"I know, I know—" Victor said, "I know what a normal date is like, but this isn't a normal date, understand? It's the only person I've ever loved. There's no way I'm going to be in an Italian Tell him how I feel in the cafeteria, thank you."

Chris rolled his eyes. "So what are you expecting, revolving restaurant?"

Victor shrugged indifferently, "Maybe," he said, and took out his phone and started searching on Yelp as if reminded, "Maybe French style, with formal clothes, a violin performance, flowers and candlelight around it." Chris Looking at him like a fool.

"You look so stupid." He commented, "I don't want to sit next to you... Contagion. Why hasn't your little friend come back?" He looked around as he spoke, and at this moment, a slender figure appeared Pass through the restaurant and walk up to Victor.

"Hey," said Mila Babicheva nervously, "I want to talk to you, do you have time?"