[Shenya] Aphasia

When Allen opened his leaden-heavy eyes, he turned his head slightly and saw that the curtains were blown open by the wind. Many people were having fun until late at night, and some lights were lit in the rows of oriel windows and turrets.

The lover is sleeping behind him, this man who is born with EQ fully supplemented his IQ even sleeps as rigidly as his people: face up, breathing evenly as if calculating a unit of time, besides the long hair scattered on the pillow, everything else is neat Of course, we have to rule out Allen, who can always make his sleeping posture look like he is practicing Jiu-Jitsu.

There was a mess under the bed, and the clothes and pants were thrown everywhere, which was enough to show the fierce battle between the two at night.He touched his butt subconsciously, feeling dry and sore.He rolled his eyes furtively, stretched out one hand to arch the quilt, passed through to touch the other person, kneaded and pinched, he was soft as expected, and then retracted his hand embarrassingly.

In fact, he was very sleepy, but his heart was not very honest. He turned over, took a sip of the already cold mocha on the bedside table, rinsed his mouth, and raised his arms to look closely at Kanda's face.

The skin of this oriental man with a straight silhouette is really enviable. Not to mention the beard, even the fine hair is extremely fine.Allen looked at it for a long time, and raised his hand to touch it, but this time, he was pulled by his wrist with a force and flipped under the blanket.

"Kanda Yu, what are you doing?" Allen yelled in pain.

"This is my line, right?" Kanda Shang was sleepy, with a blank expression on his face, "Why don't you just sleep and fumble around, did you not satisfy you just now?"

"What nonsense are you talking..." Allen was at a loss for words, "You didn't fall asleep at all?"

"If you fall asleep, you will wake up if touched like that?"

Kanda smiled lightly, propping up his head with one hand in a leisurely manner, so the black hair spread on the pillow stood up like a corner of a satin quilt.

"Bean sprouts, are you really not playing enough?"

"Of course it's enough!" Allen said loudly, with hot cheeks, as if covering up something, "I just wonder how you can stand playing like this every now and then?"

Kanda's calm face seemed to be unstoppable.

"I really can't stand it... I won't play today, go to sleep."

He turned sideways, and his upper arm reached to the waist of his lover who was also lying on his side. Because it was more than a circle thinner than other parts, it was sunken, forming an arc just enough to put an arm.With all his strength, he pulled the man over, and his lower body bumped into each other.

The fitting of the hidden organs instantly strangled the most tense nerve in Allen's brain.

"Yu, you..."

Allen felt that the blood in all the terminals of the body was rushing to the brain, from the hands, the base of the ears, the soles of the feet, and the touched parts.

No matter how you look at it, it looks like you are setting yourself on fire.

"In order to prevent you from touching... sleep."

The physiological effect of blood rushing made Allen's face flushed. He could only be thankful that the night covered his face: "We are in this position, I can't continue to sleep at all."

He tried his best to withdraw his body from this dangerous area, but the waist that was tightly bound could not move at all, which made his upper body lean back into an extremely funny arc.

The person who had been disturbed from sleeping well was pushed and began to lose his temper: "What the hell are you trying to do?"

"You're making me very uncomfortable!"

"Uncomfortable? Ha! I think you are quite comfortable..."

"Shut up, Yuu Kanda!"

Seeing that a scuffle was about to start, Allen put his arms around the opponent's neck and put his chest on it with a generous face.

This time the two of them stuck together completely submissively.

"Hey, give me a goodnight kiss," Kanda felt that Allen was poking his waist, and a series of dry and warm kisses landed on the skin on the side of his neck, making his heart itch, "Can you?"

After speaking, he giggled himself first, as if he felt that his girlish request was very humorous.

Kanda snapped back Allen's head, his lips and teeth fused together.

Later, this man seemed to be addicted to playing.Allen thought.

On the second day, he fell asleep with his arms around him, on the third day, and on the fourth day.This kind of behavior is very bad. He always smiles faintly when he is asleep, as if he succeeds in a prank.When the weather is hotter, the pieces of skin stuck together under the quilt can even be said to be glued together with sweat.

"Can you stop dragging me to sleep!"

On an unbearable cohabitation night, Allen Walker was furious: "Don't you think you are like... just like the vines and creepers on the balcony of the next door..." Kanda stared at him, so his The voice became smaller and smaller, and finally closed his mouth.

"I had a dream later," Kanda withdrew his sharp eyes and closed his eyes, "I went through the admission procedures and went to the Lake District with those two people. Instead of drinking that disgusting glass of gin, I was caught by the rabbi The guy served a great lunch on Lake Island. It's a beautiful place, but..."

He closed his mouth before he finished speaking, as if he didn't intend to continue, and then stared at his lover with his shiny black eyes.The latter's eyes are changing, and he feels guilty: "Then, that's not the reason why you insist on hugging me to sleep..."

Kanda is not a person who is good at expressing his heart, and that half of the sentence has already used up all the face he has accumulated: "If you dare to resist, I will make it so that you have no strength to resist."

"...Don't think I won't beat you up! Kanda Yuu!"

"Then try it!"

……

"It was Sunday, a rare night in England with few stars in a month. Probably because of the influence of my inexplicable hint, since then he has always hugged me to sleep, just like I used to always grab me, including himself. Sometimes I push him when I feel uncomfortable, but no matter if I hold his chest, bite his shoulder or pinch his thigh, the bastard will never move. I sometimes think, our What is the difference between love and the Arabian Nights? I am an ordinary young man whose first priority in life is always to fill his hungry stomach. I am a complete double-faced person. My kindness separates all fears of gain and loss. Until that day, from him When I started hugging me, I felt happy, felt real, and the satisfaction of being dependent. In fact, everyone has people and things that are afraid of losing. I am still afraid of losing him, but I didn’t expect that he was also afraid of losing me. I think In this case, we might be able to reach the end of time..."

This time, when Allen opened his eyes again, he saw smoke and dust, and different gray shadows baring their teeth and claws.There were originally vague sounds around, like a blower blowing close to the ear, but those noisy sounds became more and more clear, and they were broken down into human voices of various timbres, but they were more sharp, and they involved the brain. Nerves hurt one by one... right, the brain?

His brain played back a long period of past events for him, and he almost abandoned the ordinary past events at the bottom of his memory.Time passed slowly but stubbornly, as if there was nothing worth noting and correcting.But he felt that the brain gave him something that was taken away, what is it?He hasn't noticed it yet.

A little more sober, the sense of touch of the skin has recovered a bit, and the numb limbs can also obey his commands a little bit, only then did he feel someone shaking his wrist desperately.But that shaking feeling quickly disappeared, replaced by a scolding voice, that person sounded fierce, and seemed to drive the person who shook his hand to another place.

He felt as if he had just been dug out of the mud, and his body was so sore that he had maintained the same posture for most of his life.Then he saw doctors and nurses in white coats, surrounding him in three layers—or to be precise, surrounding his hospital bed.Someone was adjusting the nasogastric tube, and someone was checking the gauze on his head. The woman named Wahua was caught on the first layer, and was writing files while staring at the ECG monitor on the bedside to his right.

"Wax flower." He struggled to call the only woman he knew in the crowd.

"Huh? Walker?"

"I... Am I bald?"

The doctors present couldn't help laughing when they heard this.

"I've been delirious for half a month, and the first thing I say when I'm sober is this... I thought you'd ask me for a glass of water, or even a glass of wine. I don't think it's strange, or at least ask your man Where is my friend?" Wax Flower smiled, "It is indeed bald, which is convenient for disinfection and debridement. But are you really worried about this?"

"Don't worry too much." Allen himself felt a little embarrassed, "Then, give me a glass of water... Of course, it's best to have a bowl of porridge, I'm so hungry."

"Want to drink porridge?" Wax Flower smiled even more happily, "Congratulations, the nasogastric tube can be removed. Do you know how much Nutricia's nutritional supplements we poured into your nose during the time you lost consciousness? Is it? That's expensive."

"One more good thing to tell you, Mr. Walker," a nurse standing at the foot of the bed couldn't help but say, "Well...do you feel it?"

"How do you feel if you don't tell me..." Allen stopped abruptly in the middle of his speech.

"I, can talk properly, can't I?"

Wax Flower nodded: "This is really a surprise beyond our expectations. In fact, during the training, your aphasia has recovered to the point where you can basically talk normally, but when you think about it carefully, it is still a bit confusing. It seems that the conversation is much smoother now, isn't it? ?"

Allen asked in a daze, "What the hell happened to me?"

"Half a month ago, you passed out backstage at the concert hall."

Mana pushed away the crowd, stood still beside the hospital bed, and said gently: "I was sent to the hospital, your intracranial hematoma showed signs of abnormal expansion, and the speed was very fast, so Miss Wax Flower decided to perform emergency surgery...Of course, This kind of situation does not require the signature of the guardian, but fortunately, it can be regarded as exempting you from a big knot?"

Allen was silent for a long time, then nodded: "I thought I was going to die." He raised his head and smiled awkwardly.

"Then you really underestimate modern medical skills," Mana stared into his eyes. "It's just a craniotomy, and tens of thousands of people are doing it every day in the world. Not to mention..."

He stared at the speechless young man: "...Even if you are lying in the hands of death, do you know how many people want to snatch you back?"

Allen understood what he meant, and stammered, "I remember... I said don't tell him..."

"Why don't you want to tell me?"

A person walked slowly and was given a way.

Allen looked at him, his black hair was draped over his shoulders, and those familiar long and narrow eyes also looked at himself without any emotion.

"If you die, will I have to make a few phone calls from Link to get the news?"

After the inspection, the doctors and nurses left the ward one after another. Mana was the last to go and closed the door behind him.So it was just the two of them in the room.

Allen pursed his lips pretending to be calm and looked away, not daring to look at him.

"Say it!" Kanda simply put his hands on the pillow, bent down, and surrounded the boy in a cramped space where only he could be seen, "Isn't your aphasia cured?"

"I don't want to either... Subconsciously, I just said that."

Allen was forced to look into his eyes. Once those eyes were mixed with sadness, there would be a worrying shallow watery light. He couldn't help but think back to the painful death in his home in Japan. Heartbreaking sex.

"My head still hurts... don't ask so many questions, okay?" He begged pitifully.

"..."

This reason is so good that even a tough person like Yu Kanda had to compromise.

Who told him to take this set?

"The way you look now," Kanda paused, and stood up straight, "is like a bean sprout stalk whose leaves have been pulled out. A bean sprout suffering from this kind of geriatric disease is really a ghost."

Alian raised his eyebrows, lifted his only two legs that could move, and kicked over.

Kanda quickly grasped the two ankles that were so thin that one hand could hold them together: "If you don't want to be told that, give me a little fat."

Alian rolled his eyes and smiled: "In this case...you, bring me some..."

"Only vegetable soup and porridge!"

Kanda turned his head and left, leaving behind these words resoundingly.

The teenager touched the heavy gauze around his head with the hand that was not connected to the drip, closed his eyes, and smiled happily.

Relying on the staggering appetite and the metabolism ability that is different from ordinary people, in less than ten days, after the doctor's physical examination confirmed that there were no complications or wound infection, Allen had the stitches removed decently and walked out of the hospital.

"Even so, you still need to take a good rest and add more protein and vitamins. Although the wound on the scalp has healed, it will take a long time to repair the skull." Waxa was worried, "Mr. Kanda, within six months at least, you Just don't fight him."

"You, your impression is really bad." Allen said provocatively.

"Give yourself some morals, fighting is a matter between two people." Kanda squinted at him and said calmly.

They strolled across the arched bridge over the artificial lake in the hospital garden, the planks were shaking and covered with wet dead leaves, as if they hadn't been cleaned at all.The non-slip crossbars on the bridge deck were worn down to the bare eye, so fewer and fewer people dared to walk on the bridge. They would rather walk around the lake than lie down in the ward again because of slipping.

They stood still on the bridge, and there were some fish fry in the lake with shiny scales. They only swayed slightly on the water surface, and then submerged in the clear golden texture under the sun.

Allen leaned on the railing to watch the fish, and said slowly to the people behind him.

"I haven't really changed at all."

Kanda looked down at him.

"I don't know whether I should fulfill you or myself. At that time, I was very scared, I was afraid of death, because there were so many things I wanted to do and eat, because you and I had just started. But this is not the most The important thing is, I think whether I am dead or alive, I don't want to tell you about this damn accident. Because when I think of you panicking because of this, it hurts me more than thinking that I will die..."

Allen turned his back to him, Kanda resisted the desire to turn him over to see his expression, and listened to him.

He talked a lot, and it seemed that he wanted to finish all the words he had accumulated since the day he lost his language ability on this small bridge.

"...Different from before, I like who I am now. Allen Walker, who has support, direction, and foundation, is a real person. At least half of all this is due to you, Kanda Yu, you Showed me who I should and can be, you're a jerk with few words but gave me more love and encouragement than anyone. So when I thought I was going to die, I was scared , terribly afraid."

"I also want to be more sincere when facing my lover, but you who are out of control are the only person I want to escape in my life. Do you know, Yuu, maybe one person can walk alone for a lifetime, and three people or a group of people can also live alone. Yes, but two people are the strongest, when both regard each other as the first and only support, love is invincible... I also want that kind of love, because it is a miracle for me ,you love me……"

"...and I love you so much, too."

He buried his face in his arms, leaned on the bridge railing, and suddenly burst into tears.

Kanda, who had been worried for half a month, was suddenly relieved.

It seemed that this time, the guy was also terrified.

-TBC.