The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

Seeing the obvious change in his demeanor, He Zhi breathed a sigh of relief, leaned on the head of the bed and asked, "What did Shan Mu persuade you? Are you so easily persuaded by him?"

"He didn't persuade me, and he didn't try to persuade me. He just came over and talked to me."

He Zhi was a little confused when he heard this: "It's amazing. I've been persuading you for more than a year, but it didn't help at all, but he persuaded you in two or three sentences."

"He is indeed very special." Yue Chengen half-closed his eyes: "I thought he would talk to me in a long way, but in the end he just chatted casually. It feels very sincere and perfunctory."

"Ok?"

"He is sitting in front of me, but I can't guess what he will say next, and I don't know what unexpected words he will say next, I don't understand." He sighed: "He seems to have experienced Many, because they understand, so they are silent." Yue Chengen asked: "Why do you think of asking him to persuade others? I don't think he is usually the type to be provoked."

"That day you came home inexplicably, and I called you because Xu Shanmu said that you looked very strange, as if you had finished everything and were ready to return everything to zero." He smiled sarcastically, then He was laughing at himself: "I didn't understand at first and asked him what was going on. He said...you are going to commit suicide. I was so shocked that I went to find you immediately." He Zhi pursed his lips and said: "Actually, I am quite Not convinced by him."

"Unconvinced? Why?"

"Playing in the world." His voice gradually slackened in the air, and He Zhiyi also had his own unwillingness: "He is a person who can get full marks in all subjects, but because of his own temper, he will not take the exam if he wants to." Exams. If you want to go to class, you can go to class, and if you want to leave early, you can leave early. He doesn’t care if there is a zero in the paper, and he is lazy all day long, but... he only needs to put in an hour to match our hard work for half a year or even more.”

It's a bit empty to say so, He Zhidao: "Did you see him and Li You on the stage during the mid-term stage today?"

"Well, it's very special. The best stage today belongs to the two of them. Only Xu Qingzhou and his group can be compared with him."

"Xu Qingzhou and Jinghong's stage was practiced by the two of them day and night. I don't know how many times they have revised it. The theme concept and dance beauty are all modified while practicing, but Shanmu is different. It was a scene he drew casually in a flash of inspiration, and then presented it in such a complete way."

"Not reconciled?"

"If he worked so hard and became number one, I wouldn't be reconciled, but if he didn't give anything, but still managed to get rid of us by a large margin, I would be very reconciled and feel a sense of humiliation."

"When you compare absolute talent with mediocre hard work, how can you be reconciled? If there is no person like Shan Mu, we can still deceive ourselves, but once such a person appears..." He curled up, as if It was trembling slightly like cold: "I can't even lie to myself."

Yue Chengen stepped forward and patted him on the back, everyone understood this feeling.

No one likes to be called useless.

"Come with me to the canteen." He Zhi sat up and said with a smile, he changed the subject without a trace.

Chu Yunyun and Zheng Nanguan were sitting on the sidelines of the basketball court. On the court, Huang Chuanhui, Li Yuanzhi, Tao Wangyan, and Xue Fanyuan were playing in two teams.

"I saw you went to the bank yesterday, what's the matter? Is there not enough money?"

"No." He yawned: "I just withdraw some money for emergencies."

"Your dad hasn't let go yet?"

Chu Yun smiled: "He will not let go, he has been a commander all his life, unless I am not his soldier, otherwise...it is impossible."

"Running away from home is not a deserter? Are you afraid that your father will come and arrest you?" Zheng Nanguan asked while playing basketball: "My mother told me before that children in the military compound are born rebellious. Some can be corrected, some Can't. You're the one who can't."

"My dad smashed my guitars when I was young, and even tore up my admission letter, but I just can't do it. No one can stop me from what I want."

"Then...why do you still have that problem?" Zheng Nanguan looked over puzzled: "Since you are so tough, why are you still like this?"

Chu Yun was silent and did not answer.

The peaceful young man smiled gently, and had no other intentions. He was just curious about the silent young man over there: "You should have been raised as a young master since you were young. Although you are a boy, soldiers generally love their grandchildren very much." of."

"So what about love?" He laughed helplessly: "Self-righteous love is even more of a burden." He said: "Obviously it's something I hate and something I don't want, but they force it to me and say He definitely said that I don't know what is good or bad, and I don't know how to praise." Chu Yun glanced sideways: "Isn't it like this in your family?"

"Me? I'm the exact opposite of you. My parents support everything I like. I just want to dance. As long as I'm happy when doing things, winning or losing is not very important."

Chu Yun lowered his head and covered his face and said, "So, a good home is very important. Parents' understanding is very important."

Wan Liyou was lying on the bed with the book "The Moon and Sixpence" in his hand, and Xu Shanmu was working on something with the computer.He got tired of reading, so he ran to harass him.

"What are you doing." He leaned forward to look at his screen window, but Xu Shanmu smiled and saved it, and closed the page: "Learn something. Aren't you reading a book? Why are you here suddenly?"

"I'm really not good at reading books." He sighed, "You drew a lot of sentences in it, but I can't understand much."

"Every stage of reading a good book will have a different feeling." Xu Shanmu looked at him and said with a smile: "It's like the four great classics. Reading it when you were a child is completely different from reading it when you grow up."

"..." He looked at each other speechlessly.

Xu Shanmu could only shrug his shoulders: "Well, I know you wouldn't read the Four Great Classics when you were young."

"I really don't understand." Lying on Xu Shanmu's bed, he took the book next to his bed and flipped through it casually: ""Island Bookstore"? Is it the story of opening a bookstore on a small island?"

"Yeah." He turned on the computer again, found a forum and began to read papers, Wan Liyou looked sideways, and happened to see the headline.

Microsphere nanoindentation for monitoring MT1-MMP-regulated cell cortical stiffness in the field of nanotechnology]

He sat up from the bed in shock, pulled his shoulders in astonishment, and hurried forward, the cold sweat on his forehead stood up, as if struck by lightning: "Are you leaving?"

"Ah?" Xu Shanmu looked at him puzzled, "Where are you going?"

"What is this?!" He almost yelled with a trembling voice, his uneasiness and apprehension burst in his heart, and the sour and lonely past came to his mind, fearing that he would be beaten back to the old days, he panicked and said, "What are you looking at?" Woolen cloth?!"

"This is medical research." Xu Shanmu couldn't help laughing when he saw that he was so excited that he jumped over without even wearing shoes: "This is the 'Chinese Academy of Sciences Documentation and Information Center', also known as the National Science Library. I browse Browsing new technology, what's wrong?" He stretched out his hand and patted his shoulder: "I'm just looking at it, I don't want to do anything, go and put on your shoes, you'll be excited."

Only then did he realize that he had misunderstood, hesitantly took a step back, stepped on his slippers, and sat down beside him: "Why do you have nothing to do to see these? You don't plan to go to those schools."

"It's a new era." He was still flipping through the pages: "It's better to know more about the world."

Wan Liyou sat beside him, not knowing if he had something to say, or if he just felt at ease sitting here, after a long time he asked, "You really don't know how to go to those schools?"

"No." Xu Shanmu pointed to the plastic box under the bed: "There are at least a few hundred letters in it, am I not tempted by any of them?"

Wanliyou patted his hand, closed his computer, and asked a little uneasy and embarrassed: "But I feel...you seem to be waiting for something. Is it because the school you want to go to didn't send you something?"

"Why do you think so?" He turned around and fell back on the bed, tidying up the messy books that he had traveled a long time ago.

"Shan Mu, I don't understand you." Wan Liyou said: "We have known each other for almost three years. You were my tutor before entering school. Now we are classmates. Whether you are a teacher or a friend, you are very good. I I can't find any mistakes, but I... don't know you at all." He said confusedly: "You may think that I have too many things... But I am very uneasy. What are you going to do in the future?"

"Even I don't know about the future, how could you know."

Wan Liyou knew that he was not Xu Shanmu's opponent, and also knew that as long as Xu Shanmu was unwilling to speak, he would not be able to ask him a single word.

"Liyou." He propped himself up, sat cross-legged on the bed, and said seriously, "What are you worrying about?"

"I don't know, what am I worrying about?"

"We are friends, and you are afraid that I will leave, leaving you alone and telling you to go through the lonely days before." Xu Shanmu smiled, and comforted him helplessly: "So, to put it bluntly, you are very disturbed, you are very sad. I like the present day, but I am afraid that the present day will suddenly disappear, and you will be alone again, won't you? You will be so nervous that I will leave because you feel that everything you have now was created by me. .As long as I leave, these will disappear."

"I know." Xu Shanmu nodded: "I understand you. So..." He pursed his lips and stopped being clever, but said seriously: "I can't be by your side forever. If one day I feel If I'm not happy, I'll leave immediately."

The four eyes met, Wan Liyou frowned and hid bitterness in it.

"You should learn to build your own life instead of being attached to me."

"That is to say, are you leaving sooner or later?"

"It's not..." He showed his face happily: "I haven't made up my mind on what I'm going to do in the future, everything is still to be determined. I don't make promises lightly, and I don't believe in eternity."

Knowing his temperament, Wan Liyou was about to speak when someone barged in from outside the door, what was it, he was holding a bag of snacks in his hand.

"You're back from shopping?" Wanliyou suddenly lost his temper, and turned to get the phone behind him: "How much is it? I'll transfer it to you."

"No need." He said with a smile, "This is thanks to Shan Mu."

Xu Shanmu hugged the pillow and smiled lazily: "Take it back, how can I eat snacks, and... I didn't say anything that he figured it out on his own, you need to thank me."

He Zhi shook his head, put down his things, walked to his bed, was about to sit down, but was interrupted by Xu Shanmu, he stretched out his hand to pull the chair over there, and told He Zhi to sit down: "Sit here , I don't like other people sitting on my bed."

"Oh." He Zhi wouldn't take these things to heart, and after asking some tips on how to get along with Yue Chengen, he left.

After the person left, Xu Shanmu looked at the bag of snacks on the table, wearing slippers, and sent it back to him.

When he opened the door and came back, he saw Wan Liyou lying majestically on his bed with an incomparable smile on his face.

"What's your expression like?"

The man said in a low tone: "I almost forgot."

"What?" He closed the door, behind Wan Liyou's malicious laughter: "You are so arrogant."

"..."

"You won't abandon me." Wan Liyou vowed: "You are reluctant."

"It's better not to be too confident."

"I can lie on your bed with confidence."

Xu Shanmu smiled helplessly, Wan Liyou was right, he might really not abandon Wan Liyou or Jinghong.After all, these two people are the people he cares about most in this world.

But even so, he also knows that there is no eternity in this world, and they will part ways one day and go their separate ways.

Standing in front of the window, he suddenly remembered a sentence in the book, that sentence was like this.

Among the people I know, you are the only one who can see through my vicious exterior and see that there is someone worthy of redemption inside.I don't know why, but most of the time I act like a bad guy, just to keep people away.I don't want anyone close, it's not worth the trouble.Also, I've lost enough people in my life, and I don't want to lose anyone else. 】—— "Another You in the World"

He said, I want to change the last sentence, I have lost enough people in my life, I don't want to lose them two, let alone myself.

But this heart, no one can complain.

Even if Wanliyou could see through it, he couldn't give him the safe space he always wanted.

Everyone is in danger, only self-help.

Li Yuanzhi and Huang Chuanhui went to the canteen after playing basketball.

Leaning on the Changli refrigerator, Li Yuanzhi raised his head and filled himself with half a bottle of mineral water.

Huang Chuanhui saw through his bored expression, and asked, "What are you worried about?"

"Who said I was worried?"

"Master, after the exam, you have a half-dead expression. Who owes you money again? Your face is so smelly?" Huang Chuanhui squatted on the ground, looking at his own shadow, the dreadlocks on his head in the shadow looked like tentacles , extremely interesting.He swayed from side to side, and laughed happily: "We performed very well today, you don't need this expression."

"You really think so?" Li Yuan looked over in bewilderment, "You're doing well, but I'm not."

"Why do you think so?" Huang Chuanhui stood up and squeezed his shoulders: "Don't put so much pressure on yourself, okay? This is just a midterm exam, it can't represent your life, you look like your life is over, It's really incomprehensible."

"..."

"You're not me, you don't understand." He Mochizuki sighed softly.

Huang Chuanhui muttered softly, with three words of incomprehension written in his eyes: "How could I not understand."

he heard...

Laughter lightly: "What do you understand?"

The night was as cool as water, and the summer wind was gentle, brushing over his tight brows, it was sour after all, Huang Chuanhui said helplessly, and those words were like a sigh: "After all, he is a genius, not an ordinary person, and none of us can compare with him." .”

One sentence hit seven inches, so it turns out that my thoughts are so clear that others can understand them without saying anything. Since a humble child like Huang Chuanhui can understand it, that genius can't understand it?Or has he always understood, but pretended not to know anything?

"Why do you think so?" He couldn't help asking.I still want to know what I did not do well, so that people can see through it so easily.

"Look in your eyes." The sound of cicadas came along with the moonlight, and the figures of the teenagers looked lush under the dim and old lights. Their age surpassed the tired night, and they always flowed like water in every corner of the college.

"Every time you look at Shan Mu, the eyes are...um...strange, as if you regard him as an enemy, but you are a little cautious, but you are not unfriendly. Whenever something happens to everyone, the first thing is to ask Xu Shanmu's opinion, but you are the only one who doesn't know it. So...unknowingly, I know that you actually have a different understanding of Shanmu."

"I don't have a different understanding of him, but I don't quite understand why people like him come here. Since we are here, shouldn't we grasp the aces of every door? Shouldn't we become the king that everyone envies?" He seriously Puzzled and frowned, unwillingness and grievance intertwined in his eyes: "But what about him? He gave up all his glory, didn't know what he was thinking all day long, didn't obey the rules, and was not restrained."

"Do you think it's a pity for him to do this?"

"I think, I have his talent, so I definitely won't live like him." Li Yuanzhi also admitted, and he sighed: "To put it bluntly, I'm jealous."

Huang Ye crossed a layer of dim yellow new clothes, swaying in the wind, rustling, covering the sound of the heartbeat, even the jealous eyes, Li Yuanzhi looked at the half bottle of water in his hand, and blinked at a loss eyes, and then opened his mouth: "I saw what I wanted in someone else, but he didn't cherish it at all. Of course he would be angry and jealous." He pursed his lips, unable to open the bottle cap comfortably: "If he can be serious once That's good. That way even if you lose to him, you won't feel unwilling. It's ridiculous... He just doesn't care at all, it's really exciting."

"Actually, it's all the same." Li Yuanzhi turned his head to look at Huang Chuanhui, who was also harboring reluctance: "It's the same with you, everyone in this school wants to see him in full swing, because of his foolish attitude. And strength is defeated, too unwilling!"

Huang Chuanhui nodded, he understood, and he was also unwilling, but he also knew that no one in this school could provoke Xu Shanmu to go all out, not even the main school with as many talents as stars.Xu Shanmu looked down on their strength, and even more disdained to compete with them for the so-called ace. His seriousness was not here.

"I don't believe he doesn't know." Li Yuanzhi said: "He is so smart, he can tell at a glance that someone else is about to commit suicide, and he can't see our thoughts. What I am dissatisfied with is his attitude. He clearly knows us. So many people are looking forward to him, but he just doesn't care and doesn't care about anything..."

He said calmly: "Obviously there are so many people looking forward to it."

Huang Chuanhui stood beside him with a wry smile on his face. The first time he saw Xu Shanmu's stage, he completely gave up. He knew that he would not be that person's opponent, and there was no need to be different from that person. The fight on the starting line is meaningless, it will only make you unhappy.

But Li Yuanzhi didn't give up. He kept practicing and surpassing himself in order to gain the qualification to compete with that person.But when he worked hard and desperately, he found that the man could still casually throw off a large part of him...

Discouragement and breakdown come pouring down like mudslides.

But I also know that Xu Shanmu is that kind of person.

Even if he knows that everyone is expecting his strength, he won't take it to heart, he is lazy and carefree all day long, or, after all, he is indifferent and indifferent.

Today's Li Yuanzhi is angry with him?Or jealousy?

The young man's mind has long been chaotic and turned into a pot of porridge, which was still burnt, with the smoke of war and the taste of defeat.