[Wei Yong] Looking for Lilia

It was a very long night for Yuuri, he stared at the biggest piece of mold on the ceiling until there were no more lights from cars outside the house, from far to near, until the whole world was as quiet as if it was just him and Victor A person, lying on a dirty boat, sailed together into the dark depths of silence, he closed his eyes, and seemed to be able to see Victor's silhouette, reflected on his eyelids, with the clear strands of hair There will be no missing one: he raised his head, his Adam's apple rolled, and a small pill was swallowed. ?

I don’t know how long it took before he fell asleep, but the dream was still restless: he vaguely remembered that a train, a clown and a cup of cough syrup appeared in the dream. At the end of his dream, he found that the sky distorted and deformed, and the light The refraction was all over the place, and then he realized he was drowning, and then he started to struggle - it was over so quickly that he didn't bother - and he started to sink. ?

"Hey, wake up, Sleeping Beauty!" Someone patted his face, and Yong lifted his eyelids to take a look: Victor's magnified face was looking down at him, and the dazzling morning light was shot from the window behind him. The sun came in and Yuuri started to regret thinking it was too small last night.The smile on Victor's face was brighter than the sun's. ?

He was still sleepy, and his temples were throbbing. ?

"Go away, Victor." He groaned, flailing his left hand wildly, "Don't make noise." He covered his face with his hands, and he moaned even louder as his sanity began to enter his brain.Someone—it could only be Viktor—took his hands and pulled him out of the bed, and Yuuri sat dazed on the bed, feeling one of Viktor's knees resting on the edge of his bed, his gaze Spinning around Yuuri's face condescendingly. "Ah—what's the matter." Yuuri rubbed his eyes, looked at Victor with his eyes dimmed with tears, and found that the latter was holding his chin as if he was thinking about something. ?

"Hmm..." Victor said, he stretched out his hand suddenly, lifted Yuuri's hair that was hanging on his face and pushed it to the back of his head, fixed it with one hand, and lifted Yuuri's chin with the other hand, "Actually... "He said thoughtfully, "Your face has a very...classic beauty...just let me..." He switched hands to fix Yuuri's hair and stroked his side with the other Face, thumb slowly brushing Yuuri's lower lip, the movement causing a slight tingling sensation in the skin of both: Yuuri's lips are often chapped and dry, and when Victor's fingertips brushed his cleft, Yuuri Shivering, his consciousness quickly became clear, he turned his head to the side, and opened Victor's hand. ?

"What are you doing?!" He was fully awake, feeling inexplicable and...uncomfortable, he vaguely felt that he had been violated, not in the sense of chastity, but in the sense of private territory and boundaries—he had just Wake up, his hair is messed up like a bird's nest, and there are gums in the corners of his eyes, but Victor smells fresh and fragrant like flowers that bloom only by the sea, and looks calm in the sun that only luxury models in magazines have. The comparison is simply embarrassing.Victor let go of his hands as soon as he hit him, and made a gesture of surrender: "Wow, Yuuri's getting up!" He said with a smile, "Didn't sleep well last night?"?

Yuuri sat on the bed, looked at him full of resentment when he turned around and took a cup of coffee from the coffee table and handed it to himself, looking radiant - who am I doing this for? !He thought to himself that Victor, who had taken sleeping pills secretly in the dark the night before, was like a dream to him. ?

"...It's bad." He muttered, took a sip of the coffee, the bitter smell stung his taste buds and sharpened his senses, "What about you?"

Victor was sitting at the foot of his bed, opened a paper bag with great interest, and asked casually, "Are you caring about me?"

"...Of course." Yuuri said, taking another sip from his coffee cup, taking the opportunity to cover his face - one of the effective ways to deal with Viktor is to be more gross than him, but he often finds himself There's no way to say that without changing your face, he's not Victor after all. "How is it?" His ears were burning.

"Is it because you really care, or because you want to know if I'm stealing sleeping pills?"

Yuuri chokes, and Viktor looks at him with those deep blue eyes full of sincerity, like he's just asking a very inconsequential question, like where do you want to go for dinner, where do you want to hang out after dinner.But he's pretty much keeping Yuuri out of the way - he can't be unaware of that, is it because he really wants to know Yuuri's attitude, or is he just trying to signal Yuuri to stop meddling?

"Are you asking me that because my attitude is important, or because I feel guilty about lying?" Yuuri asked unwillingly, the truth is, if anyone spends as much time with Viktor as he does, somehow Viktor will subtly infect some of his habits—sometimes Yuuri himself will be surprised by the new personality that can be inspired by Viktor: in front of Viktor, he can’t help but become very strong, competitive, and even childish, but he Also sharper, sharper and more confident.Maybe these traits were not passed on to him by Victor, maybe they were also his innate talents, but they were covered up by inferiority and stability, because people have tried to demand that from him since he was a child: you are not good enough, so you Work hard, you're not gifted enough, so you don't try to catch people's eyes, but being around Victor, being around Victor is completely different - he won't think about what he lacks, and he won't try again Instead of trying to cover them up, we must try our best to shine and heat up, and we must get closer and closer like Victor!He will even abandon his usual dull and stable image and become bold, aggressive and even reckless.All of this is for one goal: to become like Victor, no, to become a better person than Victor!In this way, when what those eyes saw was no longer just an innocent and cute child, but a man who surprised him, Katsuki Yuuri did not like him in vain, and he did not treat Viktor badly All kindness.

—Of course, after the car accident, it all came to naught.He lost his only weapons and armor, and he was thrown in front of Victor like a lobster that had been shelled alive, without even the ability to maintain his dignity.There is only one image of him in Victor's eyes: a victim, a powerless victim who deserves sympathy and pity.Victims who need "compensation" and "care" require much, much patience and sacrifice.

Such a moment of boldly speaking what is in my heart, even turning against the general, can only be regarded as the last residual image and spark of this admiration that exhausted my youth.And relying on such a faint flicker, it is impossible to shine into the eyes of those who are born with aura and destined to create legends.

Victor was just stunned for a moment, then smiled and waved his hands and said, "What's the matter—well, I'm wrong," he bowed his head and admitted his mistake almost immediately, without showing any displeasure, not even the desire to distinguish and argue, "I'm so excited—it's normal and true to not be able to sleep after a day's driving," he said dryly. "Your attitude does mean a lot to me—if you care about me I'll Happy, you haven't cared about me for a long time."

This made Yuuri speechless again, and many times you will find that Victor's frankness has a kind of fraudulent sincerity, which makes Yuuri feel overwhelmed, because no matter from which aspect, it is unreasonable His son turned into Katsuki Yuuri: If you really care about Victor's condition, how can you not contact him for several months?If you don't care, then the interrogation will immediately lose your position: How can a person who doesn't even bother to call to say hello have the face to say "I'm worried about you"?

Just like that, the last spark and afterimage burned to the end, Yuuri pursed his mouth, and stopped talking to Victor—anyway, the result was unreasonable, so it's better to save energy for self-reflection, right?Victor was also very considerate and didn't say anything, just took out breakfast from the paper bag - bacon sandwiches and mashed potatoes in a lock and lock box, which surprised Yuuri at once. In such a place, seeing Lock and Lock This kind of household utensils is a very strange thing.

"John gave it." Victor explained, "I woke up earlier than you, and I wanted to do something good, because I knew that at the end of last night, we were a little..." He swayed his body from side to side twice, and closed his eyes deliberately Grinning his teeth, he made a look of lingering fear, "Little friction. I went to ask him where to buy food other than vending machines, but I swear I only had time to say 'morning', and he put all these things away." Passed both hands to me." He stroked his chin and said thoughtfully, "I hope this does not constitute a crime in law, otherwise Mr. Wanted will have to serve time for some crimes he has not committed in the future."

He didn't look troubled, which made Yuuri feel very speechless, but at the same time, the innkeeper John is indeed a servile snobbery, and when Yuuri couldn't sleep last night, he heard John rushing a couple downstairs The mother and daughter who were driving at night yelled because the little girl "looked at him furtively" - it's no big deal to make him suffer a little bit, a voice in his heart said nonchalantly, and then He realizes that it's the impulsive, even passionate Yuuri Katsuki waking up, laughing at Viktor's prank.

That's sad -- especially now that he's lost his ability to shine, to have nothing to be proud of.Romance and passion can only be embellished on those interesting and talented souls, and Katsuki Yuuri who has lost his dance is just an ordinary person who can be seen everywhere. He is not qualified to do those things. He should try to make himself tolerant, kind, and Accepting the world, this is the correct way for him to spend the rest of his life in peace.So as he unwrapped John's breakfast bag, he told himself that this was the last time he would enjoy the privileges brought by Victor, and that from now on, he would not and should not be happy with these flashes of pranks, because This is not what he should enjoy.

This self-closed mood lasted until the two finished breakfast, packed up their things and sat in the car. Victor started the car, turned on the music, and even began to sing the national anthem in a funny way with the tune of "Badblood" , he finally couldn't help stretching out his hand-turning off the music.But Victor immediately reopened it without even moving his hands. His car is equipped with voice control, and as long as he gives an order, the car is as obedient as a dog's leg.Viktor started singing his random lyrics to the melody again, in an "either ignore me or be bored to death" posture, which made Yuuri once again—resignedly turn off the stereo.

"Oh, you are such a spoiler." Victor said with great interest, the car was driving fast, the highway could already be seen in the distance, he turned on the stereo again, and this time, whether it was intentional or a coincidence, it started playing There's an AC/DC song called "let meputmyloveintoyou" that Yuuri and Phichit often listen to when they drive together, and Victor's cover of it takes away all the goodness it symbolizes.

"Aww—" he howled at the top of his voice, "let me put my love into you, babe—"

He sang with gusto, and if it wasn't for his obsessive-compulsive grip on the steering wheel, Yuuri thought he might have tapped, "let me give it all!" It was almost impossible not to be infected by this emotion, and Yuuri could only slide down, listening to Victor sing the last bar at his throat, he really wanted to plug his ears.

Viktor does it all on purpose—he's not tone-deaf at all, but he has a narrow smile on his face and the occasional glance at Yuuri, as if to say, "Join or be bored to death."

At this time, the stereo starts to play the next AC/DC song. I have to say that this disc is also very scheming. It makes people suspect that Victor prepared such a trick on purpose - vowing to force Yuuri to be with him Singing loudly during the trip, thinking about it carefully, this is very similar to what Victor would do. Doesn’t this guy really want to finish all the things he hasn’t done?Humming some shit to music on a road trip might be sacred in his bromance-loving heart.

Thinking of this, Yuuri's heart, which he had tried to lock, had to be opened again: what kind of attachment did Victor have to their friendship, and how much effort did he try to make for it, which made him suddenly no longer the superior It's a god, but a poor, helpless ordinary person, trying to save a relationship that is important to him-even though he doesn't understand it, this relationship is making his own healthy life a lot of trouble the culprit.

Fifteen minutes later, they both sang "callmemaybe" to the tune of "hello."