The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

When passing by the practice room, I found that the lights in the dance room were still on. Wanliyou and the others were practicing tirelessly in the classroom. The music vibrated the air, and the sound was full of vitality.

"Recently Liyou has been working very hard, almost comparable to Yuanzhi." Xu Qingzhou looked at the hazy afterimage under the light, tilted his head and asked, "Is he going to be on stage recently?"

"I think it was Shan Mu's incident that stimulated him last time. Wouldn't you be excited?"

"It's nothing bad, just a little surprised." Xu Qingzhou looked up at the wind and dust, flying flowers and nights: "Sure enough, you still have friends around, otherwise there will be problems."

Knowing that, he beeped a few more times, and Ruo Jinghong lowered his eyes to look at Tao Wangyan and Xue Fanyuan who were catching the ball on the basketball court: "Well, it will definitely not be a problem if you have friends by your side."

Following his gaze: "You mean about Fan Yuan?"

"I don't know if he will leave. That's PolyU. He must have put in a lot of effort to get in. I think it's a pity to give up like this."

"You gave up the main school and came to the branch school. Don't you feel sorry for yourself if you don't get specific guidance from the teachers?" Xu Qingzhou met his eyes, understood his uneasiness, smiled and comforted: "It's worth it or not?" It's worth it, I understand that other people's worries are superfluous."

"You are exactly the same as Shan Mu." Ruo Jinghong turned and entered the corridor, and the people behind heard this, immediately dissatisfied: "Why do you always say that I resemble him? How do I look like it? Why don't I think so? "

"intuition."

"Stupid." After speaking, he jumped forward a few steps and bumped him with his shoulder: "Don't be angry, don't be angry, just kidding."

Ruo Jinghong called him to go back to the dormitory first, and he went into Xu Shanmu's room with the soup in his hand.Xu Qingzhou ignored him and followed the boy into the dormitory opposite.

"You are so domineering." Ruo Jinghong followed him and glared at him, then turned to look at the young man lying on the bed reading: "Shan Mu, I brought you something to eat."

You put down the book in your hand, and smiled softly: "I heard the two of you arguing from afar."

Ruo Jinghong looked dissatisfied: "He is really boring, he targets me everywhere."

"I'm still targeting you." Seeing that he moved the chair to sit down, Xu Qingzhou stretched out his hand and pulled his elbow: "I'm sick, you're so noisy, don't make trouble with him here."

"Why am I arguing? You think I'm bothering you to go back. I'll stay with him here." After he finished speaking, he was about to sit down.

Xu Qingzhou poked him on the back unhurriedly, and the boy immediately grinned in pain: "What are you doing!"

"Go back and have a rest. I'll see you look like you're going to die in the afternoon."

"..."

Xu Shanmu watched them fight with a smile, and watched Xu Qingzhou half-drag Ruo Jinghong back to the dormitory.

"Shan Mu, I'll talk to you tomorrow." Ruo Jinghong, who was clasping the door frame with her finger, stubbornly left the last sentence: "Eat well!"

Xu Qingzhou pulled the door, closed the door with one hand, and dragged people away with the other. Before closing the door, he patted Ruo Jinghong's neck and vowed: "You eat well, I will take this kid away. lest he disturb your cleanliness."

Liveliness is like a gust of wind, if it blows, it will be gone.

He was drinking his soup with his head down, when the door was opened again, and Wan Liyou was holding a bag of food in his hand.I couldn't help but be surprised to see him eating: "You ran out to buy it?"

"Jinghong brought it to me."

"You give me this, you eat me." He snatched the old duck soup from Xu Shanmu's hand, and handed over the takeaway medicine he ordered: "You are malnourished, you should eat something nutritious, I'll just eat these."

"Don't let Jinghong hear your words. He is very careful. Be careful that he will hate you."

Wan Liyou laughed: "He's so easy to coax, maybe I bought a pig doll for me last time." His eyes hidden in colorful glazes were curved into two crescent moons, and he said, "I'm still very good at coaxing him. .”

"What set?"

"How to coax the children in the kindergarten, draw a ladle like a gourd, just coax Jinghong like that."

Thinking of Jinghong's appearance when Xu Qingzhou took him away just now, Xu Shanmu nodded: "It hits the nail on the head."

Xu Shanmu sat on the bed and ate slowly. Wanliyou was on the desk next to him, gnawing on chicken legs and pieces of meat. People with different personalities have completely different ways of eating.

"Have you heard about that?"

"Fan Yuan and Yue Cheng'en?"

"Hmm." Wanliyou asked ignorantly, "Do you think they will stay?"

"Fanyuan has received it for the second time. It seems that PolyU really wants him." Xu Shanmu poked at the abalone in the bowl, looking like he didn't have much appetite: "Yue Chengen...don't worry about him, Xu Qingzhou will definitely talk to him."

"Huh? How do you know?"

"Jinghong and Xu Qingzhou came here just now, they both smell like a food stall, they must have deliberately gone there for dinner because they were worried about Yue Chengen."

Wan Liyou couldn't help frowning when he saw him poking something.It's not easy to ask, so I can only follow the topic: "What about Fanyuan?"

"He definitely won't come to me." Xu Shanmu smiled wryly: "The last time I talked to Wangyan, I said too much. Wangyan knows my style of conversation, and also knows what it means to be exposed Feeling, with the temperament of forgetting words, I will definitely persuade Fanyuan not to come to talk to me."

Wan Liyou stepped forward and snatched the rice porridge in his hand, temporarily put it aside, opened the crock pot of soup: "If you can't finish it, drink some soup."

"It's so sweet." Xu Shanmu took the soup, drank it slowly, and then looked at the person who continued to gobble it up: "Are you going to take care of this matter?"

"You can't just leave it alone."

"It's really a bitch..." He smiled stubbornly: "You can't protect yourself, and you still have to take care of other people's affairs."

"Didn't I learn it all from you?"

"..." The person who was still ill couldn't refute this. After finishing the soup, he changed hands to get the book on the side, and the person over there snatched it away as soon as he got it: "Can you take a rest? Reading is exhausting, Do you understand?"

"Then I can't sleep, I always have to find something to do. Or just sit?"

"Call me a chat."

Xu Shanmu looked disgusted, and leaned over there lazily with his body crooked: "That's really hurting the soul and hurting the body."

Wan Liyou disposed of a box of porridge, turned around and went to get a change of clothes: "Then I'll take a shower first, and I'll read to you when I get back, okay?"

"Okay." He agreed first, and waited for Wanliyou to leave. Hearing the sound of footsteps walking away, Xu Shanmu slowly took out the medicine bottle from the drawer, took two pills habitually, and then leaned against the head of the bed, Looking sideways at the bright and cold moon outside the window, I was immersed in my own world again.

When Wanli came back, he found that he really didn't peek at the book, but looked at the stars and stars outside the window with his eyes half down. He was surprised at his trustworthiness, wiped off the water, and leaned directly beside him: "Where are you looking? Read it to you."

Xu Shanmu was a little dazed, and then slowly cast his gaze over, seeing that Wan Liyou only occupied a small place, so he turned around and lay down a little inside.

The name of Wan Liyou leaning on the bedside to read the book by the light, it is another strange name "Invisible City"

"Page 166. Line six."

Wan Liyou read on: "Polo said: "The hell of the living will not appear; if there is, it is already here, it is what we live in every day, and it is formed by our gathering together.There are two ways of avoiding suffering. For many people, the first is easy to accept: accept hell, become a part of it until it is no longer felt; the second is risky and requires constant vigilance and learning: in Look for people and things that are not hell in hell, learn to identify them, make them exist, and give them space. "]"

After reading, he was silent for the first time.

Xu Shanmu looked over: "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I feel that this sentence is very profound." Wan Liyou asked him: "Do you choose to accept it? Or choose to distinguish?"

After taking the medicine, his mind gradually became uncontrollable, and a dizziness hit his brain. The boy yawned and tilted his head: "I am a person living in hell, I don't need to choose."

Wan Liyou chuckled, not aware of his drowsiness, then flipped through the book at random, he stopped reading and chose the pages he wanted to read carefully, and the pages he wanted to see were all drawn by Xu Shanmu Sentences with red lines.

Page No.60:

If you want to know how dark it is, you have to pay attention to the faint light in the distance] - "Invisible Cities"

No.90 six pages:

You follow not what you see with your eyes, but what is inside you, buried, erased. 】——"Invisible Cities"

……

……

A book was quickly turned, and the sentence that impressed him the most was also on page 96.

I think: at a certain point in a person's life, among the people he knows, there will be more dead than alive.At this point, you reject other faces and other expressions: every new face you meet bears the imprint of the old mold you put on its respective mask. 】

Xu Shanmu wrote a sentence next to this sentence. His handwriting is beautiful, vigorous and timeless, flamboyant, and every stroke has his own style.

The him in my eyes and in my heart is not the him in the eyes of others.Because everyone has their own color in their eyes, and they are used to coloring others with their own color for no reason, and then secretly expecting that others will live as they look in their own eyes.So when we face a person, we will find that he has thousands of colors, which are all prejudice and subjectivity given by others.But...he is him, and will never be him in your eyes. 】

Wan Liyou didn't understand this sentence, and lowered his eyes to ask him, but found that the man had tilted his head and fell asleep peacefully.

Stretching out his hand to feel the temperature of his forehead, he found that it was still a little hot. The young man bit his lip guiltily, stretched out his hand to cover him with the quilt and adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner.Seeing that there was no water glass on the bedside, he reached for the thermos bottle, but found that there was no water in the thermos bottle.

Take the water card and go to the hot water room.When going downstairs, he met Xue Fanyuan who was sitting on the stairs in a daze at the corner.

"What are you doing sitting here? Forgotten words?"

"His mother called him and said it was urgent, so he went back. I went back to the dormitory and stayed alone, just blowing the wind here." Turning around, I saw the water bottle in his hand: "You water."

Looking at his virtue, Wan Liyou looked like a puppy who was abandoned by his owner to shelter from the rain in the corridor, and sighed: "Have you eaten yet?"

"I was going to go out to eat with Wang Yan."

"Okay, wait for me for a while, I fetched water, let's go to the stall to eat something together."

"Didn't you eat it too?"

"I'm not full." Wan Liyou went back to the dormitory and took everything Xu Shanmu needed by the bedside, and left a night light behind. He turned around and met Xue Fanyuan's disgusted eyes: "You and Xu Shanmu Fuck it."

"I understand that you are jealous." Seeing that the young man was about to growl, he pressed the man's head again and again: "Shan Mu is sleeping. Keep your voice down."

"Yes, Auntie."

"..."

There were quite a few people in the store when they went, but they all lowered their heads to eat their own food and laughed at themselves. No one noticed Wan Liyou's appearance, and the two chose a place near the corner to sit down.

Xue Fanyuan looked at Wanliyou's hats and masks, and then looked at the weather outside the store: "It's a shame that Shanmu can bear it. If you were with me every day, I would have kicked you."

"For your stuff in a while, you pay for it yourself."

"..." Xue Fanyuan's face was serious and inexplicable, as if he was facing an enemy, he immediately smiled flatteringly: "Brother, don't be like this, aren't we a family who love each other?"

"..." Wan Liyou sneered, "I despise you."

"It's fresh." Chu Yun pulled a chair and sat down beside the two of them: "You two came together? It's understandable that Shan Mu didn't come, what about Wang Yan?"

"He was summoned by his mother."

Chu Yun nodded, with his hands on his knees, as if he wanted to say something, but he was too embarrassed to say it...

"If you want to ask, just ask. When I picked up this kid just now, he was sitting in a daze in the stairway." Wan Liyou drank the warm soup, his forehead was already sweating.

"That's it." Chu Yun didn't hide, just looked at the worried young man under the light: "Fan Yuan, what are you going to do?"

"It's a blessing, not a disaster. It's a disaster that can't be avoided." Wan Liyou slapped Ha Qie and said, "There are no outsiders, so you just say it directly."

"Speak directly?" Xue Fanyuan looked even more bored: "If I know what to do, I don't have to be so troublesome."

Looking at the dwindling food in the boy's bowl opposite, Wan Liyou couldn't help mocking: "I really can't see what's bothering you." He folded his arms and leaned back: "You have a good personality, no matter what the situation is Don't delay eating."

"Don't be sour on him, just speak up." Chu Yun said calmly, "Do you want to leave?"

Xue Fanyuan raised his head, and Yue Chengen, who was standing in front of the stove, also looked at their table, as if waiting for his answer.

"Are you going to stay?" he asked.

Yue Chengen smiled lightly and shook his head easily: "I don't know. I haven't figured it out yet."

"I didn't think about it either."

"He didn't think about it and we all know why, but what about you, old man? Why can't you think about it?" Wan Liyou asked: "There is a Polytechnic University there, and the exam is so difficult. Since you passed the exam, why don't you go? ? Can't bear to be here?"

"Reluctance, and..." Xue Fanyuan exhaled a little irritably, and took a few mouthfuls of food: "Actually, it's not a question of whether you are willing or not, it's just... I want to stay, and I want to stay." To study astronomy, I like both, but I can only choose one.”

"Oh……"

Hearing what he said, the three people in the store understood what was going on.

"Tangled." With one voice.

Chu Yun rubbed the child's shoulder: "You child is not straightforward at all."

Yue Chengen pulled up a chair and sat down beside them, listening to them quietly.

"Have you ever thought about what you want to do in the future?" Xue Fanyuan said, "That's... we are students, but there are only three years left. Once the three years pass, we will immediately have to earn our own living. Yes, if you are lucky, you may be able to enter the society now..." The young man said with a bit of resentment: "Liyou, you are different from us, we don't know what to do tomorrow, you can already buy a store."

"Every advantage must have a disadvantage." Chu Yun said as if empathizing with him: "You may not be able to bear other people's suffering."

What he said was too ethereal, making people unable to touch his emotions, but the remaining three people who were listening couldn't help but look at him.Chu Yun shook his head slightly, and asked again: "So you are worried about the future? Are you afraid that you will not have a good way out?"

"That's it."

"Ah?" Wanliyou didn't quite understand: "If you like it, why do you care about those? Compared with which one is more promising, shouldn't you think more about which one you like more? Your parents With such a big business, are you still afraid that you will not have a way to make money in the future?"

"It's because I like them all, that's why I want to look at the future." Xue Fanyuan argued, "I really don't know how to choose, so I started with the second condition." He avoided that question.

"The first condition is liking, and the second condition is future..." Wan Liyou looked disgusted: "Do you choose a major or a wife?"

Laughter came from the orange summer, and Xue Fan rolled his eyes at the person opposite: "What are you thinking, am I that kind of person? You guys should give me some ideas too."

Chu Yun squeezed his shoulder: "This is your business, you can only make up your own mind, we must hope that you will stay, we have lived together for almost a year, if you want to leave, you must be reluctant. But... …It is PolyU after all, you must choose the best path, indeed, the future is also an option to consider.”

Xue Fanyuan lowered his head and fell into depression again.

"Let me tell you." Wan Liyou knocked on the table and spoke.

"Ok?"

"Xu Qingzhou said something to me a few days ago, and I think it's quite suitable for you." Wan Liyou said slowly after thinking about that sentence: "He said... people have to take a step before they are qualified to speak regret."

Someone murmured: "Take a step."

"Anyway, that's what it means, you still have to figure it out yourself."

Xue Fanyuan nodded. Seeing his appearance, he couldn't say anything more. He just kept his head buried in his food. It was evening rush hour again, and under the orange light were the busy figures of teenagers.Wan Liyou quickly finished eating, then turned around to avoid the eyes of everyone, Xue Fanyuan looked at the three different people around him, and couldn't help but fell into deep thought.

Wan Liyou hurried back to take care of Xu Shanmu, but did not stay on the basketball court. There was a lonely incandescent lamp on the basketball court, and there were six or seven basketballs on the court. They brought them all by themselves, but they forgot to take them away. In the middle of the basketball court, the boy squatted down and started to practice shooting by himself. If he didn’t shoot seriously, two or three of the ten shots would always go in, just like the shit luck of life.

The muffled sound of the basketball hitting the ground was synchronized with his breathing. Seeing the basketball jumping in front of him, he had no intention of intercepting it at all...

"Why are you alone?" Li Yuanzhi's voice came from behind, and the sound of the basketball beating disappeared...

Xue Fanyuan looked back and found that Li Yuanzhi was standing alone under the streetlight, some distance away from him.

"I'm bored by myself, so I came to play."

Li Yuanzhi nodded and threw the ball in his hand, he took it smoothly, raised his head and asked Li Yuanzhi, "Are you going back to the dormitory?"

"Don't worry, let the wind blow for a while before going back." He smiled: "I've practiced too much, and my whole body is very stuffy. It's not easy to sleep when I go back now."

Seeing the obvious tiredness on his face, Xue Fanyuan said, "Yuanzhi, why did you choose this path?"

"what why?"

"It's just... there are many other paths when filling out the volunteers. How do you know that you want to choose this path?"

Li Yuanzhi was stunned by this question. After being stunned for two or three seconds, he smiled wryly: "Because I want to stand on the stage."

"what?