atypical package

Wei Jiawen's life is still peaceful and stable.He used to have a lot of dissatisfaction and complaints. For life and love, those emotions once struck thunder in his heart, and those entanglements and pains screamed in his heart.But because of that small, insignificant episode, he saw a little sincerity of Li Yanxi, which may not be revealed often, but it is extremely true.At this moment, he suddenly felt that everything he had paid was worth it.

Countless torments of cold and summer, thousands of days and nights of longing, repeated attempts to give up but choose to persist, the faint torture in the bottom of my heart after meeting again...all of them, in that place that let him In front of a man who has been thinking about him for seven years, it is nothing to say.

He immediately thought, in fact, the beginning of the story is always easy and simple, and people are always greedy.When you see it, you want to be remembered by others, and when you remember it, you want to be together. Once you are together, you start to plot other people's sincerity, and you want to ask for a vow and forever.In fact, what he wanted at first was to stand in front of this man again.

After all this time, he should have been content.What's more, Li Yanxi is by no means completely indifferent to him, he finally saw this.

Since then, he has felt much more at ease.

He thought, if you are a lover, you should be a lover. In fact, everything is the same.In short, no matter what kind of relationship, I am still nostalgic for that man, and that man loves me very much.Since Li Yanxi likes this, there is nothing wrong with it.

Before going to bed at night, the two of them were watching a movie together, when Li Yanxi's cell phone rang a few times suddenly, it was a number that was not saved.Li Yanxi frowned immediately, his whole body shrouded in gloom.There was a burst of irritability in his heart, and he put the phone down heavily.The bell cut off.But 2 minutes later, the annoying ringtone rang again, his gloom and irritability turned into anger, he got off the bed angrily, and answered the phone, Wei Jiawen only heard him say "what are you doing" impatiently, Li Yanxi Then he opened the door and went out.Wei Jiawen didn't know who the caller was. He was full of thoughts, and his body moved unconsciously to the place where Li Yanxi had just walked by.Feeling the residual temperature of Li Yanxi, I felt a little more solid in my heart.

After Li Yanxi hung up the phone, he stayed on the balcony for a long time, so long that Wei Jiawen almost fell asleep, and then returned to the bedroom with the smell of cigarettes all over his body.Wei Jiawen felt the low pressure in Li Yanxi's body, licked his lips, and subconsciously asked who just called, but Li Yanxi didn't respond.

Wei Jiawen lost sleepiness in an instant, he wondered if he shouldn't have asked?But I heard Li Yanxi's muffled voice saying, "Calling from home."

Wei Jiawen leaned closer to him and said, "Parents? Is something wrong?"

Li Yanxi sneered a few times and said, "It's nothing, it's just some cliché, don't worry about it."

Wei Jiawen didn't dare to speak anymore.

After a while, Li Yanxi said to himself, "I had a younger sister when I was young, she was very smart."

What Li Yanxi said was endless, Wei Jiawen didn't understand it for a while, but after waiting for a long time, Li Yanxi didn't speak again.

Wei Jiawen couldn't help but look down at him, and asked, "Well, what then?"

Li Yanxi's voice was very low, and he rested his head on Wei Jiawen's shoulder, and said slowly, "She is one year younger than me, and we grew up together," he said with a smile, "She studies very well, much better than me. "

Wei Jiawen stroked the back of his hand and said, "Hmm. Then she must have gone to Peking University and Tsinghua University, right?"

Li Yanxi sneered twice suddenly, and said, "No. When I was in middle school and lived in school, I only found out when I came home on Sunday that she had dropped out of school."

Wei Jiawen hesitated for a moment.

"My dad is a technical secondary school student. It is reasonable to say that technical secondary school students in that era should have a good place to go, but he is stupid, stupid and bad, and he returned home in despair, and lived in the village all his life." Li Yanxi's His eyes became more and more sinister, "It's fine if he doesn't have a rich life to admit it, but he just puts on the dirty air of a sub-literateur, full of complaints, and noisy all day long, that's fine, he can't lift his hands on his shoulders or carry it." , the crop work is extremely sparse, and we can’t even compare to other people in such things as feeding pigs and sheep. Our family’s life has always been the worst in the village. Before Yuanyuan and I were ten years old, we didn’t even eat white flour steamed buns. I ate the pancake until I vomited."

Wei Jiawen's heart ached.Although he has loved Li Yanxi passionately for so many years, he never knew these past events that belonged to Li Yanxi.Thinking about it, in the past seven years, his understanding of Li Yanxi was just superficial.And these few miniatures are enough to keep him haunted and haunted for many years.

"It's not that the whole family doesn't enter the house. My father looks like this, and my mother is not a good thing. She is lazy and tricky." He suddenly asked Wei Jiawen, "Have you ever seen a child on the street open and close his mouth and his genitals are exactly like his ancestors?" Eight generations of rural women?"

Wei Jiawen was about to say that he had seen it before, but he heard Li Yanxi continue, "In my 33 years of life, I have never seen anyone who is more swearing than her. She sleeps until the sun rises every day, and never knows how to do things for children. I had a breakfast without even frying pickles. At that time, Yuanyuan and I were young, so we had to take a pancake and go to school on the way. I came home at noon and wanted to eat a hot meal, but it was still cold. The pot is cold and the stove is cold, and there is nothing in the pot when the lid is lifted. I searched around the house and couldn't see her, heh, where do you think she is? She must be standing in someone's yard chatting with others about scraps and gossip."

Li Yanxi was still angry when he said this in his heart, and he took a few deep breaths before continuing, "Yuanyuan and I were young at that time. I was afraid that my parents would scold and smoke others, so she had to cook the pot and I would cook. When the food tastes good, my mother will come back."

Wei Jiawen couldn't help hugging Li Yanxi, he touched his nose, and said tentatively, "It's all over. The hard days are over. Aren't you living well now?"

Over the past few years, Li Yanxi still had an evil fire burning in his heart, which almost burned his whole body. It would be fine if things were just like this.But life is always cruel and ruthless, always ready to drag people down to hell.Li Yanxi said harshly, "I can't get through it. I can't get through it for the rest of my life."

After a while, Li Yanxi realized that his emotions were not right. He closed his eyes and recuperated for a while, and his Adam's apple quickly rolled a few times before continuing, "Later, I went to middle school and started to live on campus. Add firewood and cook by yourself. Yuanyuan is short, almost as high as the stove, so she can only move a small stool and stand in front of the stove, almost falling into the pot several times."

His eyes became far away, his brows were tightly frowned, and he couldn't relax, "I often tell Yuanyuan, if you stick to it for another year, you can go to middle school after another year, and it will be easier if you live in school." .”

His voice was full of resentment and resentment, and more of his powerlessness to fate, "But she was forced to drop out of school before this day. I came home from school and found out about it. I quarreled and quarreled with my parents. , but all they got in return was a brutal beating, and when Yuanyuan stopped me, they tied us up and whipped us with belts."

"My parents are lazy, lazy and poisonous, and they only know how to order her every day. Yuanyuan starts from opening her eyes to closing her eyes every day, cooking, going to the fields, washing clothes, feeding pigs, weeding, picking manure... ··All the dirty and tiring work is hers. It's just that she's tired, and she also has to face the endless and extremely ugly insults from my parents. If you work, you will be scolded, if you don't work, you will be beaten... · Only on the day when I come back every week, she can rest for a while. Then I thought, when I go to college or work, I will take Yuanyuan to my side, and life will gradually get better of."

Although Wei Jiawen didn't know about Li Yanxi's family situation, but after being together for nearly a year, he clearly remembered that in Li Yanxi's life, there were no female relatives who walked around a lot.He doesn't even have any relatives.He didn't dare to look into Li Yanxi's eyes, but hugged him a little tighter.

"But she didn't even wait for such an expectation. Her life was too hopeless, and there was no hope at all. Perhaps for her at that time, death was the only relief. She committed suicide by drinking medicine."

Wei Jiawen quickly lowered his head to look into Li Yanxi's eyes, but found no tears.He breathed a sigh of relief, but he didn't know how to comfort him.

"They don't seem to have the slightest bit of sadness or regret, they just keep making excuses." The fire in Li Yanxi's heart ignited again, "Yuanyuan was only 14 years old at that time. Her life hadn't even begun yet. , to the end."

"I buried Yuanyuan. I hated them so much, but there was nothing I could do. Without them, I couldn't study, let alone change my fate and settle down. Such a small tuition fee. That family makes me sick, and those two people make me sick even more. I just want to escape quickly and never go back."

Speaking of this, Li Yanxi took a long breath of relief, "Fortunately, this period of time is not too long. After I graduated from high school, I worked around to save the first year's tuition fees, and went to Shanghai alone. Later, by chance, After making the first pot of gold, I sent them a lot of money and never came back home."

Wei Jiawen bit his lips tightly, he had a lot of questions to ask, such as whether your life was bitter and tired, but these questions were for nothing.How could it not be bitter?How could it be possible not to be tired.He wanted to ask Li Yanxi how he survived those helpless days alone, but he didn't know how to ask.He doesn't want to be the person who uncovers other people's scars to find out, and he doesn't want to observe other people's suffering under the guise of caring.But he was really distressed, so distressed that his breathing and heartbeat were twitching pain.

"Tell me, how did this happen with a life apart?"

Li Yanxi returned to normal, he couldn't see the ruthlessness and anger just now, as if he was telling someone else's story, he said lightly, "I can't get over it", after a long time, he repeated it again, not as if telling others, but as admonition To myself, "Jiawen, this matter will never pass."

The author says:

The 14-year-old young girl who committed suicide by drinking medicine was a sister-in-law I had never met.The boy who lost his biological sister in his teenage years was my father.The story is roughly like this, but it is more cruel and terrifying than this.If I have a chance, I will probably write a biography for my parents. 23333333