Dead but not stiff

The morning sun shone in through the curtains, and Gu Xien, who woke up from a hangover, felt as if his whole body had been run over by something, especially the soreness in a certain part of his body, reminding him of the madness and intensity of last night.

He slowly opened his eyes, and in the eyelids, the appearance of the person in front of him gradually changed from blurred to clear. It was a face with deep guilt, but still unable to hide a hint of secret joy at the corner of his mouth.

"Are you awake?" Shen Bai stretched out his hand, touched his face soothingly, and asked hesitantly: "...Is it uncomfortable? Last night——"

The next moment, it was Gu Xien who picked up the lamp beside the bed without saying a word, and threw it at Shen Bai's head frantically.

Shen Bai was suddenly taken aback by this turn of events, his hand that was about to touch his face to mop up hurriedly raised halfway, the glass lampshade hit his arm, and the shattered glass shards flew in all directions, Shen Bai instinctively went to protect Gu Xien , but was pushed away by him severely.

Shen Bai staggered back two steps, looked at the shards of glass all over the floor, raised his head, his face was full of astonishment and shock, he almost asked in disbelief: "...What are you doing? You want to kill me ?"

Gu Xien's face was as cold as ice, and he answered him without hesitation: "Yes."

After Shen Bai couldn't believe it for a moment, his emotions were finally overwhelmed by anger. He yelled at the other party with his eyes wide open: "Gu Xi'en, are you fucking sick? Just because of this, because of what we did, you just Want to kill me?"

"I'm sick." Gu Xi'en looked at him expressionlessly, those intoxicated eyes that were immersed in sex last night, at this moment there was nothing but disgust, "So if you don't want to die, get out of here. "

Standing there, Shen Bai clenched and loosened his fists, as if a bucket of ice water had been poured over his head, freezing his enthusiasm and love into a bone-deep chill.

"Okay." Shen Bai gritted his teeth, and said to Gu Xi'en with a livid face, "I'm leaving, I can do whatever you want me to do, haven't I always followed you like this?"

After he finished speaking, he didn't look at Gu Xien's face at all, turned around and left the bedroom resolutely, grabbed the coat that was casually thrown on the living room floor last night, and when he walked to the door, his figure paused, but in the end he still Slam the door and leave.

Shen Bai rushed downstairs and exited the corridor in one breath. The cold wind in the early winter morning of C City seemed to be wrapped in a knife and hit his face, making him shiver uncontrollably, and he calmed down slowly in an instant.

Why is he leaving?Is he an idiot?Gu Xi'en was obviously speaking in anger, but he was really driven away by him like this?

Shen Bai, Shen Bai, you've always been calm and self-reliant, why are you completely vulnerable once you get to Gu Xien's place?

Thinking of this, he raised his hand and slapped the wall on the wall as if venting his anger. After thinking twice in his heart, he picked up his mobile phone and called Jiang Yingyue.

The other party was obviously woken up in his sleep, and his tone was quite impatient.

"Are you fucking okay? Make a fucking phone call early in the morning."

"It's okay, what do I call you for? Are you full?" Shen Bai replied coldly, Jiang Yingyue sensitively caught the strangeness in his tone, immediately cheered up, and hurriedly asked: "What's wrong?"

Shen Bai paused for a few seconds, and finally when Jiang Yingyue waited impatiently to urge him to speak, Fu finally opened his mouth and said in an extremely depressed tone: "I gave Gu Xi'en."

Jiang Yingyue was happy: "I heard your tone, I thought it was Gu Xi'en who fucked you."

"Do you want to die?"

"Hey don't don't, let's make a joke to liven up the atmosphere. So?"

"I forced him."

"!!!!!!" Jiang Yingyue's mouth was about to drop in shock, "That's amazing, Shen Bai, why didn't I know you had the potential to commit crimes?"

"Actually, it can't be called coercion. He was drugged, and I just pushed the boat along."

"……and then?"

"Now he's awake and, it seems, not very happy."

"Just coax you if you're not happy, are you an idiot?"

Shen Bai took a deep breath, "He hit me with the bedside lamp just now, and told me to get lost, I just slammed the door and came out as soon as I lost my mind."

"..." Jiang Yingyue was heartbroken, "I've known you for so many years, and this is the first time I've discovered that you have the potential to be a scumbag, brother, you're what I said ruthlessly."

"Then what should we do now?" For the first time in history, Shen Bai didn't taunt back, but really humbly asked for advice.

"What else can I do? Go back and kneel at the door and beg someone to open the door for you. But where are you now? Is your home still?"

"C City, Gu Xi'en's house. I think I should buy him some medicine or something. Last night, it was quite intense."

"Are you wearing a condom?" Jiang Yingyue asked for confirmation even though she was not quite sure.

"No, there was no time to do that under the circumstances."

"Damn it, it's the first time you ejaculate without a condom, that's awesome, Shen Bai."

"Stop talking nonsense, you have a lot of experience, just tell me how to do it."

"Hey," Jiang Yingyue didn't refute his saying that he had a lot of experience, and began to instruct him in the tone of a person who had experienced it: "Have you cleaned him up after that? Let me tell you, that thing will be harmful if it stays in the stomach." You are sick, and you are a novice with no skills, I guess Gu Xien was tortured enough by you. Go buy some anti-inflammatory ointment and apply it for him. In addition, it is best to eat some liquid food for the next two days. "

"Okay." Shen Bai wrote down one by one, "I'm going to buy medicine now, and bring him some porridge back by the way."

"Hurry up." Jiang Yingyue clicked her tongue twice, "You're really awesome, no, I'm going to tell Tang Qi this, it's probably enough for him to laugh for a year, hahahaha."

"..." Shen Bai hung up the phone in silence.

After more than half an hour, Shen Bai returned to Gu Xien's house with the medicine and porridge he bought. He stood at the door and rang the doorbell several times, but there was no response from inside.

"Gu Xi'en!" Shen Bai began to knock on the door, "Open the door!"

After waiting for a while, there was still no movement, Shen Bai continued to knock on the door non-stop, and threatened with words.

"Gu Xi'en, if you don't open the door, I'll squat here and never leave. When your neighbors see me, I'll tell you that I'm your boyfriend and you kicked me off the bed."

However, such a threat still didn't work, Shen Bai started to get a little anxious, he was afraid that something would happen if Gu Xien really stayed inside alone.

In desperation, he called the unlock master directly.

Because he was in a hurry and the price was high, the lockpicker arrived in a short while. After Shen Bai showed him his ID card, he said to him: "My wife is at home. He probably has a fever and passed out. You should hurry up." Please help me open the door."

"Oh, good." The master responded repeatedly, opened the tools in the toolbox, and began to fiddle with the door lock, and turned back to Shen Bai and said, "Just wait a moment, it will be ready in a while."

As a result, just as he finished speaking, the door of the room suddenly opened from the inside. The master was caught off guard and was stunned on the spot. Gu Xien stood inside the door with a cold expression, looking at Shen Bai outside the door in silence.

"This..." The master obviously has never encountered such a situation, he scratched his hair and looked at Shen Bai in bewilderment.

Shen Bai took out cash from his pocket to pay the master lockpicker without changing his expression, and said to him: "Okay master, you take the money, thank you."

Everyone likes to get money for nothing. The master happily took the money, picked up the toolbox and left.

Shen Bai walked in, looked at Gu Xi'en who was still wearing thin home clothes, frowned and said, "It's cold outside, go inside quickly."

Gu Xien stood motionless at the door, his face was cold and heartless like a sculpture.

Shen Bai changed his coping method, handed the porridge in front of him, and said in a good voice: "I bought some porridge for you, you can eat it while it's hot."

Gu Xien pushed Shen Bai's hand away, his eyes were full of indifference: "I feel sick when I see you now, what do you want me to eat?"

Shen Bai suppressed the anger that was about to burst out of his heart again, looked at Gu Xien and said, "Say it again?"

A sneer curled up at the corner of Gu Xien's mouth, and as he wished, he repeated and emphasized it again: "I said that I feel sick when I see you, what do you want me to eat?"

Shen Bai's breathing became heavy again, he clenched his back molars, and spoke each word stiffly and slowly: "Gu Xi'en, for the last time, speak well."

"Speak well?" Gu Xien sneered: "Are you worthy?"

Shen Bai stared at Gu Xien's face that he had never felt so strange, and finally all the enthusiasm slowly faded from his eyes, "Okay." He looked at Gu Xien, and smiled angrily: "You are too powerful, Gu Xien, I really admire you very much."

After he finished speaking, he casually threw the porridge in his hand into the trash can outside the door, turned around and left without saying a word.

Gu Xien stared at his receding back, a painful ripple flashed in his eyes, but in an instant it turned into nothingness.He maintained a motionless posture like this, stood at the door for a while, and then closed the door gently after a long time, turned around and walked into the house.

Halfway there, he suddenly sped up nervously, as if he was expecting something, and hurried to the bedroom window, with an eagerness he didn't realize, he stretched his head and looked downstairs.Nothing, the familiar figure did not appear in sight.

And Shen Bai, who turned around and left Gu Xien's house again, rushed downstairs in one breath, but did not continue to go out.

He silently leaned against the wall of the elevator, took out a cigarette and lit it irritably, in the rising smoke, he thought of himself last night, what kind of mood he had standing here, at the moment of time In the passing of seconds, the feeling of looking forward to the surprise of his lover's appearance will not fade away.

Shen Bai exhaled a puff of smoke and sighed heavily.

This appearance of Gu Xien made him unexpected, and he was completely helpless.There are too many unknown mysteries in him, and the sequelae left by the past that he doesn't want to talk about are affecting and consuming their relationship.

"Young man, wait for someone?" Shen Bai, who was deep in thought, didn't notice when an old aunt with gray hair was standing beside him, and when he saw him standing there smoking a stuffy cigarette, he asked.

"No." As soon as Shen Bai opened his mouth, he suddenly remembered something, turned around and asked her: "Auntie, do you live in this building too?"

The old aunt nodded, and Shen Bai asked again: "Auntie, do you know Gu Xien?"

"Little Gu." The old aunt's eyes immediately filled with a smile, and she hurriedly said: "I know him, he lives downstairs in my house, and we often meet when we go in and out on weekdays. The young man is handsome and polite. , I like it very much."

I also like it very much.Shen Bai silently added a sentence in his heart, and then said to her in a very pleading tone: "Then Auntie, if you are free right now, can you go to his house to see him for me?"

The old aunt's face changed, and she hurriedly asked worriedly: "What's wrong with Xiao Gu?"

Shen Bai didn't answer her question, but just took out a few hundred yuan from his pocket, handed it to her, and said sincerely: "Auntie, please help me to visit him, and cook porridge for him by the way. Take it as my thank you."

The old aunt shook her head, and pushed Shen Bai's hand to hand the money away, "No need, I have a very good relationship with Xiao Gu, I'll just go and see him."

Shen Bai stuffed the money into his aunt's hand, and said without any rejection: "Auntie, just accept it, so that I can feel at ease."

After he finished speaking, he quickly turned around and walked out of the corridor without waiting for the other party to react.

"Hey..." Auntie chased after her, but the others had already gone a long way.

"This child..."

The doorbell rang again, and Gu Xien's body in the room was shocked. He quickly ran from the bedroom to the entrance, desperately suppressing the excited voice, and asked calmly, "Who?"

"Xiao Gu, it's me, Auntie has something to ask you, you open the door."

The light in Gu Xien's eyes went out, he withdrew his hand that was stretched halfway to open the door, and said softly to the aunt outside the door: "Auntie, I'm sorry, it's not convenient for me right now, can you come back another day if you have something to do?"

"Hey," the aunt outside the door sighed, and continued: "I want to go to your house to have a rest, but I forgot the key when I went out in a hurry, and my daughter-in-law said that I won't be back until noon. If you are inconvenient, forget it, then Auntie Go to another place and ask."

After saying that, the old lady turned around and was about to leave, but Gu Xien's voice sounded again: "Wait a minute, auntie, I'll open the door for you."

There was a sound of the door lock, and Gu Xien opened the door. Auntie looked at him in surprise and worry: "I just heard something wrong when I was outside, Xiao Gu, why is your voice hoarse? Have you caught a cold? The young man lives alone, Take care of yourself."

Gu Xien's face changed, and then he showed her a faint smile, and nodded slightly: "Yes."

"Hey, I think you're not in a good state of mind. You go and rest. Auntie is idle anyway. Let's cook some porridge for you."

Gu Xien shook his head and refused, "No need, Auntie."

"Hey, don't be polite to auntie. You go to rest in the house, people with cold need more rest."

Gu Xi'en was driven to the bedroom by her. After an unknown amount of time, the aunt gently opened the door and said to him: "Xiao Gu, Auntie cooked some millet porridge for you. Come out and eat some."

Gu Xien didn't have any appetite at the moment, but he didn't want to disappoint the old man's kindness, so he nodded and got up and went to the living room.

The aunt brought the porridge to the dining table, and while beckoning Gu Xien to come over to eat, she pulled a chair and sat opposite.

Seeing Gu Xien lower his head and sip the porridge, the aunt stopped talking a few times, and finally pushed the money in her hand to him, and said with an embarrassed face: "Xiao Gu, it's actually you who is waiting The friend downstairs, he asked me to come and see you. He also gave me the money, saying that he asked me to cook you something to eat. But what do I want this money for, you return it to him for auntie, ah. "

Gu Xi'en stopped holding the spoon, he raised his head in a daze, and said slowly: "Say, who?"

The aunt was surprised: "Isn't it your friend? It's just a tall guy who is smoking at the elevator entrance."

"...Mmm." Gu Xien lowered his head, obviously what he ate was the millet porridge in the bowl in front of him, but what remained in his mouth was full of bitter taste.

The auntie watched Gu Xien eat a bowl of porridge before getting up to say goodbye to him, she had a sense of responsibility for being entrusted with loyalty.

Gu Xi'en walked back to the bedroom silently, and sat on the floor leaning on the bed as if exhausted. After an unknown amount of time, the mobile phone beside the bed buzzed and vibrated.

Gu Xi'en stretched out his hand to take it, and the word "Shen Bai" on it made his eyes sore.

The bell continued to ring for a long time, and every time there was a pause, Gu Xien thought that the other party would just hang up, but continued to ring persistently the next moment.

After repeating this for more than half a minute, Gu Xien slowly moved his finger and opened the connection.

"Hello..." Shen Bai's voice passed through the current and came into his ears heavily.

Gu Xien was silent, Shen Bai waited for a few seconds, and then said on his own: "I'm going back first, if you don't want to see me, then I'll go, when you want to see me, I will naturally show up again. But before I leave, I would like to explain that I was not the one who gave you the medicine last night." He paused and continued, "Although I am also suspected of taking advantage of others, if you think I am Disgusting, I still want to fight for myself."

Shen Bai stopped, closed his eyes, and spoke again, with a hoarse and slow voice: "Gu Xien, I am really tormented when I call you this time. I am afraid that you will not answer, but I am even more afraid that you will be like this, Don't say anything when it's connected. Can you let me hear your voice again before I leave? "

After Shen Bai finished speaking, there was still no sound for a long time, so long that he thought that the other party had hung up the phone, but suddenly a thin whimper sounded in his ear, followed by another, Gu Xien cried.

His desperately suppressed cry became more and more clear, piercing Shen Bai's heart like a needle.

Shen Bai turned around abruptly, started to run back.

"Gu Xi'en, I'm not leaving. I want to go back and see you. Open the door and let me see you, okay?"