All the stars know that he is my ex-boyfriend

Early the next morning, Gu Bei got up on time, and when he arrived at the dining room, he found Xu Jingyan was there, still dressed in a neat military uniform.

Gu Bei was stunned when he saw this, and subconsciously asked, "Are you leaving again?"

Xu Jingyan glanced at him: "Yes."

Back and forth, all very flat.

"Oh..." Gu Bei couldn't find anything to answer, and the old butler just happened to bring his breakfast out of the kitchen, so he sat down and ate.

–––Even though he and Xu Jingyan didn’t mind, the old butler still maintained his principles as a butler and never dined with the two of them at the same table.After delivering Gu Bei's breakfast, he went back to the kitchen to handle the ingredients for lunch.

So only Gu Bei and Xu Jingyan were left in the restaurant.

The sound of bowls and chopsticks colliding, and the sound of the butler handling the ingredients in the kitchen not far away echoed in his ears. Gu Bei swallowed the porridge slowly, and glanced at Xu Jingyan at the table from time to time.

As time went by, the aura that belonged to him became more and more intense.His brows are sharp, his breath is loose, his voice is low. Most of the time, Gu Bei understands why so many people want to say something good to Xu Jingyan. It's really a pity that such a person is so single.Even Gu Bei, who has lived together for such a long time, is often attracted by the behavior and appearance of the other party, so he can't help but take a few extra glances, let alone other people.

He still remembers that when he was voted up on the school forum's judging list, many anonymous comments said that he was full of hormones, and he looked mysterious and wandering around from time to time, especially like the senior male protagonist in idol dramas, Makes the heart beat wildly.

When Gu Bei saw it at the time, he felt that his heart was beating wildly, so Xu Jingyan could probably explode his heart directly.

Back to the present, Xu Jingyan, who was the first to finish the meal, started to read the report with his brain. Just when Gu Bei was watching him secretly, taking it for granted that he would keep reading like this, Xu Jingyan suddenly stood up.

Gu Bei quickly retracted his gaze.

Because of the seat, Xu Jingyan had to pass by Gu Bei when he wanted to leave the dining table. Feeling the other party's breath approaching, Gu Bei became nervous for no reason. It can be said that he was very guilty.

Then I heard Xu Jingyan's footsteps stop beside him, he stretched out his hand, tapped the table next to his bowl lightly, and said, "Eat well."

The voice fell from the top of his head, as if piercing through his thoughts and actions just now, making Gu Bei shrink his neck unconsciously.

After a while, he said, "Oh..."

When he looked back, Xu Jingyan had already walked towards the room.

The smooth military uniform looked very good on him, Gu Bei looked at it quietly while biting a mouthful of porridge.

It is said that when he was three or four years old, he and Xu Jingyan had a very close relationship, and he always liked to stick behind the latter's buttocks.But he can't remember the events so long ago. He only remembers that when he was older, Xu Jingyan would come to the house for a short stay from time to time.

Mostly three to five days, the longest is no more than a week.

And in these memories, Gu Bei is still close to him naturally, likes him, and even because of Xu Jingyan's half-joking sentence "Why are you getting fatter and fatter", he worked hard to lose weight when he was young.

It's just that this kind of intimacy is probably caused by Xu Jingyan's increasingly strong personality charm, which is different from intimacy, and as they grow older and the surrounding things change, the distance between them becomes more and more intimacy. further away.

This kind of relationship, if you really want to describe it, I am afraid that many people will find it strange.

They can be said to be the ones left in the world who understand each other's experiences best, but even so, there seems to be a long gap between the two.

This kind of chasm is not difficult to overcome, Gu Bei can feel that due to their importance to each other, as long as one side advances a little bit, the other side will take a conniving or submissive attitude, but neither of them has advanced before, and they both tacitly maintain Living within a line, both near and far.

Maybe it's character and mood, or maybe something else is at work.

In short, the days when I was able to say that I wanted to play with my brother without any grievances like when I was a child, and when I was twelve or thirteen years old because of the pain and cried without thinking about getting into Xu Jingyan's arms have become farther and farther invisible. .

Now when Gu Bei is facing Xu Jingyan's indifference and indifference, he even faintly doubts whether his existence may gradually become a burden for the other party.

After finishing the meal, Gu Bei sent the bowls and chopsticks to the kitchen, had a conversation with Mr. Housekeeper, then went back to his room and collapsed on the bed.

After that incident, he was taken to the capital.That period of time can be said to be the most chaotic situation in his life, two blows fell one after another, knocking him into a daze, exhausted physically and mentally.

At that time, Xu Jingyan was also busy, so busy that there seemed to be endless official documents every day, but even so, the other party never neglected Gu Bei, and it was common for him to go on and on for days and nights.

Later, after Gu Bei became a little more sober, he occasionally witnessed Xu Jingyan gently kneading the center of the bridge of his nose a few times in front of him, showing a tired expression, and even when his eyes fell on Gu Bei, a trace of imperceptible irritability and anger flashed across him. violent.

I can't say whether it's because he can't bear the busyness of the other party, or because he is not a parent, so he can't add a lot of burden to the other party with peace of mind, and he is afraid that the last pillar will leave. In short, since then, Gu Bei has changed. The more well-behaved he is, the medicine is difficult to drink even if it is difficult to drink, and the pain is treated with gritting teeth. Xu Jingyan obeys everything he says.

Based on the blows that Gu Bei suffered at that time, the more obedient he was, the more he held back some bad things in his heart, and fundamentally speaking, the more he was pushing away the relationship between the two.

But he couldn't help it, he couldn't open his heart knot.

Xu Jingyan is not good at expressing, but Gu Bei refuses to express.

Up to now, Xu Jingyan's career has become more and more busy, and there is a tendency to ascend to the highest position in the army recently, and the relationship between the two has become more and more deserted.

One is busy with military affairs, and the other obediently treats and completes the training assigned by the former.

Xu Jingyan occasionally cared about him, but all he got was a polite reply, while Gu Bei occasionally got curious about his itinerary, and basically couldn't get any information.

They live like this, both near and far.

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The true meaning of this dull relationship began to turn around after the first year of high school.

It rained heavily that day, when Gu Bei came home, he happened to see Xu Jingyan leaving. He was always picked up by a car, which was not unusual, but what was strange was that Gu Bei saw a woman in the car that day.

With a beautiful dark dress, decent manners, and an extremely powerful aura, she looked more gorgeous and noble than the actresses on the red carpet on TV, and she was so exquisite that she looked as good-looking as she walked out of a painting.

The other party was sitting beside Xu Jingyan, and after Xu Jingyan got into the car, he turned slightly and whispered something in his ear.

The clothes on both of them were darker, and they even complemented each other a bit.If the picture is frozen at that moment, you will definitely get a very appreciative photo.

Gu Bei, who was already feeling unwell due to the heavy rain, suddenly felt a strong sense of rejection at that moment.

The moment he pressed this feeling and turned around to go upstairs, Xu Jingyan in the car suddenly felt something and raised his head.

The eyes of the two met in the air, the hover car moved forward, and Gu Bei went upstairs without looking back.

After arriving home, the old housekeeper panicked when he saw his expression, and hurriedly put hot water on him, and brought medicine and soup that he had prepared earlier because of the heavy rain.

After exhausting everything, Gu Bei slumped on the bed exhaustedly, wrapped the quilt tightly under the ten thousand instructions of the old housekeeper, buried his head in it, and kept recalling the scene just downstairs.

Why do you reject it?

That woman is flamboyant and beautiful, her distance and manners are reasonable and decent when approaching, she is neither obsequious nor obsequious, she is dignified and confident, and looking at her appearance, she is right from any point of view.

But he just rejects it.

It can't be said that he couldn't accept such an extra person beside Xu Jingyan, but he was a little afraid that even the last pillar he could lean on would be swept away by others when he was still a little closed, leaving him completely alone.

The gate hadn't been opened at ten o'clock, so Gu Bei guessed that Xu Jingyan probably wouldn't be coming back tonight.

The mind became more and more dizzy, and finally fell asleep in a daze, having nightmares in the middle of the night.

The nightmare was also Gu Bei's old buddy after that incident, pestering him all night, made him unable to restrain himself from being awakened in the dream, opened his eyes sweating, and saw someone beside the bed.

The man's eyes were deep, his brows were furrowed, and he just looked at Gu Bei who suddenly woke up.

The eyes of the two met in the air, and Gu Bei was stunned for a moment before realizing it, and said in a hoarse voice: "...Are you back?"

Xu Jingyan hummed.

Gu Bei was a little dazed. After getting older, Xu Jingyan seldom entered his room again. His sudden appearance made Gu Bei a little dazed.

Just when he was thinking about whether he should ask what happened, Xu Jingyan on the other end suddenly stretched out his hand and pressed it on his forehead.

His head was pressed into the soft pillow, and Xu Jingyan's voice rang in his ears: "You have a fever."

The heat of that hand made Gu Bei's heart beat inexplicably, and he said after a while, "Ah."

The old butler pushed the door in at the right time, holding various medicines in his hand.

Xu Jingyan sat back a little so that the old housekeeper could give Gu Bei medicine.

The man's breath retreated suddenly, causing Gu Bei to unconsciously grab it with his hand under the quilt.

After feeding a bunch of potions, the old butler whispered something to Gu Bei before turning around and leaving.

The moment he withdrew, Gu Bei's eyes fell on Xu Jingyan, as if he wanted to know if he would go with him.

Fortunately, Xu Jingyan didn't leave, he was still sitting by the bed, and even stretched out his hand to throw the quilt for him, letting him sleep.

It was also at this time that Gu Bei realized that the other party was still wearing a military uniform, which was exactly the same as when he was in the car in the afternoon.

Obviously, he just got home, and rushed to his room before he could do anything.

Gu Bei's heart moved slightly, he shrank slightly under the quilt, listened to his words, turned sideways, curled his body together, and then slowly closed his eyes.

Just when he closed his eyes, the fragments of the nightmare he had just reappeared in his mind through memories, Gu Bei moved uncomfortably, and then whispered under the covers: "...Brother."

"Huh?" Xu Jingyan responded.

Gu Bei stretched out his hand from under the quilt, and scratched in Xu Jingyan's direction.

The man had good night vision, and after pausing for a moment, he stretched out his hand towards Gu Bei hesitantly.

Gu Bei wasn't greedy at all, he just held the other's thumb lightly, as if he was using the other's temperature and breath to endure the annoying dream.

Later, when Xu Jingyan looked at Gu Bei who was curled up in the bed, he couldn't help holding his hand gradually and slowly, giving him more strength.

Let Gu Bei sleep until dawn.

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