fish under ice

Zhong Juntong didn't know when he woke up.

Because the bedroom curtains were closed, only a ray of pale light leaked out.For a moment he couldn't tell when and where he was.

His consciousness has not yet come back, the pain of the hangover is like thousands of steel needles piercing his nerves, making him hiss in pain.

"woke up?"

Zhong Juntong paused, then subconsciously turned around, wanting to talk to his wife.

click.

A very mild beige light was turned on by the bedside, so as not to sting his eyes.

Zhong Juntong covered his eyes with his hands, feeling the unspeakable gentle infatuation in his heart when he got up in the morning, and was about to talk to Shi Yi, but when he opened his eyes, he found that Shi Yi was wearing a thick turtleneck sweater, kneeling and sitting on the bed in an awkward posture .

His skin has always been fair, but today's white seems to be mixed with a bit of pale green, looking extremely weak and fragile.The ends of the eyes were also frighteningly red, and thin red blood streaks emerged, so red that it almost dripped blood.

Zhong Juntong opened his eyes wide, and before he could say anything, Shi Yi reached out and touched his face.

There was a three-finger-thick red strangle mark on his wrist, which was quite scary on his snow-white and thin wrist, as if he had just escaped an abuse.

Zhong Juntong's heart skipped a beat, and he rushed to his head in anger, the veins on his forehead popped up, he wanted to kill someone.

"Who bullied..." He suddenly stopped.

Fragments of the crazy bed affair that lasted until the early morning scattered like light dust.As long as he picked up a piece, he could see Shi Yi's trembling legs, his convulsed body and heart-shattering cries for mercy.

And the red mark on his wrist was left when he tied it up with a tie when Shi Yi struggled the only time.

Zhong Juntong sat up in a trance, and found that his body was very dry without any stickiness.He's been cleaned up.

Zhong Juntong's face turned pale inch by inch, and his heart also turned gray inch by inch.

He forced Shi Yi.After Shi Yi woke up, he wiped the perpetrators clean.

At this moment, Shi Yi's fingers gently stroked Zhong Juntong's face.The thin green stubble of his unshaved beard itched his palms.

He smiled with difficulty: "Are you still dizzy?"

Zhong Juntong couldn't utter a word, and looked at him with teary eyes, and finally looked at him unconsciously with tear-filled eyes like a child who has done something wrong.

He was unconsciously begging his forgiveness.

Shi Yi sighed inwardly, what could he do with him?

Zhong Juntong seemed not sober from the wine, and spoke bluntly, "I...I drank a lot..."

Zhong Juntong's cell phone rang suddenly, and he answered the call in a hurry. It was from his assistant.

He reminded the boss that he was flying to London to discuss business at noon today.

Zhong Juntong answered the phone, but looked at Shi Yi vigorously without blinking, as if he was afraid that he would walk away suddenly or cry.The assistant on the other end of the phone didn't get a reply, and kept calling the boss, but on the other end, Zhong Juntong just said to Shi Yi in a low voice: "I won't go..."

But Shi Yi stood up, glanced at the phone he was talking on, and then at his half-naked husband who couldn't speak clearly, without any resentment in his heart.Because he likes Zhong Juntong so much, he can never resent him.

But he felt very cold again, as cold as drinking ice in a cold day.

He knew very well that something had split between them.It wasn't broken, but fine cracks had spread to the surface.

How did it get to where it is today?

Shi Yi couldn't figure it out.

"I'll go and pack your luggage for you." Shi Yi turned and left.

Zhong Juntong sat on the bed and watched the door close.

Shi Yi quickly packed Zhong Juntong's luggage, and before leaving, he instructed: "Put vitamin pills in the blue bag, remember to take them."

Zhong Juntong gritted his teeth and said falteringly: "Shi Yi..."

"I put the dose for a week." Shi Yi looked at him and said word by word, "If you... If you come back later, remember to ask the assistant to go to the local pharmacy to buy medicine."

"Mmm." Zhong Juntong clearly wanted to say a lot, but now he can only spit out one monotonous word.

Shi Yi reached out to help him straighten the scarf again, pinching the corners carefully.He suddenly laughed in his heart, why did he treat him like a child again?

Zhong Juntong is obviously already a strong, mature and handsome man.

But he just wanted to laugh for no reason, the smile didn't fade away, and he really wanted to cry.

The assistant has arrived downstairs.There were several reminder calls.

Zhong Juntong had to leave.

He regretted it.Knowing that he was going on a long business trip, he shouldn't have had a drink with someone last night, and he shouldn't have been drinking crazy with Shi Yi when he came back. Now he didn't even say an apology, and he was about to catch a plane.

Zhong Juntong took Shi Yi's index finger and middle finger, stroked them lightly, and begged in a low voice, "Wait for me to come back, okay?"

Shi Yi didn't withdraw his hand, but looked up into Zhong Juntong's eyes.

His eyes are so beautiful.

The shape is beautiful, the curve of the end of the eyes is clean and sharp, the pupils are black and bright, and there is a kind of youthful spirit when looking at people stubbornly, as if they are never happy, always cold and arrogant.

Shi Yi said, "Okay."

Don't make him wait too long.

"I'm leaving."

"Bon Voyage."

Zhong Juntong left.

Shi Yi sat on the sofa.

He looked around.This suite was bought by Zhong Juntong in his first year of work.Before he moved in, Zhong Juntong handed him the keys and asked him to decorate according to his preferences.

The rugs and lamps were selected from the home market that he walked for two days.He decided on the sofa and sofa blanket after trying them out one by one.He chose the curtains and sent them to Zhong Juntong, who bought them only after he said they looked good.He brought back the kitchen utensils and pots and pans in the kitchen, and he also remembered to refill Juntong's aftershave and cologne in the bathroom from time to time.

He is like a swallow nesting in spring, bit by bit to the east and bit to the west, filling up the house bit by bit.

But now the room seemed eerily empty to him.

Large areas of white, large areas of reserved space.

Shi Yi suddenly regretted it.Could he try to keep his husband willful just now?

He was terrified and apprehensive, as if he was hanging on a cliff all the time.

He wanted Zhong Juntong to hug him.

He doesn't need an apology, he doesn't need a lot of sweet words, he just wants Zhong Juntong to give him a long hug.

Without saying a word, Shi Yi skillfully got into the closet.In the suffocation and darkness, he hugged Zhong Juntong's sweater, buried his face in the soft sweater, breathed hard, and hugged the sweater even tighter, as if he was hugging his husband, gently and carefully absorbing the warmth and warmth. smell.

This also counts as a hug.

Even stupid people have stupid ways.Don't bother anyone, don't annoy anyone, and you can solve your unspeakable delusions by yourself.