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"Eventually, our relationship became a little deformed."

"The media are all guessing that we broke up again. In fact, they can't guess for sure, because we have been separated and reunited countless times. Every time we quarreled, we said we broke up, and after a while, we reunited because we couldn't bear each other. Well, later I also realized what happened. The past disputes were caused by me, and I felt guilty towards him, so I was willing to bow my head and reconcile our conflicts. At the same time, he also made Adjust, try to be more active towards me, let go of your personality, and get in touch with me more..."

"In fact, it is rumored that we have been entangled for more than ten years, 20 years. This statement is wrong."

Qu Ruping suddenly said this.

"During this process, we both had certain boyfriends, not just to be angry with each other, but because we were really tired and didn't want to entangle any more. So strictly speaking, the time we fell in love was actually fragmented, and Most of the time is at work, and the real contact and time together are very little. After the age of 20, our careers are very smooth, so we are actually much busier than some people imagine, and we don’t have so much time to talk At the same time, because our relationship has attracted much attention, and it has indeed had twists and turns before, the direction of public opinion has become more and more dramatic. When there are too many things mixed with emotion, and it itself is shaky, sometimes I It felt as if tangling with him was a mission in my life that had to be done in my life. And the film would never wrap up, and I was tired of having to stay engaged all the time.”

"I didn't have a breakthrough with him until I was 28 years old. At that time, I temporarily marked him. Because both parties are public figures, and his glands are not very good, the company can't really mark it with repeated orders, and I don't want him. In the end, I regretted it and went to have surgery to remove the marks. I suffered that crime, which was a devastating blow to Omega's body. He was not in good health, and he had no desire for marriage, and he had always been in a state of rejection. He did this for me. , is already a lot of concessions."

"We have grown up and matured a lot, and we no longer quarrel so fiercely when we have disagreements. I value marriage very much because of my family, but his ideas are more westernized and he doesn't plan to get married. With At the same time, his health is not very good, which affects his mood very much. It is difficult for us to really quarrel at this time, and it is tiring to talk to each other. It is just that we still can't really let go."

"I proposed to him a few times, and once he let go, we met each other's parents. Because of what happened in the past, his parents and friends didn't like me very much, and my family also thought he was too much. Aloof, not really love me, in order to persuade them, we spent a lot of effort. But one night, he couldn't take it anymore, he called me and told me that he really wanted to end it, he was fed up To cater to cp fans, and tired of the media reports day and night, relatives and friends all opposed without exception, so he didn't have the slightest confidence in this marriage. He said he couldn't completely trust me. In the past It hurt him too much."

"So we broke up again. Maybe we broke up too many times. I almost didn't feel it. I broke up habitually, as if you knew you would get back together, but it felt different that time. I could feel it. He was I really don't want to continue."

"As before, I used to keep him after a brief, weary grief. Only this time I lost my way, and my goal was not so clear. In fact, the more times I kept him, his Rejection will also appear muddy, but we seem to be less attentive, and each other is very absent-minded. I gradually realized that when I heard his name, my first reaction was no longer nostalgia and reluctance, and it was not like in the past. All kinds of tenderness came to my heart, replaced by exhaustion and tiredness, which already shows that our relationship has come to an end."

During the previous narration, Qu Ruping kept looking away, but at this point, he suddenly raised his head and looked at Lu Yanting: "Lin Ke and I are friends who have known each other a long time ago, and he is also Jian Hung's good friend. He is good, but he has never been in a relationship and knows little about love. He has always been a matchmaker for me and Jianhong. When I was young, I communicated with him a lot and vomited a lot of bitterness. Impression, let him feel that I have always been thankless in this relationship, so he thinks I can't let him go. I can guess

What he said to you, but that was all my subjective opinion at the time. Like Jian Hung, he has paid a lot and lost a lot.In this relationship, no one is right or wrong. We have tried our best, worked hard, tortured, redeemed, and given up on each other. Up to now, it is really over. "

Lu Yanting seemed to be out of his soul. He was at a loss and found that he couldn't digest so much content in a short time. At this time, the surrounding was quiet, and he suddenly felt a kind of inability to grasp in this lonely environment. Feeling a sense of panic, he suddenly asked, "Then you..."

He paused, there were too many, but he was reluctant to ask.

"I didn't expect it to be like this," Lu Yanting said in a low voice. He touched his head and lowered his head with one arm, "It's like this..."

Qu Ruping looked at him in the afterglow, showing a pale and gentle smile.

He leaned back on the head of the bed and said to Lu Yanting: "You have to know, if I were another person, I would never say these things."

He looked up at the nothingness in the sky: "Actually, before I met you, I knew that I would never be happy in this life."

Lu Yanting listened to him in a daze.

Today, he finally got his wish and saw Qu Ruping, which was totally different from usual.

But he didn't know why, and suddenly wished that all this had never happened.

Because his teacher Qu doesn't look happy enough.

It shouldn't be like this.

should not.

Qu Ruping suddenly pointed to his ears: "Here, it's not very good. It's worse to hear things, you know that."

"But relatively, the sense of smell is sharper than other alphas." Qu Ruping touched his nose and looked at Lu Yanting, "When we first met, I smelled the pheromones on your body."

"At that time, I liked it very much. Before you paid attention to me, I already had feelings for you."

Qu Ruping smiled and said, "I know you never believed that I have feelings for you."

"It's not fair to you just to say 'feeling'," Qu Ruping looked up again, his voice was very soft, "It's not fair to me either."

He touched his heart: "Here, I don't think so."

He said.

"I don't seem to deserve so much, so good. But you gave me all these things, and you gave me a taste of what it's like to have these things."

His fingers draw circles in the air.

"You know? I've been making a preparation, and I know I can't be so ugly this time," he said with a low smile, "One day, you will take these back."

"I am waiting for this day to come, it may be today, or it may be tomorrow..."

Lu Yanting said, "You never told me this."

"Well," Qu Ruping covered his eyes with his hands, but said, "I don't know."

Lu Yanting asked him: "Lin Ke told me that you told him before that you felt that you had lost the ability to love someone."

Qu Ruping: "Yes."

"..."

"He said that you plan to get married at the age of 35. But what you said just now, do you think that I am very young and may not marry me in the end, so the time you spend on me now may be invalid? Did you always think so?"

"Yes."

"Oh," Lu Yanting agreed, and was silent for a while, "He also said that if I leave, you won't keep me, is it true?"

It took Qu Ruping a long time to say: "Yes."

Lu Yanting: "So, I can stop whenever I call?"

"……Yes."

Lu Yanting drooped her head: "Oh."

After being quiet for a while, Qu Ruping heard rustling noises, and Lu Yanting got out of bed and walked on the floor.

the door opened,

Closed again.

he's gone.

Qu Ruping put his hand down, he was stunned for a while.

Then, he looked at the coat on the table, reached out and took it over, covering his head.

The hands on the clock are ticking.

Qu Ruping remained motionless, sitting quietly under his clothes.

Suddenly, he flung his coat away.He bent his back and rubbed his eyes vigorously.

He fumbled for his phone, squinting hard to check the time.

He got out of bed, hurried to the door, and opened it.

He took two steps back.

Lu Yanting stood at the door, rushed forward, and gave him a strong hug: "Why did you come here!"

Lu Yanting raised her head and asked with a smile, "What should I do? You made me wait for you for 7 minutes."

Qu Ruping turned a deaf ear, his eyes were bloodshot, staring at Lu Yanting without blinking.

"Hush - I don't care where you are going or what you are doing, as long as you open this door, you will come to me." Lu Yanting put her hand in Qu Ruping's hanging hand , "So now I am yours and will never leave you again."

"But Teacher Qu," Lu Yanting nodded his nose, "Tell me about you, can you not be tired? I thought I was the only one who had these negative thoughts, so you hide them so deeply. Yes People who rely on the old and sell the old are used to it, and they really regard themselves as lonely, tell me, does he deserve it?"

Lu Yanting leaned over, hugged his waist, raised her head and continued to playfully said: "I already know that you are a coward! But you don't have to be afraid, because I will protect you."

Lu Yanting jumped twice.

"Since you are hard of hearing, I will speak closer to you."

Lu Yanting stood on tiptoe and tried to get it together, Qu Ruping suddenly held up his buttocks, hugged him and lifted him vigorously, Lu Yanting hugged him as he wished, and said close to his ear:

"Listen up—"

"I love you most."

"I don't care how many boyfriends you have had before, and who you have been in love with for more than ten or twenty years. Whether it’s the media you don’t want to let go of, I can’t listen to anything they say.”

You think the tone is not enough, so he raised his voice and said: "I can't listen!"

Then, he bit Qu Ruping's ear ferociously: "Because the past from now on, the real, the eternal, all--all have passed! Don't worry that I will retreat because of these, I will You won't leave yourself and run away because of your so-called past, you will always remember this!"

"As for the things you are worried about, I will tell you now, all of them: I am indeed much younger than you, my body is full of uncertainties, and my love may be fleeting, but I will tell you A word." His originally fierce tone suddenly weakened, and after a long time, he pressed his flushed cheeks to Qu Ruping's cold face, and whispered, "I want to give birth to you."

After finishing speaking, he quickly turned his face away, pursed his lips and looked at Mr. Qu who was completely stunned.

His cheeks were hot and his eyes were blinking wetly.

"Hug me, Mr. Qu, from now on, I'm yours."