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Lin Nan was quickly sent to the nearest hospital to have his arm reattached. Fortunately, the winter clothes are thick and the helmet is of good quality. Apart from soft tissue contusions, there is nothing serious. He just needs to rest for a while.

When the ambulance took Lin Nan away, Qi Yubai was with him in the car, and Zhang Hong was responsible for packing up the things for the two of them.Qi Yubai sensed that Lin Nan had something to say, and kept looking at him affectionately.But there were doctors and nurses around, and the two of them tacitly kept silent.

When they arrived at the emergency room, the orthopedic doctor came over to reset Lin Nan's joints. Lin Nan was sweating from the pain, and his left hand kept holding Qi Yubai's hand tightly.Qi Yubai let him hold it, his face so cold that he could knock the ice off.

"Lin Nan." The nurse came over and called him, "Wait here for a while, someone will come and call you later, and then follow her with the list. If you feel uncomfortable, you can lie down."

"Well, thank you nurse." Lin Nan felt that he was okay, so he sat on the bed and turned to Qi Yubai. Before he could speak, Qi Yubai ordered him: "Lie down."

"No, I—"

"Lie down, don't cause trouble for everyone." Qi Yubai's tone was irrefutable.

Lin Nan could only nod his head, propped his left hand on the edge of the bed and slowly lowered his body. Halfway through the process, his back was suddenly supported by a big hand, and he moved carefully until he touched the bed before pulling out.

The sheets had a smell of disinfectant, which was terrifying. The pillow was small and flat, and a piece of cloth rope from the pillowcase was exposed beside it.

Lin Nan's hair was crushed by the helmet, and his face was still a little dusty, making him look very pitiful.

"Mr. Qi." He said, "Do you have anything urgent this afternoon?"

Qi Yubai didn't have anything to deal with this afternoon.But everything that happened in the morning caught people off guard, and both of them needed time to digest, especially Qi Yubai.In short, the longer you stay with Lin Nan, the more dangerous it is, so he thought about it and said, "Yes, I will leave after a while. Have a good rest and don't talk."

"Hmm..." Lin Nan once again suppressed what he wanted to ask in his heart.

The emergency room was full of people, and everyone came and went like the wind, with a look of sternness on their faces.For a while, someone shouted "doctor come here", for a while someone yelled, and for a while someone quarreled endlessly because of cutting in line.

Qi Yubai looked around for a moment, then turned around and pulled the light blue curtain around the bed for Lin Nan, separating him from the surroundings.

"Where is the phone?" Qi Yubai asked, "I'll call the assistant over for you."

Lin Nan looked at the person who spoke, and found that Ben Yunqi actually looked a little embarrassed now.His hairstyle was messed up by the wind, his gray and white breeches hadn't been changed in time, his sleeves were full of dust, and even his facial features were sternly frowned, looking completely devoid of usual decency.

Lin Nan stretched out his left hand to touch his right pocket, but he couldn't reach it and was a little clumsy. He looked at the people around him for help.

Qi Yubai leaned over and pressed his forehead with his right hand to fix him, and reached into his pocket with his left hand to easily take out the phone.

"password."

"Huh?" Lin Nan was taken aback.

"What's the password for the phone?"

"Oh..." Lin Nan hesitated for a moment, and reported six numbers, which were the day when he and Qi Yubai first met.

Qi Yubai didn't notice anything wrong, the password didn't sound like a mystery, besides, his mind was in a mess now, and he couldn't care less about playing riddles with Lin Nan.

After unlocking the phone, he flipped through the address book, found He Shan's name, and called.

"Hi! Lin Nannan, did your horse riding with your Mr. Qi go well today?" He Shan's voice flowed out of the receiver like clear and brisk spring water.

Qi Yubai paused for two seconds without speaking, and glanced at Lin Nan who didn't know why.

"Hi He Shan, I'm Qi Yubai."

"Uh——" He Shan on the other end lost her temper for a moment, and then quickly realized, "Hi, Mr. Qi, hello", coupled with a series of awkward but polite smirks.

"Lin Nan is currently in the emergency room of Ciyou Hospital. He is slightly injured. Please come and take him home."

Listening to Lin Nan, he felt that this was a little strange. It was obvious that He Shan was the one who should never leave him, but now Qi Yubai said to him, "Trouble you".

"Ah?!" There was a scream on the other end of the phone, "He's hurt!" The voice was so loud that Lin Nan could hear it clearly.

Qi Yubai took the phone a few centimeters away, and then hummed, "I'll be leaving in a while, please come here as soon as possible."

"Trouble you" again.

"Ah?!" There was another shout on the other end of the phone, "You don't care about him??"

What is this nonsense?crusade?Qi Yubai was choked by her for a moment, and after a moment of silence, he said: "I didn't ignore him, I have something to do."

"Oh, that's it, then I'll go there right away!"

After hanging up the phone, Lin Nan looked at Qi Yubai nervously: "What do you mean 'don't leave me alone'?"

"It's nothing." Qi Yubai said flatly, "You're an assistant."

Lin Nan sneered, "She's just a bit too lively, and she's pretty reliable in her work."

The two stared at each other for a few seconds in the small world separated by the curtain, and the atmosphere was different from usual.Lin Nan suddenly whispered, "Are you tired from standing, what if there are no chairs here?"

However, after riding for a while, Ma Linnan felt that his legs were sore. Qi Yubai must have been tired after galloping his horse for a while.He originally wanted Qi Yubai to sit next to him, but Qi Yubai looked around and said, "I'll sit outside."

There is a row of plastic chairs in the corridor for everyone to rest their feet, out of Lin Nan's sight.Lin Nan naturally objected loudly in his heart immediately, but after seeing Qi Yubai's serious expression, he stopped carefully.He really couldn't figure out what Qi Yubai was thinking. He was able to protect himself without hesitation but was unwilling to stay by his side for a while. Why would someone behave in such a contradictory way?

Later, Qi Yubai turned around and went outside, and sat down at the seat closest to the door, although the person lying on the hospital bed couldn't see it.

As soon as he sat on the chair, he leaned his back heavily and let out a slow and long breath.The back of the chair was very low, and his head was leaning against the cold white wall, his eyes slowly closed and opened, as if he was afraid of escaping from the abyss.He didn't know when there was a whole layer of sweat on his back, and he couldn't tell whether it was tired or anxious. The clothes inside were cold and wet against his skin, making him very uncomfortable.The originally meticulous hairstyle was messed up by the wind, and a strand of broken hair fell on his forehead.The sweat and dust on the neck were mixed together, the dark and shallow ones were very unsightly.Although the helmet and gloves were off, the breeches and boots on his body were particularly eye-catching. Many patients and family members passing by in the corridor would look at him, wondering why this serious and tired man appeared in such a suit it's here.

Qi Yubai always disliked being surrounded by people, but at this time he couldn't care less.There are also thousands of thoughts in his heart, and he feels confused at one moment, and at the other he doesn't have the guts to deal with them at all.

The phone vibrated in his clothes for a while, he picked it up and saw that it was Zhang Hong.

"Boss, I'm outside the hospital."

"Well, I'm going out now."

He took another deep breath, then stood up and walked inside.As soon as he walked to the door, he found that Lin Nan somehow changed into a half-sitting position on the bed, and the curtain was also pulled open, as if his eyes had never left the door.

Seeing him coming, Lin Nan's face immediately turned into a smile.

"I'm leaving." Qi Yubai said, "Zhang Hong has arrived."

The smile on Lin Nan's face disappeared instantly: "So fast?"

"Yeah. You just wait here for He Shan. I'll check when she comes."

Lin Nan lowered his head, as if a little lost, "Got it."

Qi Yubai left under Lin Nan's gaze, walked to the hospital gate, and parked the car in a very conspicuous place.

"Boss, are you going back to Bohai?"

"Yeah." Qi Yubai said, "Go home and change clothes and take a shower."

"Are you not injured?" Zhang Hong asked.

The scene when he rushed to Qi Yubai's side in the racecourse is still fresh in his memory. He didn't say much in front of Lin Nan, and only asked now when they were alone.

Qi Yubai sat in the back row and was silent for a moment, then slowly said: "I'm fine."

There are always a lot of vehicles coming and going at the gate of the hospital. It took Qi Yubai's car a long time to line up to get out of the main gate. It turned around under the overpass, leaving the emergency building far behind.

Qi Yubai himself didn't expect that he cared about Lin Nan so much.The palpitation he felt when he saw him fall from the horse, the fear when he thought the horse was going to step on his body, and the thoughtlessness when he used his body to protect him, all these were beyond his expectation.Before today, he thought that many things were not so deep, and they were not so inseparable.He thought that he could continue to deceive himself and others. Lin Nan had such a good temper, so he probably wouldn't blame himself.

But today's accident broke the delicate balance of this relationship, and broke the distance that the two had maintained by pretending to be deaf and dumb for a long time.A layer of window paper was trampled heavily by a horse's hoof, and it was so broken that it could never be glued back.Even if they haven't said anything yet, they must all know each other well.

When he was in the emergency room, Qi Yubai noticed that Lin Nan wanted to say that he probably had a question for him.So he simply left, not giving Lin Nan a chance to speak out.

He was afraid that Lin Nan would ask, "Why did you save me regardless of your life?"

He couldn't answer. He wanted to say, "It's just subconscious, and it can't be done for real", or "There is no reason, just save it if you want to."

No answer is good, any answer is an analysis of the heart, as long as he admits that he is indeed risking his life for Lin Nan, there is no need to say anything.

And this is not allowed, especially for someone as serious as Lin Nan.Because giving people hope and then making people despair is the cruelest thing, Qi Yubai couldn't accept that he did that.

But has that step really happened yet?Who can tell for sure, maybe Lin Nan has received hope from himself.Yes, that should be the case.That's why Lin Nan never asks for it, because what he wants is not those at all, what he wants is what Qi Yubai dare not give.

Qi Yubai just sat in the back seat thinking about it like a trapped animal, but couldn't figure out how to get along with Lin Nan next.Keep pretending nothing has changed?That was asshole, and besides, he wasn't sure he could control his emotions.Let it go?At the moment when we really connect with each other, how should I tell him that this is a relationship with no future, it is really hypocritical and hurtful.

Qi Yubai, oh Qi Yubai, you are really in a cocoon.

"Boss." Zhang Hong called him from the front, "Boss——"

"What's wrong?" Qi Yubai came back to his senses.

"Is there something difficult to do?" Zhang Hong has observed him from the rearview mirror several times, but he didn't notice it once.

After a while of silence in the carriage, Qi Yubai said, "Zhang Hong, I did one thing wrong." His tone was deep and astringent, full of entanglement and regret.

Zhang Hong's heart was shocked. It had been a long time since he had heard his boss speak in such a tone.The last time, the last time was when Bai Shaoyin passed away.

"Would you like to tell me?" he asked.

Qi Yubai thought about it, and said to him: "There is one thing, I let it develop, and now it can't end."

Letting go of the germination of a relationship, letting it grow, time and getting along with it gave it nutrients, and finally let it grow to a size that cannot be ignored. If you want to cut the root, it is not as simple as pulling it out. It takes sawing and digging, which is time-consuming After Li finally succeeded, he had to watch it slowly die by the side of the empty pit.

Zhang Hong went over this sentence carefully in his heart, and asked, "Is it Lin Nan?"

There was no response from the back seat, and Zhang Hong unconsciously tightened his hand on the steering wheel.

He has been working hard with Qi Yubai since he graduated from graduate school, and the people behind him are kind to him, and they are even more friends.Maybe only he knows what Qi Yubai's life has been like these past few years, crazy, remorseful, dull, and depressed.I have fought and indulged, and then there is only silence.

People can't fight against the sky, can't beat their lives, wandering between family affection and self for countless times, and finally reluctantly castrate their emotions.

Qi Yubai failed to satisfy the dead mother, failed to satisfy the living father, and also failed to satisfy himself.Just live one day at a time, procrastinate to earn one day, pretend that you have an infinite time to live in your thirties, and you can live well if you pretend to have sex without love.

"Why can't it develop?" Zhang Hong asked, "It can't hurt people, and it doesn't necessarily end in tragedy."

It's soft and warm, and it can't hurt anyone.

"No, you don't understand." Qi Yubai said, "It can't hurt anyone, but I can hurt him."

Zhang Hong didn't understand, and asked, "What do you mean?"

Qi Yubai didn't explain anymore, just said: "Turn on the air conditioner, it's a bit cold."