[Shenya] Aphasia

"Actually, Kanda is a very simple person."

The book bar on the first floor of Arndale actually doesn't come to Arndale very often, he always thinks it's too dark and the heating is too strong, it's more suitable for nap than reading.But Starbucks is renovating the store today, so I can only sit here.He stirred the milk tea in his hand, so the aroma of black tea milk and the sweetness of caramel overflowed, and the air was full of satisfaction.

In contrast, Link is even less likely to be a person who loves to read. He frantically flipped through the collection of novels he took from the bookshelf in 3 minutes, and threw them aside as if giving up.

"Walker, you can joke. I've lived all my life, and I've never seen a more innocent guy than you."

"I'm stupid, and stupid doesn't mean innocent," Allen shrugged and admitted honestly, "I think a lot, and I talk a lot. But he doesn't. He stands in front of me, and he doesn't have to talk too much, because his Expressions usually say a lot for him."

Under the warm yellow light, Link saw his tightly pursed lips.He turned his head to the side and sighed softly.

"You are stupid and simple, and he is building you a Tower of Babel." He said, "Walker, you always ignore the magic of language, the most easily ignored thing in life dominates everything in you, release your Emotion. And he didn’t ignore it, he didn’t understand it. If one day you lose this tool—sorry for the analogy,”

Looking into the confused eyes of the young man, he took a deep breath: "...you will lose everything that you rely on to love each other now."

Confused young people, your love is still too weak, and it has the common problems of all love-self-centered, over-dependent, controlling, and short-lived enthusiasm.Your so-called communication seems so naive in the face of understanding that requires soul-bonding.

Love is not bondage, love can also be free.Only when it is free will it give you wings.

Kanda let go of his left hand.

That hand had been clutching the quilt on Allen's hospital bed before - when he was sleeping, Allen was holding him. He didn't know if Allen liked being caught.Usually he tossed violently when he fell asleep, but these days it was very quiet, so quiet that Kanda almost didn't notice that he opened his eyes, his pupils reflected the light from the ceiling, and then slowly turned to himself.

The nurse rushed over to check the ECG monitor, and hurried out to report.Kanda closed the curtains, and the faint sunlight dyed the blue curtains with fluorescent light, making the room darker, allowing people who had just woken up from a lethargic sleep to slowly adapt to the light.

"You finally woke up." Kanda looked tired.

Allen blinked, then shifted his gaze elsewhere.His lips were a little dry, slightly parted, and he didn't make a sound.

Kanda turned around and opened a pack of granules and poured them into a water cup. The light yellow powder was filtered and melted one by one in the clear water, like quicksand scattered in the air.He stared at it for a while, then turned to the person on the bed: "If you are still not used to it, I can turn off the light."

Allen looked at him in bewilderment, and made an unintelligible single sound.

"Just tell me if you feel uncomfortable, okay?" Kanda handed over the water glass lightly, and shook the hospital bed, "Drink the medicine."

"Ugh..."

Allen whimpered softly, but obediently drank the medicine.Kanda went to pick up the water cup, but found that the other party's hand was blue, and the remaining medicinal juice was trembling at the corner of the cup.

"Hey, do you have a headache..."

What interrupted the inquiry was the sharp shattering sound of the glass water glass hitting the ground, and the fragments splashed violently on the ground. The person on the bed suddenly grabbed Kanda's clothes, with obvious panic written in his eyes.

"Ah...ah..."

Kanda didn't have time to clean up the mess, he looked at Alian, his eyes changed little by little.

"Bean sprouts," he lowered his voice, "you can't talk anymore?"

"Ah... woo... woo..."

The other party didn't respond to his question, only screaming meaninglessly.

Kanda felt that his hands were nowhere to rest, and he realized that the truth might be worse than he imagined.

Allen is not deaf, let alone dumb.

He could see Kanda's gradually frowning brows, he could see his lips closing, and he could hear his usual flat voice, making some inexplicable syllables and intonations, as if he was asking or complaining.

It's just that a part of the brain has been hollowed out, the painless function of understanding the meaning of those syllables.Not many people in this world can understand what it feels like to have a piece of the brain hollowed out. It’s a bit like amnesia, but it’s different. Amnesia is at most nothing more than forgetting a past event or some people, but the part he’s lost now makes the whole world that was still alive They are all strangers.

He didn't even know how to respond.

Kanda called the doctor, and they took him to the control room for an EEG. Then the doctor pointed to the lines of complicated waveforms on the display screen and explained something, and he saw Kanda's expression on one side of his head.It can't be called sadness, but it doesn't seem like anger either. It's too much to say despair.

He had never seen Kanda like this, and his appearance made him suffocate.

Kanda closed his eyes, struggling between accepting his fate and questioning.Allen would rather be deaf or dumb, so that he could at least use pen and paper and gestures to talk to Kanda and understand what happened to him.rather than as it is now.

It's like being abandoned by the whole world.

After returning to the ward, Kanda hugged him, stroking his back clumsily, like comforting a kitten.

"Bean sprouts, don't be afraid."

Allen tried his best to distinguish the meaning of this series of trembling notes, but after finding that it was still in vain, he cried softly.

"What will you do?"

Link raised his head and drank the last whiskey in the glass in one breath, sighed, and looked at the boy sitting across from him.

"Will you still trust and rely on him like now? Will you run away?"

"of course not."

"Won't believe it, or won't escape?"

"I won't escape."

Link closed his eyes and didn't answer any more.

That person was right, even though life had frustrated him so much, he still simply didn't understand anything, so he was fearless.

But it is precisely because of this that people like Kanda Yu cannot escape.

"Bean sprouts, if you can't talk, I'll be so happy."

"If that day comes, I will be happy for you."

As soon as the word became a prophecy, Kanda suddenly felt pain.

"Aphasia is not uncommon in neurological diseases, but the patients are mainly middle-aged people with aphasia caused by cerebrovascular diseases, and the other is infants and young children. It is rare for young people in their twenties to suffer from traumatic brain injury. Leading to this kind of result, and the most serious complete aphasia...he can't understand what you're saying, and he can't say what he wants to express to you, it's like a chain has been cut in his brain- That is the chain of forming expression and converting expression into language. The patient's hematoma is already very complicated, but now it has led to such a result. Although there is no danger of life, the current situation is enough to make people depressed..."

"I won't leave him behind." Kanda interrupted Link, this man made him very uncomfortable, "Did you already know?"

"what do you know?"

"Knowing this would happen."

"Do you know Murphy's Law?" Link chuckled.

"What can go bad must go bad?"

Link took a deep breath, raised his head, and let his forehead stick out of the shade of the tree, exposing it to the not-so-warm sunshine in winter.

"Kanda Yu, Walker and I have known each other for six years. From his point of view, I know him much better than you."

Kanda was taken aback, feeling the temperature of the Mocha convenience cup in his hand drop suddenly.

"I said I would not leave him behind." He said coldly.

Link smiled.

"You are hostile to me, Mr. Kanda, I don't think I can talk to you now." He said, "Before you list me as a dangerous person, you'd better figure out your own mind."

"He needs systematic and professional training, but it is unknown whether he can recover. I will contact the doctor I know to observe the changes of the two damn things in his brain... Oh, but don't thank me, your task is even more difficult .I know you are a medical student, although you have nothing to do with neurology. So if you can't do it, go to a professional doctor."

Link raised his body and hid himself under the shade of the tree: "But once you choose the latter, you can't interfere."

"Hello," Kanda asked the moment Link stood up.

"What kind of man is Allen Walker?"

As soon as the words fell, the man suddenly turned around with a sharp expression.

"This is the question you should ask yourself, Yuu Kanda... You better not make me think that you are a waste."

I hope you are not too.

Link thought so as he left.

Wouldn't he be willing to be the candle you protect in the palm of your hand? If you want to do this, why don't you find a gentle and pleasant girl?He's a self-aware guy who cares more about what other people think of him and what you think of him than you do.You have misunderstood each other once, but that time did not produce any attention, or your reflection.Allen Walker won't let himself owe you, because he didn't have self-esteem before, and he never will.

Yes, he is such a troublesome rotten person.

The atmosphere with Alian suddenly became quiet, or to put it bluntly, became depressed.Kanda couldn't bear to use this word, he didn't want to admit the truth.

The lover sat beside him silently, with a look of panic on his face.It's not like him that he chooses not to make meaningless noises, so it's like he's actually dumb.His eyes were flickering all the time, looking cautious.It was Kanda's turn to break the tranquility, but it lasted for a long time because of the man's absent-mindedness.

"Hey, Dou... Allen."

Allen raised his head.

"Anyway, you don't understand... If I knew it, I would have called you that earlier, and it wouldn't make you, a bastard, always feel upset and quarrel with me."

"That's not what I want to say...I mean, I'll wait for you to get better, it's not a big deal, so you guys better cooperate well, don't add side effects, things won't get worse." Kanda Wang Looking out the window, "No more."

"The man named Link said he would assist me in your rehabilitation training."

"Do you know what I'm talking about?"

When he asked this question, he turned his head to look at the person around him, and the other person slowly turned his gaze back to him as if he felt it. Kanda saw his uneasiness, sighed, pressed his hand, and shook it.

Both men now desperately need to draw something inspiring, courage, hope, and fascination in the other's eyes.

"That's not the kind of talk I want to hear."

Tiqi Meek put out his cigarette, and the girl lying opposite bit her lip.This is a highly suggestive action, which means that Mr. Smoker has an emotion that cannot be resolved by smoking. Once the two amber pupils in his thin outline stare at someone, it is easy to make the other party sink or be at a loss.

Rhode said unhappily, "I didn't do anything."

"You didn't do anything but turn the person you like into a cripple?" Tiqi said every word with a loud voice.

"So what?" Rhodes raised his voice, "I just need him and the Japanese to give up each other, I don't care about the rest."

The girl's voice was harsh in the empty front hall of the mansion.

"What do you make Neia think?"

"Whatever they think!" Rhode yelled, "Tiqi, don't stand on the moral high ground and accuse me. You would do the same thing if it were you. Alan doesn't know your methods, don't I know?"

"That's right," Tiki lowered his voice, "I will do the same, but it's not me now, Rhodes, it's not me who fell in love with Allen Walker, do you understand what I mean?"

"Do you think I should leave him dying in your hands, or turn you into a man—and even then he doesn't necessarily choose you—to him? My only task is to take you from him , I don't want to see my family entangled with that kind of kid, entangled with no chance of winning, understand?"

Rhodes opened his eyes wide, watery in his pupils, about to overflow.

"I didn't ask people to beat him, and I made those people unable to hurt him. My purpose is just to make him have nowhere to go. As long as he comes to me, I will raise him no matter whether he is deaf, dumb or paraplegic, but he only I am a little girl..."

"You are indeed a little girl."

"I'm not."

Rhodes wiped his face and narrowed his eyes: "I'm fighting for him, fighting for my love. I don't want those hypocritical morals, I just ask for benevolence." She suddenly smiled, her eyes sparkled, "Tiqi, You're not going to tell him I did it, are you?"

Tiqi's eyes widened, and he got up and paced back and forth in the front hall. For a while, the whole room was filled with the crisp sound of leather shoes hitting the marble floor.

"I just hope you don't regret it."

"I do not know."

Will the strange and dangerous girl Salome regret letting King Herod behead John?

No, she would just kiss John on the lips with a triumphant smile.

The seasons change quietly, the first ray of warm wind and moist rain are sent from the sky, and the green buds are scattered all over the branches of the street trees like mint frosting. Then the grass grows and the warblers fly, and then the flowers are bright and the willows are dark. spring.

The awakened city of Manchester has restored its urban style, the office buildings with glass exterior walls are shining in the sunlight, and the streets are full of vehicles and pedestrians.Manda’s bell rang just at this time, and the faint echo reverberating in the air was like the bells and drums of warriors marching, shaking the eardrums of the office workers, but their already hasty pace could not be faster .

Someone spent hundreds of millions of pounds to create an impressionistic theme park. The roads are full of old-fashioned metal from the steam age. The tavern with benches is decorated with colorful flags with the Manchester United team logo. Interestingly, the words on the team logo Still footballclub, full of nostalgia.It has to be said that the industrial economy of this city is no longer what it used to be, but this tireless city is still full of vitality, just like fulfilling its determination to carry forward the past.

"Hey sir, won't you come in for a drink? We have the best Guinness in England and my wife is from a distillery in Dublin. If you don't like it, we have Baileys too, how about?"

The tavern was full of people, and the boss was still diligently taking customers by the side of the road. Seeing him grabbing him and talking like a cannonball, Allen smiled politely, shook his head, and ran away quickly.

The park was full of tourists, and the lively scene made Allen a little dizzy.

After Kanda returned to school, he traveled alone to many places he would never go before.The isolated world is not as difficult to get along with as you might imagine. If you just meet strangers face to face, language will not play much role except for politeness and pleasantries.

"Is it really okay if we don't go with him?"

On the open-air flower terrace on the second floor of the theme park, the rabbi asked this while lying on the edge of the fence, while staring at the figure walking alone among the crowd on the road.

"Leave him alone for a while," Li Nali pulled her hair out of the scarf and let them hang over her shoulders, "What's the use of you going there now."

"...That's right."

The rabbi rested his chin on his arm: "I was just thinking, can I be of any help, anything, a little encouragement is fine. Ayou is already crazy busy."

"It's okay, Allen is a very strong person." Li Nali pursed her lips and smiled, "I believe him."

The rabbi also smiled: "You put it that way... You know him so well that I'm jealous."

"Because I am more like him. I always believe that the world is kind, so I am not easily disappointed."

Looking back, Allen on the street had already bought two cones, and ate one in each hand, showing the same happy expression as when eating sweets.

The rabbi froze for a moment, always feeling a little strange.

"He's just too reassuring, that's why he makes people worry..."

In the office of the medical building at this time, Kanda knocked a thick stack of documents on the table and put them in a black briefcase.

He stood up from his seat and bowed deeply to the person opposite.

"I'm really sorry for disturbing you for a month."

"Go away, young man," the professor-looking man across from him rubbed his temples, his eyes half-covered by his messy wine-red hair, showing a little tiredness, "If he doesn't recover, you two will come and see him."

Kanda held back his anger, and thought that when he went back, he would have to ask that bastard Link to question whether the expert he introduced was reliable or not. For at least a month, although he had benefited a lot, he felt that the terrible part was more than the former.

Walking out of the medical building, he called the rabbi.

"Hey, I've already...why are you so noisy?"

"We met a carnival parade in the steam theme park," the young man yelled in the earth-shaking background sound, "Ayou, I can hear you. Are you out of customs? Oh, I'm really here It's too loud, you know..."

"...Bring back the bean sprouts." Kanda interrupted him impatiently, "I'm ready."

-TBC.