Yu Wu

When he fell down this time, Gu Mang was in a coma for five or six days before waking up.During these five or six days, he had a vague feeling that he was lying in the carriage for a while, the skylight was shining in through the light blue hat, and Mo Xi stood by his side with a tired expression.

After a while, he recalled some scattered fragments, some were related to Mo Xi, and some were vague faces in the army.Laughing and making noise, the cups collided together, and the hops splashed everywhere.

From time to time, "Gu Shuai" popped out of his mind, and from time to time Mo Xi sighed softly, calling him "senior brother".

And in his deep dream, the soul-calling sacrificial song sung by the great Nuo floats like weeds—in the past, Erlang went away with a sword in his arms, and the bones were hard to return after the blood was sinking into the sand. Body had a joke last night...

Yes, those bones by the Wuding River seem to be clustered around him yesterday, watching him point out the country, listening to his passionate words, listening to him saying that a slave can have ambitions and a future.

Those reverent, enthusiastic, and trusting faces... why can't he remember clearly.How come he couldn't remember the names that he tried hard to engrave in his heart with the roster, those names that no one would pay attention to in the sea of ​​people.

He forgot everything.

But the guilt is lingering, and it almost boils his heart dry.

I will take care of you with your loyalty, I will pass on your noble spirit, and the day when the heroic soul returns to his hometown...

He didn't dare to listen further.

The day when the heroic soul returns to his hometown... But his people can't come back, his brothers can't come back, they are lonely ghosts with no names, bleeding from their heads, and they can't find their way home.

His chest hurt so badly that he could hardly breathe. Those Pao Ze brothers he had tried hard to remember were crowded in his heart, his heart was about to be torn apart, and they were about to drive him crazy.

He was like a man about to drown in the pile of dead souls, he curled up and choked.

Don't hate me... I did my best... I really... I really did my best...

Please.

I beg you to forgive me... Please don't serve in the army in your next life, I hope you will be born in Wangsun's family and spend your life fighting cocks and horses... Please don't work under a general like me in the next life... I am a coward, too naive, too stupid , I am so stupid, I caused you to die in vain, I am not strong enough, let you die... Please...

Please.

He wailed at the moving shadows in his dream, and in those shadows, he suddenly saw a figure.

Tall, flamboyant, rebellious and always brilliant.

Looking back at him with a smile.

Gu Mang's heart suddenly burned, and a forgotten name suddenly emerged from his throat. He knelt in the dream of heaven and earth, and he shouted at the dead brother——

"Show Star!"

Lu Zhanxing smiled, didn't speak, just blinked at him, turned around and disappeared into the rushing crowd.Gu Mang wanted to catch up with him, wanted to hold him back, and wanted to talk to him a lot.

But like every dead soul, Lu Zhanxing finally disappeared.A large piece of gloomy darkness poured down, and in this overwhelming long night, Chonghua's soul-calling song was sung softly, mourning those souls who would never come back.

In the past, there was a son who went with his sword in his arms, and the blood and sand were hard to return. This skeleton was still beautiful at the age of last year. This body was laughed and talked about last night...

In his dream, Gu Mang fell to his knees and curled up into a ball, with a hoarse call in his throat.He is calling for his friends, his army, the desperation and enthusiasm of his youth.

In a daze, someone held his hand, stroked his hair, comforted him with a soft sigh, and whispered in his ear: "Don't cry, Gu Mang, don't cry."

He didn't know who that person was, but felt that hand was so warm and powerful.

Hold him, as if to lead him to swim ashore from the dead sea of ​​the soul.

Gu Mang choked up, holding that hand, he vaguely felt that the light breath permeating his skin was so familiar, and it was enough for him to trust.

So he held that hand tightly, clasped those five fingers tightly, and cried, "I can't come back, they can't come back."

Because of his origin.

His people, his soldiers, can't wait for a word in the end——

On the day when the heroic soul returns to his hometown, green hills are everywhere in the world.

I can't come back.

"Why did you leave me alone..." Gu Mang cried bitterly, clutching that hand like a life-saving floating weed, crying uncontrollably, "Why did you force me to this point...why...why..."

In a daze, the man also held his hand tightly.

So tight, so hard to squeeze his hand.

It seemed to be using this power to whisper the whispers that he would never be able to confide again.

And I.

You still have me……

I'll be with you.

In this way, he remained groggy until the fifth day when Gu Mang struggled to wake up from his wet dream.

His eyelashes fluttered, and he slowly opened his eyes—they had already returned from the Soul Summoning Abyss, and the tail sacrifice was over.

He was lying on a big bed covered with a thick fox fur felt blanket, separated by a thin layer of black cloud pattern veil, he could see the lush sky outside and the crackling charcoal fire inside the house.

It is Xihe Mansion.

He has already returned to Xihe Mansion.

Gu Mang got up, lifted the curtain with his hand, and sat on the big bed in a daze for a while.He was sweating, and the feeling of sadness in his dream had not yet dissipated. He stared straight at the burning coals, and murmured the name that he remembered.

exhibition star.

Lu Zhanxing.

He remembered that it was his brother, but he couldn't think of anything else, such as how they met, or how Lu Zhanxing left in the end.His brain is like cotton yarn that has been drained of water, and there is nothing left to squeeze out.And those figures in the dream.

his army.

He used to have an army, didn't he?

Gu Mang hugged his broken head, sitting on the edge of the bed feeling so confused and bored for the first time.

While he was in a daze, the door of the wing room was pushed open with a "squeak".

Li Wei came in with medicine and snacks, seeing him sitting with his head in his arms, he said in surprise, "Oh, you're awake."

Gu Mang gave a low "hmm".

"Drink the medicine when you wake up." Li Wei brought the wooden tray to his side, "Here, two bowls, one for fever relief and one for calming the mind."

Gu Mang glanced at the two bowls of thick medicinal juice, but was attracted by a small celadon saucer beside the medicinal bowl.

There were two pieces of pink flower cakes on the porcelain plate. The rose glutinous rice flour and the skin were crystal clear and soft, covering the looming red bean paste filling inside.

Seeing him staring at the two pieces of flower cakes, Li Wei smiled and said, "The Lord ordered them to be prepared for you. You have been too weak these days, and you would vomit with nausea as soon as you take the medicine. Take the flower cakes to relieve pain." , you can still drink it."

"My lord?" Gu Mang was taken aback for a moment, "...Mo Xi?"

Li Wei smiled and stared at him: "It doesn't matter whether it's big or small, you can call the Lord's name?" Then he said, "Come on, take the medicine."

Gu Mang didn't have much energy to bargain with him, not to mention his lingering dreams hadn't dissipated, and his heart was in a state of turmoil, so he obediently took the concoction, one bowl of extremely bitter, one bowl of extremely spicy, pinching his nose and gurgling. After drinking it, he smashed his mouth, picked up a flower cake and stuffed it into his mouth.

Probably to make it easier for him to swallow even when he was drowsy, the flower cake was made very soft, like snow, and it melted easily in his mouth without chewing a few times.

Gu Mang ate one, licked his lips, raised his head and asked, "What about him?"

Li Wei was startled: "Who?"

"Is he not there?"

Only then did Li Wei realize that Gu Mang was asking about Mo Xi's whereabouts.I couldn't help being both angry and funny, and taught me: "Why is he not him? Call the Lord, or Lord Xihe. I have taught you the rules so many times." After a pause, he said curiously, "Ask the Lord What are you doing? Are you looking for him? "

Gu Mang nodded, and said, "Hua Gao, I'll give him half."

Li Wei laughed: "My lord doesn't want to eat this kind of food. Why do you want to give him half?"

"I..." Gu Mang thought for a while, ever since he recalled the weak crown ceremony, and when he thought of Mo Xi, there was always some inexplicable emotion swaying in his heart.Gu Mang said, "I should give him the place where I live."

Li Wei touched his chin and muttered with interest: "It's strange, is this the level consciousness of the wolves at work? The second wolf is trying to please the first wolf?"

Before he could finish talking, he heard a cold voice behind him: "What wolf?"

Li Wei turned his head, and Mo Xi, who was dressed in black military uniform, opened the door and walked in.

Li Wei immediately said with a guilty conscience: "Aha, ahhahaha, it's nothing. The Lord is back from court? It's so early today."

"It's almost New Year's Eve, so I'm free." Mo Xi glanced at Gu Mang who was sitting on the edge of the bed, and said to Li Wei without turning his head, "Go out, I'll talk to him alone."

As soon as the carved wooden door opened and closed, Li Wei went out.

Mo Xi walked to Gu Mang's bed, pulled a chair over, and sat down.

Gu Mang hesitated and said, "You..."

Before he finished speaking, Mo Xi raised his hand and touched his forehead.It's really strange, the physical contact with this man before is by no means rare, pinching his chin against the wall and pushing the ground has everything, touching his head is nothing.Why did I suddenly feel that the organ in the chest trembled suddenly.

I was a little panicked.

"No more burning." Mo Xi didn't notice Gu Mang's slight strangeness, he put down his hand, his expression remained the same cold and indifferent as before, "Let's talk. What have you thought of these days?"

Gu Mang said uncertainly: "I didn't..."

"You'd better not lie in front of me." Mo Xi said, it was only then that Gu Mang noticed that there were some black spots under Mo Xi's eyes, obviously caused by staying up too late, "I've been by your side almost all these days .I more or less heard a little bit of your sleep talk."

"..."

After Mo Xi finished speaking, his cold and fair face turned sideways expressionlessly, waiting for Gu Mang's answer.

Gu Mang thought for a while and said, "I don't know. It's some very broken things."

Mo Xi didn't say a word.He seemed to be trying his best to restrain and suppress something, but this restraint and suppression collapsed to a critical point, and suddenly he couldn't suppress it anymore.

He raised his eyes suddenly, his sharp eyes pierced Gu Mang's heart and lungs, as if he wanted to peel this man to his bones and show him in front of his eyes.He just stared at Gu Mang for a while with the attitude of a hunter, then suddenly gritted his teeth and said:

"I heard you calling his name."

Gu Mang: "..."

Mo Xi's next words were almost crushed out of his molars, with an indescribable unwillingness and hatred.

I don't even know if it's Gu Mang's illusion, but there is still a sour smell.

Mo Xi said gloomyly: "You still can't forget him, you can't forget Lu Zhanxing. Right?"

The author has something to say:

Ximei: You still can't forget him, you can't forget Lu Zhanxing.

Gu Mangmang: No, isn't the clip about you the first thing I think of?

Ximei: You still can't forget him, you can't forget Lu Zhanxing.

Gu Mangmang: ... The first thing I think of is only about you, okay? !

Ximei: You still can't forget him, you can't forget Lu Zhanxing.

Gu Mangmang: cnm! ! !That's my friend, okay? !You still don't allow me to recall others? ? ?

Ximei: You still can't forget him, you can't forget Lu Zhanxing.

Gu Mangmang: ...All right, forget it, the essence of human beings is a repeater.