The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

Li Yuanzhi woke up from his sleep, raised his hand in a daze to touch the cold sweat on his head, half propped himself up and looked around, it was dark and silent, and the inexplicable sense of astonishment of being abandoned by the world spread in his heart.Xu Shanmu and Wan Liyou, who were in the same room, both fell asleep peacefully. The temperature had dropped severely in the past few days. The night wind was blowing, and the chill was blowing in from the window, which made him shiver.

He lay down quickly, and closed his eyes tiredly. The young man wanted to fall asleep again but couldn't sleep well. He couldn't open his eyes, and his mind was in chaos.In a trance, I heard the sound of someone turning over on the bed diagonally opposite, and there was a ray of brightness in front of my eyes.In an instant, the brightness dimmed again, and there were eager footsteps leaving and the light closing sound of the door.

Perhaps it was because the surrounding environment was too quiet, Li Yuanzhi could clearly hear strange movements from the toilet.

He opened his eyes and glanced at the opposite bed. The bedding was in disarray, and the shoes were all in disorder. Why did Xu Shanmu run out in such a hurry?He sat up and felt the cold wind blowing in from the window, making his fingertips tremble slightly from the cold.

I put on my coat, put on my shoes and walked down the dark aisle to the toilet. Before I got any closer, I heard a coughing sound like a torn brocade was torn, and the lungs were cracked, and the sound of sickness and pain reverberated in the corridor. Morbid movements, as if to say that this is not a school dormitory, but a shadowy follower of a seriously ill and desperate situation.

He quickened his pace and walked to the toilet. Someone was holding on to the wall and pinching his stomach with his white knuckles, vomiting yellow bile in pain.Full of bitterness and sourness on the tip of the nose.

Li Yuanzhi was startled, and immediately stepped forward to support him, but he was thrown away by the man as soon as his hand touched him, turning his head to see bloodshot eyes and guarded eyes.

As if seeing through the mirror, Li Yuanzhi seemed to see the true face of this person.

After recognizing who it was, Xu Shanmu relaxed his guard, stretched out his hand to pull through the sluice gate, and let the flowing water wash away the filth.

"Did I wake you up?" He cleared his throat and gradually regained his composure: "I'm sorry."

Li Yuanzhi saw that the cold sweat on his forehead and the blue veins on his neck still hadn't disappeared, coupled with his pale complexion, something was really wrong, so he couldn't help shaking his head, took off his coat and put it on the boy's shoulders: "Why are you vomiting? Didn't you eat well last night?"

"I don't know." Xu Shanmu coughed twice and leaned against the door to relax, his genius wisdom was replaced by chaos, as if he didn't know how to face Li Yuanzhi in front of him, he could only turn his head and look at the darkness outside the window in embarrassment.

In the middle of the night, in the cold wind, Xu Shanmu's body trembled uncontrollably and had slight convulsions.

Li Yuanzhi was surprised, Xu Shanmu was not shivering slightly because of the cold and discomfort, this abnormal reaction, abnormal state, more like... fear and fear.

Reminiscent of his aggressive reaction and defensive state just now...

He hesitated for a long time before finding a slightly more appropriate wording: "Did you have a nightmare?"

Xu Shanmu's hands and feet were stiff there, and he shook his head lightly: "No." After speaking, he coughed hoarsely.

Li Yuanzhi obeyed for him, but he raised his hand to refuse and dodged.

He could only stretch out his hands to pinch the boy's shoulders, and didn't intend to ask: "Don't blow the wind here, go back." Li Yuanzhi happened to lower his eyes, and when he lowered his eyes, he saw the red marks on Xu Shanmu's arms, Some have broken skin, and some have ooze a little red.He should have caught it himself.

Li Yuanzhi was stunned...

The Xu Shanmu that appeared in front of his eyes this morning was very different from the person he knew.

It was an uncontrollable coughing sound, and the sound of eager footsteps not far away. Wanliyou woke up at some point, as if in a hurry.

He seemed to be very used to this kind of scene, stretched out his hand to pull Xu Shanmu, and looked down at his face: "It's clean?"

"Yeah." Xu Shanmu was about to push away, but Wan Liyou ignored him, and only held on tighter, causing half of the clothes on his shoulders to fall off, and his tone was not very good: "Go back and lie down, I'll fetch hot water for you." You make a potion."

"En." Xu Shanmu took off the clothes on his shoulders, relaxed for a while, coughed lightly, put the clothes back on Li Yuanzhi's shoulders, and said with a smile, "Here, thank you."

After being so frightened, the three people in their dormitory were completely awake.

Wan Liyou hurried in and out, brought the cup of strange medicine, sat cross-legged on Xu Shanmu's bed, grabbed the book from the man's hand, threw it on the desk, and lay down with a dissatisfied face.

Li Yuanzhi huddled under the blanket, turned his head to the opposite person who was holding a teacup and slowly drinking the medicine, feeling a strange feeling.Maybe I didn't sleep well, so my brain is not clear...

Inexplicably, he felt that Xu Shanmu was not here, and the Xu Shanmu who stayed here was just a shell, mechanical, intelligent, and an empty shell with all his thinking patterned.

He shook his head and watched Wan Liyou fall asleep beside Xu Shanmu, like a habit countless times.

Li Yuan didn't know their past, nor did he know how many difficult days the two of them had endured together. He only knew that these two people always gave him a sense of vicissitudes of being dependent on each other.

Wanliyou’s experience can only be learned by searching the Internet a little bit, maybe not, just by listening to his name, you can know how much parents have placed high hopes on him, what kind of childhood they will give him, and how he will rely on Xu Shan so much Twilight is not difficult to understand.But...Xu Shanmu is different. The Xu Shanmu shown on the Internet is the proud son of heaven. Nothing can be found about his background and family. Everything presented to the public is impeccable, perfectly like a virtual character.

Why did he stay with Wan Liyou?

Li Yuanzhi couldn't figure it out, and finally couldn't stand the sleepiness, fell into a deep sleep, and woke up two hours later in a daze. He turned his head to check the time on his mobile phone, but found that the person opposite was still in the same position as it was two hours ago. Drooping eyes did not sleep, motionless.

"Are you unwell?" He asked worriedly amidst the echo of birdsong in the early morning.

The people over there were stuck in their own world, and then they turned their heads slowly, smiling as usual, lazily: "No, I just woke up too."

lie.

It's a lie, even if Xu Shanmu lies, he is justified.

"Is it interesting to lie to me?"

"Dream of the Red Chamber says that when two falsehoods meet, there must be one truth."

"What do you mean?"

"Telling a lie." He chuckled.

"Oh." Li Yuanzhi smiled, a little helpless, such a cold morning, such a barren time, very boring, trying to find something to say: "Today's test results came out, the director told me that you and Liyou, Qingzhou He Jinghong's stage was included in the school's textbook case."

"Oh?" He was a little surprised: "They entered it like this without my permission? It seems that I want to talk to the leaders about copyright."

"You are so proud of being favored." Li Yuanzhi said, "This is something that no one can expect, why do you..."

"Expectation is expectation, copyright is copyright, and no one can take my things for commercial use without my permission." Xu Shanmu stretched out his hand to cover the quilt that fell from Wan Liyou's body: "You just ask Xu Qingzhou, he also reacted in the same way."

"You are all arrogant people." Li Yuanzhi laughed helplessly, and when he turned over, he could see Wan Liyou sleeping peacefully, and asked casually, "Why do you two have such a good relationship?"

This is the first time they have spoken so calmly, and they are all gossip.Li Yuanzhi found that he was not as afraid of Xu Shanmu's excellence as he had imagined, and they were free to talk despite the resentment and jealousy in their hearts.

"He lived with me all the time in the third year of high school before entering the school." Xu Shanmu smiled: "We survived high school together, and there is no conflict of interest, how could it be bad?"

"That's pretty good. Do you want to go to the entertainment industry like Li You in the future?"

"In the future?" The people over there were rarely confused, and then smiled: "I haven't thought about it." He smiled wryly to himself: "That's after all."

"You don't seem to care about the future at all." Li Yuanzhi didn't quite understand. Whether it was the branch school or the main school, everyone was rushing forward with all their might, but the person in front of him was not in a hurry and took the initiative to follow here. , Become an outcast in the school.Because I'm a genius, so... I don't care at all.His future is in his own hands, which is different from ordinary people like them.

Quiet again.

"Shanmu." Li Yuanzhi said.

"En." He followed the trend, turned his head to look at the sky that was gradually becoming whiter, and the sound of birdsong was very far away. The first ray of setting sun in the morning just fell into the room and landed on the desk.

They are all in a corner where the sun cannot reach, but when they meet each other, because of visual deviation, they always think that the other party is a person living under the sun.

Li Yuanzhi originally had something to say, but after seeing the transparency of Xu Shanmu's face, he choked his throat again, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "It's nothing. I haven't seen you go to the practice room for a long time."

"I don't want to go recently." This is the truth.

Li Yuanzhi frowned: "Well, you don't have to go often."

Hearing the secret irony in these words, Xu Shanmu didn't think much about it, but turned his head and lowered his eyes, took the book hidden under the pillow and quietly flipped through it.

"Do you like music?"

A nonsensical sentence.

"Why do you ask that?"

"I have never seen your yearning and love for the stage in your eyes." Li Yuanzhi sat up and said, "Am I right? You don't like music, do you?"

"It seems that there are not only likes and dislikes." Xu Shanmu pinched his earlobe and said with a smile: "Your question is meaningless."

"Xu Shanmu, your existence is humiliating us." Li Yuanzhi stared at him and smiled helplessly.

Without continuing the conversation, Xu Shanmu knew in his heart that Li Yuanzhi had knots with him, and those obstacles could not be resolved with just a few words.Who doesn't have an insurmountable mountain in his heart?

The morning dew slowly drips along the lines of the lotus leaves. Recently, the breath of autumn has become more and more serious, and it is very cool everywhere.The hot feeling when dancing has been reduced a lot.

Li Yuanzhi was sitting in the cafeteria eating lunch, surrounded by the teenagers who had just finished training, all of them buried themselves in their food like a hungry tiger pounced on a wolf, and the aunts in the cafeteria were all grinning from ear to ear.

Obviously, there are only about ten people eating, but they have the appetite and power of 30 people.

Li Yuanzhi looked at the teenagers who were engrossed in hard work, and quietly entered his own world. At hand was the survey of various indicators of the midterm exam, including attendance rate, seriousness in class, and performance ability on stage.

Slender fingers rubbed against the paper.

Comprehensive first, Li Yuanzhi.

do not know why……

I always feel that this synthesis is the first, which is very ironic.

He looked up at the talented teenagers around him, and had to admit that there is a talent gap in this world, and no amount of hard work can make up for this gap.

It is said that genius is 99% hard work plus 1% talent, but this 'one' is really swaying.

He worked so hard and wasted so much time, but it still couldn't match the random flashes of inspiration from those talented teenagers.

Hard work cannot be denied...

but……

Too desperate a gap, resulting in compromise.

Sometimes it's not about giving up, it's just about acknowledging the reality and then compromising.

Only poets and saints can be convinced that hard watering on asphalt will grow lilies. ] - "The Moon and Sixpence"

But he is neither a poet nor a saint, all he can see is the desolate reality and the gap in talent.

A desperate gap.

He could only smile bitterly.

After dinner, he took the documents and walked to the small auditorium, pasted the paper in his hand on the bulletin board, and was about to go to the practice room.By chance, I turned around and saw Xu Shanmu in front of the dormitory building wearing earphones, carrying a digital bag, holding a camera, and wearing a stunning octagonal hat on his head.

He stood there, thin and pale, lifeless, as still as stagnant water.Ever since Li Yuanzhi saw him at school for the first time, he had been like that, as if the sea was changing, and the stars were changing. Even everything changed, but Xu Shanmu would not change at all. That genius had a kind of indifference that was as solid as a rock in his heart.

They are tens of meters apart, as if they are in the corner of the world.

When Li Yuan was struggling, did he know whether he should leave or greet that person.In front of the corridor, Wan Liyou chased him out in a hurry, fully armed, with a cannibalistic expression on his face: "Do you still have love from your compatriots? You actually want to leave me to go out to play?"

"It's too troublesome to go out with you. I'll just go out for an hour and come back soon. You didn't sleep well last night. Go back and catch up on sleep. Why do you have to follow me?"

Wan Liyou put on a hat and a mask, as if he was determined to follow him: "Just lie to me, last time you told me that you came back in half an hour, and then went for an afternoon, I don't believe you, I No one will recognize you in this way. Let's go, let's go together."

"I said boy, don't you need to practice? Do you still want to go back to the main school?"

"Your grades are worse than mine, your attendance rate is zero, okay?"

"When I entered school, I told the principal that I would not attend class on time, and the principal also knew." He folded his arms and stared at Wan Liyou: "You are different from me, okay? Go and practice."

Wan Liyou had some unreasonable elements in his temper, so he just stepped forward and put his arms around his neck, reached out and grabbed the bag on his back: "Give it to me. I will carry it."

"You ignored my words again."

"To deal with you, it's better to ignore it. Great genius, let's go. Teacher Shanmu? Where are you going today? The little one will carry your bag for you."

Li Yuanzhi couldn't hear the rest of their words clearly, his mind was full of Xu Shanmu's saying that you are different from me.

There is no one here like him.

Yes, the light of genius, even without hard work, can still be far above them.

Yes, Xu Shanmu is indeed different from them, even if he doesn't pay anything, he can still be on top of everyone.

He never expects someone to destroy this light. After all, this is impossible. This person is extremely intelligent and thoughtful, even Xu Qingzhou dare not approach him casually.It is impossible to destroy him.

So... Li Yuanzhi often thought about Xu Shanmu standing on the stage.

Just once, even once, let him see Xu Shanmu's true potential, and see the stage where he fully presents it.

At least lose, and you should lose to an opponent who is going all out!

Anger and intertwined resentment burst out of his heart, he grimaced, stepped forward, and before he took two steps, someone rushed over behind him.Under the sun, someone grabbed Li Yuanzhi's wrist, and there was a familiar temperature and warmth.

Xu Shanmu and Wan Liyou's eyes followed the trend, and Chu Yun and others who jumped down from the upstairs holding the basketball all paid attention.

Before Li Yuanzhi turned around, he heard someone say: "Cub, mom is calling you, why are you ignoring mom?"

"Mom?!" The person who was most frightened at this moment was Li Yuanzhi. The young man's face was full of confusion, his eyes were fixed in astonishment, and he saw his father standing at the school gate with a suitcase.

Mom...

Li Yuanzhi was frightened, he hugged his mother again and again, and ran to his father joyfully.

Seeing the father's kindness and son's filial piety in front of him, the family is harmonious and beautiful.

Most of the group of people standing not far away lowered their heads.

Wanliyou tightened his grip on the backpack strap on his shoulder.

Chu Yun lowered his eyes and looked like he was running away.

Yue Chengen stared at it, but there was something wrong with something in his eyes.

Tao Wangyan ignored it directly and walked towards the basketball court with the basketball in his hands.

Seeing him like this, Xue Fanyuan immediately followed him, Zheng Nanguan also put his arms around the shoulders of the two people around him, rubbed their heads and pushed the teenagers to the basketball court.

Wan Liyou's fingertips gradually turned white, and he seemed unaware of what was wrong with him at the moment.

Xu Shanmu stretched out his hand and pushed his shoulder, and smiled slightly: "Didn't you say you want to leave? If you don't leave, return the things to me."

"Let's go." Wan Liyou came back to his senses, put his hand on the boy's shoulder: "Let's go now."

"You don't seem to have any feeling for such a scene?" Wan Liyou followed him to the place where there were many ginkgo trees.

Xu Shanmu took pictures of Qiuye Jingmei casually with the camera, and secretly took two pictures of Wanliyou from time to time.

"How should I feel? I have no father and no mother." He smiled and said, "How should I feel?"

Seeing the handsome young man standing between the half-yellow leaf river in the coolness of early autumn, his whole body covered with the coolness of autumn, Xu Shanmu felt somewhat sad and relieved: "Liyou, you are not alone."

"Ok?"

Xu Shanmu pointed to the shadow on the ground: "Look at the ground when you are unhappy, you are not alone, Jinghong, Qingzhou, Fanyuan, Wangyan, Yuanzhi, aren't you all there? When did everyone abandon you?"

Wan Liyou took two steps back, reached out and patted the hat on Xu Shanmu's head: "It's amazing, you can also comfort people."

"Do good deeds every day." In the distance, a group of college students went out to gather scenery, blocking the wonderful scene in front of them.Xu Shanmu still took pictures of the noise in front of him.

Genius glanced at the group of college students quietly, his gaze fell somewhere, his brows were deeply furrowed, and finally he shook his head and sighed softly, putting the camera back into his bag: "I won't take pictures, let's go back."

"Huh? You..."

"Already." He paused, and smiled as elegantly as a moon: "The filming is over."