Laughing astray

why?

Because of Bai Shaorong.

Because there was an agreement with Bai Shaorong to find you for him?

Or is it because Bai Shaorong told you about you, so you want to come and see, Bai Shaorong's dear brother?

Or is it because seeing Bai Shaorong in the hospital bed who has difficulty breathing, but calls your name over and over again?

Or do you want to replace Bai Shaorong to make up for the missed time?

Or do you want to replace Bai Shaorong and say sorry, I was the one who lost you?

Yan Zihan felt that no matter which one he said, Cong Xiaoyi would probably refuse.Those are the wounds in his heart that he least wants to touch. No one likes to let others touch their softest places.

In this small steamed stuffed bun shop, in front of a person whom he had met for the third time, who was almost identical to a face in memory, Yan Zihan felt that it was difficult to breathe.

This is not the same as when a potato bites the sofa and lies down on the floor to act coquettishly, then everything will be fine.As for those words, those questions that could be answered with just one sentence, Yan Zihan felt stuck in his throat and couldn't get out.

It is the mouth that wants to speak, but the brain does not send the signal.

"Because of curiosity." Yan Zihan took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Bai Shaorong is very important to me, I just want to find you."

He chose an answer that had no side at all.

I don't know if Cong Xiao will accept it for a while.

Cong Xiao stood up. "Let's go get some coffee."

He had no expression, and he didn't have any thoughts in his heart, just like Wang Bin told him to eat Malatang later, it was too ordinary.

Yan Zihan got up and followed behind him.

Cong Xiao is tall, with broad shoulders and well-proportioned muscles when viewed from behind.There is a big gap with Bai Shaorong. Because Bai Shaorong takes medicine all the year round, he can't even do heavy work. He doesn't have any muscle or fat on his body.

A tall, tall and heroic.A slender, delicate and thin willow figure.

"When will Bai Shaorong...?" Cong Xiao couldn't ask the following words, but couldn't help but wanted to know too much.

"Your brother...two years ago." Yan Zihan paused. "Why do you keep calling him by his name?"

The two walked to the door of the coffee shop, which was a chain. "Here, their Frappuccino is delicious," Cong Xiaoyi said, pushing open the door and walking in first. "Go find a seat, I'll order, American style?"

"Ice American Style." Yan Zihan went to find a seat.

Cong Xiaoyi stood in front of the counter and looked up at the large menu hanging.

Ice American.

Does Bai Shaorong also like to drink?

Pointing to the iced Americano and showing it to the waiter, "I want one of these."

Another Frappuccino.

"I want two iced Americano, thank you." Cong Xiaoyi paid and stood aside to wait.

Why is it called by name?

too strange?

No, that was his own brother, a blood-related brother who came out of Cong Jiyun's belly like him.

Don't dare to call?

How many times I closed my eyes, Bai Shaorong lay on the ground like a slide show, played back and forth in my mind, even when I was sleeping, my heart ached and I couldn't breathe.

Guilt?

Is it guilt?

Guilt for not staying with him, guilt for not taking Bai Shaorong with him, guilt for not having a chance to find Bai Shaorong after she fainted due to exhaustion after finding her grandma, guilt for waking up with only an empty hospital bed and grandma with white hair.

"Grandma's grandson, tell grandma, where did Shao Rong go?"

During the long years, Cong Xiaoyi couldn't remember how he answered it?

Lost by me, my brother lost by me?

"Hi, your American."

Holding the coffee, Cong Xiao went to look for Yan Zihan, Yan Zihan chose a relatively hidden place, in a small corner, Cong Xiao walked around twice with the coffee in his hand to find it, watching Yan Zihan on the phone from a distance.

"Didn't you want a Frappuccino?" Yan Zihan hung up the phone, raised Erlang's legs and leaned back on the chair. "Do you want coffee with buns too?"

"No, when I realized it, I already had two glasses in my hand."

Cong Xiao took a sip, bitter, too bitter, the taste spread from the taste buds all the way to the throat.

"I'm not used to it yet." Cong Xiaoyi took a deep breath. "I buried this matter too deeply. I have forgotten how I got out in those days. I always thought that after I left, Bai Shaorong would definitely hate me. Why did he abandon him? I can't forget my grandma's heartbreaking Crying so hard, I can't forget Bai Jingguo's indifferent face, and Cong Jiyun's inability to accept the truth."

Yan Zihan looked up at Cong Xiaoyi, smiled and said: "He doesn't hate you. He has been looking for you, and he feels that you are the one who was left behind. Many times he told me that if he was in better health, or He didn't take you away capriciously, everything will be different." Yan Zihan patted Cong Xiaoyi's head, "I came to you because of Shao Rong, he told me in bed that he must find you, I forgot No, you don’t know how firmly Shao Rong believes that he will find you, but when the news came that you were here, he had already lost the strength to get out of bed.”

Cong Xiaoyi felt that in front of Yan Zihan today, all the tears he had held back for 13 years flowed out.

After Bai Shaorong couldn't find it, Bai Jingguo had already started to be contaminated with drugs.Those things devoured his humanity, devoured his brain, a family has already been torn apart, facing the news that his son was lost, Bai Jingguo no longer has the heart to care about it, those things have nothing to do with him.

Cong Jiyun and Bai Jingguo divorced, and moved with Cong Xiaoyi alone, but Cong Jiyun actually hated him to death, right?Bai Shaorong has always been Cong Jiyun's heart disease. He knows all these things. The relationship between him and Cong Jiyun has changed since then. When he was young, he often saw Cong Jiyun come back with different men. Those voices and actions have been imprinted on him. in the head.

At that time, he could only hide behind the door, looking at Cong Jiyun's indifferent and expressionless face lying on the bed, or watching Cong Jiyun secretly wipe his tears.

It was all too much tormenting him.

The culprit is just like Cong Ji Yun said, it must be himself.

Why do you hate Cong Jiyun?The one who should hate is himself, right?

"Smile one." Yan Zihan wiped away his tears, "Shao Rong misses you very much, so if you have a chance, would you like to visit him with me?"

Cong Xiaoyi's eyes were red, and he relaxed a lot, "He should be very happy to have a friend like you."

"maybe."

"That's why you asked me why I was called Xiaoyi." Cong Xiaoyi wiped his nose, "Have I forgotten him and am already living a new life. Did you think so at first?"

"Yes." Yan Zihan replied, "I thought Shao Rong's strength was all in vain. You have already forgotten him and let him go."

"Bai Jingguo was arrested because he took drugs, robbed and stabbed someone. Since Ji Yun divorced him, his source of income was sleeping with men. And I..." Cong Xiao pointed to himself. "I don't even know what I'm doing, I just dawdle every day."

"You work hard, live well for yourself and for Shaorong." Yan Zihan sighed softly, and took out the bank/bank card newly issued this morning from his pocket. "This is what Shaorong asked me to give you after he asked me to find you. I thought it would take a long time to get it to you, but I didn't expect it to be taken out so early."

Yan Zihan turned the card over, "The password is written on the back, he has nothing to do every day, he can only write novels to pass the time, when he was still healthy, a book has been published. These are all saved by him , the only thing he can give you is compensation."

Cong Xiao shook his head, he never thought that he would find Bai Shaorong again, or hear about Bai Shaorong again, these all came too suddenly.

The person who thought about it for 13 years is no longer there, and the regret buried in my heart can no longer be made up for. The news that I have been waiting for for 13 years is all stored in this bank card. "I still can't accept it, you can hold it for me first. Bai... my brother... I need time to digest it."

"Okay, you can read it when you have time, the book is called "Days to Live""

"I don't know yet, my brother is actually quite artistic." Cong Xiao laughed out loud, finally, some things should be let go.

"You don't know there are many more, I will tell you slowly later." Yan Zihan stretched his waist, "Did you skip class again today?"

"Today, on Friday, I wanted to find a house, find a part-time job on Saturday and Sunday, and go to class next Monday." Cong Xiao took two sips of coffee "Perfect plan."

Thinking of something, Cong Xiaoyi suddenly stood up, "I'm crying today, you have to keep it a secret."

Cong Xiaoyi's actions made Yan Zihan jump, "I'm scared to death." He touched the seat on his chest next to his heart, "It's okay to keep it secret, it depends on what you want to exchange."

"Take advantage of the fire." Cong Xiao clicked his tongue, "Hurry up and drink, I have to save time to find a house."

"Didn't you live with Cong Jiyun?"

"It's because I live with her that I want to move away." Cong Xiao turned around, "I said, I'm quite selfish, I can't accept my mother sleeping with men every day, I know she's because of my brother There is hatred for me, two people who hate each other, living together would not work."

Yan Zihan took out his phone to check the time. "Then do you want to live with me? There is an empty room in my house, and the rent... depends on your performance?"

Cong laughed and said, "What if I can't afford your lion's mouth?"

"I've said it all, it depends on your performance." Yan Zihan stood up, "I'll give you three seconds to think about it."

"Can you reduce the rent if you know how to cook?"

"Exactly, I won't, I can barely think about it."

"You can do the dishes, then I'll cook." Cong Xiao rubbed against Yan Zihan.

"Then you agreed?"

"Let's go, show me my room." Saying that, Cong Xiao turned around to go out.

"Hey, your coffee." Yan Zihan shouted behind him.

"It's your coffee." Cong Xiao turned around and gave Yan Zihan a wink in a shining way.

Two neuroses.

Yan Zihan is very rich.

This is the first idea that popped into Cong Xiao's mind when he came downstairs. The guards at the gate of the community are different, they are neatly dressed, just like watching someone else's house to go to the bathroom to know that the person is not clean.This neighborhood is quite upscale.

In fact, seeing him holding a donkey brand bag, he should have thought of it.

Cong Xiaoyi clicked his tongue silently in his heart, "Didn't you see that my landlord is so powerful?"

Yan Zihan smiled and said nothing, took out his card and swiped it. "There are even more powerful ones."

Yan Zihan lived on the 17th floor, and Cong Xiaoyi was inexplicably nervous as he watched the numbers go up one floor after another... Where did the calmness he cultivated in the past 18 years go?

What are you nervous about?

Worried about your sexual orientation being discovered?Or was he afraid that he would not be able to hold back and react to Yan Zihan?

To be honest, Yan Zihan is indeed Cong Xiaoyi's favorite type, handsome and scum...not rotten scum, but overflowing scum.There are also those two slender legs, fair fingers, perfect profile, and of course the front view is also perfect.

Shaking the thoughts that were about to stray in his mind, Cong Xiaoyi let out a deep breath, thinking about it any further, he really couldn't hold it anymore.

"Lean back." Yan Zihan reached out and pressed the code on the door.

Cong Xiaoyi thought it was Yan Zihan who didn't let him see the password, "I'm going to live in here, what's wrong with this password?"

Yan Zihan opened the door, "I forgot to tell you, there are other people in my family."

"What?" As soon as Cong Xiao followed Yan Zihan into the door, he heard a rattling sound in his ears. pounced on.

A scream.

Cong Xiaoyi felt that his waist must have been twisted, half lying on the ground, his face was licked by something, and he couldn't open his eyes.

Who knew that there was a secret weapon hidden in Yan Zihan's house, damn it? !

Yan Zihan was already laughing so hard that he couldn't stand upright, and it took him a long time to stop, "Didn't I tell you to lean back."

"Bah... bah." Cong Xiao stood up and wrinkled his face. "Licked my mouth."

Potato ran around Cong Xiao several times, "Wow! Woof!!"

"Son, come here." Yan Zihan rubbed Tudou's head, "From now on, I will be a new member of our family."

Potato looked very happy, stood up and put his paws on Cong Xiao's stomach and yelled several times.

"Your son is too enthusiastic."

"There are not many people at home, it likes to play with others."

Yan Zihan took out a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet at the door, "Change to these."

"I didn't expect you to be so interesting? Floral style?" Cong Xiao picked up the pair of red floral slippers, "Are you sure you are a man?"

"What are you thinking, buy one get one free." Yan Zihan took out the blue pair, "The only ones on sale are this one, anyway, I'm at home, so let's wear it together."

Tu Tuo turned around a few times, bit Cong Xiaoyi's pants and dragged him into the room.

"It seems that my son likes you very much." Yan Zihan picked up the potato, "It's really heavy." He said and walked into the living room.

Cong Xiao followed and walked in. "Which one is my room?"

Yan Zihan led him to the bedroom, "This is mine." As he spoke, he pushed open the door closest to the living room, which was the master bedroom. "Your is next to me."

Cong Xiao pushed open the door next to Yan Zihan's bedroom. The room was not small, but it was tidy and looked like a study.

"Poor mouth." Yan Zihan reached out and slapped him on the head, and pulled him to the innermost room, "This is the piano room, you can practice the piano."

Pushing away the room, Cong Xiao saw the glowing grand piano one by one.That's right... glowing.

"I'm awesome! Steinway!"

Anyone who knows how to play the piano at Steinway knows that the price of this thing is not something you can buy if you want it. Cong Xiao never thought that he would have the opportunity to see it.

"Go play and watch." Yan Zihan leaned against the door, looking at the light in Cong Xiao's eyes, he was too familiar with this look.

"Stop joking." Cong Xiao turned his head and walked out. "I don't think this is playing the piano, it's like touching money!"

Yan Zihan behind laughed out loud, "I let you touch it, are you sure you don't want to try?"

Cong Xiao stomped on the spot, "What if I break it?" He thought for a while, "I can't afford it."

"How can it be broken if you play it once... Go ahead. Just play the piece you played last time, and play it again."

Cong Xiao thought for a few times, then sighed softly. "Where's the bathroom?"

"It's available at the entrance, or in my bedroom." Yan Zihan walked over with a smile, "Why are you still nervous?"

"No, wash your hands."

The piano is very precious to Cong Xiaoyi.Those were his memories, his dreams.It was his comfort when he was a child, the only happy existence when he was with Bai Shaorong.Although Bai Jingguo forced him to practice the piano with Bai Shaorong when he was young, although it was boring, it was a good memory.

Sitting in front of the piano, Cong Xiaoyi was still apprehensive, and when his phone lightly touched the keys, he felt reassured.

Press it down slowly, and the familiar feeling hits you little by little.

Cong Xiaoyi felt that he was not himself, and liked it so much, the feeling now, the slight coolness of his fingertips, the familiar voice in his ear, and Yan Zihan leaning on the piano from the corner of his eye.

thump.

Cong Xiaoyi heard his own heartbeat amidst the music.

thump.

Did Yan Zihan hear it too?This sonorous heartbeat.

Cong Xiao felt something different.

After the song was over, Yan Zihan applauded loudly. "Very good, with potential."

Cong Xiaoyi felt that his mouth was dry and smoking.Yan Zihan laughed so hard that his face was about to turn red, the pores all over his body were open, and his heart was beating so fast that it was about to explode.

"Give me a glass of water, I'm a little thirsty."

The voice seemed to be squeezed out of his throat, and Yan Zihan went out to pour him water.

"I forgot to buy canned potatoes, do you want to stay today?"

Taking the water handed over by Yan Zihan, Cong Xiao gulped it down. "Let's move over tomorrow, I'm too lazy to leave, can I stay here?"

"Of course," Yan Zihan said. "I'm going out to buy something now. You can stay at home. Potato likes to take a bath. You can give it a bath to cultivate its relationship. You can also watch TV. The computer can also be used in the room where you sleep."

"it is good."

Yan Zihan went out, Cong Xiao took a look at Tudou who was circling around him, "Let me give you a bath." Just as he was about to reach out to hug Tudou, Tudou ran to the bathroom first by himself.

"So positive?"

Pushing the door open, I saw Tuduo sitting in a big wooden barrel by himself, "You are very good, young man."

Turned on the water in the shower and turned it to lukewarm, but suddenly found that the body wash for Potato could not be found. He wanted to call Yan Zihan, but he didn't have a phone number.

"Baby, wait until your father comes back to take a bath, I can't find the bath liquid."

Potato groaned a few times, jumped out and ran.

Cong Xiaoyi returned to the bedroom, sat in front of the computer and turned it on.Watch a movie first, then look for a job online.There should be a lot of part-time jobs on the Internet. Go for an interview tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. In the future, you will have to earn your living expenses bit by bit.

Um.And rent.

Cong Xiaoyi flipped through the computer and wanted to find a movie or two to watch first. After flipping through it twice, he saw an encrypted file in the folder.

Encrypted flakes.

Yan Zihan is an old coquette.

The author has something to say: finally finished.After sleeping for a whole day, the whole person didn't react.Cong Xiaoyi fascinated Yan Zihan just like that.The flamboyant Yan Zihan.Little piece of love~