She's tricking me again today

"what?"

Fang Xiang was stunned, and turned to look at her.

Liu Yulin burst into tears again, "I'm sorry..."

"Why do you say sorry again? Is it true that you said divorce just now?"

Fang Xiang didn't care about wiping her tears, thought for a while, paid the bill first, and dragged Liu Yulin to the beach not far away.

At this point, there were quite a lot of people on the beach, and the two of them walked a long way before finally finding a quiet place and sitting down.

Along the way, Liu Yulin's tears have been dried by the sea breeze, but her eyes are still red.

Fang Xiang leaned against her and took her arm actively.

"Do you want to lie down?"

Liu Yulin didn't answer, and lay down directly.

Fang Xiang also lay down, leaning his head to her side deliberately, like a pillow on her shoulder, still holding her arm.

The two looked up at the sky.

The deep black night sky is dotted with stars, it is next to the vast sea, and its back is facing the far neon lights. Even the first-quarter moon, like a hook, seems to be much brighter than the emperor's capital.

The two were silent for a long time, but Fang Xiang spoke first.

"Look, just lying there, blowing the sea breeze, listening to the waves, and looking at the stars in the sky, it seems that all the troubles have disappeared, but it's actually quite good."

This consolation is not considered clever, Fang thought about it, and said: "Actually, many times, the beginning is wrong, and no matter how to correct it later, it is still wrong. It is better to be more straightforward. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. It is better to give up early." .”

This comfort is not as good as the previous sentence.

Fang Xiang usually has an online EQ, but when he met Liu Yulin, his brain capacity was obviously insufficient.

Liu Yulin didn't reply, and she didn't know what to say next, so she thought about it carefully, instead of hiding it, it's better to just make it clear directly, if the festering carrion is not dug up, the wound will never heal.

"Linlin, I want to ask you something, can you tell me the truth?"

Liu Yulin nodded slightly.

Fang Xiang then asked: "Tell me honestly, why did you marry Wang Dahai?"

In a word, Liu Yulin froze obviously.

"Why do you ask that all of a sudden?"

Fang Xiang lay on his side, looked up at Liu Yulin, under the starry sky, Liu Yulin's face was covered with cool white moonlight, hazy and psychedelic.

"You married Wang Dahai not because you loved him, but because of another person, right?"

Liu Yulin turned her eyes and glanced at her, just one glance, and then turned away quickly.

After a long time, she murmured: "I'm sorry..."

This is the sentence again.

Fang Xiang exhaled lightly, followed her profile and turned around.

"Why do you apologize again? Even if you are sorry, your parents are the ones who are sorry. What's the use of apologizing to me? Besides, now that things have come to this point, it doesn't matter who is right and who is wrong. How to do it."

Even when she turned her head, Liu Yulin still lowered her eyes, no matter what she said, she still murmured "I'm sorry".

Fang Xiang suddenly felt powerless as if he had hit the cotton with his fist.

"Why do you keep apologizing? I really don't understand you, Liu Yulin."

Liu Yulin lowered her eyes, unable to see her eyes clearly, only vaguely saw that her tears seemed to flow out again, flowed down her cheeks into her hair, and wet the soft sand under her head.

Swallowing the words that rolled to her lips, Fang Xiang sighed, and took out a tissue to help her wipe away her tears.

"It's fine if you don't want to say it, I won't force you."

Liu Yulin sniffed, and finally raised her eyes to look at her.

"If, I mean, if, if one day, I do something very unreasonable to you, beyond your imagination, will you forgive me?"

Fang Xiang has always disliked assuming these things that would hardly happen, but she still patted Liu Yulin's head patiently, and replied with a gentle tone that was almost coaxing a child.

"What extreme thing can you do? Steal my husband? If he can be snatched away by you, it means that he is not a good bird. I can't lose my husband and lose my best friend. Wouldn't that be a big loss?"

Even prying the corner of the wall can be forgiven, even Fang Xiang himself feels that he is really a virgin.

But she was only so tolerant to Liu Yulin, only to Liu Yulin.

She didn't know why, maybe it was because over the years, the relationship between her and Liu Yulin had surpassed friendship and directly developed into a family relationship.

It's like, no matter what her parents do to her, she will never really hate her. After all, she is a relative with a continuous bloodline.

"What if it's worse than that? Will you forgive me?"

"Is it serious? Digging the ancestor's grave?" Fang Xiang didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "Tell me, what can you do?"

"I, what if I lied to you?"

Fang Xiang smiled angrily, "Aren't you lying to me too often? Did you really get married because you like Wang Dahai?"

Liu Yulin muttered twice, then lowered her head, "I, I...not."

"Since it's not the case, then divorce, let yourself go, and let Wang Dahai go."

Liu Yulin was silent for a long time, and when Fang Xiang thought she wanted to repent again, she said lightly: "Okay."

it is good?

What I had been asking for before could not come, today, I finally said it.

Fang wanted to understand how difficult it was for Liu Yulin to make this decision. No matter why she married Wang Dahai, they were husband and wife after all, and they always had some affection. Besides, they almost even had children.

At this time, any language is superfluous, Fang Xiang didn't say anything, he reached over, hugged her into his arms, and stroked her long hair soothingly, from the top to the end of her hair, gently, over and over again again.

Liu Yulin shrank obediently in front of her, from being stiff at first, to slowly relaxing, to actively hugging her waist, and buried her head in her chest, just a few short sighs.

"I..." said suddenly, her throat was a little unclear, Liu Yulin cleared it up, and then continued: "I married Wang Dahai not because I like him, but because only he can connect me with that person , I love that person very much, love him very much.”

"who's that person?"

Liu Yulin shook her head slightly, "I can't say."

"I know if you don't tell me."

Liu Yulin's bitter laughter came from her arms, "Really? Then tell me."

"Liang Mingfei."

This junior high school bully was the only person Fang Xiang could think of who met Gao Qian's conditions. Although Gao Qian denied it, it cannot be ruled out that she did it on purpose.

"Liang Mingfei?"

"Yes, is it him?"

Liu Yulin smiled bitterly, "It's been so many years, and he's not in the same class, but you remember his name clearly."

Because of this person, she and Liu Yulin almost broke up, can you remember?

Before Fang wanted to speak, Liu Yulin suddenly hugged her waist tightly.

"That's right, it's her."

really him? !

Fang Xiang was caught off guard by Liu Yulin's admission, and she couldn't tell what she was feeling, was it guilt?or something else?In short, a little uncomfortable.

"It's really him..."

"Well, it's her. When I was in junior high school, I didn't know that I liked her. In the summer of the first year of high school and the second year of high school, there was a night of self-study, and there was a sudden heavy rain. I ran to hide from the rain and happened to hide with her. Under the porch of the bank.

At that time, there were only her and me, I was getting wet, and she was getting wet too, the rainwater slid down the side of her face, gathered on her chin, and then fell drop by drop, dizzy with the dim yellow street lights in the distance, her side The face is indescribably beautiful. "

Liu Yulin moved her head slightly, found a comfortable position, and continued to immerse herself in dusty memories.

"She was wearing a white school shirt that day and it was soaking wet and stuck to her body.

Originally, I just looked at her face, her eyelashes stained with water, her moist lips, and her slender neck, but when I looked at her, I didn't know what was wrong, suddenly it seemed like I was possessed by an evil spirit Yes, the line of sight can't help moving down.

She didn't know how m...handsome she was at that time, that wet shirt, transparent but not transparent enough, as if she could see something, but also seemed to see nothing, hazy, unclear, I could see it It hurt like a cat scratching.

When I went back that night, I had a dream. I still remember the content of the dream clearly.

At that time, I didn't understand anything, and the dream I had was actually very simple. I just hugged her and kissed her. If there was something inappropriate for children, it would probably be that I ignored her struggle and tore her apart. The wet shirt that has tortured me all night.

From that night on, when I saw her again, my vision completely changed. No matter how innocent she smiled, all the images that should not have appeared in my mind.

I don't like myself like this, I feel dirty, dirty, and...disgusting.

During that time, I kept trying to correct myself, hoping to be normal, but the more I was like this, the more I couldn't ignore her. Instead, because of depression, I would dream about her every day and every night.

Those dreams were very complicated and chaotic, and some of them were simply being with her, face to face, without saying anything, just looking at each other.

There are, but they are unimaginable dreams. Most of them are me putting those messy things I found on the Internet on her. Whether she is willing or not, I am the master in the dream, and she can only belong to me. .

Those dreams are really... indescribable. Even if I tell you about it now, you will be shocked. You can imagine how much I hated myself after waking up from the dream.

But no matter how annoying it is, the dream will still come, and I clearly understand one thing.

I like her, really like her, no, not just like her, I love her, love her very much.

If I could be with her, really, I would do anything. "

Liu Yulin's soft voice fell for a long time, and Fang Xiang was speechless.

This is the past that Liu Yulin never mentioned.

For Liu Yulin, who was only a teenager back then, everything about sex was mysterious, even scary.

Coupled with the lack of sex education in schools and the wrong guidance of traditional social concepts, she, who was still ignorant at the time, thought that physical impulsiveness was shameful, especially as a girl who had that kind of impulsiveness, it was simply shameful. She would be scolded as a slut, a broken shoe, or even soaked in a pig cage in ancient times.

No wonder Liu Yulin fell in love with Liang Mingfei early on, but she never said anything...

The author has something to say: the past two days have been a bit stuck, I have to put it into Liu Yulin's brain circuit, and think about what she will do next...

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