12 years after graduation, I want to get married

Bai Jin and I sat at the end of Shousui's lecture theater and kissed.

My very respected professor is at the podium giving the general scope of the final exam.

Bai Jin smiled and asked vaguely: "Why don't the top students sit at the front?" He hugged me and kissed me enough, then hooked my shoulder and picked up the streamer on the table, "Gu Chengyan, you are going to become a scumbag... ..."

I’m not sure why Bai Jin could interact with me in this memory, and I, who was sitting in the first row remembering important points for my roommate S, slipped to the back—the lecture theater can hold 300 people, but this class has a total of 70 people , all sitting in the first five rows... I think it may be caused by the further spiritual integration between me and Bai Jin.

At the age of 20, I had just returned to school from the 62nd ship, and I peeked obsessively at Bai Jin who was sitting beside me, who was attentively listening to the lecture. After hesitating for a long time, I stammered and asked him: "Bai, Bai Jin, can you kiss me again. Or, or, I kiss... kiss you, okay?"

Hello! 20 year old me!Can't you see that Bai Jin is waiting for you to take the bait!He is a sentinel, how could he listen to the professor's emphasis.

The following memories are similar, but I am happy for Bai Jin and sad for the news of his death.

In the exam of the last class, I think about the correct answer first, and then choose a reasonable wrong answer, and accurately calculate the score of passing three points; Bai Jin just lays down in front of my desk and looks at me, asking me if I want a drink of water, For a while while I was in a daze, secretly kissed my forehead;

After giving the score, the professor said he was very disappointed in me.Before I could speak, Bai Jin made an obliterating gesture behind the professor, and then dragged me, who was holding back a smile, to run away;

At the age of 21, I learned that Baijin’s ship had exceeded the mission, so I asked Director Li for leave and went back to the dormitory to celebrate alone. he paid himself off;

At the age of 22, I serialized the story between me and Bai Jin on Xingwang, the kind that hides the real information. He insisted on reading out the hypocritical words I wrote, and forced me to tell him which chapter to drive;

At the age of 23, I am trimming flowers and plants on the balcony, streamer has new news.Bai Jin hid Liu Guang behind his back and didn't allow me to watch it. He asked me what I want to eat tonight and whether I want to work in Director Li's office tomorrow, but I answered him earnestly while crying with tears streaming down my face.He cut all the flowers and plants of Mr. S, the roommate, and made them into a bouquet for me, comforting me that Bai Jin would not die, and not to plant flowers for the heartless former roommate in the future;

The 24-year-old me was ironing my gown for tomorrow's meeting, and I clearly told Baijin that I would not agree to that sentinel who was so enthusiastic that he harassed me in private, but he still hugged me and said he was so jealous, and unreasonably begged me to be absent.

……

I feel that now that Baijin and I are reunited, we are still getting married due to some special circumstances—everything in the past is just a memory.

But why watching the interaction between the former me and the former Baijin, my heart swelled as if being pinched by the devil's nails-he said with a sly smile, do you want time to stop at this moment, Mr. Faust.

Bai Jin and I have been absent from each other's life for 12 years, it's so nice to be able to remember each other like this.

so good.

I even envied that Gu Chengyan who was able to complete the reply to the letter of condolence with the company of the living Bai Jin; in fact, I was the only one sitting at the table without adding points, writing like a river, deleting, deleting, modifying, and finally leaving the cold and concise "" Received", as if annoyed with the correspondent.

I watched Bai Jin salute me in front of the dance floor of the meet and greet, and invited me to dance. The 25-year-old self-proclaimed self-professional, I couldn't wait to hold his hand——

Now it's my turn to check his secrets.

Uh... Bai Jin misses me so much...?

I'm sorry I can't share some of my memories with you, he, he - it turned out he had all kinds of excessive thoughts about me so early on - I was blushing, my heart was beating fast, my blood pressure was rising, especially looking at "me" Interaction with Bai Jin - "I" is completely led by the nose by Bai Jin who is full of perverted thoughts!Ahhhhhhhhh!How could he, when did he hide my clothes and use them for something like that! "I" was actually sitting next to Bai Jin, who was panting with his head up, and let him continue kissing "me"... When I leave Bai Jin's spiritual world, I must ask him what waste is in his mind!

I spent days and years reading through this part of the interactive reminiscence, rubbing my face; now it seems to have changed places:

Everyone in the extravagant banquet hall was toasting, and Bai Jin's parents held hands and accepted the guests' blessings with smiles.

The group photos, audio and video, and family letters of their 23-year marriage are scrolling on the light curtain...

The 22-year-old Bai Jin coldly responded to the greetings from several relatives, and turned impatiently to the garden to breathe.

I found that the "I" who could have interacted with Baijin was stopped by something. The moment I touched his body, I entered the first perspective of Baijin.

He walked farther and farther, more and more sideways, and walked around a thick wall of roses. There were hidden steps behind the wall. He walked down the steps and finally came to an ancient arena.

The light of the artificial moon shines on the stone plane of the arena and the cold weapon display case on one side that has not been tidied up for a long time.

I know here.

A secret family base funded by Baijin's father.The three of them, father and son, used to cultivate aristocratic hobbies here - mastering at least one elegant sport from ancient times.

"Who!" Bai Jin was interrupted by someone who was indulging in some kind of thinking.

"……it's me."

Bai Jin's father walked down the steps slowly, and he stood in front of Bai Jin, but Bai Jin had to raise his head slightly to get the chance to compete with his father's blue eyes full of scheming.

I "saw" his father took another step towards Baijin—a very oppressive approach, and his gestures naturally revealed the aloofness and arrogance of a top-ranking person.And when such a person wants to seek to expand his father's power, passive defense alone is enough for his son.

"...Are you okay?"

"How many years have you called my dad? Once there are no outsiders, you are so stupid...don't be easily mobilized by others. You have to observe others and let them move for your benefit—"

"...Father, are you okay?"

"Interrupting someone more powerful than you is taboo - your eyes say 'boring theory', but I guess you still follow my instructions to earn power. - STOP!"

Even though I knew it was not an order for me, I was still frightened.

The camera pans to his father's face again.

"I heard from your grandmother that you are in love?"

I felt Bai Jin's anger and vigilance for a moment, and I watched the next thing worriedly.

In his childhood memories, he was always hostile to his father and hated his father's breaking promises in marriage, but I don't want Bai Jin to conflict with his father-obviously Bai Jin has no advantage.

"Are you so scared? I won't do anything to him.... Do you think you're promoted very quickly?"

"What do you mean?"

"Baijin, you are my son, and you are my most thoughtful work. Think about this after you go back. I don't want you to use your family name to climb all the way, and finally point your sword at me. Ah, yes Yes, the story of the 'Exile', you don't think you're the only one who knows? Your grandmother was my mother first."

"..." I heard Bai Jin's rapid breathing.He is only 22 years old, but he faces his 60-year-old father who can be described as "scheming".

"It seems that I may have made a small mistake. Well, I shouldn't have indulged your resentment towards me and let too much hatred interfere with your mind. Bai Jin, if you weren't my son, I wouldn't have the patience to treat a Idiots talk so much - I let her know everything your grandmother told you."

what? !

Like Bai Jin, I froze in place in astonishment.His father left Bai Jin's sight, only his deformed shadow was seen shaking.

"Just do it for you..."

Is it windy or is Bai Jin distracted?I listened hard, but caught only a few words.

"...Leave tomorrow."

"Very well. I don't want you to keep ruining my party."

"As you wish." Bai Jin looked at his father who walked to the cold weapon display cabinet.

"Come and pick a sword! My son of the 'Exile', I will give you a chance to 'revenge' now, but from now on you'd better throw away your delusions of revenge on me - how many rounds you can block me, I will tell you Something you might want to know. In exchange—" He easily pulled out a giant sword and tried the feel, "If you lose too quickly, you have to promise me one thing."

Bai Jin acquiesced to the rules of the game, picked out a silver frost-colored steel sword he used to use, put on the protective gear and made a gesture of preparation.

The sword from my father swung down mercilessly. From Bai Jin's point of view, being terrified is quite a simple description.

With the clank and sparks of violent clashing metal, his father recounted point by point:

"I want to tell you that you care most about—maybe you care about your guide most now—this sword is too soft! Not even a ten-year-old child—I never broke the promise I made to your mother. I said Will have no fear of mental breakdown—what are you doing! Use the strength of your waist! Your brother is not my son, I won’t go into details about it, I didn’t intend to tell you today, but are you—”

I clearly saw his father talking, but suddenly lost consciousness.

Uh, after half a minute I can hear it again.

"...Well, now you know the second thing. So, let's talk about your guide—what are you going to do? Are you confident you won't hurt him?"

Bai Jin's sword resisted the attack from his father, and the confrontation between the two swords gradually turned towards Bai Jin, forcing him to retreat again and again.

"Are you going to admit defeat? You are far behind the 'Exile'. With this ability, where else do you want to climb to!"

"..."

The retreating Bai Jin swiftly swiped the blade away, went around to his father's side and swung the sword!

"Hiss—is this your attitude? Good! If you are not sure, don't combine with him. About how to control mental power—I have been training you for a long time—your grandmother said that you got it from your mother's family. I read the diary of the 'Exile' - haven't you been suspicious? In fact, Ellie was the first to know that your spiritual body is a calamity whale. She...she is the love of my life, so you must not hate her ...Sit down and have a rest, son, I see you are very tired...Huh, do you want to continue? Your mother hates the ability of calamity whales, Alice, she is always bitter about her being the only ordinary person in the family Yu Huai, the opinion on the sentinel is also... But in my eyes, she is the cutest woman. She thinks you will be a cold-blooded lunatic, the embodiment of doom, but I like you very much, so that day suddenly Whimsy, leading you to hate me... Without me, why do you fake the spiritual world. I care more about your mental state than yourself. You, after the age of five, Ellie's attitude towards you changed so bluntly, clearly aware of it Oh boy! How dare you say 'I love mother, and you' in front of grandma. Weak and naive! Huh, the sum of the two of them is not as good as I like you."

His father also gave some explanations. In short, the facts I understand are as follows: Bai Jin’s father provided generous materials and education to make Bai Jin grow into an excellent sentinel, and used his hatred for himself to teach Bai Jin how to control his mental power, restrain Mental breakdown, and even the establishment of a false spiritual world layer to prevent ordinary guides from peeping into their hearts.It's all because he knew about Bai Jin's mental problems a long time ago, and expected that Bai Jin would not be able to combine with the guide, so he spent a lot of effort "teaching Bai Jin to control himself without leaving a trace."He finally said: "The disgust of my 'cheating' can also make you-the guy who can't rely on the sentinel gene to love. Otherwise you must be a promiscuous whore. I succeeded, you will be the most A work that is close to perfection. Excellent ability, abide by morality, and cherish love."

Bai Jin was sweating profusely, and his fight with his father had come to an end.

He was panting heavily and wanted to swing his sword, but his father had already dropped the weapon and said there was no need to continue.

"You can't beat me now, let alone try to kill me. Do you understand, silly son... I'm going back, and I will give you a final piece of advice: stay away from them, this is not something you can afford. What will happen to you, you... hum. Get out early tomorrow! If you want me to see you, prepare to be beaten!"

Bai Jin's father is not a normal person.

To be offensive, Bai Jin's parents are not normal.

I thought this memory was not the end, and there were still some memories behind.

But when Bai Jin put the sword back in the display case, I was back on the whale's back.

……

"Your whale will definitely bring bad luck to the guide who tries to bond. Unless his spirit body is the same mysterious creature as the doom whale. This is really too difficult, son, I have been secretly searching for so many years, the answer is No."

At that moment, I experienced Bai Jin's complex state of mind.He was cut in the chest by his father after hearing this sentence.

"The most perfect work"?

Yes, his father paid a lot for Bai Jin.It is impossible to evaluate this man's feelings for Bai Jin with love or dislike.Just because he didn't have a guide, his love for his children is different from that of his family; he learned from his wife that Baijin was doomed to a lonely and indulgent future, and in order to correct his son's sad fate, he secretly poured out money to teach him how to resist mental breakdown He has never abused or cut Baijin's life resources, and even considered Baijin's sound personality, disregarding his resistance to choose playmates and famous teachers for him; You can have a good childhood, and tell him the truth when he grows up, tell him that although other family members don't like you, you still have a father's love, and you are the luckiest person...

What can Bai Jin do.His father, who had always wanted revenge, was "cleaned", the reserved and elegant mother he always liked was the one who hated him the most, the grandmother he trusted with all his heart had no reservations about him, and the younger brother he hated was not his family.He can no longer use the excuse of age to hate, but after all, no one loves him, and no one loves him.

How much I want to hug him sitting on the steps of the arena lost in thought.

I will do my best to make myself worthy of his love.

I must love him more than anyone else in the world, we are tiny beings holding hands.

The whale came to the surface and let out a whine.

Bai Jin was gone.

I touched the whale's gemstone scales and felt a strange and terrifying feeling.

Will the Calamity Whale really kill me?

So what am I talking about here?