How many buildings are in the mist

Cui Xuanji was half drunk that night, Feng Zihuan let her sleep outside.Cui Xuanji said that I was on duty, how can I sleep, and Feng Zihuan said that you are so close to me, you just need to be more vigilant.The results of it?When she woke up, Feng Zihuan woke up too.How wonderful it is to wake up together {104}, even though we sleep in different rooms, the first person we see when we wake up is each other, which still makes Cui Xuanji feel extremely happy.

On the first day of the first lunar month, there are such happy things, and this year will definitely be good.

A few snowfalls fell in the first month, and the scenery in Jiankang was wonderful for a while, and even the mood of the people improved.Among them, the most excited and anxious person must be Duan Qichen.It was the celebration of the Shangyuan {105}, and Zhu Xianwan took her to light lamps and worship Buddha together, but she was also absent-minded.Everyone stood on the stage, and the dark female officials below, Zhu Xianwan looked at her for a while by the light of the torch, then gently pulled her sleeves and said: "I know you want them to come quickly, but everyone below is watching." .do not do that."

Duan Qichen smiled at Zhu Xianwan with difficulty.

Feng Zihuan intentionally took advantage of this to make a show, so he allowed Duan Qichen to go out of the city to meet him under the escort of Cui Xuanji.Those who came to Jiankang Chaohe this time included her cousins, distant uncles, her father's former generals, and her nurturing nurse who had been close since childhood.It not only takes care of state affairs, but also solves their lovesickness.Zhu Xianwan waited with everyone in the palace. First, people kept reporting where the team had gone. Gradually, they saw guards of ceremonies coming in, and then a group of Xianbei people on horseback and carriages led by Cui Xuanji. Among them was Duan Qichen. Dressed in Hanfu, quite eye-catching.

The chariots and horses stopped, everyone got down and stood up; and Duan Qichen came up gracefully.Zhu Xianwan was taken aback for a moment, she remembered that Duan Qichen once told her that she wanted to stand with the clansmen and salute together.She looked down at the Duanbu nobles, everyone looked at Duan Qichen with different expressions: some were proud, some were contemptuous, some were mournful, some were indifferent.

The master of ceremonies ordered to salute, and bowed below.Feng Zihuan said some clichés again, and then the Duanbu nobles went to rest, waiting for the banquet in the afternoon.Zhu Xianwan walked back and saw Duan Qichen coming towards her.She glanced at the people below and left obediently.Duan Qichen came over, Zhu Xianwan saw her pale face, immediately took her hand and said: "What's wrong?"

"It's okay, it's okay. It's you, what are you thinking?" Duan Qichen said with a smile, "You must come to the banquet. My cousins ​​brought a music and dance troupe, which is very beautiful." Zhu Xianwan grew up under strict parental discipline, She is the best at observing words and expressions, knowing that she must have something on her mind, but it is inconvenient to say anything, so she just answered along the way: "We must go to the banquet, where the sacred decree is placed. The music and dance team?" She had an idea, "Could it be better than you?"

Zhu Xianwan did it on purpose, and Duan Qichen really laughed.

"I've fed you up, no way. I've danced for you, four or five times, what reward will you give me?"

This is the Duan Qichen she is familiar with.The two returned to the palace with a smile.But after going back, Zhu Xianwan was still not at ease. After sitting for a while, she couldn't bear it anymore, so she sent the maid to find out where Cui Xuanji was, and please come here if there is nothing wrong.From time to time, Cui Xuanji would come over.

"The next official pays homage to Concubine Ning. I don't know if the lady ordered someone to call me over. Is there something wrong?"

"I want to know, um..." She lowered her head and thought about the words, "When Duanbu came today, what happened?"

"Something happened? What does your empress mean?"

"I was not happy to see Concubine Duan coming back. I wonder if something happened at that time?"

Cui Xuanji said: Originally, when we first met, Duan Qichen saw people and horses banners from a distance, and wept with joy, Cui Xuanji even lent her his handkerchief to wipe his tears.Unexpectedly, this group of people got closer, but not everyone had a good face when they saw Concubine Duan.Concubine Duan's uncle and younger brother looked dissatisfied with her when they came up, especially that younger brother, Concubine Duan was still reminiscing about the old days with him, saying something about how old you were when you left, how tall you are now, and how tall you are now. Tall and strong, just like the younger brother given by God; I didn't expect the prince to say, I don't have such a sister who can't give birth to a child.

"At that time, the prince hit the prince. However, Concubine Duan's face changed, alas."

"What about the others?"

"A position is distinguished by dignity, and the female relatives didn't say anything."

Zhu Xianwan was silent for a while, then got up and thanked Cui Xuanji.I wanted to get up and go to see Duan Qichen, but felt that I could not act rashly, so I arranged for the maid to go and see the situation first.Hearing that Duan Qichen was reminiscing with his nurse and sister, he was relieved.

Unexpectedly, at the banquet, the prince who had heard that he could perform a martial arts competition would not give up even to the death, insisting on competing with Cui Xuanji, but he was indeed defeated, so he had to sit down humiliated and drink endlessly.Seeing this, Feng Zihuan didn't bother to talk to each other, and chatted with Duan Qichen's cousin about customs and homework, and talked about insignificant state affairs with the uncle who was the head of the mission.She didn't want to get too involved, but unavoidably, the uncle still held up his wine glass and said, "Thank you for your hospitality. It is indeed a great honor for our country to be able to form a friendly state with Shengchao." He saw Feng Zihuan There seemed to be a little displeasure in his slightly narrowed eyes, but the purpose of this trip was here, so he insisted: "Being a friend, we should work hard for the same goal. I don't know when His Majesty plans to make a northern expedition to Murong Yanguo?"

The audience was silent for a while, only the band played calmly at a suitable distance.Zhu Xian turned his head to look at Feng Zihuan, and naturally saw Duan Qichen who was silently staring at the case in front of him.She heard Feng Zihuan say: "The time has not come yet, we need to wait for our country to be strong and have all the supplies, and we also need to wait for the Murong Yan State to take advantage of it." She also saw Duan Qichen's tearful mourning and bitter smile Hesitating between ideas.After Feng Zihuan changed the topic to Murong Yanguo, Duan Qichen noticed Zhu Xianwan's gaze, turned his head and smiled at her.

Duan Qichen was laughing, but Zhu Xianwan really wanted to say, don't cry.

That uncle talked for a long time, and he also found that he did not bring any valuable information, and it would be shameless to ask Fengzi Huanxing to attack the Murong family.After drinking a few rounds of wine with Feng Zihuan, the prince said: "It's all my fault for being incompetent and unable to share your majesty's worries." While speaking, he looked sharply at Duan Qichen who was opposite him.Duan Qichen lowered his eyes and didn't look at anyone.Zhu Xianwan felt that her usual arrogance was gone, and her figure shrunk into a ball.

Feng Zihuan said with a smile, yes and no, there is a priority in overcoming difficulties, start with the simple ones, and then gradually overcome the most difficult ones.Then he introduced the improved clothes of the ladies in the palace to this group of people, talked about it, and even brought Zhu Xianwan together.When it was called Zhu Xianwan, Zhu Xianwan received Feng Zihuan's fleeting eyes, immediately understood, and dragged on all the way, refusing to put the topic back.It was well said, Zhu Xianwan tried hard to observe everyone's expressions to make sure that no one was bothering her. Just as she was about to talk about Fengxi learning the pipa, the prince suddenly put the wine glass on the table, and the sound alarmed everyone. Cui Xuanji and Feng Zihuan who were sitting were unmoved.

The prince scolded in a low voice, but the drunken prince was unmoved, and was still muttering: "What's the use of these women's things! Men go to the battlefield to fight! Fight! Only useful! A woman's home cannot kill people, and she cannot have children when she retreats. What's the use! Decoration!" He said and threw the wine glass out.

The prince slapped him across the face, then stood up and apologized to Feng Zihuan.Feng Zihuan smiled and said no problem, "The prince is just drunk, go back and rest first."

She said these words calmly, but with unquestionable majesty.It's as if even if the prince is not drunk, he must be drunk now.And Cui Xuanji tacitly led the four guards of the Habayashi up there, half-supporting and half-struggling the prince away from the banquet.Zhu Xianwan quickly glanced around the faces of the crowd, and then glanced at Duan Qichen. Seeing her lonely face, she immediately said to the Duanbu nobleman opposite: "Alcoholic wine is intoxicating, and the wine in the south is not like the wine in the north. I heard that the wine in the north is imported It is strong, and those who drink it will know how much they have drunk; southern wine is soft in the mouth, and it is easy to get drunk. The small kitchen in my palace is very good at making hangover soup. I will send someone to make it right away and send it to the prince. .After the banquet is over, the prince and princess have to drink a bowl before leaving."

The other side naturally pushed the boat with the flow, changed the subject to thank first, and then asked Concubine Ning if she had a secret recipe for hangover soup.Seeing that the other party went down this step, Zhu Xianwan immediately smiled and said: "There is no secret recipe, but it has been practiced and succeeded. Last time, Sister Duan was at the Mid-Autumn Festival banquet. If you drink too much, you should drink my hangover soup."

Everyone laughed, and Duan Qichen also laughed—even with a little shyness on his face—"What are you doing, why are you talking about this?" Zhu Xianwan said: "Oh, you are obviously the one who is drunk, why don't you let me talk about it? "Feng Zihuan immediately joined the battle, "I don't even know, so there is such a thing? It seems that you shouldn't be allowed to drink three cups." Anyway, you can't blame the emperor, Duan Qichen immediately explained, Zhu Xianwan still didn't let it go She interjected impolitely from one side all the way: "Although today is the reception, but it is said that it is my relatives and friends, and it is also a family banquet. Just admit it! You are overjoyed, and you are so happy that you are dizzy."

Duan Qichen blushed with embarrassment, and Feng Zihuan also condescendingly claimed to be my fault in order to ease the atmosphere.

This conversation didn't end, Zhu Xianwan took the initiative to greet Duan Qichen's nurse who had been sitting behind the princess, and asked if Duan Qichen was as good at singing and dancing as he is now when he was a child.The wet nurse replied in substandard Chinese, and Zhu Xianwan slowed down to chat with her again.Taking the opportunity, he talked a lot about Duan Qichen's upbringing of Feng Xi in the palace, and even took a look at Feng Xu.Feng Xu, who was sitting on the side, immediately understood and whispered a few words to Feng Xi, Feng Xi immediately stood up and begged to dance.Feng Zihuan agreed, and ordered Cewu to come to accompany him.Feng Xi walked to the middle, and said to Feng Zihuan and the prince of Duanbu, it's a pity that he doesn't have clothes like Duanbu's, please forgive me.It was rare for Feng Zihuan to see his daughter so well-behaved and obedient, and his heart was bursting with joy.

After Fengxi finished dancing, the wet nurse wanted to say something, but she couldn't express it well, so she said it to the princess first in Xianbei, and the princess relayed, and the nanny said, looking at the princess like this, she really looks like her sister when she was a child.

Zhu Xianwan looked at Duan Qichen at the side, and Duan Qichen was actually smiling gratifiedly.

The mission stayed for ten days and met with some senior officials in the city before leaving.What's interesting is that the prince didn't appear again. Zhu Xianwan only heard from Feng Zihuan later that the prince was taken hunting by Cui Xuanji.Taking advantage of the wind direction, the mission went back.It was Feng Zihuan's order that Cui Xuanji escorted Duan Qichen to the pier to see him off.Zhu Xianwan had no reason to go, she wanted to stir up Feng Xi, so that she could take care of Feng Xi and went together, but Feng Xi felt a little cold, so she had to wait in the palace.In other words, she didn't go to see her off, she was clearly going to pick up a sad Duan Qichen back.Counting the time, she sent the maid from time to time to see if Duan Qichen had returned.The maid ran several times and still didn't find anyone. Zhu Xianwan was worried whether she had been delayed for too long.The maid said, Your Majesty, why don't you go to the Xiyue Tower to watch, the building is so tall that you can always see people and carriages entering the palace gate when you face north.

When Zhu Xianwan went up the tower, she saw thick and gloomy clouds, as if it was going to snow.She sent someone to get the umbrella, but before the umbrella came back, the snow started to fall, and she also saw Duan Qichen coming back from a distance.

She saw Duan Qichen walking very slowly, as if she had lost all her strength, so she rushed downstairs, ignoring the maid behind telling her to slow down, the floor was slippery.

Zhu Xianwan was weak and couldn't run for long, so she hurried and finally stopped Duan Qichen at the gate of Duan Qichen's palace.One was out of breath, and the other was still in tears.Zhu Xianwan couldn't speak, so she stepped forward and hugged Duan Qichen.I heard Duan Qichen's almost suppressed weeping, other than that, the surroundings didn't even hear Xueluozhi.After a while, Duan Qichen said softly: "It's snowing, let's go in and talk."

"What, how?" The two sat down, the hand stove and brazier were brought up, Zhu Xianwan was still out of breath.

"The direction of the wind is not bad, and we got on the boat safely."

"Okay, okay, hoo..."

"At the banquet that day, thank you for helping me...help me smooth things over." Zhu Xianwan was receiving hot tea from the maid, and turned to look at Duan Qichen, seeing that she was already crying and had no time to wipe it away.

"What are you talking about," Zhu Xianwan replied in a low voice, "Could it be that I'm still—" Pausing, pondering over the words, saying "bullying" or "ridiculing" seems inappropriate, after all, they are her clansmen ,But……

"You bullied me?" Duan Qichen said, "You and His Majesty have saved me, thank you. I... can't repay you, but I will keep it in my heart, and I will definitely—"

She stopped because Zhu Xianwan suddenly stood up, walked to her side and said, "Your Majesty knows, and I know even more, none of those...crimes were your responsibility. It's not your fault, and you shouldn't be treated like that." .Others don’t understand, but I still don’t understand?”

Duan Qichen nodded after hearing this, tears rolled down again, gradually couldn't stop crying, and threw his whole body into Zhu Xianwan's arms.Zhu Xianwan had no choice but to sit beside her and hold her shoulders.Duan Qichen was sobbing and complaining intermittently, Zhu Xianwan said it when he was sad, and told me, Duan Qichen shook his head, Zhu Xianwan said softly: "If you don't tell me, who will you tell it to? Tell me." Duan Qichen said Talking about living in the homeland with my cousin and nurse, how homesick I am; talking about how my uncle’s governance ability is not as good as my father’s, and the life of the people in the old country is difficult, how miserable; talking about the uncle who came this time before leaving, he also accused her of being in the diplomatic relations between the two countries. It didn't play the role that they hoped to play when they got married at that time, and it made the clan members feel ashamed, which was even more sad; the cousin didn't say anything, but just spat in front of her.

"They're right, and they're not wrong."

"Nonsense, Duan Qichen, answer me—" Zhu Xianwan held her face that was much fairer than her own, usually seductive and affectionate, but now tears were pouring down her face, and said in a serious and serious tone, "Are you such a person? It's not yours." Wrong, do you insist on taking it on yourself? Are you such a person who will suffer from other people's nonsensical criticism?" Duan Qichen was stunned for a moment, his eyes were full of tears, and his face was blank.

"You are not, the Duan Qichen I know is not like this. The Duan Qichen I know is beautiful, smart, decisive, and brave; he does everything he says, is very friendly to others, and is very enthusiastic about his own life. Others’ criticisms will shake you; you are a beautiful flower, never hesitate to bloom your own brilliance, and it will become more and more radiant; you never avoid what is yours, and you will never accept what is not you. You, you are self-contained, You clearly know who you are, and you are never confused. You know that you live to be happy, for your own happiness, not for those messy things."

Zhu Xianwan didn't know where she got the strength to talk so much without stopping.Duan Qichen looked at her for a long time, and finally burst into tears.

"Thank you."

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{104} Interlude: Elizabeth Bishop has a poem of the same name, which I love.

{105} Lantern Festival.