Yu Wu

Caught off guard, Gu Mang didn't even have time to stand still, he fell into the depths of the hot spring in embarrassment, drank several mouthfuls of spring water, and was then held by Mo Xi with one hand, and ruthlessly pushed against the edge of the pool.

Mo Xi reached out to pick off the ribbon on his forehead, but for some reason, this action aroused the panic in Gu Mang's heart. He began to struggle violently. The sacrificial clothes on his body were completely soaked, and he felt as if he was trapped under Mo Xi's body. A beast is like a dying fish.

"No...don't...don't..."

In the depths of his memory, it seemed that there was once someone who angrily wanted to take this thing away from him, but Gu Mang couldn't remember who it was, and even he couldn't tell whether it was his own hallucination or something that actually happened.

He just felt a pain in his heart.

He just vaguely knew that this silk ribbon was his... what he deserved... what he longed for, what he wanted, but he could only look into the distance...

"Give me back."

"Don't...don't!"

The two men fought into a ball in the Tangquan Pool because of this thing, the pool water was swaying and the moon shadow was messy, Gu Mang bit the back of Mo Xi's hand in a hurry!

His spiritual core was shattered, his spiritual power was gone, and his body was full of scars. He was no longer in the grand shape of the past. He was no match for Mo Xi, who had been cared for all the time.

Now Brother Gu Mang no longer has any ability to compete with his Junior Brother Mo.

He was forced to the end, and he could only choose such a ridiculous and absurd act of beasts.

To protect his obsession that life and death cannot be repaid.

Mo Xi was also really offended. In his heart, this was a taboo he could never touch—he could bear Gu Mang stabbing him and betraying him, but this was his father's relic.

It was the last thing left to him by his father, who died under the Liao Ren's cavalry in order to protect the people of Zhonghua and evacuate from the ruins.

How could Gu Mang be worthy of him!

Suddenly, his heart was filled with flames, and Gu Mang bit him hard, the back of his hand was bitten, blood seeped out, Mo Xi didn't feel the slightest pain, the blood that flowed out seemed to return to his eye sockets, and became the corners of his pupils. He didn't care about it, he pulled his hand out of Gu Mang's mouth fiercely, snatched the silk belt, and then slapped Gu Mang fiercely!

There was a crisp "slap", the slap was heavy and harsh, as if to pay off all the hatred in the past seven years with this slap.After beating, Mo Xi's palms were burning with pain, and his fingertips were trembling slightly due to violent emotional fluctuations.

There was hatred in his eyes, but the water mist was steaming, but the bottom of his eyes was moist.

Mo Xi's Adam's apple rolled, and he opened his mouth with restraint. For the first time, only his lips moved, but no sound came out.He closed his eyes and waited for a while before speaking again.

But the voice was hoarse beyond words.

He said hoarsely, "...Gu Mang. Do you know how dirty you are!"

Gu Mang turned his face sideways, his ears buzzing from being slapped, and he didn't make a sound.His cheeks were swollen, and the corners of his lips were still stained with blood from when he bit Mo Xi. He actually didn't quite understand what Mo Xi meant.

Just faintly, I felt a pain in my heart.

It seems that many years ago, what I was always afraid of was hearing these words from the mouth of the man in front of me.

Do you know how dirty you are.

Do you know what you are.

How do you match.

——It seems that I have always been prepared for Mo Xi to say these words to myself. Although the memory has been deprived, the psychological defense and the sting caused by the defense are still there.

Mo Xi took a deep breath, let go of his hand, and said in a low voice, "Get out. I don't want to see you again."

The ribbon was torn off, and the ridiculous redness remained on his forehead.Gu Mang moved his lips, trying to say something, but in the end he couldn't say anything. He just silently glanced at Mo Xi with red eyes, and climbed up to the edge of the pool in a flustered and exhausted manner.

Yes, he's never been able to win over his...never been able to win over anyone.

It's rare to want something, but to be treated like this.

Before leaving Tangquan Bieyuan, Gu Mang turned his head and took one last look at Mo Xi, who was holding the blue gold silk belt, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry...but..."

But I really think this thing is very important to me.

I really……

Mo Xi didn't look back, and said in a hoarse voice, "Get out."

"..." Gu Mang knew he had nothing more to say, he bit his lip that was still stained with blood, lowered his head, and walked out of the yard slowly.

When Li Wei saw Gu Mang appearing in the Ming Hall, he was so shocked that he couldn't even speak.It's no wonder that Butler Li was ignorant. He really didn't know what happened to make Gu Mang walk slowly in the long night and cold winter wearing a sacrificial attire, drenched all over his body.

Like a wandering spirit.

Like a wild ghost left in the world.

"Gu Mang... Hey, Gu Mang!"

He called him, but when Gu Mang heard his voice, he just paused, and then continued to walk towards the nest where he was curled up.

Li Wei hurriedly went over to hold him back: "What are you doing? Why are you wearing the lord's sacrificial robe? Do you know how important this robe is? Do you know..."

"I know. Say." Gu Mang finally opened his mouth. His brain is out of order. When he is sad, he can't speak coherent sentences, and his words are completely out of order. He tries so hard to express himself, but he can only express himself. The staccato blunt words fumbled from the roots of the teeth, it looked so ridiculous, so stupid.

"...I can...understand. I try to...understand..."

The winter night was too cold, his clothes soaked in water stuck to his body, the wind blew a piercing chill, he didn't know how long he walked slowly with bare feet, but when he raised his face to look at Li Wei, his lips They were all trembling in vain.

"I... also want to understand... I also want to remember..." Gu Mang held his head in pain, "But I can't do it... I don't know where I am... I was wrong again... I have been wrong... I've been wrong all along...that's why you...treat me like this..."

Li Wei was stunned.

This is, what is going on...

Why do you have glaring red marks on your face, blood between your lips and teeth, and you still talk like this...

Li Wei was startled, and lost his voice: "I told you to take a bath, didn't you run to the Tangquan Pool behind to wash?!"

Gu Mang didn't say a word, his lips were tightly pursed.

"Are you crazy?! That's the place where the Lord bathes. Didn't I tell you that he has a cleanliness habit? You don't know who you are? You know how much you-"

However, Gu Mang shivered suddenly as if he was terrified of saying that word from someone else's mouth. He grabbed Li Wei's hand and interrupted Li Wei.Gu Mang trembled, trying to keep his face straight, like a wolf who wanted to restore his dignity in the bloody defeat.

But when his blue eyes blinked, the water in them shattered.

Gu Mang tremblingly said: "Yes... I know. I'm dirty. In the future, I won't do it again. But..." His eyes hesitated, his eyelashes fluttered, and he suddenly choked up.

He didn't even know why he was so sad.

He suddenly squatted down and curled up into a small mess. Over the years, he had succeeded, lost, been loyal, and betrayed, but he still couldn't get rid of his lowliness. Except for the scars all over his body and the accusations all over the world, he was still the same. Nothing.Even if he touches the ribbon that symbolizes the blood of heroes, he will suffer the most painful insult.

He buried himself in the dust, neck so low, as if crushed by something he himself had forgotten.

Gu Mang choked up and said, "You don't understand, you don't understand... what I should have... what I should have..."

Li Wei was completely at a loss. Although he was a little sloppy and sloppy, his heart was always warm, and he didn't have any direct hatred with Gu Mang.So when he saw this miserable man curled up in front of him and suddenly cried, he didn't know what to say.

Unable to rest his hands and feet for a long time, he couldn't help but ask Gu Mang, "What should you have?"

But Gu Mang couldn't tell.

He doesn't even remember what that ribbon means, what it symbolizes.

He also knew that that thing belonged to Mo Xi, and he didn't understand why he was in such severe pain.

"What exactly is yours?" Li Wei said helplessly, "Every plant and tree in Xihe Mansion belongs to the Lord, even me, even you, we all belong to the Lord. What can you and I have? ?”

He sighed and patted Gu Mang's shoulder: "Get up, hurry up and change this outfit. If other people see that you are wearing the sacrificial attire of a high-ranking official, the Xihe Mansion will probably follow you Bad luck."

Gu Mang went back to the "nest" he had vacated with broken mattresses, old tables and chairs.He didn't have any obsession with the chilly clothes on his body, he went in and took off all his clothes, changed back to the only crumpled cotton robe he had, and returned the sacrificial clothes to Li Wei.

Li Wei took the clothes and originally wanted to say a few more words to him, but seeing him like this, she felt that she really didn't know what to say, so she sighed, turned around and walked away, muttering as she walked: "Fortunately, this sacrificial clothes have Two sets...or you'll get into trouble..."

Gu Mang sat down in the dim hut, and the fandou woke up. The big black dog came up to him, as if smelling his sadness, and pressed its warm head against him, whining, and licked his cheek .

Gu Mang hugged it, and said in a low voice, "You don't think I'm dirty, right?"

Fandou wagged his tail and rested his paw on his leg.

Gu Mang opened his eyes in the dark night. This was the first time he felt "unwilling" and "pain" since he became conscious.But he didn't know what these two feelings were all about.He felt that they made him uncomfortable, like sickness, a pain that was better than whipping.

Gu Mang closed his eyes, patted Fandou's head, and whispered, "Fandou, I don't think you're dirty either."

"Woooooo!"

"We brothers, here. We have something to eat." Gu Mang rubbed his little cool and moist nose, "So it hurts a little. I can bear it. It's fine."

"Wow!"

Gu Mang put his hands on his chest, choked up and said, "It's okay, I can bear even a little pain...I can bear it..."

Once you get used to it, it won't hurt anymore.

Bear with it, it's all over...it's all over.

Early the next morning, Mo Xi pushed the door out of his bedroom.

He had already changed into a sacrificial robe, and every year people in the mansion looked forward to this day, thinking that Mr. Xihe looked very handsome and spirited in a formal robe.

But this year, when he came to the hall, the servants waiting there were slightly stunned when they saw him.

Mr. Xihe obviously hadn't slept all night, his expression was very ugly, and there was even a slight gleam in his eyes.He sat down at the table, Li Wei had already finished the dishes, as usual, he didn't want to be extravagant, only two baskets of three delicacies steamed buns, one casserole fish porridge, one plate of sweet and sour crispy fish, vinegar pickled radish, sesame oil salad with fern Vegetables, crystal tofu, and a plate of assorted dim sum.

Mo Xi sat at the table for a while without moving his chopsticks.

Li Wei probed: "My lord?"

Mo Xi glanced at the empty place opposite him, and didn't make a sound. After a while, he raised his hand to scoop up a bowl of porridge, and ate it silently.

The water dripping on the desk beside him was dripping, Mo Xi ate some, and he didn't seem to have a good appetite, so he didn't move anymore.He raised his eyes and said to Li Wei: "It's almost there, we're going to the East City Gate to get ready to go. You..." He paused, then said stiffly, "Call him out and let him go with the guard of honor at Xihe Mansion. I'll start gone."

Li Wei agreed, but said in his heart, it seems that Gu Mang decided to do something yesterday that offended the Lord, and the anger was severe.According to the master's original intention, it was to vacate the position of close guard for Gu Mang, so that he could keep an eye on the opponent's every move.

But now, Mo Xi doesn't seem to care, and he doesn't want to see Gu Mang so much, so he can be thrown in the guard of honor at will, as long as he doesn't cause trouble under his nose.

Can you be so angry just by entering a hot spring?

Li Wei's heart was pounding, but he didn't dare to guess carefully.He is a smart man, and he knows very well that there are some things that are more painful to know than not to know.

Curiosity is not the most intolerable thing in the world.

Keeping a secret is.

With the mentality of being willing to be a fool, Li Wei put all these inexplicable reverie behind him, went to the backyard as ordered, and called Gu Mang out of his "nest".

After Gu Mang listened to his arrangement, he didn't have any unexpected reactions. Insufficiency of mind also has benefits of insanity. After one night, he has calmed down a lot.Hearing that Li Wei asked him to go with the guard of honor, he went without any objection.

However, Li Wei was not at ease. After leading him to the guard, he gave some instructions to the captain of the guard, and handed the decoction pot to the other party, telling him: "This is the tranquilizing medicine prescribed by Yaoshi Jiang. I guess It seems that the master will watch him drink, but not necessarily, anyway, you are in charge, if Gu Mang doesn't drink, you will force it. This thing is not a joke."

The captain of the guard agreed, and took the kettle pouch.

The group of people hit the road.