old enemy riding a bamboo horse

live alone for a day

like a year

I want to be happy for you

When there are too many emotions, the feeling of being about to burst into the chest is scary. Xia Chengqi pressed his lips and said sullenly, "Pay attention to hygiene, I haven't brushed my teeth yet."

Lu Henglin kissed his palm softly, until his whole body softened, and he slept peacefully in his arms, embracing the servants around him.

"Happy birthday." Lu Henglin's eyes were shining under the soft yellow light, and the touching affection flowed out.

"Where's the gift?"

"I am your gift."

Xia Chengqi laughed out loud, "Why does your gift sound so crazy?"

Lu Henglin himself laughed, "You've wronged me, I'm not talking about that, there are still 360 and five days left."

"The second half of your sentence is not convincing at all, okay?" Xia Chengqi sat up a little and patted his chest.

"What about here?" Lu Henglin lay on the bed, looked at him, held his hand on his chest, and let him feel his strong heartbeat.

Xia Chengqi pressed his heart, feeling his heart beating in his palm, his smile gradually narrowed, and his eyes were deep.

"Although it has been yours for a long time, I was busy submitting the report and squeezed out time, so I could only rush straight to the airport, so I can only choose the most precious gift on my body for you."

"How did you learn to be glib?" Xia Chengqi smiled.

"You can't take it lightly just because it's in your hand, and it'll break."

Xia Chengqi bowed his head and kissed his heart, "Is it better now?"

"Why do you always think about hygiene?" Lu Henglin complained that he hadn't been kissed yet.

"It's common sense to pay attention to hygiene. So, with such a high standard, how are you going to prepare gifts next year?" Xia Chengqi looked at him condescendingly, obviously still thinking that he just didn't have time to prepare gifts before he talked sweetly.

Lu Henglin lay there, tiredness gradually surfaced on his face, and said with a smirk, "Well, next year, I actually have something for you that is only once in this life, but it is a consumable, and it will be gone once you use it. "

"You have to show some face." Xia Chengqi understood, and was instantly embarrassed.

"Lie down and sleep with me for a while, wake up and let's eat." Lu Henglin couldn't open his eyes, turned off the light, and pulled Xia Chengqi to lie in his arms.

"I really don't have enough energy now, so I can sleep with you in my arms.*"

"You are so sleepy, can you stop the conversation from always focusing on Xiasanlu?" Xia Chengqi leaned in his arms and listened to his heavy heartbeat, his heart was sweet, he hadn't been in such a peaceful mood for a long time, and the drowsiness gradually came back.

"Isn't it okay to take advantage of words?"

"You can only talk about it."

The two hugged each other, and they couldn't help but respond to each other even though they were so sleepy.

"... Wait until that day, and you'll know that I'm not just a talker."

In the end, Xia Chengqi covered Lu Henglin's mouth with all his strength, "Go to sleep."

The first real dispute after falling in love happened as expected.

Lu Henglin has done a lot of psychological construction, trying to make himself let go of those possessive desires and the anxiety that tormented him.

When Xia Chengqi applied for schools after taking the TOEFL test, he was always anxious. He wanted to ask him how to choose, but also wanted to tell him directly to come to his side.

But he didn't, because a mature relationship must first know how to respect, he wants the other party to feel his own growth, and his own can be relied on.

He thought he could face Xia Chengqi's choice rationally, but when he expressed his choice in the video with apology and anxiety, everything he had prepared collapsed, and he couldn't even control his emotions well.

Before that, he spent a week buying more comfortable sheets and duvets, changing the overhead light for the dining table to a softer light, buying pajamas for couples, and planting catnip in the flower box in front of the door, hoping to attract more people. Come to kitty, you can tease cats with Xia Chengqi.

These are now superfluous.

"Henglin, I'm sorry, I had my ideal school a long time ago." Xia Chengqi bowed his head on the video side.

"How long?" Lu Henglin couldn't control his loss and unwillingness at that moment, he was a little sharp, "When did you meet Secretary Xie?"

Silence spread.

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Lu Henglin felt that he was wrong. He shouldn't have questioned Xiaoqi like this, and he shouldn't have put other meanings in his words.

"I……"

"Yes, I was able to think about these things only when I met her. I was indeed partly influenced by her." Xia Chengqi sighed.

The suppressed feeling that Xia Chengqi was always under Xie Qing's control and would leave him at any time returned. Lu Henglin took a deep breath and tried to restrain his emotions, but he was still on the verge of losing control, "She can give you, I can do it too."

Xia Chengqi's eyelashes trembled slightly, but he showed no expression, "Don't say that about Heng Lin, this is different."

What Xie Qing gave her was far more than a good life. It was her choice that really changed the trajectory of his life and gave him opportunities that he would never have had no matter how hard he tried. He could not enjoy all of this without burden.

What's more, he still has a dark secret that has been hidden in his heart.

He couldn't confess all the uneasiness and inferiority deep in his heart, and he couldn't even express his desire to own Lu Henglin by any means.

He tried his best to restrain himself from trying his best to control this relationship.

Leave a little distance for him to adapt and make him stronger, maybe he will handle it better and take better care of this relationship.

"What's different?" Lu Henglin laughed at himself, "Am I not as worthy of your trust as she is?"

She has given you a rich life, she already has the indestructible calm and toughness of an adult, she is elegant enough and has a long-term vision.

But I gave you all my sincerity, and I am doing my best to make myself stronger.

Without words, Lu Henglin couldn't stand his own humbleness and fragility, so he turned off the video directly.

The long cold war is more difficult than before.

It was said to be very long, but in fact they met a week later, but between lovers, every second of the cold war seemed as long as a lifetime.

Xie Qing was very satisfied with Xia Chengqi's entry into Stanford. It happened that they had just negotiated a large-scale cooperation, and Lu Chengnian was also in a good mood, so he simply spared a few days to invite them to travel together.

Xia Chengqi has always been preoccupied, Xie Qing was keenly aware that when asked, he could only prevaricate by saying that he was worried about his future study and life.

He thought that Lu Henglin would not come back, but the day after they arrived in an island country in the South Pacific, Lu Henglin appeared.

Although before that they would video almost every day and tell each other about their recent encounters, but when this person really stood in front of him, Xia Chengqi would still be amazed by his growth.

Lu Henglin suddenly became mature and stable, and his whole person became taller. The rich life nourished his soul, and made his inherent dignity more important and more dazzling. A future star source construction Leaders, it seems, have emerged.

He is the one destined to stand on the clouds.

Lu Chengnian received an important call early in the morning, and the communication lasted for four or ten minutes and it was not over yet.

The other three sat in the shade of the terrace to enjoy the scenery. No one started to talk, and Lu Henglin just focused on the scenery without turning his head.

Xie Qing noticed the unusual silence between them, and said with a smile, "You two have lived together for many years, why are you so estranged after only being separated for a year?"

Xia Chengqi's heart trembled, but he didn't answer. He wasn't sure if Lu Henglin's willingness to come here with him after the holiday was a sign of reconciliation, or whether his silence meant he was still angry.

They haven't been separated for as long as Xie Qing thought, and they have videos every day.Although the Lu family went to visit Lu Henglin collectively during the winter vacation, he was unable to return to China, and entertained relatives he didn't want to see with a lot of resentment.

But when he celebrated his birthday last year, someone had paid for the Thanksgiving holiday in advance, flew back for more than ten hours, stayed with him for less than 24 hours, and flew back for another ten hours.

They were so sweet back then.

The island is covered with tropical rain forests, and the wind blowing from the humid tropics carries the rich green smell of plants and the smell of sea water. The sea water is blue and the sky is cloudless, reflecting the lush and rolling jungle. The beautiful scenery, but there are two people who don’t care about it at all. appreciate.

"It's a bit unfamiliar, Xiao Qi, let's go for a walk together?" Lu Henglin finally turned his face, which had been looking at the scenery outside the terrace, and said to him.

Xia Chengqi took a deep breath, but his mood was not relaxed, "Okay."

Out of Xie Qing's sight, they remained silent. The sun was too strong at the moment, so they walked along the edge of the dense forest, looking at the sea water shimmering with tiny rays from a distance.

It was really too hot, Xia Chengqi soon felt that the tip of his nose was covered with sweat, and regretted that he didn't take a sip of iced coconut water just now, and wondered if his voice would be sticky when he spoke.

Lu Henglin suddenly walked away from him, Xia Chengqi followed him, seeing him walking away quickly, his heart sank, he sighed and lowered his head again.

Not knowing whether to chase after him, he could only walk for a while, only to hear the hurried footsteps behind him, the sound of stepping on the wet soil was muffled.

A blue coconut still soaked in cold water drops was stuffed into his hand.

"Be careful of heat stroke." Lu Henglin whispered.

The person in front of him has indeed changed, he is speechless and domineering, and he will release his thoughtfulness during the cold war.Perhaps it was because of the heat that made his thoughts a little slow, Xia Chengqi slowly realized that Lu Henglin had become even more exciting to him.

When Lu Henglin was about to continue walking, Xia Chengqi thought that there was no need to worry if he walked a long way, so he reached out and grabbed his hand.

He hugged the coconut, and his palms were cold, and Lu Henglin also had the coolness of the coconut, but when the two palms touched, the temperature rose quickly.

"Are you still angry?"

Lu Henglin didn't speak, but he held his hand and walked forward together holding hands.

Xia Chengqi finally felt better, but before the two of them could really say anything, Lu Chengnian called. He finally finished his business and asked them to go back and go snorkeling together.

After Lu Henglin hung up the phone, he still held his hand and walked back, until he would be seen, and then slowly let go.