The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

At that time, Xu Shanmu had already moved out of the orphanage and rented a small house outside the school. He made up lessons for big stars every day and then rode his bicycle home.That day was Friday, and Wanliyou took him downstairs as a habit. When he was about to ride away, the man grabbed the front of his bike and asked with an extremely disturbed face, "Are you coming tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow is Saturday, don't come."

"Where is your home? I'll go and play with you. I have a game console and money, so I won't bother you."

This is the villa area, extremely quiet, not even a single insect chirps, the moonlight falls like water, it has been here for five consecutive days, Wan Liyou is the only one at home, Xu Shanmu will not ask Wan Liyou what happened to his parents He only knew that Wanliyou was the one who was abandoned just like himself, so he asked softly, "Do you have a bicycle?"

"Have."

"Then pack up two pieces of clothes and come with me to my house."

How gorgeous the peach blossoms are when they are in full bloom, and the boy's expression under the street lamp is so bright at that time, he turned around very quickly: "You wait for me, I will come right away."

Xu Shanmu looked up at the dark night and the bleak stars, couldn't help smiling wryly, his heart softened for a moment, as if he had caused himself a big trouble and came back...

His house is not big, more than forty square meters, and he lives alone. There are piles of books piled up randomly at home. When he looked at the books on the bookshelf, the number of books was beyond control. He thought of a word book ocean.

But very clean, no dust, no life.

Wan Liyou coughed twice, sat on the sofa and looked at the situation in the house: "You live alone?"

"Yeah." Xu Shanmu asked Wan Liyou to hand over the schoolbag, he took it, turned and sent it to the bedroom: "You can play whatever you want, the bathroom is over there, the room is over there, if you want to read, you can find it yourself."

He is not a polite person either. He stood up and walked around his house, and finally stopped on the balcony. He was grabbed by the elbow just as he touched the fence of the balcony.Turning the head was Xu Shanmu's elegant smile: "You should stay away from these places."

He knew what he meant, didn't mean to refute, turned around and followed him into the house.

"Where did you get the money?" Wan Liyou carefully looked around the neighborhood. The one-month rental price of such a neighborhood would not be too low. The guitar in the living room is an extremely precious treasure.

"Guess it?"

"How do I know." Wan Liyou collapsed on the sofa: "I heard from the teacher that you...are an orphan, which is different from what I thought."

"Oh?" Xu Shanmu was a little interested, took out two bottles of Coke from the refrigerator, and threw one over: "What do you think?"

Wan Liyou caught it, and said with some hesitation: "It's definitely not like this." He lowered his head to open the lid of the soda can, and it shook when he threw it over just now, so the gas in the Coke was messed up and blew out.

Xu Shanmu's complacent look on the opposite side hurt Wan Liyou's eyes.He was covered in Coke, and only then did he realize that he laughed funnyly, "You did it on purpose!! How can you throw away Coke?"

"Who wants you to fantasize about me?!" He threw a rag over: "Wipe the floor clean."

"..." He was about to get angry again, and the people over there had already hid in the house shaking their heads.

Sitting in the living room, with a cold Coke in his hand, and a mess in front of him, he looked up at himself in the full-length mirror, he had never been in such a mess when he was filming...

But... laughed.

He lowered his head and smiled with red eyes.

The two of them were lying on the same bed that night, Xu Shanmu leaned against the head of the bed to read a book, still calm and indifferent, in contrast to Wan Liyou who had been tossing the quilt all the time beside him.

When Wanliyou finished tossing and stabilized, Xu Shanmu gave a hutch.

Seeing that Xu Shanmu didn't intend to sleep, Wan Liyou leaned forward to read the book in his hand: "What are you reading?"

""Swordsman""

"I know, the TV series played by Li Yapeng and teacher Xu Qing. There is also a novel about this one."

Only then did Xu Shanmu look down at him: "This is Mr. Jin Yong's novel, don't you know?"

"I know. I also played the young Zhang Wuji."

"Then you still ask."

"I want to talk to you." Wan Liyou finally stopped tossing the quilt, and started to toss Xu Shanmu.

Finally, thousands of ripples were caused by Wanliyou on the icy lake.

"How can you talk like that. You're just talking." Xu Shanmu stretched out his hand and pushed his head away: "Can you stop talking so much, and play games by yourself if you're bored."

"Playing games hurts the eyes."

"Then read a book."

"Reading is so boring."

"Write a paper and calm down."

"Can't you chat with me?"

"Do you know how valuable my time is?"

"Worthy enough to read martial arts novels at home?"

"..."

Seeing that he didn't attract that person's attention after all this tossing, he was a little bored, patted that person's thigh and asked, "Xu Shanmu, what university do you plan to go to in the future?"

"South County."

"Isn't that the Academy of Art?" Recalling the guitar in the living room, Wan Liyou said happily: "Then let's take the exam together, and another dormitory, shall we?"

"It's up to the school to divide the dormitory. You can't be the master."

"For a little money you can get it done."

"That's up to you." Xu Shanmu's attention has been on the novel, he reads very fast, but more than ten pages have passed in just a short while.Wan Liyou saw that he really didn't understand what he meant, so he simply put his hands behind his head, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Wanliyou was suddenly quiet, which made people feel a little uneasy. Xu Shanmu lowered his head and found that the chattering person had fallen asleep on his back.

It turned out that someone around him felt this way. He stretched out his hand to cover the young man with a quilt, then turned to read the book again.

"thank you."

When Xu Shanmu saw the wonderful moment, the young man beside him who was supposed to be asleep suddenly spoke. He smiled slightly, and picked up a pen to draw a line of words on the book with a red pen.

And read it softly: What kind of great kindness and great virtue, deep hatred and deep hatred?Kindness is fate, and hatred is also fate. Hatred cannot be attached, and kindness does not need to be attached.Everything in the world is like a passing cloud. After a hundred years old, what kindness and hatred are there? "]——"Swordsman"

It is not uncommon for Wanliyou to follow Xu Shanmu all day in the school, they have always been like conjoined twins.Wan Liyou often came to the school that year, so his reputation in the school gradually increased, and many children came to see him after class.There are men and women.

There are good and bad names.

High school is full of vigor, and the pressure of study is even greater. It is inevitable that some people will be dissatisfied with this scene.The consequence of dissatisfaction is impulsiveness.

That was the first time Xu Shanmu saw hostility on Wan Liyou's body, and the strength of his punches did not match that face at all.The four people who caused trouble in the back alley of the school were beaten to the ground by him alone.

Xu Shanmu leaned aside and watched him stretch out his hand smoothly, and couldn't help laughing: "You are so good at fighting."

The red blood in Wanliyou's eyes appeared abnormally, and his hands were still trembling.

"It's not bad. I learned a few tricks from the martial arts teacher when I was filming a costume drama. It must be enough to deal with these weak chickens."

Xu Shanmu looked at the four people lying on the ground, and then at Wanliyou, Qing Ruotangli smiled softly: "Is it cool?"

Wan Liyou laughed: "When I'm with you, I really did everything that shouldn't be done."

Genius Youyou turned around with a fearless look: "You came here by yourself, but you still said that I brought you up. I really shouldn't worry about you, let you come here alone."

Wan Liyou chased after him, looking very happy.

Later, for unknown reasons, the four people who found fault were criticized and demerited by the school.

Wan Liyou knew what Xu Shanmu was doing behind his back, but he wouldn't ask, the two of them concealed each other and depended on each other.

When a movie starring Wanliyou was released in high school, black fans systematically slandered and wrote bad reviews.

That day Wanliyou was playing games at Xu Shanmu's house, his agent and company told him not to take it to heart, as there was already a PR to deal with it.

The two were sitting at the dinner table, Xu Shanmu flipped through Weibo, and saw that the trend of black fans on the topic list still had no downward trend, so he went to watch Wanliyou.

Wan Liyou asked suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

"Didn't your agent say that they are looking for someone to deal with it? Why hasn't it gone down until now?"

"They won't deal with it." Wan Liyou said as usual: "From before to now, they have never dealt with me being attacked by black fans once."

"They..." Xu Shanmu knew why after thinking about it for a while, and simply lowered his head to grab a meal without asking any further questions.

"why stop talking?"

"I'm afraid you're not happy." He said honestly.

Wan Liyou shook his head: "I will answer whatever you ask."

"Are they trying to use black fans to hype it up? To raise the topic of the movie?"

The big star smiled happily: "You're so smart." It's just that the smile can be faked, but the bitterness can't be hidden. Wan Liyou clenched his chopsticks, looked at the two-bedroom small house, and sighed helplessly: "I just It’s just a money-making tool. Just get used to it.”

That night hackers attacked the official website...

The IDs and IPs of the few who took the lead in doing evil were all blocked, as if they were caught by the tails of ghosts and gods, and the computers were not plunged into the darkness of destruction.

Xu Shanmu turned off the computer and went back to the bedroom. He held the cold doorknob. The coldness of the handle seemed to enter the blood vessels and went to his heart. He quietly looked at the sleeping boy in the dark.Since he took him home during the Wanli Tour last time, this person has completely stayed and hasn't returned home once in half a month.Xu Shanmu knew that he wasn't an awkward child, but just wanted to be with another lonely person so that both of them could be happier.

They met in this world, so they depend on each other and keep each other warm.

So that I don't look so alone.

So that the person who is the same as himself is no longer alone, no one laughs, no one complains.

Xu Shanmu turned on the light in front of the bed, only to realize that the boy was not asleep, and he was waiting for him to come back with his eyes open.

Walking to the bed, Xu Shanmu asked, "Still sleeping?"

"Can't sleep."

"Then I'll talk to you?"

"It's really strange, you don't think I'm noisy?"

"For the sake of your pity today."

Looking at the gentle boy under the dim light, Wan Liyou couldn't help laughing: "Didn't I say that? I'm used to it."

"The habit just means that you are ready to face the pain brought by reality, but it doesn't mean that you won't be uncomfortable." Xu Shanmu threw him with a pillow: "I know, so you don't have to be strong. It’s really hard for me to go through with you.”

"Why?" Wan Liyou smiled with red eyes: "This has nothing to do with you, you don't have to..."

"I'm the one the four are going to teach, and you don't need to beat them up."

Wan Liyou's head sank into the soft pillow, and after hearing these words, his body, which had been tense for a day, gradually relaxed.

"Mountain Twilight."

"Ok?"

"Wouldn't it be better if I wasn't a child star and didn't step into the acting industry?" He actually didn't understand: "Why do those people on the Internet hate me so much? I'm not a heinous person, and I haven't done anything Bad thing. Why do they hate me enough to tell me to die?"

Xu Shanmu leaned against the head of the bed, crossed his arms and thought for a while: "Haruki Murakami said, 'Just because you are different from others, you may be rejected, and the world of adults is similar.'" He said: "People's hearts are very narrow. , There are many bad people in the world." He smiled: "It's so bad that you can't imagine it."

"Have you seen it?"

Xu Shanmu closed his eyes and let out a sigh of relief: "The mother who gave birth to me was the professor who committed herself to her for the graduation certificate, and my biological father is a beast."

Wan Liyou was stunned, he had never...

Xu Shanmu reached out to pat him on the back, and said softly like a lotus, "Liyou, both of us have dirty water splashed by others on our bodies, we can't wash it off, and we can't escape."

Lying down side by side, he turned off the light, and the two of them were like cats sealed deep in a cardboard box, finally finding a temporary shelter from the wind and rain in a life of ups and downs.

"Liyou, it's okay, everything will return to the original point tomorrow morning."

"Are we the cursed ones?" he asked.

"Yes."

"Then can we be happy?"

"I don't know." Xu Shanmu answered honestly, the silence around him almost echoed, and the boundless desolation and sadness were about to surround them.

The palms and hearts are warmed under the quilt...

A bit of goodwill broke through the darkness.

"Shan Mu, I sincerely, sincerely hope that you will be happy." Wan Liyou said.

As much space as there is in the world, the space for you—albeit just a little—is nowhere to be found. 】——"Kafka on the Shore"

But here is very good, called me who has nothing to rely on, and him who has nothing to miss, depend on each other for life.

Back to the present.

Xu Shanmu at the dining table smiled lifelessly: "Liyou, do you know how afraid I am of your current state?"

Everyone knows that he is always smiling, no matter whether it is watching him be angry behind Wan Liyou, or seeing him sour and painful, Xu Shanmu is always smiling, everyone can only see him With a calm smile, no one has ever paid attention to his trembling hands hidden in his sleeves.

"It's not you who begged me to save you." He was still smiling, but his tone became elusive: "It's me who begged you not to do this kind of thing."

Wan Liyou raised his head in astonishment, he saw a trace of unnatural red blood and a little imperceptible crystal in Xu Shanmu's eyes, the person who has been calm for many years, the person whose heart has been closed by frost, is finally willing to reveal a trace of true Are you in a mood?

"What are you afraid of?" Wan Liyou didn't understand, and asked with a trembling voice, "Why are you afraid?"

"Because when I first met you, you were going to jump off a building!"

One word stopped all the rebuttals and questioning in Wan Liyou's throat. He stared blankly at Xu Shanmu in front of him, and smiled wryly: "Do you think I don't care about this? Do you think I forgot about it?" ?"

His smile gradually eased, and turned into a sigh: "It's been three years. In the three years, you have never told me that you are unhappy. Every time, I guessed it. Gradually, it became a habit." , you don’t need to say it, I know what you’re thinking, but!” The anger in his tone couldn’t be restrained: “I’ve been waiting for you to say it yourself, whether it’s a black fan attack, a company’s use, or your thoughts , you always expect me to guess, not to say it yourself! You want to buy a store, and today, you always expect me to guess."

If you continue to guess, it will be impossible for Wanliyou to get rid of Xu Shanmu, his mental state is completely on Xu Shanmu's body, as long as Xu Shanmu leaves and makes a slight move, Wanliyou may collapse.

In the silent room, there is only the crackling of small range hoods and coals.

after a long time...

"But you still guessed it." Wanliyou looked at him and smiled helplessly.