old enemy riding a bamboo horse

I wish so much that only you and me are left on this earth

i can

bravely say i still love you

"I'm sorry." Lu Henglin, who couldn't wait for an answer, wiped his face with his hands, his eyes were red, he took a deep breath, and his face was full of shame, "It's my fault, I shouldn't impose my feelings on you, I was despicable and shameless just now, Please do not mind that."

After he finished speaking incoherently, he immediately turned and went upstairs.

Xia Chengqi looked at his back as he left in a hurry, in a daze, with a gloomy expression.

The temperature after the kiss seemed to remain on his lips, he reached out to touch it, feeling a little dazed for a moment.No matter how much hurt there was between them, when Heng Lin uttered the word "love", he was still shocked.

He couldn't even believe what he heard, just when he thought that for the rest of his long life, he could only hide his love to face Heng Lin's indifference, when he suddenly heard his confession, he felt mixed feelings and wanted to laugh But first I felt that the sadness came first.

The almost instinctive feeling of wanting to hold on to the other party will exhaust all the strength to fight against it.

Obviously wanting to have it so much, but still standing where it is, not daring to reach out, for fear that this is fate's unkind joke again.

When the bodyguards outside Lu's house saw Lu Henglin walking out in the middle of the night, they immediately tensed up, thinking that Mr. Lu was going to do something wrong again.

Unexpectedly, Lu Henglin just asked with a weary expression, "Brother, do you have any cigarettes?"

The bodyguard dared not leave, and immediately called the smoker over the walkie-talkie.

"I'm sorry Mr. Lu, it's not a good brand." The bodyguard took a cigarette out of the cigarette case and handed it over in fear.

"It's okay..." Lu Henglin took the one, "Can you give me the whole box? I can pay the fee to you."

"President Lu, you're welcome. I still have a box here, and I'll give it to you."

Lu Henglin walked back to the yard with two packs of cigarettes in his pocket, glanced at the light in Xia Chengqi's room, sat down in front of the steps with a heavy heart, and lit the cigarette in his hand.

The moment I took it in, I felt bitter and unbearable, and the whole trachea was very uncomfortable. It took me a long time to cough to get my breath out.

He realized belatedly that he should have quit smoking as an adult, otherwise he wouldn't have had no cravings for cigarettes during this period of time.

With his head propped up in the moonlight night, he quickly finished smoking a cigarette, but the pain in his heart didn't get any relief, so he could only light another one.

I don't know if it's because he hasn't smoked for a long time, but the rising smoke made him feel a little pain in his eye sockets.

He originally thought that even if Xiao Qi refused to accept it for a while, as long as their relationship was restored, he was so kind to him, and if he worked harder, there would always be a chance.

But the word disgusting shattered all his fantasies.

Lu Henglin smiled bitterly in a trance, but a tear came out, and he wiped it away with his hand in embarrassment.

Xia Chengqi calmed down and thought about it, feeling that he had overreacted. Lu Henglin didn't look well at the time, so after hesitating for a long time, he decided to take the chocolate to comfort him.

After knocking on the door for a long time, he found that there was no one in Lu Henglin's room. He panicked, and almost bumped into Lu Henglin who was sitting on the doorstep as he ran out.

He looked at the cigarette butts all over the place and was speechless for a long time, annoyed and distressed.

"Xiaoqi?" Lu Henglin stared at him for a moment, stood up and said awkwardly, "If you want to breathe, I'll go in first."

"Your chocolate." Xia Chengqi handed over the chocolate in his hand, and his voice became soft unconsciously.

When I was looking forward to it, my heart was full of sweetness, but now it is miserable. Lu Henglin took it over and lowered his head, "Thank you."

"I didn't say you were disgusting." Xia Chengqi thought and thought, but still couldn't bear to say it.

"Well, I see." Lu Henglin forced a smile, but still didn't look at him.

Xia Chengqi stared at him, lowered his head and lowered his eyes. After smoking for a long time, his whole body gave off a sense of depression, like a big dog that has been disliked. Painful and sad, I decided to give up my struggle.

Children will always say childishly, you give me the candy in your hand, and I will be the best with you in the whole world. Of course, adults know that these are just childish words, and the promise will eventually become a good wish as time passes. .

But holding the candy in his hand, he knew it would be empty, but he couldn't make up his mind not to give it to the child in front of him.

He only has one candy, and he only wants to give it to this person, so why care about whether the result will fail?

Even though Lu Henglin always remembered what happened in the past, and one day he would regret everything he said today, Xia Chengqi still couldn't bear to see him so lost and sad at this moment.

"What you said today...are you serious?" Xia Chengqi exhaled slowly, his face looked neither happy nor sad in the watery moonlight, with a sense of calm that there was nowhere to escape.

"Hmm." Lu Henglin said in a low voice with a nasal sound, "Don't bother me, I won't mention it again, can we still be the same as before?"

His heart was filled with pain, Xia Chengqi grabbed Lu Henglin who was about to leave, "I'm very tired today, and I'm very upset to be called in by the police for interrogation, so I'm taking it easy on you, what I just said is not true ,Do not get angry."

Lu Henglin hesitated and shook his head, "...No."

He couldn't believe that Xia Chengqi would come to find him, and he couldn't believe that his apology had the meaning he wanted.

"Do you still want to try with me?" Xia Chengqi said vaguely, avoiding words like liking.

This time Lu Henglin was completely stunned. Xiaoqi's mood changed so quickly, which made him feel unbelievable.

"Did I really...didn't make you sick?" He asked in a low voice, because he cared too much, and he still felt very uncomfortable when he asked.

Xia Chengqi was heartbroken, and grabbed Lu Henglin's hand, only to realize that his palm was cold, and couldn't help but clenched it a bit, "It's all angry words, I'm confused, how could it be?"

"Think!" Lu Henglin replied immediately, as if he was afraid that he would regret it soon.

"Then try, you can treat me however you want." Xia Chengqi was also infected by his nervousness, and his heartbeat gradually became faster. It seemed that all the psychological construction he had done before was useless, and he still couldn't do it. Indulging in everything that will always be empty.

Being held by him, Lu Henglin felt his heart come alive again. The ups and downs were extremely unreal, and he just wanted to do something to make sure it wasn't his illusion.

"Then can I...can I kiss you?"

Xia Chengqi was stunned.

"Can't you?" Lu Henglin hesitated, his eyes still full of melancholy.

Xia Chengqi smiled, "You smoke all over the place, go brush your teeth, do you want to smoke me to death?"

Lu Henglin finally looked a little happy, and really ran to brush his teeth immediately.

Xia Chengqi took a deep breath when he couldn't see, to calm himself down, but his eyes were still red for a moment.

This moment seemed to be sad and full of joy, he knew that he had nowhere to escape, even if there was a cliff in front of him, he could only walk over it step by step.

"Xiaoqi." Lu Henglin brushed his teeth obediently, and stood in front of Xia Chengqi and looked at him a little cautiously. When he kissed him just now, his mind was in a mess, and he didn't know where the impulsiveness and courage came from. I don't even know how to put it.

In the only memory he had left, he had only felt his heart beat for one person like this. He didn't know what to do, and he was afraid of doing something wrong and being rejected, only the recklessness of a high school student.

Xia Chengqi had already calmed down his emotions, tried his best to smile at him, his eyes were tender, and walked in front of him, "Don't you want to kiss?"

Lu Henglin panicked, "Is it really possible?"

Xia Chengqi's eyes darkened for a moment, "I'm sorry, I was really angry and talking nonsense just now, I forgot, okay?" As he spoke, he moved closer until he and Lu Henglin breathed and heard each other, reached out to hold his face, raised his head Kiss him softly.

He also wants to kiss the one he loves and hold him tight, if only for a moment.

Whether it will be lost in the future, there is no need to worry in advance.

Lu Henglin felt that he was drunk at that moment, and he just wanted to sink deeply and never wake up again. He didn't have to think about that misidentified kiss anymore.

Now Xiao Qi is kissing him, this is his real kiss, more tender and affectionate than that night.

Lu Henglin reached out and hugged Xia Chengqi's waist little by little, and with his breath deepened the kiss, although he was inexperienced, he felt that each other's bodies were born with a tacit understanding, they fit together perfectly, every ups and downs Compatible with each other, breathing, and body temperature quickly merged together, lips and tongues entangled and danced together, and soon found their unique rhythm.

"You stole the chocolate." Xia Chengqi murmured as he touched Lu Henglin's lips between kisses.

"Well, I'm afraid you still think there is a smell of smoke." Lu Henglin was intoxicated, his voice became much lower, and his breath became sexy.

"Is it delicious?" Xia Chengqi asked him with a smile, teasing his chasing lips and not allowing him to kiss her.

Lu Henglin seemed to mature at an astonishing speed within a few tens of seconds. Without a teacher, he held down the back of Xia Chengqi's head with his hands and blocked his lips again.

"It's not as sweet as you."