old enemy riding a bamboo horse

Time is a journey with no return

Good and bad are scenery

On the eve of Xia Chengqi's graduation, Lu Henglin was busier than ever.

During that time, Lu Chengnian seemed to be a little unwell, so part of the heavy responsibility began to be placed on Lu Henglin, and sometimes the two of them might not be able to adjust the time and video once in two days.

Lu Henglin seems to be maturing rapidly, even though he is very busy and hard, he will take care of himself very energetically when facing Xia Chengqi in the video, never letting him share his pressure, and gently telling him not to work so hard .

Xia Chengqi could see the tiredness in Lu Henglin's eyes, and he could also see his obvious weight loss, and there was a pain in his heart.

"Why are you still wearing a shirt so late?" Xia Chengqi guessed that he had just finished an emergency meeting, or that he was working overtime and didn't come back to video with him until late at night.

"I want to be handsome in front of you, so that no matter how many blond and blue-eyed classmates you have around you, you will always be thinking about me." Lu Henglin brought the topic lightly and skillfully, never wanting to make him worry.

Of course, sometimes, he will occasionally say coquettishly, "My wife, please come back after graduation, we can open a husband-and-wife shop."

Xia Chengqi comforted him with a smile, but felt uneasy in his heart.

Xie Qing and Lu Chengnian are legally protected couples, but so what, after half his life, Xie Qing's emotions are filled with blood and tears.

"It's not that I want you to come back and help me." Lu Henglin suddenly became serious, his voice was low and extremely gentle in the night, "I just miss you so much, every time I'm tired, I always think, if you are by my side, I can take it all."

Whenever he expresses his feelings so solemnly, Xia Chengqi can't resist.

So at that moment, he decided to close his eyes and forget all hidden worries, chose his love, rejected the professor's invitation to keep him in graduate school, and began to prepare for returning to China.

In the end, Xie Qing flew directly to meet him after finishing his investigation in Europe.

"Cheng Qi, of course I can't force you, but Professor Carlson called me and told me that you chose to refuse. It's hard for me to understand this. After thinking about it, I still choose to give it a try."

"I..." Xia Chengqi had a hard time facing Xie Qing.

She had said it so earnestly before, but he still insisted on maintaining his love. Xie Qing had always had gentle expectations for him that were almost like that of an elder, and he would feel guilty when he failed.

"I hope you can continue your studies. Isn't that what you told me about your goal? You put in so much effort for this goal, but now you want to give up halfway?"

Xia Chengqi restrained his expression, trying to make himself appear firmer. "I have figured it out, and I have the ability to go through a stage and continue with this goal."

"I used to naively think that if this love is not what I want, I can withdraw at any time." Xie Qing showed the kind of smile that people who have experienced it know.

"But in order to maintain this love, I almost lost everything I was proud of. Now, there is no way out, and I have no choice but to fight for power with a brat."

Xia Chengqi's heart tightened suddenly, but Lu Henglin never mentioned that he and Xie Qing had already started to confront each other.

"Betting everything on a person for the sake of love, and gradually becoming his subordinate, a woman who does this will not end well." Xie Qing laughed at herself, "You are a boy, Cheng Qi, you have to give up your future for him, Go to Xingyuan to take a position, and live a life without seeing the light for many years, is it between me and him?"

Every word she said was like hitting Xia Chengqi with a heavy hammer one after another.

"In the past, his wife was sick, and they were indifferent. I loved him very much. He was so stupid that he didn't care about status. I gave him my whole heart and gave up almost everything for his career. At that time, Mrs. Lu was not me. When someone asked about his wife, I could only hide in a corner and feel sad. But what about becoming Mrs. Lu? I just gained more sadness. I lost myself, and even love. Cheng Qi, Have you ever thought about the day when you will hold his hand and stand in front of everyone?"

Xia Chengqi couldn't answer because he had no confidence.

When he gave up continuing his studies, what he was thinking was that for this one time in his life, he was willing to not think about anything and bet everything on himself, even if one day he suffered a complete failure, he would have no regrets.

"When I was young, I could stubbornly say that I was willing to give everything for my love, and I would never regret it." Xie Qing said flatly, as if he could see through all his thoughts, "But ask me now If not, I regret it, I didn’t get what I thought I would have, and I lost what I had originally, I invested too much, and there was no way to stop the loss in time.”

Xia Chengqi took a deep breath, tried to calm down, and seriously defended his sweetheart, "Heng Lin is different."

Xie Qing gave him a complicated smile.

"I came here on purpose to persuade you not to go back. Lu Henglin has secretly declared war on me, and now I have constant disputes with him in Xingyuan. If you come back at this time, you will only start to kill your love in advance."

Xie Qing spoke very solemnly, Xia Chengqi did not expect the situation to be so bad.

"I told you, I don't blame him. Everything today is my choice. If it is not necessary, I don't want to hurt him. I don't want you to be hurt. A young and sincere heart is so precious. "Xie Qing looked at Xia Chengqi, showing a wistful smile, "The first time I saw you, I thought you were as smart as me. Now that I think about it, we are the same fools. People who are good at calculating are sincere, and they are doomed. You will suffer. I don’t ask you to do anything for me, you stay here to continue your studies and remain neutral in order to keep your love.”

Xia Chengqi was stunned, feeling overwhelmed with guilt, "I..."

"If you win the bet, I will stand by your side no matter what after many years, and fight for you to stand with him hand in hand. If you lose, it doesn't matter, I will still be your adoptive mother, come back to me." Xie Qing held His hand, smiled and said, "I wish you good luck."

Thinking of the third day, Xia Chengqi finally found out his own weakness in frustration. He chose to avoid passively, wanting to protect his love from the wind and rain.He accepted Xie Qing's persuasion and decided to continue his graduate studies

She seemed to be sure of persuading him, because he found that Professor Carlson still had his place reserved.

When he told Lu Henglin of his decision, there was a long silence. Although he hadn't spoken for so long, it was different from when he chose Stanford. Lu Henglin was not angry, but a complex emotion.

He found that this person had begun to be moody and elusive.

"You said a long time ago that you want to go to graduate school, and I'm prepared." After the silence, Lu Henglin told him gently.

Xia Chengqi felt a bitterness in his heart, "I'm sorry, I let you work hard alone."

"How could it be? Didn't I just want to work hard for you? My husband in the graduate school can afford it. Do you want to change to a detached house? After all, it's more convenient to live alone?" Lu Henglin's voice was still smiling, staring at him. The expression is also tender and tender.

Xia Chengqi felt uncomfortable, but he couldn't say anything, he could only forcefully smile, "Have you been working hard recently? You look thinner."

"It's okay to work hard, but there is also the pain of lovesickness, what do you think?"

"I'll see you when I have a vacation." After Xia Chengqi made the promise, he couldn't help the surge in his heart and said seriously, "I miss you."

Missing is a fragile emotion, and he has always suppressed himself to digest it silently, but at this moment, he felt as if he had abandoned Heng Lin, so he couldn't help declaring these frailties.

"I miss you too." Lu Henglin's eyes became softer, as if there was some kind of secret sadness.

Fate is always like this, all the painful blows have been hidden, and will come suddenly at the worst time.

After the start of Xia Chengqi's second semester of postgraduate study, Lu Henglin, who had been trying to make as many videos as possible with him, suddenly lost contact without warning. There was no video for several days, and no one answered the phone.

A heavy uneasiness enveloped his heart, Xia Chengqi tried to search for news about Xingyuan, but the Internet was completely calm.

Xia Chengqi knew that this was abnormal, it didn't seem like nothing happened, it was more like the news was completely blocked.

It wasn't until the fourth day after he stopped contacting that he received a call from Lu Henglin in the middle of the night.

In the silent night, the sweet phone ringing that used to belong to Lu Henglin suddenly turned into an ominous omen, disrupting the night and thoughts.

"Xiao Qi." Lu Henglin's voice sounded a little unreal, halfway across the world, with a withered hoarseness and deep despair.

"Heng Lin?" Xia Chengqi heard the unusual pain, and his heart clenched together for an instant.

"My father is very ill, and the doctor said it won't be long." Lu Henglin finished this sentence with difficulty, choked up and didn't make a sound.

Xia Chengqi's heart suddenly sank to the bottom, "Heng Lin, wait for me."

He explained the situation to the professor, handed over all the projects at hand as quickly as possible, and then, ignoring other things, took the nearest red-eye flight back.I fell asleep all the way, my eyes were open and my mind was blank. By the time I arrived, I was exhausted and exhausted.

But he rushed to Lu Henglin immediately.

In front of the ICU gate, Lu Henglin stood in the shadow of the evening clouds, his face was pale, his eyes were bloodshot, his expression was heavy, and he had a desolate air all over his body.

His eyes were red for a moment, and he was very distressed. The front of the ICU was not a good place to hug, so he could only express his worry with his eyes.

"How is Dad?"

Lu Henglin's eyes were gloomy, facing him finally showed a trace of fragility, pursed his lips and shook his head, "Pancreatic cancer, the course of the disease is developing too fast."