fish under ice

Shi Yi went back to the house and made brown sugar glutinous rice cakes for them as a snack.

Father Zhong glanced at Shi Yi's back, and then at his son's eyes glued to his body, "I really like it."

Zhong Juntong didn't refute, and gave a rare obedient hum.

Father Zhong asked again: "What dying entrustment, is it also a fake?"

Zhong Juntong stopped talking.His father knew him well.

"I'm wondering, how did you decide that Shi Yi can accept men? Although he looks weak, he doesn't necessarily have to be gay, right?"

Zhong Juntong looked up at him, his dark and bright eyes were cold and determined.

"He's mine anyway."

Zhong Juntong never thought of confirming Shi Yi's sexual orientation, he only understood one thing, no matter whether Shi Yi was with a woman or with other men, it made him feel stuck in his throat.

His father's words made him face a flaw in his character that was difficult to correct - he must get what he likes.Just as stubborn and cruel as a child.

But Zhong Juntong never did this to others.

After thinking about it, he had an epiphany, but it was because Shi Yi was such a gentle person.

He took advantage of Shi Yi's loophole, and wanted to use his tenderness as a breakthrough to fulfill his unreasonable demands and outrageous lies.

The two had lunch and took a nap in the room.

Shi Yi took off his coat and huddled under the quilt. He did not know how many times he praised Zhong Juntong: "The fish you caught today is so delicious! It tastes delicious no matter how you do it!"

Half of the caught fish is braised in soy sauce, and the other half is chopped with pepper. It is delicious, spicy and refreshing, and it is extremely enjoyable.

Zhong Juntong restrained his smile: "Okay, I've said it many times."

Shi Yi bit his lip, stopped talking, and looked directly at the ceiling, "Then go to sleep."

Zhong Juntong didn't speak.

Shi Yi really didn't feel sleepy, so he picked up a topic: "Did you often live at home when you were in college? I think the decoration of the room is still the preference of high school students."

"Come back occasionally. One south and one north, it's too far away, so I won't come back."

"When you were in college, I should have been looking for an internship. I rarely saw you at that time." Shi Yi thought of it naturally.

"Yeah. It's just a one-time meeting during the holidays."

Shi Yi turned his face to him, with a gentle smile: "I still remember that when I came back from the supermarket on the New Year's day, you stood at the door and helped our house paste the couplets, but they were not evenly pasted. Because Shi Miao always said that you posted them crookedly. , Actually you didn’t.”

Shi Yi still remembered that the clouds in the sky were glowing red, and the couplets were also glowing red. The solemn and solemn red diffused to Zhong Juntong's side face, like a Chinese painting with vivid colors and delicate brushstrokes, and the festive atmosphere of the New Year gradually turned cold. Zhong Juntong.

Zhong Juntong said, "Well, you brought your classmates home, too."

Shi Yi quickly remembered: "You mean Gu Mian? He is from the north, and he wants to come to the south for a year."

"Oh." Zhong Juntong smiled lightly, "He seems to be very happy."

"The taste of the New Year in the south is not strong, and it's not really interesting. He likes to eat southern snacks, glutinous rice balls, glutinous rice balls..."

"Okay, go to bed." Zhong Juntong interrupted him.

Shi Yi blinked in a daze, oh, pinched the quilt to tightly cover the socket of his neck, and closed his eyes.

Shi Yi couldn't help thinking of Zhong Juntong in high school.

The Shi family and the Zhong family have quite a tortuous relationship by marriage. After this generation, although there is nothing to do with each other, the affection accumulated by the ancestors is still there.It was because of this decadent and fragile relationship that Zhong Juntong came to the Shi family.

Shi Yi vaguely remembered that when he came back from the university by car that day, he stopped by to buy vegetables for dinner. He was exhausted physically and mentally. When he opened the door, he saw Zhong Juntong standing behind Uncle Zhong.

The room was dimly lit and the headlights were off.The sky was getting dark, too, and the light through the shutters became yellow and soft, like honey flowing from a jar.

Father and Uncle Zhong stood facing each other, seeming to be arguing and discussing.There was obvious tension in the hasty voice.

But the boy standing behind Uncle Zhong does not belong to this adult world.

His hair was messy, half of his bangs were randomly pulled back, fixed with mint-flavored mousse, revealing a bit of full white forehead, but his eyes were very bright, as bright as two balls of fire, bared It was burning fiercely, the flames were astonishing.

He has a Band-Aid on his chin, is wearing a blue and white school uniform, and has an expensive sports bag at his feet.

Shi Yi didn't know whether to advance or retreat.

"Our husband and wife are going on a business trip abroad for a while, but this brat doesn't know what to do. After thinking about it, it's Shi who is the most reassuring man and the most harmonious family. Brother took care of Juntong for two weeks."

Zhong Juntong frowned, as if he was dissatisfied with being arranged so hastily.

Shi Yi looked at Zhong Juntong's thick black and beautifully shaped eyebrows and furrowed them forcefully, the corners of the young man's mouth drooped and tightened, and his eyes were gloomy and silent.Suddenly, the boy stared hard at him a few times.Shi Yi lowered his head in a panic.

He was just a passerby who inadvertently peeped into the inner world of the young boy.

Now he is just a person who can only spy a corner of Juntong's inner world.Just like now, he clearly felt that her husband was not in a good mood, but he had no idea why he was in a bad mood.

If only you could read minds.He will definitely study hard and learn to interpret Zhong Juntong's every silent look and cold words.

After waking up from a nap, the snow had already melted, and the two drove back to the city.Zhong Juntong went to work, and Shi Yi went home.

Shi Yi washed the dirty clothes and mopped the floor of the room again.Just when I was free, I looked out the window and saw the warm yellow sun. I suddenly remembered the papers and books drying on the balcony, and rushed to the balcony immediately.

The hardcover books were okay, only the side pages were soaked, but the stacks of manuscript paper were soaked, turning into a suspicious mass of aquatic animal corpses.

Shi Yi froze for a long time, squatted down, and picked up the wet manuscript paper, which was soft, like his fragile dream.

He couldn't cry, couldn't laugh, he couldn't laugh, only two gasps of unknown meaning.

He threw the stack of waste papers into the trash can and cleaned the balcony.

Great, the house is clean again.

Shi Yi felt in a daze, he felt that he had been burned away by a fire, his thoughts on innocence, childishness, and beauty, his core understanding of human nature, and the foundation on which he used to settle down were all burned away.

He never seemed to be writing.

He does not deserve the joy of creation.

A few days later, Gu Mian called him suddenly, and after some pleasantries, he asked, "I heard that you are no longer working in the publishing house in your hometown? Do you want to come to my place? The children's book industry is very developed here, and children's literature is very important." It is also very important.”

Shi Yi just moved his heart, and immediately refused: "No, thank you, Gu Mian. I'm not alone anymore, and I can't leave like this willfully."

Gu Mian was silent for a while, and said that sentence again: "You really like men. I thought they...they were just talking nonsense."

When he speaks, he always has a very simple and direct childishness. Gu Mian is never eager to show his maturity. On the contrary, he is willing to let people see his naivety and honesty.

"I never lied to you." Shi Yi emphasized.

"Yes, you didn't."

Gu Mian said again: "Can you think about it carefully?"

Shi Yi didn't take Gu Mian's suggestion to heart.There is no way he could go north alone now.Half a year ago, despite his family's opposition, he had the courage to go north with Gu Mian, which was only once in his life.

He is too timid, he is only willing to be selfish and presumptuous once for himself.If he fails, his struggle is over.

Shi Yi stayed because of Zhong Juntong.He melted his wings made of wax, willing to stay in this city, wandering in the sun every day.

Shi Yi is staying now because of Zhong Juntong.He loves his husband and finds it difficult to be separated for even a day. How can he survive a long parting?

Shi Yi didn't decide to tell Zhong Juntong about it either.

He's made up his mind.