countdown to winter

This teaching building is the tallest building in the entire No. [-] Middle School. From here, you can see the horizon thousands of miles away, the sky of cirrus clouds, the sunset and the lone geese. If you are lucky, you can also see the long white line drawn by the plane. .

When Shi Xing was young, he always thought that the white line was the ladder to heaven, but unfortunately he could not see the end. When he was four years old, he ran for a long time, chasing the white line, and finally almost lost his way and was sent back by a high school student. .

He asked the high school student, "Brother, where can I go to heaven?"

The high school student stroked his hair and said with a smile, "There is no paradise in this world."

He remembered this scene very clearly, and even remembered the barking of the dog next to him, and when the setting sun turned black.So in a child's heart, the last hope was silently shattered.

— This is the weakest voice in the world, and no one hears it.

The sky gradually darkened.

According to Shi Xing's past habits, he would sit until the second quarter for evening self-study, but the head teacher changed, Wen Xia would come to watch the evening self-study every night, and he would be caught if he didn't go back.

Shi Xing also put down the other leg, swayed slowly, and looked down at his feet.

Sit down for a while and go back.

Suddenly, a small voice came from behind.

Before Shi Xing could turn his head, a force came from his waist and pulled him back. Shi Xing was startled and yelled "Ah", and both of them fell to the ground. Shi Xing lowered his head and bit him without hesitation. Hold the man's hand very hard.

A familiar voice came from behind.

"You are a dog!"

Shi Xing let go, looked back blankly, and saw Wen Xia.

Wen Xia frowned, sat up propped up, gold-rimmed glasses lay on the ground, Shi Xing hurriedly stood aside, looked at the tooth marks on his left hand, a little embarrassed, "Old Wen, teacher, why are you here?"

"I still want to ask you! If I hadn't come up to get the equipment, you—" Wen Xia stood up, the fall was so painful, his buttocks just touched the tip of the table, and fell to the ground again, he patted his buttocks Hui Hui at the end was inexplicably annoyed: "Why are you sitting on the top floor when you have nothing to do?"

Shi Xing felt wronged and said nothing.

"What are you thinking about, kid, every day?" Wen Xia lowered his hands weakly, and sighed, "You can't think about death anyway, people don't let you raise a white flag halfway through life, life is so long , Ouch, I don’t even know what to say about you—do you know?”

Wen Xia thinks he is going to commit suicide?

Shi Xing tried to refute himself: "I didn't think about suicide."

"Then why are you sitting there?" Wen Xia asked back, "Don't tell me to watch the scenery, you have to sit by the window to watch the scenery, with your legs still dangling there."

The reason Shi Xing thought up was strangled in his stomach before he could say it, he choked, speechless, and spoke in a low voice for a long time.

"But……"

Maybe it was because the environment was too secretive, and the secret in my heart was hidden for too long, the moonlight was dim, Shi Xing's lips moved, and he blurted out: "But... I can't see the final destination."

He consciously made a slip of the tongue and stopped speaking. A gap opened in the old castle, and soon he put on heavy shackles again.

Wen Xia was stunned for a moment, picked up the eyes on the ground, put them on the shirt, and said for a while, "If there is anything, if you feel that your family members can't tell you, and your classmates don't know each other well, just tell me—I won't Tell others, and I won't laugh at you and sarcasm you - as long as you want to."

Shi Xing looked at him dumbfounded, his eyes sore.

Wen Xia turned around, walked a few steps and found that Shi Xing hadn't followed, then turned around and grabbed Shi Xing's shoulder, "Let's go—class is over."

The classroom lights have been turned on, and the corridors are quiet. Some teachers are giving lectures in the evening self-study meeting, and the voices are not loud.

"Go back and give me a good class. You don't have to think about anything. If there is any difficulty, I will help you first. You can just study. Go ahead." Wen Xia educated Shi Xing again before letting him in. .

Shi Xing gripped the doorknob, turned around and glanced at Wen Xia, and said silently.

"Thank you."

The author says:

[The titles of the chapters are all created blindly] Shi Xing's growth environment is different from others, so sometimes the way things are handled is different from others.Moreover, the setting is that Shi Xing has hyperamnesia, and patients with hyperamnesia can clearly remember their whole life, just like a switch, triggering it will lead to a lifetime of memories, and they can't even stop the car - this is for the next chapter To explain, the time and stars in the next chapter may be a bit extreme. [If you are interested in hypermemory, you can watch the British documentary "The Boy Who Can't Forget", and Zhihu also has related questions].In short, hypermemory is a very painful mental illness, and it is not so good. [Comments are motivation, thank you]