[Jing Yuan] Arriving from afar

12.

I felt cold all over my body, and for the first time, I had the idea of ​​fleeing.

Zhang Yuan took a step closer, and he took a step back, until he leaned against the wet and cold wall, and could no longer retreat.His brain was wooden, as if it had been poured with thick glue, even if the gears were bitten hard, they couldn't move.

Zhang Yuan stretched out his hand, and the torrential rain instantly drenched those knuckle fingers thoroughly, covering them with a shimmering film. He grabbed Jing Ran's collar and forcefully pulled him under his umbrella, with a strong The gesture and tone questioned him: "Where are you from?"

Before the words fell, those eyes looked at him deeply, as if there was no need for the process of gathering, tears fell down in an instant: "Say it..."

"I," he opened his mouth in an orderly manner, whispering to himself, "I come from your house, you said..."

Zhang Yuan sat on the edge of the bed, his bare ankles were surprisingly thin, he said [It's raining outside. 】

It was clearly sunny... I stretched out my palms out of the umbrella in a daze, and the rain hit my wet palms like a line, forming a puddle in an instant: "Say, it's raining outside."

Zhang Yuan grabbed his collar and asked more anxiously: "When?"

when?

Blinking his eyes in a daze, he said, "Evening."

"I said time, what date is it?"

"January……"

What's the date?This period of time didn't pass slowly, Jing Ran didn't pay much attention to the concept of time, what date was it? Number 10?Or number 11?

"I, I forgot." Jing looked at Zhang Yuan blankly, with a look of embarrassment.

After a while, Zhang Yuan nodded.

"It's okay, think about it slowly."

He loosened Jing Ran's collar, he was too close, so close that he could kiss him as soon as he lowered his head, the delicate tip of his nose was red, right in front of Jing Ran's eyes, he swallowed involuntarily, hesitating whether to avoid it .The person in front of him lowered his eyebrows, his hands were still resting on his collar, not clenched, and his fingers lightly touched the skin of his collarbone.

The body washed by the cold rain was icy cold, but Zhang Yuan's fingers were warm, and when he rested on them, he looked hot.

"Well," Zhang Yuan sighed vaguely, and said softly, "I miss you so much."

Jing Ran's heart seemed to be pulled and pulled up, and his breath suddenly became unstable, making it difficult to breathe.

He touched Zhang Yuan's wrist holding the umbrella handle, took the umbrella from him, and hesitantly put Zhang Yuan into his arms with the other hand.

His movements are stiff, but Zhang Yuan is docile, just like the one curled up because of stomach pain.

Even with the cold rain all over his body, Zhang Yuan was still buried in his arms like a piece of carbon.

Jing Ran was still dazed, but hugged the person in his arms tightly, Zhang Yuan was still thin, half of his face lay on the side of his neck, making it scorching hot.

In addition to the thorough sea breeze wrapped in cedar, there is also a strange smell in my arms.

——A vague milky smell floated over, as if the person had spilled a bottle of milk and hadn't cleaned it up, it was very weak.

13.

They went back to the road that was neither long nor short, and went home.

The last time I was stepping on the snow, neatly wrapped in Zhang Yuan's down jacket, followed behind him, watching his tall and thin back wrapped in the ironed suit.

Now holding an umbrella in an orderly manner, he and Zhang Yuan are walking in the rain side by side.He was in a hurry when he went out, obviously feeling awkward, but he still wanted to bring Xiao Fei back quickly, he didn't even put on his coat in a hurry, he only put on a black turtleneck sweater, now the sweater Wet by the rain and wrapped around his body, it made him feel uncomfortable all over.Jing Ran lowered his head, his expressionless face looked gloomy, and the handle of the umbrella was obviously tilted towards Zhang Yuan. Most of Jing Ran's body was in the rain, but he followed Zhang Yuan silently as if he didn't know it.

The two were speechless all the way.

Jing Ran actually had a lot of questions, but he didn't dare to ask any of them. He remained silent as if evading, for fear that the naked answer would overwhelm him.

escape……

But he couldn't escape at all, this absurd prank spread the truth in front of him, making him feel like a pain in the back.

Zhang Yuan was right beside him, and the pheromones that couldn't be concealed were showing their teeth and claws, and the two smells mixed together were so lingering, and both of them showed his ownership.

absurd.

Clutching the handle of the umbrella neatly, he hated his own reaction for a moment, and he understood almost immediately why the vague familiarity he felt when he first met Zhang Yuan was due to the residual Alpha pheromone or Not scattered, he is familiar with himself.And all this is due to the thin blocking chip on the back of Zhang Yuan's neck.

He even forgot that the side effect of blocking the chip is that it will continue to clean the pheromone of the person who marked Omega until the chip is taken out.

He marked Zhang Yuan and entered him.

The Alpha he ridiculed for being irresponsible was himself.

This is nothing short of a joke.

"What are you stunned for?"

Zhang Yuan pulled Jing Ran and dragged him into the corridor. He should be cold, stomping his feet like a deer, and the footsteps sounded in the empty corridor.Put away the umbrella neatly, shake off the water above, followed Zhang Yuan upstairs.

Zhang Yuan now has almost no secrets in front of Jing Ran, without the turbulent waves when they first met, the slightly salty pheromones carried the sea breeze, and excited waves rippled on the sea surface.

Zhang Yuan walked in front of him, even his steps seemed joyful, with an incomprehensible happiness.

The resentment from the first meeting was gone, disappeared without a trace, and Jing Ran couldn't help thinking, doesn't he hate himself?

He stepped into the house full of life again, even though he had just left it not long ago, it seemed that many things were different, and it was a little messy, and the whole house was filled with a milky smell.

It was different from the milk powder he had soaked, and the strangeness made him flustered.

It wasn't until Zhang Yuan took his hand and led him all the way to the bedroom that he realized why he was panicking, and what Zhang Yuan... was happy about.

Like presenting a treasure, Zhang Yuan pulled Jing Ran to the crib: "Look."

His voice was extremely soft, almost a whisper.

The baby was so small, sleeping soundly, with a red face, and wrinkled hands sticking out of the quilt.He was really too small, and looked fragile, his body was hidden under the quilt, and he couldn't even breathe.

He closed his eyes tightly now, but Jing Ran knew what it looked like when those eyes were open.

It must be black and boundless, always spinning around, calling him crisply: "papa!"

If guilt was a sharp knife, it would have already turned the world upside down in the orderly flesh and blood.

The burning feeling swallowed him up almost instantly, and he took a majestic step back. The little baby was like a scourge, making him bow his head hastily.

Jing Ran didn't know how to face Zhang Yuan, all this made him at a loss, and he didn't know what expression to face.

The cold rain on his body has not yet dissipated, his eyes are lowered orderly, some long forehead hair is dripping on his eyes, the handsome face lined by a black turtleneck sweater is pale, his lips trembled, and he lowered his eyes. He opened his mouth: "Zhang Yuan, I..."

What should he say?

Apologize?

The predicament played him around like a grotesque prank, and made him a jerk without knowing it.

He marked an Omega, let him give birth to his own child, and then abandoned him, and sat proudly at the Omega's dining table, pointing fingers at his current situation.

Jing Ran is a proud son of heaven. He was born in a well-off family, and his starting point is higher than many others. He is born smart and arrogant, but he has not suffered setbacks, but he can hold his head high when his father slaps him. At this moment, when facing Zhang Yuan, he feels ashamed.

"Shh." Zhang Yuan made a gesture, pushed Jing Ran out of the bedroom, and walked to the door lightly, "I'll get you some clothes, should you change first? You're all wet."

Grabbing Zhang Yuan's hand neatly: "Let's talk first."

He tightly held that bony hand, the fingers were neatly trimmed, but under the fingertips they looked blue and white. He still remembered the last time they sat together to eat, that hand was holding the chopsticks, and the fingers were pink.

It's not like being sick now.

Zhang Yuan just gave birth not long ago, so he will look very unhealthy.

He furrowed his brows neatly, and his face turned serious again.He had seen it before, it was in Zhang Yuan's cell phone.

"I'm sorry, Zhang Yuan," Jing Ran's voice was low and hoarse, and he couldn't hear clearly, "I'm sorry."

After a long time, Zhang Yuan sighed. He raised his hand and pushed back his neat forehead hair, inserted his five fingers into the damp hair roots, rubbed the back of his head there, and said in a deep voice, "Brother, don't apologize."

He raised his head neatly and looked at him with a complicated expression.

Zhang Yuan called him brother.

He is younger than Jing Ran, so there is nothing wrong with calling him brother.But when Zhang Yuan said this title, it took on a different color, making it seem intimate and ambiguous.

The Zhang Yuan he had met before had never been called that. How many things did he hide?

The mystery of Zhang Yuan was only peeled off in front of him, and it almost made him unable to stand.

Zhang Yuan poured a cup of hot water for Jing Ran, asked him to hold it in his hand, and sat down to have a good talk with him.

Jing Ran has probably never been so dejected in front of others in her entire life, as if her muscles had been cramped.He sat on the chair with his head down, his arms resting on his knees on both sides. His forehead hair was pulled back, revealing his full forehead. He was good-looking, handsome and sharp, and he should obviously look imposing, but Because of the bewildered expression, he looked a little pitiful.

Jing Ran never allowed himself to do this, but in front of Zhang Yuan, he couldn't care less.

It is now May 2017, 4.

Calculating carefully, at this time, Xiaofei's birthday is January 1th, and he was just over two months old.

Jingran is actually not that easy to be defeated, but it took him a lot of effort to put all his emotions together. He was silent for a long time, so long that Zhang Yuan couldn't help but touch his arm, and then he showed a wry smile: "The future You didn't tell me anything."

Zhang Yuan bit his lip, his teeth were flat and white, imprinted on his plump lips, he looked a little gorgeous, he was affected by the well-organized emotions, and the corners of his eyes were also closed, his eyes were watery, his voice was very low, like It's to defend yourself in the future, and it's like complaining: "I can understand myself, even if I say it, do you believe it? You have an Omega and a child out of thin air?" He paused, then muttered softly He said, "When you first told me that, I thought you were sick."

His last sentence was so soft that Jing Ran didn't hear it at all.

"You should at least tell me that Xiao Fei is my son, at least let me..." Jing Ran opened his mouth and laughed self-deprecatingly, "At least make me not such a jerk."

"Xiao Fei?" Zhang Yuan repeated.

Jingran was stunned for a while, and also a little confused: "Ah."

Zhang Yuan tilted his head slightly, and blinked his eyes suspiciously.

"The child's name is Zhang Fei, isn't it?" Jing Ran said, "Fei is so brilliant."

"I haven't given him a name yet." Zhang Yuan blinked, his eyes sparkling, and suddenly smiled, his eyes curved into two arcs, "It's amazing, this name is very good."

Fei, Ran, Cheng, Zhang.

Looking at Zhang Yuan in a daze, he felt that he was a complete idiot.

People are probably like this. When you have no feelings, you can't see it when you spread it out in front of your eyes.Once the heart is moved, reading it once is like going through a knife, and it hurts sharply.

It turned out that this name was taken by him.

14.

Well, I felt like I was addicted to smoking.

During the time I spent with Zhang Yuan and his son, because there were children at home, Jing Ran wanted to smoke but endured it. Zhang Yuan took care of him and would put cigarettes and lighters beside his bed.If he was really bored, he would go downstairs to smoke one, and then go upstairs after the smell of the smoke dissipated.

Now he couldn't bear it anymore, he was so anxious that he desperately wanted to suppress something.

"Is there any smoke?" He asked Zhang Yuan.

Zhang Yuan stood up and walked into the bedroom. After a while, he took out something and put it on the table. It was a lighter and a pack of cigarettes.

He opened the pack of cigarettes neatly, but there was not a single pack, only a half pack, which seemed to have been stored for a long time, and had a special musty smell.

"It's moldy, I can't smoke anymore." Zhang Yuan said, "You can't bear it, or I'll go down and buy it for you."

Jing Ran took hold of the cigarette case, folded the case, and pinched it between his fingers: "This cigarette...was I used to smoke it?"

Zhang Yuan looked at him, but didn't speak.

Jing Ran was also silent.

After a while, he suddenly opened his mouth and said impatiently: "What are you doing with the moldy thing?"

Jing Ran's mood was a little out of control, he looked very tired, with red eye sockets, as if he hadn't slept for days and nights.He suddenly found himself using a completely different attitude towards Zhang Yuan.

The previous Zhang Yuan was always alienated and indifferent, he didn't smile very much, he was gentle but seldom talked, occasionally aggressive, and the sharpness he showed was fleeting.

Not anymore, he has nowhere to hide in front of him, whether it is the pheromones engraved in his blood, or the way he faces it calmly, as if putting away all the thorns, facing the soft belly .

He is only 24 years old now, fully 4 years younger than himself.

Over a year had actually changed him so much.

Zhang Yuan said: "I want to keep whatever I can."

What is left behind?

Well did not ask.

He didn't dare to ask.

He stood up in a hurry, pacing back and forth anxiously, Zhang Yuan just looked at him, his eyes followed his movements.

"I..." The room suddenly seemed cramped, and he couldn't stand the dullness. He desperately wanted to catch his breath, "I'll go downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes."

Zhang Yuan also stood up, glanced at him in an orderly manner, then hurriedly dodged, and added: "Is it okay?"

Zhang Yuan didn't have time to say yes or no, there was a faint crying sound from the bedroom, originally it was just whimpering twice, but the baby seemed to see that no one answered, so he began to cry heart-piercingly.

Zhang Yuan ignored him, turned around and walked towards the bedroom.

Not long after Zhang Yuan entered, the child's crying became quieter, and it stopped crying completely after 2 minutes.

The bedroom door was closed, leaving only a gap.

Jing Ran wanted to throw the crumpled cigarette case out the door, took a step forward, and seemed to regret it, turned around, put the cigarette case on the table, and strode towards the bedroom with the door ajar.

"Zhang Yuan, I'm going out..."

There was no resistance to the door, and it was pushed open with a creak. The person sitting on the bed suddenly raised his head, staring like a frightened bird.

Zhang Yuan was facing the door, holding the child in his arms. The child was so small that he almost hid it in his arms. From a neat angle, he saw that little hand on Zhang Yuan's chest.Half of Zhang Yuan's shirt was unbuttoned, exposing a large piece of chest, from the neck, to the collarbone, and then to the chest, a wonderful curve was pulled out, glowing inorganic white under the light.

Standing in a daze, his eyes subconsciously moved down.

Zhang Yuan reacted, his eyes turned red instantly, and a trace of embarrassment emerged, he glanced at Jing Ran, turned his back in a panic: "Go."

Jing Ran didn't move for a long time, he was holding the metal handle of the door, his palms were covered with sweat for a moment, he was like a traveler who had been walking in the desert for too long, his throat was full of hot sand, dry and painful.

He still saw that Zhang Yuan was too thin, and his chest only rose and fell slightly.

One side is hidden and should be sucked by the baby, and the other side is voluptuous and standing.

With his back facing the orderly back, he was thin, and the collar of his folded shirt was white, against which the thin nape of his neck turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye.

The smell of milk in the air became stronger.

Isn't this what it should be?Zhang Yuan... is indeed breastfeeding now, thinking about it, but his scalp is numb and his legs are tight.

He slammed the bedroom door shut and left the house as if fleeing.

He didn't go far away neatly, he wasn't so embarrassed this time, he had some money in his pocket at least, he went to the convenience store in the rain to buy two packs of cigarettes, hid in the smoking area of ​​the safe passage downstairs and lit one after another.

The rain had no intention of stopping at all. There was a thick layer of dark clouds, and the sky darkened very quickly.

Jingran is actually not addicted to smoking, but people always have difficult times. In this case, cigarettes are a good stress reliever.

The lingering smoke cast a layer of mist on his face, and half of his body was hidden in the shadows, looking hazy and scary.His fingers and tongue were quickly stained with a bitter taste, and he coughed a little in an orderly manner. He put the cigarette in his mouth, spit out the smoke, and his eyes were so smoked. He squinted and blinked, looking out at the sinking sky.

The gray rain and fog weighed down the world, making it impossible to see clearly in the distance.

Jing Ran doesn't even know how far this broken road will go.

What should he do?

How should Zhang Yuan be treated?

15.

It was already late when I went back in an orderly manner.

The clothes on his body were dry and wet. He went to buy cigarettes several times one after another. The cigarette butts fell on the ground at his feet, like a hill. He glanced at them neatly and pulled the corners of his lips dryly. During the most stressful period of his work, He had never smoked so much.

He always claimed that he was never troubled by emotions, but he was thrown into a vortex without mercy. In a short period of time, he was forced to taste another person's emotions from the perspective of a bystander.

Salty, bitter.

Jing Ran even felt that God was playing tricks on him and punishing him to suffer such hardships.

But do you have to drag an innocent person to bear it?

Standing neatly at the entrance of the corridor and blowing the wind for a long time, he felt that the smell of cigarettes on his body had dissipated, and then walked towards the third floor.

Zhang Yuan left the door open for him, and the living room was lit with goose yellow lights.

The room was very quiet, the child should have fallen asleep, walked in quietly, and saw Zhang Yuan lying on the sofa.

He should be waiting for himself, tired of waiting, curled up on the sofa and fell asleep defenselessly.

Jing Ran stood beside him for a while, looking down at the man.

He changed into his pajamas, and shrank his hands and feet facing outwards as if shivering from the cold.Jing Ran has seen him like this before. He is tall and tall, but he looks small when he shrinks up. Before, he was sweating coldly with a stomachache, but he was curled up in his arms.

"Zhang Yuan."

Jingran shouted in a low voice, the person on the sofa moved a bit, but did not wake up.

Hesitantly lowered himself down in front of the sofa, half knelt down, and pushed Zhang Yuan's shoulder: "Don't sleep here..."

Zhang Yuan slept soundly, raised his handsome eyebrows, and let out an impatient "hmm".Under the light, his plump lips were translucent red, making him particularly white, and the moles on the corners of his lips were more obvious, facing Jing Ran pretty and vividly.

Jing Ran wanted to call him again, but he suddenly turned over.

His back is facing neatly and bent like a shrimp, his hair is fluffy, it seems to have just been blow-dried, and it still smells like shampoo, it was pressed by him for a long time, at this time it is a mess, and under the hair root is a thin nape , Thin joints protrude.

Jing Ran stared at the nape of the neck in a daze, the skin there was bluish white, and under the light, it looked somewhat transparent. Under the thin skin, a blocking chip was embedded in a place that could not be seen.

Only by implanting it can the child be born smoothly when Alpha is not around.

Jing Ran couldn't help stretching out his hand to touch the back of his neck. The skin of the tentacles was like jade, smooth and cold, sticking to his fingers. The blocking chip was actually very small, and it was impossible to touch it through the skin veins.

The fine pain came from the fingertips and climbed straight to his heart.

He frowned neatly and his eyes were deep. After a while, he leaned over and kissed the thin nape of his neck.

The person on the sofa moved.

Jing Ran immediately straightened up, quickly lowered her eyebrows, and waited for Zhang Yuan to wake up as usual.

Zhang Yuan lazily twisted a few times on the sofa before slowly opening his eyes. He sat up and stared at Jing Ran in a daze. It took him a long time to focus on his face. of.

He suddenly opened his arms, wrapped his arms around his neat neck, and rubbed against the side of his face.

"You're back."

He seemed to be still awake, eyes half closed, voice hoarse, sugar-like, so familiar as if his Alpha really just went downstairs to smoke a pack of cigarettes.

Jing Ran was half kneeling and was hugged by his neck, without saying a word, she also stretched out her arms to wrap around her slender waist.

The intertwined pheromones are clear and sweet, with a tempting milky fragrance, lying softly in Jing Ran's arms.

Zhang Yuan is too thin, and the waist in his hand is so thin that it seems that it can be broken with a little force.

"What's so good about me that it's worth you to treat me like this?" Jing Ran murmured, he almost bit Zhang Yuan's ear, if he wasn't close, the voice was so soft that he couldn't hear it at all.

Zhang Yuan still half-closed his eyes, his eyelashes fluttered slightly, unable to open them due to sleepiness, but he responded without hesitation.

One word, one word, pounded heavily in Jing Ran's heart.

"I love you."

tbc.