My Feelings Can Wait

Ji Youyan regained his senses from the memories, and saw Jing Xiu with long eyelashes drooping, and between her brows was the forced sadness she was familiar with.She panicked, realizing that Jing Xiu might have misunderstood her silence.

"Ah Xiu." She said eagerly, "It's not what you think."

Her ugly face, if not that, so what?Jing Xiu's eyes were full of mist.

Whether it was before or now, Ji Youyan's help to her is the same as avoiding snakes and scorpions.

If others give her a chance, Ji Youyan will be happy and grateful, but if she gives Ji Youyan a chance, Ji Youyan will only feel ashamed and hurt his self-esteem.But obviously, they are the closest people, the ones who should support each other and work together, right?

For a long time, Jing Xiu felt pain.She didn't know what she should do to love Ji Yuyan better and save their precarious relationship.

She respected Ji Youyan's self-esteem, and left Ji Youyan alone. Ji Youyan deviated from her original intention, sold songs and acted in plays and signed Wang Junchan.She was distressed and afraid, she didn't know how many setbacks and insults Ji Yuyan would suffer if she continued to stand by.So on the basis of ensuring Ji Yuyan's pride, she silently let out rumors to protect Ji Yuyan, making people dare not covet Ji Yuyan, but Ji Yuyan still chose the most hurtful method, entangled with others, and continued to hype.

It's not that she didn't understand Ji Yuyan.She comforted herself, maybe Ji Youyan is a kite, destined to fly high.Ji Yuyan doesn't want to be her style, then she can be Ji Yuyan's matchmaker. Even if they look far away from each other, they are still connected together.

But I don’t know when it started, maybe it started when she tried to communicate with Ji Yuyan again and again but only got dodged and deceived again and again, maybe it started when Ji Yuyan missed her appointments again and again, but sent out dating photos with her rumored boyfriend again and again. Xiu began to doubt himself.

Ji Youyan was still that kite, flying farther and farther. She stood in place holding the string, but she couldn't see if she was still at the end of her own string.

Her thread seems not to be Ji Yuyan's concern, but Ji Yuyan's bondage?Ji Youyan didn't mention the breakup, was it just because she promised "I will be responsible" when she gave up her body and mind?

She was restless and panicked, and she was eager to change the status quo, but Ji Yuyan was like quicksand in her hands, the tighter she held it, the faster it was lost.

She was desperate.

But tonight, she summoned up the courage to believe in Ji Youyan's recent changes, and summoned up the courage to tell the truth.Ji Youyan's silence, how could she not be disappointed.

Why she didn't help Ji Youyan was wrong, but Ji Youyan would only think that she was wrong if she helped Ji Youyan.

Being born in Rome seemed like her original sin.If Ji Youyan always wanted to separate clearly from her like this, then even if they got back together, it would be just another torture to each other.

Jing Xiu's nose was a little sour, but she still gave Ji Yuyan time.She looked at Ji Yuyan, hoping that she might really be able to comfort herself.

Ji Yuyan stood up, walked to Jing Xiu's side in two steps, and squatted down beside her chair.She looked up at Jing Xiu, her eyes were full of tenderness, she explained softly: "Ah Xiu, I just remembered something from the past."

She wanted to ask Jing Xiu about her previous life, but immediately realized how Jing Xiu would know.Jing Xiu said that Tao Xingruo just signed him because he wanted to develop the company.This time one year earlier than the previous life, maybe it was because Wang Junchan secretly intercepted him in the previous life?

She tentatively covered Jing Xiu's right hand that was on her knee, and Jing Xiu flinched slightly, finally pampering her.

There was a smile in Ji Yuyan's eyes.She sincerely thanked Jing Xiu: "Thank you, Xiu, thank you for helping me like this."

Jing Xiu looked at her, her eyes astringent.She seemed to be a little unbelievable, and asked Ji Youyan in a low voice: "Are you serious?"

When she couldn't help Ji Youyan in the past, it's not that Ji Youyan didn't thank her when she knew it.But she understood that from the bottom of her heart, Ji Youyan was reluctant.

Looking at her expression, Ji Yuyan felt as if his heart was being pricked with dense needles.How many times has she made her girl feel wronged and worried like this before.

She held Jing Xiu's hand tightly, observed Jing Xiu's expression, leaned her chin on Jing Xiu's knee little by little, and said softly: "I mean the truth."

"Ah Xiu, I admit that it would be a lie if I said that I didn't feel any embarrassment or disappointment at all when I knew what I called self-reliance all the time, and I still didn't leave your help." Admitting your inferiority complex is not easy.But compared to Jing Xiu who used to lower her figure time and time again for her, it's nothing for her to let go of her pride now.

She used to be on the tip of her horns and judged herself by fame and fortune, so she also felt that everyone would judge herself in this way.She was afraid that Jing Xiu would look down on her because of her humbleness and admiration.She paid attention to herself with all her heart, so much so that she was blinded by lard, so she turned a blind eye to Jing Xiu's devotion and fragility.

Jing Xiu felt the weight on his legs and froze his legs.

"But later, I was more guilty and distressed. My distress has always made you compromise like this, and I feel guilty for accepting your kindness but not thanking you sincerely. I don't know what is good..." Before the evil words came out, Jing Xiu typed broke her.

"You don't have to put yourself down like that."

Ji Youyan felt warm in his heart.It doesn't matter what others think, what matters is what Jing Xiu thinks about her.

A "word" swirled in his throat, but Jing Xiu finally didn't say it.She said: "I didn't help you with anything. You didn't have anything called self-reliance."

"Whether I signed Ran Wen before or now, I have never intervened in your career development. The only time I wanted you to make a movie with me, you also refused, didn't you? A singer's achievement is a song, an actor's achievement is a play , at most, I just provided you with an environment to focus on your career itself. If it weren’t for the sick development of this circle, wouldn’t it be natural for talented people to stand out by virtue of their strength?”

"You performed the play yourself, and you won the award with your own strength. What does it have to do with me if you seize the opportunity to achieve success?" There are many people in this circle who can't get it by spending a lot of money. She never spent money to support Ji Youyan.Apart from her lover's filter, she has always appreciated and believed in Ji Yuyan's talent.

Ji Youyan's eyes were like water, and he laughed lowly.

"Yes, it has nothing to do with you." But when she figured it out in the last life, Jing Xiu was no longer waiting for her.

"Ah Xiu, I thank you for allowing me to meet Wei Yizhen." In her previous life, she left Wang Junchan's suppression and control method and followed Wei Yizhen, only then did she slowly regain her confidence.

There was almost imperceptible moisture in Jing Xiu's eyes.Her voice was soft: "Wei Yi is really not what I was looking for, and it has nothing to do with me." Once she was bitten by a snake for ten years, she was afraid of a rope to separate her relationship.

Ji Youyan saw her showing a little familiar tenderness, and his heart became agitated.

"I see." She replied in a low voice.

She is so desirable.Ji Youyan bit her lip, her heart beating like a drum.She couldn't restrain herself anymore, and under Jing Xiu's gaze, she tentatively pressed her thin lips on the back of Jing Xiu's cold hand.

The warm touch seemed to burn all the way from the back of his hand into Jing Xiu's heart.Her body trembled and weakened along with her heart.

The long-term longing was satisfied, Jing Xiu heard his heart sighed ironically, and then, the longing became even worse, greedily wanting more.

Reason and emotion are pulling, Jing Xiu stares blankly at Ji Yuyan, hesitant to speak.

Her non-resistance, her tenderness nourished Ji Youyan's courage.Ji Youyan raised her beautiful neck, her eyes burning.She got up slowly, from looking up to looking down, trying to get close to Jing Xiu's long-coveted red lips.

Ji Yuyan's hand was on the back of Jing Xiu's chair, but within a short distance, their warm breaths were already intertwined in the air...

Jing Xiu's throat slipped, and he suddenly turned his face away.

Ji Youyan was stunned, and stopped quickly, his knuckles turned white with force, and he restrained himself abruptly.

"Ah Xiu..." She called out hoarsely and helplessly, with a hint of pity.

Jing Xiu didn't dare to look at her, and said in a rustling voice, "Why didn't you think that way before?" After all, her reason prevailed.

"Why did you never communicate with me before?"

Why?Ji Youyan followed silently in his heart.There were so many reasons, she didn't know where to start.

"Maybe it's a fan of the authorities." She said with difficulty.The longer she broke up with Jing Xiu, the more sober she became, and the more she regretted her disappointment.No matter what difficulties she had, it was not a legitimate reason for her to hurt Jing Xiu.But when she was caught in the trap, she couldn't see clearly.

Jing Xiu looked a little farther away, and said in a low voice: "So, the distance can make us communicate better?"

In the days when she was overwhelmed with pain after the breakup, she reflected on it many times.Was it because she was too eager to chase Ji Youyan back then that she didn't communicate well and didn't give Ji Youyan enough time to think clearly, so Ji Youyan agreed to be with her hastily.

After breaking up, Ji Youyan never looked for her.If it wasn't for this encounter on the show, their story would have ended.Does she really want to be with herself?

Love or not, being together or not, these are two different things.

Guilt can make people dazzled for a while and move forward bravely, but time will erase everything.

Did Ji Youyan really think about it this time?Are they really not going to repeat the same mistakes?

Jing Xiu has no confidence.

Ji Youyan opened his mouth, wanting to argue without words.

The phone rang suddenly and quickly, and the sound came from Jing Xiu's pocket.Jing Xiu took out his mobile phone, and Ji Youyan saw on the screen that the caller seemed to be from Yanzhou.

Jing Xiu looked at the incoming call and completely calmed down.Her eyes fell on Ji Yuyan's arms on both sides of her. Ji Yuyan quickly withdrew his hands in embarrassment and stood up straight.

Jing Xiu nodded slightly, picked up the phone, got up and walked out.

Ji Youyan stood there watching her, raised his hand and touched his lips in a daze.After a long while, she bent her lips and let out a sigh of relief.

In any case, Ah Xiu's looseness is obvious.

The future is long, she can wait.