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Shen Chen'an, who rarely went home, went straight into Shen Mao's study, and asked straight to the point: "Do you remember Ji Dinglan?"

Shen Mao, whose work was interrupted, raised his head in displeasure, frowned and said, "What's wrong with your eyes, they are red and swollen, did Lu Qi bully you?"

Shen Chenan shook his head and repeated his question: "Ji Dinglan, do you know each other?"

Shen Mao helplessly put aside the document he was looking at, squeezed the swollen eyebrows and said, "Which partner of mine or which employee of the company? How old are you, male or female, and what do you look like? You child , I see so many people every day, how can I remember you just by name?"

"It doesn't matter if you don't remember her. You may remember her when I finish speaking. At the end of November 1997, you got drunk at a party and were helped by a hostess named Ji Dinglan and the manager. I spent an unknown three to four hours in the lounge upstairs. At about one o’clock in the morning, my brother had a fever, my mother and the nanny called you in a panic, and then you were woken up by the hotel manager to go home and put a The pen with your name on it was left in the lounge."

"What is the unknown three or four hours? Isn't it normal for me to rest outside while drinking and drinking?" Shen Mao said, "You came to me just to ask about something that happened so long ago?"

Shen Chen'an went on to say: "In January 1998, Ji Dinglan found out that she was pregnant. She deduced that she was pregnant with your child based on the time of pregnancy and other clues that I don't know."

"Nonsense!" Shen Mao interrupted him and said, "You mean I have an illegitimate child? What are you thinking about all day long, child?"

"In the same month, my mother accidentally met Ji Dinglan in the hospital and recognized her as the woman who was with you before. After that, my mother had doubts about Ji Dinglan's pregnancy time, and she attributed everything to her own wild thoughts during pregnancy." Shen Chenan couldn't help but After a natural pause, she continued: "My mother has been in a bad state of mind since she gave birth to me. When she saw Ji Dinglan again in the hospital, she found that she was carrying the pen you didn't know where she left. So I began to have doubts about the identity of Ji Dinglan's child. She asked you what was going on, and you said that she was thinking wildly, that the illegitimate child had no shadow at all, and that she was sick, and everything was her imagination."

"That's her imagination!" Shen Mao slammed the table, and said anxiously and angrily: "I told you, your mother has been in a bad state of mind since giving birth to you. Yes, I was wrong, I shouldn't have ignored her mental state, and I shouldn't have waited until she was seriously ill to find out about it. I was wrong, okay? Can you stop talking about it again and again?!"

"She also felt that she was sick, so she put this matter aside and devoted herself to treatment." Shen Chen'an said quickly, "But one day when you and the nanny were not at home, Ji Dinglan hugged A newborn baby came to her door and she said it was your baby."

"It's impossible! I don't even know about it!"

"My mother was in a bad state of mind at the time. She instinctively doubted what you said, and when you became impatient because of her repeated questions, she decided that you cheated and had an illegitimate child. In order to protect In order to protect me and my brother, she chose to hide it." Shen Chenan took a deep breath and tried to calm himself down and said, "You already know what happened next, the two of you started an endless quarrel, you chose to leave home all day Staying at the company all night made her affirm her own thoughts, and her mental state became worse and worse, and she finally chose to commit suicide."

"You, where did you know these things?"

Shen Chen'an did not answer his father's question, but started a new topic and said: "Now let's talk about Ji Dinglan, a woman who thought that she gave birth to your son all her life, and taught her son to recognize his ancestors since he was a child." Zong, I want to get everything back from him. Of course, I found his son and did a paternity test. He has nothing to do with our family. I don't know what happened that night in November 1997, so that Ji Dinglan This illusion caused her to destroy my home for the first time 11 years ago, and her son almost destroyed my home again 20 years later."

"Her son?"

"Ji Ran", Shen Chen'an said with some fear: "You should still have an impression of him, right? I just felt that I didn't deal with him before, and then I felt that it was unnatural for him to deal with me several times, so I went to investigate his affairs. I didn't expect to find out such a bunch of things. You said that if I didn't know it all the time, what would happen if I was stared at by a poisonous snake in the dark? "

Shen Mao was shocked by the amount of information. He grabbed the only person and thing that he could react to and asked, "Ji Ran? It's the boy who had a good relationship with your brother before and now follows that kid from the Xue family?"

"It's him, and Shen Yuanhang is quite stupid. Others regard him as an elder brother, but he still wants to chase him." Shen Chenan shrugged his shoulders, "But this matter is also quite interesting. He hates me to death, but Think of Shen Yuanhang as his elder brother in his heart. Ji Dinglan thought in his heart that if his mother was gone, she would be the wife of the Shen family. Ji Ran might think that without me, he would be the beloved young master of the Shen family, right? Although being loved is a paradox on, but the two of them..."

Shen Chen'an shook his head and said, "My heart is higher than the sky and my life is thinner than paper."

"Where did you know these things?"

"I found Ji Dinglan along Ji Ran's line. The damn thing is that she left me a notebook, which roughly recorded the whole process from when she found me to suicide." Shen Chenan took out a bag from her bag. He piled things up on the table and said: "Here are the materials I found about Ji Dinglan, the recorder I met with Ji Ran, and some other things. This is a photocopy of the notebook. You can read it yourself. Lu Qi is in it." He has helped me a lot, and he will not tell other people about it, you can rest assured about that."

Shen Chen'an pushed these things in front of Shen Mao, and said wearily: "I won't ask you again what happened that night, whether you cheated and didn't leave a child, or didn't cheat. It's all a coincidence. It doesn’t make any sense to me anymore, for me the whole thing is over here. You can decide for yourself whether you want to tell my brother, I’m tired, so I’m leaving first.”

"Wait", Shen Mao didn't realize it until Shen Chenan opened the study door, and quickly called him to stop, but when Shen Chenan really stopped, he didn't know what to say, so he could only say something unclear : "Are you leaving now?"

"Sorry, Dad, I don't know how to face these things right now. It's a good idea for us to calm down for a while."

"Then are you coming back?"

Shen Chen'an was silent for a while, and said, "I will be back."

-

"There should be an end to the affairs between the four generations of my family. I hope that I will put an end to everything myself. This time, let me face my father alone and solve everything, okay?"

Sitting in the car, Lu Qi kept thinking about what Shen Chenan said just now. The two of them originally drove here together, but when they entered the door, Shen Chenan stopped him, saying that he wanted to face his father by himself.

Lu Qi's first reaction was worry, not that he thought Shen Mao would attack Shen Chen'an, but rather worried about Shen Chen'an's mental state.Too many things happened in the past few days, Shen Chen'an's mental state has been a little tense, now he wants to go to Shen Mao alone to explain everything, Lu Qi is really worried.

If possible, he even hoped to find Shen Mao alone, so as to minimize the possible impact on Shen Chen'an.

But Shen Chen'an disagreed, as he said, this is a matter between their father and son, Lu Qi can help him investigate and accompany him to find Ji Ran, but Lu Qi can't completely replace him to face it His father, to face the complicated entanglements of their past.

The two of them stalemate for a while, and finally Lu Qi compromised.

When he watched Shen Chenan enter the house, he suddenly felt a sense of time confusion—four years have passed, and Shen Chenan has really grown up.

Aside from the time when the two of them communicated with each other through their mobile phones and computers, during the four years of getting along with Shen Chenan day and night, Lu Qi watched Shen Chenan from a freshman who ignorantly obeyed his father's arrangement, to now that he was about to graduate and made his own A senior graduate who chooses life; from a rich second generation who doesn't care about everything, to a planner Shen who is responsible for the company and the projects he participates in; Adults who choose to face difficulties on their own.

He may still be a little immature, and he still has to find someone to help him find out a lot of things, and he needs someone to accompany him to make decisions, but he has grown a lot, and he is no longer that child who depends on others for everything.

Lu Qi was very glad that he was able to witness his growth, but besides that, he still had an indescribable feeling, joy and an inexplicable emotion just weighed on his heart, which made him a little uncomfortable.

-

"Come back to your senses", Shen Chen'an, who left the house, walked quickly to the car door, pulled the door open and realized that Lu Qi was distracted, knocked on the window and said, "I'm back, open the car door."

Lu Qi was startled by the sound of knocking on the car window, seeing that the person coming was Shen Chen'an, so he quickly unlocked the car door and let him get in the car.

After Shen Chenan got into the car, he threw the bag he had just packed into the back seat and said, "I'm done talking with my dad, shall we go home or go to the company?"

"How was the chat?"

"Tell him everything that needs to be said, about my mother, about Ji Ran, and I don't care what he thinks or does. Anyway, this matter is like this for me." Shen Chenan leaned back on the chair with her eyes closed and said: "I can't make any changes to what happened 20 years ago. It has affected me for more than 20 years. I can't be trapped for more than 20 years, right? "

Lu Qi looked at his swollen eyes that could be seen even with his eyes closed, and asked, "Have you figured it out?"

"It's not like I figured it out. To be precise, I just let it go. It should be a good idea to leave everything to time. One month or two months, one year or two years, time can always erase the traces of the past , I don't really want to be trapped anymore." Shen Chenan opened his eyes and looked at Lu Qi and said, "You will stay with me anyway, right?"

Lu Qi leaned over to help him fasten his seat belt, kissed him again and said, "Yes, I will be with you."

"That's good."

The author has something to say:

I figured it out, the main text should be finished tomorrow, and then I will write a story to explain the previous life, that is, the original story, and some other independent fragments, there may be a short period of time before it is all finished