Mizuki

Zhang Yuanshan didn't know how he got out of the karaoke hall that day, and he didn't know why there were so many people around him when he returned home.

"No, why do you have to come with me?" He stood under the streetlight at the intersection, and suddenly stopped walking after walking well. He stopped and asked, "It's already three o'clock, why don't you go back to sleep and sleep with me?" Come here to be a night owl?"

"I'll take a look at my boyfriend's house." Chen Kai patted him on the shoulder, and took a step forward over him: "You've lost a lot of weight."

"I'm not fat, okay?" Zhang Yuanshan snorted, and called him from behind: "Why are you walking to the right, left!"

"Come on." Chen Kai whistled briskly and followed, the corners of his mouth grinning so much that his relatives did not recognize him.

After crossing the intersection, you entered a residential building. It looked like a six or seven-story building, surrounded by a circle on all sides. It looked like a monster with teeth and claws.Looking up, you can see clothes drying on the window sills, and the alley has accumulated water for an unknown number of days, reflecting the pale moonlight, and you can still see the moss on the ground clearly.There is a low table next to the entrance of the building, which seems to have been moved from an elementary school, with a crumpled book on it. Chen Kai glanced at it through the light bulb that may die at any time, and could barely see the words "Visitor Registration" Table" lettering.Going further inside are rusty bicycles and buckets and pans, and several wide shelves that look like quilt drying.No lights were on in the whole building, and everything was dead silent. If Zhang Yuanshan hadn't led the way, Chen Kai would have mistakenly thought that he had walked into the abandoned building.

"Which floor do you live on?" He raised his foot and stepped in through the iron door that was covered with rust so that the original color could not be seen, and asked casually.

"Second floor." Zhang Yuanshan walked in front, suddenly raised his hand to touch it, and two seconds later, an orange light lit up above his head.

"..." Chen Kai was at a loss: "Is there no switch on the light?"

Zhang Yuanshan didn't take it seriously: "The voice control just broke down yesterday."

Chen Kai: "What if I get an electric shock?"

"Today is the first time I touch it," Zhang Yuanshan turned his head and said, "I usually turn on the flashlight of my mobile phone."

Chen Kai smiled wryly: "You can't do whatever you want just because there are more people beside you..."

Zhang Yuanshan turned his head and glared at him: "Shut up, keep your voice down." Then he took out the key from his pocket and opened the door.

He turned on the light, and the light bulb that had exceeded the service life gave off a grayish-white light, barely covering the furnishings in the cool room. Chen Kai squinted his lips and looked at them. They were all old things of unknown age. If I remember correctly, I only saw it in the countryside when I was a child.The walls are all black and yellow, with a few iron nails nailed on them, and various plastic bags and daily necessities are hung on the nails.

"How long have you lived here?" Chen Kai asked.

Zhang Yuanshan answered him: "Half a year. There are all dangerous buildings here, and they will have to move out in a few months."

"Why would you want to live here?"

"The monthly rent is 200, and the bus station is just a 10-minute walk away. The residents upstairs will put the empty bottles I don't need at my door every day to sell." Zhang Yuanshan looked at him steadily: "My The short-term workers are introduced by them, why not stay here?"

Chen Kai's heart twitched. He knew that Zhang Yuanshan still wanted to drive him away, but he still treated it as a sarcasm that he couldn't hear what he said, and still asked nonsensical questions: "Where did the things in this house come from?" ?”

Zhang Yuanshan turned on the gas stove, and the blue flame was brighter than the tungsten lamp above his head. He waited until he poured half a pot of water from the kettle and put it on the fire before distracting him and replied: "This is before. When I was working as a hotel, a colleague’s house, have you seen 72 tenants? That’s the kind.”

"I've seen it a bit." Chen Kai pulled out a stool from the side and wanted to sit down, but found a hole in the middle, and pushed it back resentfully.

Zhang Yuanshan glanced at him and then withdrew his eyes: "Wait and sit in the room."

"Well," Chen Kai stood aside and motioned for him to continue, "Where's your colleague?"

Zhang Yuanshan unpacked two packs of instant noodles and poured them into boiling water, cracked two more eggs, and finally grabbed a few lettuce leaves from the black plastic bag on the bucket, washed them in the sink, threw them into the pot and stirred them : "I took him to buy a lottery ticket half a year ago. He bought it for the first time and won 300 million yuan, so he bought a commercial house on the other side of the river." Zhang Yuanshan turned off the fire and said, "The bus station is at the gate of their community."

"..." Chen Kai didn't know how to answer these words.

Perhaps it was the night that Zhang Yuanshan’s hostility was suppressed by eight points. At this time, he did not embarrass Chen Kai. He washed two sets of bowls and chopsticks and handed them to him, divided the freshly cooked instant noodles into two portions, and asked him to serve a bowl for himself. .

Chen Kai glanced at it and said with a smile, "Is this the bowl you bought yourself?" Otherwise, you wouldn't use a bowl from Canghaishanhe, but a large iron basin made of stainless steel.

Zhang Yuanshan nodded: "I'm not used to using other people's bowls, it's like begging for food from others."

"Where do you plan to live in the future?" After entering the room, Chen Kai self-sufficiently found a place to eat noodles by himself, and looked around habitually.The most eye-catching thing is nothing more than the four-story bookshelf on the desk, which is full of books of all kinds, including textbooks for primary and secondary schools, college textbooks, novels, poetry collections, and essays.The entire room is spotless except for the bed. It can be seen that it has been tidied with care, otherwise it would not be so clean.

Zhang Yuanshan put the bowl in front of the desk and walked out, opened the door of the opposite room and took a look in, then gently closed the door and walked back to his own room.

"Is your father?" Chen Kai asked.

"Yes." Zhang Yuanshan twisted his neck: "What did you just ask me?"

"Ask where you will live in the future."

"I don't plan, it depends on where I got a job." Zhang Yuanshan said, "It's also possible to sleep under the bridge."

Chen Kai paused: "Have you slept?"

Zhang Yuanshan replied: "I just came here to sleep for a few days."

"..." Chen Kai felt that his heart was cut into several pieces by him, the pain was unbearable, and he asked after a while: "——Why?"

Zhang Yuanshan suddenly laughed, and looked back at him as if he was mentally retarded: "I was kicked out of the town. I lost the game and attracted Lu Chen. I can't stay there anymore, don't you know? My dad doesn't need money to see a doctor? That's it Savings have long been spent."

He seemed to be complaining, but also seemed to be laughing at himself, in short, it made everyone uncomfortable.

"I thought you would study elsewhere." Chen Kai murmured.

Zhang Yuanshan stared at his face, and wanted to continue to say something sarcastic, but it turned into a peaceful relationship: "After eating, take a shower, let's go back tomorrow."

Chen Kai: "I didn't bring any clothes."

Zhang Yuanshan: "Wear mine."

Chen Kai continued to ask: "...What about the underwear?"

"..." Zhang Yuanshan glared at him: "Don't wash it."

......

Half an hour later, Chen Kai was sitting comfortably by the bed wearing Zhang Yuanshan's clothes. The latter had just packed up his clothes and went to the bathroom, so he went to the desk and looked through. Zhang Yuanshan's name was written in the same handwriting. Chen Kai suddenly felt something. He raised his eyes and glanced up, and saw a folder squeezed between the hard cover book cover and the shelf partition. Maybe it was stuffed with too many things. Papers came out of the folder restlessly.

It was already 04:30 when Zhang Yuanshan took a shower, turned off the light and climbed into bed. The chickens raised somewhere outside had already crowed. Zhang Yuanshan put the pillow over his ears irritably: "Fuck, it's so noisy!"

Chen Kai was sleeping behind him, and he was very awake at the moment who couldn't fall asleep when there was a little noise.He tentatively reached out and pressed Zhang Yuanshan's waist.The latter immediately moved twenty centimeters away from him, then turned around and glared: "What are you doing?!"

Regardless of his struggle, Chen Kai brought the man back, and suddenly leaned forward to touch his lips, Zhang Yuanshan didn't dare to move immediately.Then Chen Kai touched Zhang Yuanshan's back up and down with one hand, pinched his chin with the other hand, and said softly: "My freshman family taught a third-year junior student, and his mother asked me to continue his work last month. Take him, I said no time, too busy. Two days ago, she came to me again, saying that the neighbor’s kid is in the second year of high school and wants to find someone to tutor, the salary is very high, and she asked me to help recommend someone.”

Zhang Yuanshan wanted to open his mouth, but found that the presence of another soft thing on his lips that did not belong to him was too strong, so he resisted the urge to scold his mother and ask "and then".

Looking at him like this, Chen Kai knew what he was thinking, and said slowly: "I saw the test papers on your bookshelf, high school sophomores, college students, I gave you a score. I think you can help me with this. "

He slowly recalled the questions he had read. The steps were clear and concise, not much worse than that of a student studying in the classroom.He suddenly thought of the man lying on the bed in the opposite room. He was originally a Ph. D. from a prestigious school. He was born in such a family.

He did his abacus well, but Zhang Yuanshan pushed him away with a sneer: "Did you estimate the score? Is it very high? So what, there are a few papers with full marks, and I can still give you a word for it now." It’s not bad to memorize it, but so what, Chen Kai?” Zhang Yuanshan suddenly choked up at the end: “Do you think it’s okay to pile up a beast after decades of books?”

Maybe it's because he hasn't vented in the past two years, or maybe it's the dawn of dawn that made him let go of his defenses. In short, he shed the first tear, and then he couldn't cry.

"I can't study...Chen Kai...I don't deserve to teach anyone to be a man...The school kicked me out, and the gangsters said I was useless, no one except my dad I don’t think I’m disgusting...what the hell am I, what the hell am I doing wrong?” Zhang Yuanshan grabbed Chen Kai’s collar, with a desperate expression, he growled in a low voice : "What do you think I did wrong?"

Chen Kai's eyes became sour, but he didn't dare to shed a single tear. He hugged Zhang Yuanshan in his arms, feeling like he was knocked to the bone: "You are right, you did nothing wrong. I am sorry for you... You are very good, no one dislikes you! It's me, it's me...it's me who shouldn't be."

On the day of Qiao Lin's accident, Zhang Yuanshan was angry with Chen Kai, because the person he cared about suddenly stood on the opposite side.But it's over when you're angry, and some relationships are destined to end without a problem, but he didn't expect that Chen Kai would know the truth one day, and he didn't expect that the guilt in his heart was not fake.

He had known for a long time that Chen Kai was in that university, and the names of the dormitory members written on the dormitory door could be a coincidence, but he always saw that person in the library from a distance. The girl who has been following Kai is not his eyes... Maybe the boy who was beaten by him every day has really forgotten him, and he really doesn't deserve the slightest bit of other people's true love.

The line between the two of them was tied from the very beginning, and it seemed that everything was going well in the future, but in fact, the storm was lurking.

Zhang Yuanshan almost cried to the point of dying, and Chen Kai gave him comfort all the time until the cock crowed again and the sky was bright.

"Zhang Yuanshan." Chen Kai called his name.

It took a while for the latter to get up with a nasal voice: "Yes."

Chen Kai asked: "Do you want to live a good life?"

Zhang Yuanshan was overwhelmed by his Chinese second words again, his throat was stuck and he didn't know what to say.

Chen Kai said again: "After Chen Yu told me what happened that day, I never went back to that house. I gave back half of my current scholarship and part-time salary. I am now the same as you, graduated If I can’t find a job, I will also be kicked out, and I may have to sleep under the bridge.”

"Fart," Zhang Yuanshan mocked, "What do you use what you learn?"

Chen Kai's eyes sank, and he asked, "Then what do you use what you learn?"

Zhang Yuanshan was taken aback.

Chen Kai said: "That's right, I will use my education to find a job and use my academic achievements to get a living. Why can't you? Just because your dad did something wrong? Then my dad is going to kill people outside." The real gun is done and I get an extra Chen Yu, should I die?"

Zhang Yuanshan finally raised his head and looked at him.

"The school kicked you out because you gathered a crowd to make trouble, and you couldn't get along there because you lost the game. Which one has something to do with your studies? Which one has something to do with your dad? I even have a bold guess—— Zhang Yuanshan, you can't give up on yourself."

As Chen Kai spoke slowly, warm liquid slid down the corners of his eyes into the pillowcase, leaving only a puddle of water stains.He said almost earnestly: "Just take it as my reward and try it. OK?"

Zhang Yuanshan pursed his lips and did not answer, and after a long while, he just got bored with the quilt, and said indifferently: "Don't talk, go to sleep."

Chen Kai's hands trembled a little, but he strengthened his strength a little, and hugged him close to his body. Zhang Yuanshan didn't resist, and raised his head and mocked, "You won't be able to get out of this building until you wash the pillowcase tomorrow."

"Well, I will wash it." After Chen Kai finished speaking, the two of them fell silent, and after a while he murmured again: "Are you still there when I get up tomorrow?"

Without getting an answer from Zhang Yuanshan, Chen Kai looked down and saw that the other party had already fallen asleep.He stared at it for a long time, finally sighed softly, pursed his lips and closed his eyes.

When Chen Kai woke up the next day, Zhang Yuanshan had already gone out. There was an insulated box and a key on the desk. He walked over and found a post-it note: washing machines are not allowed for pillowcases.Go out and lock the door.In a few days, I will go to your dormitory to get the key from you.

After the first sentence, he also drew a middle finger emoji. Chen Kai laughed out loud, put the post-it note into his pocket, took off the pillowcase and took it out for washing.

"Are you... Yuanshan's friend?" An old voice suddenly came from behind Xiban, Chen Kai paused with foamy hands, turned around and saw the man in the wheelchair.His legs were covered with a thin quilt, and he was bloated. He was only in his forties, his hair was already half white, and wrinkles had crept up the corners of his eyes and cheeks early.

"Uncle?" Chen Kai tentatively said, "I'm his friend."

The man's expression was a little surprised: "Did you spend the night here last night?"

Chen Kai nodded: "Yes, I didn't go back when it was too late."

"That's it," the man sighed, "Do you have a good relationship?"

Chen Kai weighed the words: "It's... okay..."

The man shook his head, the corners of his mouth that had been slumped suddenly turned up a little, and his whole face looked a lot more kind, and he said, "He won't bring friends over, let alone let others touch his pillow... ..you slept together last night?"

Chen Kai suddenly realized something. He nodded first, then washed his hands and stood beside him, squatting down and looking up at him. Only when he got close did he realize the suffering and depression in the eyes of this prematurely aging man, but because of I hope to go in with a little hope.

"Uncle," Chen Kai said sincerely, "I like him and want to have a relationship with him."

The man's old hands clenched tightly.

In the two days after returning to school, Chen Kai squatted in the dormitory almost all the time, guarding his mobile phone. Tao Aiai asked him to go to the library, but he refused.

Yu Huan couldn't stand it anymore: "Why are you so lax after going to KTV? I told you that if you continue like this, you will not get the scholarship, you, you will lose Ai Ai!"

Chen Kai glanced at him: "If you don't want to lose your Ai Ai, you can accompany her to study."

"...Isn't that good?" Yu Huan was confused.

"What's wrong?" Chen Kai looked at him with the expression of looking at a fool: "Do you see the circle of friends? The class teacher in the next class is sitting next to Ai Ai right now."

"Fuck!" Yu Huan jumped up suddenly: "That little bastard!" After speaking, he put on his clothes, took a book casually, and ran out.

Chen Kai whistled from behind, hummed a song with a smile, when the cell phone rang, it was the song "Heartstrings".

Chen Kai looked at the familiar number and almost bit his tongue, so he answered in a panic and asked where he was.

The other party only said two words: "Open the door."

Chen Kai stopped breathing for a moment, ran over and opened the door even more indistinctly than Yu Huan.

Zhang Yuanshan was wearing a long white T and denim jacket, and was still wearing a peaked cap standing at the door. When he saw him open the door, he turned his eyes from the phone to his face: "What did you and my dad say?"

Chen Kai asked with a guilty conscience: "What's wrong?"

Zhang Yuanshan grabbed his hat angrily, and scolded: "Then why is he suddenly telling me a bunch of love precautions like an old lady?! Don't tell me it's menopause!"

Chen Kai was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly stretched out his hand to hug him in the blue sky and broad daylight, buried his face on his neck and rubbed twice.

Zhang Yuanshan pushed him away and spread his hands in front of him: "Give me back the key!"

"I lost it." Chen Kai replied without changing his face.

"You!" Zhang Yuanshan gritted his teeth and cursed for a while, "Give me five yuan!"

He wondered: "Why is it five dollars?"

Zhang Yuanshan continued to curse: "Five yuan for the keys! You pay for it!"

Chen Kai rubbed his nose, and finally realized something: "Is the key for me? It's not mine, I don't pay for it."

"..." Zhang Yuanshan was speechless, withdrew his hand and turned around silently.

"Hey!" Chen Kai grabbed him, "Where are you going?"

Zhang Yuan didn't turn his head back, and a soft voice came from the front: "...go try the lecture." As if to make up for his impromptu intention, he added: "I... ...I had rehearsed it beforehand."

Chen Kai almost cried again, dragged him back to the empty dormitory, closed the door, squeezed his chin and kissed him.The peaked cap was squeezed to the ground, but his hands were tightly bound.Zhang Yuanshan hugged him quietly, raised his head to cooperate with his temptation and offensive, Chen Kai was very surprised by his initiative.

Three minutes later, Chen Kai retreated out of breath, Zhang Yuanshan squatted down to pick up his hat, and Chen Kai suddenly said: "I always wanted to ask you, why do you listen to "Heartstrings"?" It was also used as a ringtone for several years.

Zhang Yuanshan asked back: "Aren't you too?" He stood up and looked at Chen Kai: "I heard it outside the door."

Chen Kai pursed his lips, and suddenly laughed softly.

"Heartstring", HeartLinked, means the heart is connected.There are many spearheads pointing at me in this world, but you are always my way back.There are many interpretations of this song, one of which is to experience indifference and despair, break through the shackles in the abyss of lonely struggle, and live to death.

The author has something to say: I recommend the song "HeartLinked"! I think Jannik's music is in a genre of its own, and "Jing Hong" and "Three Lives Tree" are very classic songs!

The story of the little prince Kaikai is over. In fact, Chen Kai’s character is not what I expected, but it says that I think this person should not be useless. No matter who he is, he should be powerful, at least able to carry Those who can bear the responsibility may have done wrong things in the past, which would be a lifetime of regrets in the real world, but I hope that every regret can be made up, and everyone's heart has a place of return.

Then the next chapter is about Qiao Lin and Su Miao's side story. This article was written before the end of the main text. It's about the two adults when they become adults. The style of painting may be a bit immature...