She's tricking me again today

It's only been a day, and the little hand that was white and clean when he left in the morning has a cut open at this moment.

The wound was on the side of the fingertip of the index finger. One could tell that it was accidentally cut while chopping vegetables. The wound was so deep that the phalanx inside could be vaguely seen!

"Aren't you in pain? Why are you chopping vegetables when you're all like this!"

Fang Xiang dragged her out of the kitchen, pushed her to sit on the sofa, and took out Yunnan Baiyao and sprinkled it on. He wanted to wrap it with gauze, but after thinking about it, he chose a Band-Aid, which made it easier to observe the wound and was more breathable. .

It wasn't until everything was done that Liu Yulin raised her finger and said, "It hurts."

Can it not hurt?That is the flesh that grows on oneself, not someone else's!

Fang Xiang sighed, closed the medicine box and put it on the coffee table, then turned around and squatted in front of Liu Yulin's legs, holding her hand with a serious face.

"Take leave tomorrow, let's go to the hospital together!"

Liu Yulin lowered her head and stared at the injured finger, and then said "Huh?" after being dull for a long time.

Fang Xiang repeated it again, "Go to the hospital tomorrow, get up early tomorrow and ask for leave first, remember?"

After another period of silence, Liu Yulin looked up at her dully.

"Hand, it's okay, you don't need to go to the hospital."

Indeed, it was just a cut with a kitchen knife. No matter how scary it looked, it was just a small wound. Naturally, there was no need to go to the hospital. However, Liu Yulin's mental condition had reached the point where she had to go.

"It's not about watching hands. I think you've been a little slow recently. Let's see a psychiatrist."

"Oh..." After being stunned for a long time, Liu Yulin suddenly realized, "What do you mean? I'm not crazy."

Fang wanted to comfort her quickly, "I didn't say you have mental problems, but I just feel that you have been a little slow to respond recently, maybe it's because of too much pressure, I want the doctor to help you relieve it."

"Oh..." Liu Yulin lowered her head again, she wanted to move her fingers but was held by Fang Xiang, she was stunned for a while before saying: "I'm fine."

"Then let the doctor see it, and if the doctor says it's all right, then don't I feel relieved? Just try to reassure me, go."

Liu Yulin shook her head and smiled wryly, "You don't have to be so nice to me, I'm not worthy of you."

Fang Xiang no longer understood Liu Yulin's brain circuit.

"What kind of person? What are you thinking about?"

Liu Yulin was stunned for a long time before saying: "Originally Wang Dahai loved me very much and would do anything for me. Back then he ran around the square excitedly when he kissed me, but now, he can actually scold me like that."

Fang thought: "That's his scum! It's not your fault."

Liu Yulin shook her head, "On the one hand, he is a scumbag, and I really have no charm at all. I have only been married to Wang Dahai for a few months, and he thinks I am boring and like a dead fish in bed, and I can't satisfy him at all. At the end of the day, I still can’t.”

Fang thought: "He said that on purpose, just to make excuses for his affair! Can you believe this? Just ignore him, a piece of rubbish!"

Liu Yulin gave a wry smile, her thin shoulders trembled slightly, looking indescribably pitiful.

"Don't lie to me anymore. I really believed your words before and thought I was really good at it, but what happened? They all lied to me."

Fang Xiang was stunned, "What did I lie to you?"

Liu Yulin broke away from her hand and wiped the corner of her tear-wet eyes.

"Kiss, you said before that my technique is very good, and you seem to have a lot of feeling, but that day, you told me that you didn't feel anything at all. I really am useless. I worked so hard, but the result is still... no."

Fang Xiang never expected that she would bring this up. Just as she was about to explain, Liu Yulin said again: "After all, it's all my own fault. I can't keep my man, and my girlfriends still lie to me. For the case, I have been making mistakes these two days. Because I have been scolded several times for this, if I don’t do well, I will probably be fired.”

Looking at the Band-Aid in her hand, Liu Yulin's smile became even more bitter.

"I'm really useless. I can't even cut a dish right now. What else do you think I can do?"

Fang Xiang had never seen such a negative Liu Yulin. She held back a lot of words to explain her, but she didn't know what to say when the words came to her mouth.

She sighed slightly, leaned forward again, knelt down on one knee, and hugged Liu Yulin's thin shoulders.

"Remember, even if you become the most useless person in the world, you still have me under you all the time. I have been suppressed by you for more than 20 years. I probably won't be able to turn over in this life. If you don't even Useful, then am I even more useless? If you can't even think about it, then I can really die."

Liu Yulin's voice was choked with sobs, "You will comfort me."

"This is not consolation, it's a fact. You will feel useless, but you are under too much pressure. Be obedient, go to the hospital tomorrow for the doctor to see, and soon you will become the original lively you again."

"I don't want to go, I'm not sick..."

"I know you're not sick, good boy, just to relieve the pressure, didn't you just say it? To reassure me."

"I'm going, it's like I'm really sick..."

"Be good, be obedient, just to reassure me, and won't let others know."

"But……"

Fang wanted not to give her another chance to refute, so he leaned directly into her ear, repeating "Good boy, be obedient, go to the hospital" over and over again, as if hypnotized.

Liu Yulin finally relaxed slowly.

"Then, then go to the central hospital. It's far away and there are so many people. No one will notice me."

Fang Xiang heaved a sigh of relief and rubbed her head, "Okay, let's go to the Central Hospital."

……

If there is ever a place that never lacks customers, it is probably a hospital.

People eat whole grains, and there will always be a day when they get sick. As long as they are sick, let alone working days and rest days, even if it is New Year's Eve, they still have to see a doctor.

Today is Thursday, a proper working day, but the central hospital is still overcrowded.

Fang wanted to push Liu Yulin onto a chair in the corner of the hall, and go to register by himself. After all, he rarely came to the hospital, and he never thought of making an appointment online in advance.

After queuing for a long time, I got on the phone and took Liu Yulin to the psychiatric department.

Fortunately, there were not many people seeing psychological problems, and there were several doctors in the psychiatry department at the same time, and it was their turn after a short queue.

"Go, go over there."

Fang Xiang led Liu Yulin to go, but Liu Yulin sat on the chair with her head bowed, motionless.

"Linlin?"

He tugged on her again, but she still couldn't move.

The people waiting behind got impatient, "If you don't go, we will be advanced."

Fang wanted to be helpless, so he had to give way to one person first.

"What's wrong with you? Didn't you say it well? Why don't you want to read it again?"

Liu Yulin lowered her head, didn't look at her, just shook her head slightly, "No."

Fang thought: "Why don't you go?"

Liu Yulin: "I'll think about it."

Fang thought: "What do you think?"

Liu Yulin's thought made the past two people.

Just when Fang Xiang thought that Liu Yulin was using a delaying tactic and was planning to spend the whole morning thinking about it, the patient from the second consulting room came out.

Liu Yulin suddenly stood up.

"Let's see then."

Fang Xiang was taken aback for a moment, fearing that she would repent, so he hurriedly pushed her into the second consulting room.

The second consulting room is a female doctor, wearing gold-rimmed glasses, looking very intellectual.

As soon as they came in, the nurse closed the door to cut off all the noise outside.

The female doctor smiled and beckoned them to sit down, and then said, "Hi, my name is Zhuang. You can call me Dr. Zhuang."

Doctor Zhuang's voice was inexplicably familiar, so Fang Xiang didn't want to think about it, so he stepped forward politely and replied, "Hello, Doctor Zhuang."

Dr. Zhuang nodded his head and looked at Liu Yulin who was beside him.

"Sit down, don't be nervous. Now the pace of society is too fast, and there are too many bad things. It is inevitable that there will be psychological pressure. If the pressure is too heavy, there will be a backlog of psychological problems more or less, which is normal."

Liu Yulin lowered her head, picked at the Band-Aid wrapped around her fingertips, and only after a long time did she say "hmm".

Doctor Zhuang was quite patient. Seeing that she was unresponsive, he looked aside to Fang Xiang.

"Tell me about her situation."

Fang wanted to think about his words, "It's like this. Recently, because of some things, she had a lot of trouble with her family. Since then, she has been a little unresponsive. She didn't even know that she cut the vegetables yesterday. I wrapped them up for her. Only then did she realize that it hurts."

Dr. Zhuang nodded slightly, and asked Liu Yulin a few more questions. Liu Yulin answered them all, but she didn't raise her head the whole time, and her voice was depressed.

Dr. Zhuang looked at Fang Xiang again, "Apart from being unresponsive and speaking slowly, is she depressed all the time, with low self-esteem, not very interested in anything, and sleepy and lack of energy?"

"That's right, she's been like this for the past half month." After a pause, Fang Xiang leaned forward and asked, "Doctor Zhuang, what's wrong with her?"

Dr. Zhuang clicked on the medical record column of the computer, and said while typing: "She is suffering from depression. The main manifestations are dullness, listlessness, pessimism, negativity, and world-weariness. If it is serious, she may even have the tendency of self-mutilation and suicide."

Suicide? !

Fang Xiang instantly remembered the time Liu Yulin jumped off the building.

"Are you diagnosed? Dr. Zhuang?"

Dr. Zhuang turned his eyes and glanced at her, then at Liu Yulin, pushed his gold-rimmed glasses, and answered seriously.

"At present, there is no medical device that can accurately diagnose depression. It can only be judged by symptoms. However, depression is generally not a one-shot disease. Most of them have a process of accumulation of emotional stress. Think about it, is there anything that happened before? Make her emotionally unstable and stressed?"

Fang thought for a while and asked, "How long does this process usually take?"

"It can range from a few months to a few decades, depending on her own ability to bear it, as well as the size and severity of the incident and many other factors."

In a few months, Liu Yulin almost committed suicide because of Wang Dahai's incident.

No matter how long it was, it was ten years ago, because of that Liang Mingfei, Liu Yulin suffered a lot, and she still can't forget him until now.

So, Liu Yulin... is really suffering from depression? !

The author has something to say: I am so sad, I have a stiff neck, and I have been writing words with my head tilted all morning~

I think I'm going to suffer from depression too... QAQ~~

By the way, someone let me do the trick too O(∩_∩)O

ps. Thanks to all the babies who followed up~

(You: It’s the same sentence every day, can’t you change the word?

Me: I have a stiff neck, my brain cells are dead! QAQ~)

O(∩_∩)O haha~

I laughed too much, my neck hurts o(╥﹏╥)o