Heart of Hunting

After Tan Yu ran out, the room became quiet. Yan Wenqin lay unwell, got up and walked to the bookcase in the living room.This floor-to-ceiling bookcase was originally designed by Shu Qinxue. She likes to read books, and she always clamored to install an entire wall of bookcases in the living room after she got a house. Later, she realized it, but she left.

There are more than ten floors of bookcases, and there are various books. The lowest floor contains all kinds of stage photos, including graduation photos wearing bachelor uniforms, and group photos of two people embracing each other.Just like dismantled photo albums, placed scatteredly, forming a landscape in the home.

Yan Wenqin picked up a single photo, stroked the frame with his fingertips, and brushed off the faintly visible fine dust.In the photo, Shu Qinxue already had short hair. Yan Wenqin vaguely remembered that it was the first and last photo she took after chemotherapy. After that, Shu Qinxue lost all her hair and never got up again.

"Qinxue, do you blame me for liking someone else?" Yan Wenqin gently stroked the photo, caring for it in his palm, feeling a dull pain in his heart.

"How could she blame you? She wants you to start over more than anyone else in the world." Yan Wenhui came over with hot tea, she sighed slightly, and helped Yan Wenqin to the sofa to sit down.

"I always feel sorry for her." Yan Wenqin held the teacup, and the warmth spread to his palm, and the hot water gradually steamed up and blurred her eyes.

"Sister, don't be too cruel to yourself, and don't impose moral shackles on yourself. Do you really want to spend your whole life guarding Qinxue's photo?"

Yan Wenqin put on a weak smile, and she coughed twice. Although she still felt unwell, she also knew that she was not serious, but she didn't know what happened to Ye Xiaoran. At that time, she always wanted to protect herself and buy time. She should It must be more serious than her.

She picked up the phone and checked it, but there was no message from Ye Xiaoran, nor was there a call.I really want to know how she is doing?But I opened the phone book, but I couldn't dial the number.

"Sister, you...are you in love with Ye Xiaoran?" Yan Wenhui asked suspiciously, she wasn't sure about her guess.

"Is it obvious?" Yan Wenqin smiled weakly. Her physical discomfort and her gentle smile made people feel distressed.

"You, these years, you have rejected people thousands of miles away, you have no desires, no desires, and you are almost indifferent to the world. You just looked at your phone expecting and worrying, only when you were with Qinxue, What is it if you don't like her?" Yan Wenhui understood her sister after all, she had witnessed everything Yan Wenqin experienced with her own eyes, and she couldn't hide the details from her eyes.

"At that time, I really thought I was going to die. The person who thought about it was not Qinxue, but her. I don't know... Did she hear that sentence?" She did not shy away from this topic, but was able to admit it frankly. Never be timid, you can face your heart when you find your heart.

"You are investigating her, even if her origin is unknown, maybe you don't care about many problems?"

"Miss Yan's second lady knows a lot." Yan Wenqin stood up with a smile, and glanced at the study room. Li Tao was reading quietly, knowingly not to disturb the conversation between the two sisters.

She walked to the balcony, and the sun shone through the glass and sprinkled on her face, making her feel warm and comfortable.

A soft smile appeared on the corner of her lips, "Wenhui, do you know? It doesn't matter to me how Xiao Ran is. I found out that she actually cares about her and wants to get to know her. Sometimes when she says she likes her, she doesn't want to get anything. There are many ways for two people to get along, not necessarily being together, I didn't think about what to do with her, she was married, she may not be on our road, but at that time, I just wanted to tell her my heart."

"Just like you knew that Tan Yu liked you for so many years, and never thought about the possibility of being together?"

"Wenhui, you really know a little too much." Yan Wenqin pursed his lips lightly, nodded and lowered his brows with tenderness. She always knew what Qin Yu was thinking, but between friends, the distance should be moderate, otherwise it would affect the The relationship between the two.

"I'm just learning from you, pretending not to know, and just face everything calmly. It's good to know some things in your heart, and it doesn't make any difference whether you point them out or not. It doesn't make any sense." Yan Wenhui's tone was lost, thinking of Yu Bei's feeling uncomfortable, What she said about Yan Wenqin was not meant for herself.

"It's good that you know how to advance and retreat, and use your own discretion." Yan Wenqin knew about her younger sister, but she never revealed it. She was already full of worries, always thinking about whether Ye Xiaoran had heard her confession before she fainted.

Yan Wenhui sighed deeply, took Yan Wenqin's arm, worried, "I'm fine, but you, your birthday is coming, have you had any nightmares lately? This time of year is really torture."

"I started to have nightmares at this time in previous years, but not this year. It's amazing." Yan Wenqin smiled calmly and put down the water glass. The years and the sad past did not leave any traces on her face, but made her temperament softer.

"It seems that Ye Xiaoran really saved you, I really don't know whether to be happy or worried."

"What are you worried about?"

"I'm afraid you won't get a response to this relationship, do you still remember what Qinxue said to you before she left?" Yan Wenhui knew her heart knot, but she didn't expect to open this knot, and really needed another person to come into her heart .

Since Shu Qinxue's death, only Yan Wenhui and Tan Yu knew that every year in the month of her death, Yan Wenqin would have nightmares every day, and even get sick and have a fever on the day of her death.It was like a magic barrier that couldn't be crossed. Every time she woke up, she was covered in cold sweat and there were tears in the corners of her eyes.

"Remember, how could I not remember what Qinxue said..."

There was a trace of sadness in Yan Wenqin's eyes. Compared with before, she is now more indifferent and free and easy. How long has it been since she dared not recall the scene where Shu Qinxue left five years ago.That memory was blocked by her, but now she dared to open it with a key.

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"Wen Qin, Qinxue is dying."

A man's sad and urgent voice came from the other end of the phone. After Yan Wenqin hung up the phone, he told his assistant Xiao Tang solemnly, "All cases are handed over to Judge Wu. Don't contact me if you have anything to do!" After speaking, he left in a hurry.

The car was blocked halfway, and she couldn't see the end at a glance. She got out of the car in a hurry and ran forward on foot.

Hold on, you must wait for me!There was only one sentence in her mind, it was only three kilometers, but Yan Wenqin seemed to have traveled half the world, so far.Even the scorching sun could not illuminate the haze in her heart at the moment, and nothing could suppress her panic and fear at the moment.

Panting, she rushed to the intensive care unit, where several attending physicians were already working together to rescue her. The patient's breathing was almost exhausted, and she was able to maintain that weak breath even after being put on a ventilator.

"Qinxue..." Yan Wenqin's legs trembled slightly. She couldn't tell whether it was caused by running three kilometers fast or because of fear. She wanted to rush over at the fastest speed, but her feet were as heavy as lead.

She leaned on the wall and stepped forward step by step, like an old man faltering, every step was so difficult.In the intensive care unit lay her favorite Shu Qinxue.Outside the ward, her parents were on the verge of collapse, and her younger sister Yu Bei was also crying.

Shu Qinxue is only 24, and has just been a prosecutor for a year, but she is already in the advanced stage of lymphoma. After the operation, she has been observed in the intensive care unit. Originally said her condition has improved, she was transferred to the general ward.Due to the accumulation of cases at hand, Yan Wenqin went back to deal with some urgent matters first, but unexpectedly, her condition suddenly deteriorated and she was on the verge of death.

"Sister Wenqin..." Seeing her, Yu Bei felt a little more at ease. No matter when, only her is there, which can always make people feel at ease.

"Wen Qin..." Shu Mu's eyes were red, her eyes were swollen, and her nerves were already on the verge of weakening. She washed her face with tears every day, worrying about her daughter.

"It's okay, auntie, it's okay." Yan Wenqin put his arms around her shoulders, comforting her constantly, but she herself swallowed hard, her heart seemed to be in her throat, she was about to burst out of tension, but she couldn't break down , nor can it collapse.

After half an hour of rescue, several attending physicians came out of the ward, and they could only see the ending from their desperate eyes. Yan Wenqin took a deep breath and rushed in without listening to the doctor's announcement of the result.

In the ward, Shu Qinxue was as skinny as a stick, and her hair had fallen out after several chemotherapy treatments. She had tubes inserted all over her body and a ventilator in her mouth.Her face was pale, but she was struggling with the illness, and she was also using her last strength to fight against her body.She seemed to be able to feel Yan Wenqin's approach, she was too familiar with this breath, it was the unique smell of the person she loved the most, like a telepathy, she knew that Yan Wenqin was coming.

"Qinxue~" With trembling hands, Yan Wenqin caressed her thin and fair face. The protruding cheekbones and frontal bones could no longer feel the touch that a living person should have.

But even so, in her eyes, Shu Qinxue is the most beautiful and generous girl in the world.If she loves her, she can surpass the light in this world.

Shu Qinxue clearly heard that gentle call, even though she was so weak and felt that her soul was about to leave this painful body, she still took another look at Yan Wenqin.

"Wen Qin..." She raised her fingertips slightly, and Yan Wenqin hastily raised her hand and placed it next to his face, "I'm here, I'm here." The cool palm touched her heart.

The corners of her lips twitched stiffly, trying to make others look like she was smiling. Qin Xue said that she loved seeing her smile the most. When she smiled, the whole world was bright.

Shu Qinxue wanted to speak, but the tube of the ventilator blocked her. The doctor walked in, shook his head helplessly, and signaled the nurse to remove the ventilator.The two old men were half paralyzed by the wall, and Yu Bei didn't dare to step forward. Anyone who saw Shu Qinxue's current appearance would collapse.

"Qinxue, what do you want to say, I'll listen." Yan Wenqin got up slightly and put his ear to her mouth. She was breathing weakly and wanted to say too much, but she couldn't utter a single word.Yan Wenqin could only feel the messy breathing in his ears, like the last struggle.

Suddenly Shu Qinxue's body began to twitch, the time between breaths began to lengthen, and her body became more and more out of control. The electrocardiogram machine beside her sounded an alarm.She was in great pain, she hadn't said her last words to Wenqin, she was unwilling to give up with her last breath.

"Don't...alone...alone..." Her lips trembled slightly, and her body trembled and twitched from speaking forcefully.

When Yan Wenqin heard this sentence, tears filled her eyes in an instant. She tried her best not to let the tears flow down, not wanting Shu Qinxue to see her sadness and leave uneasy.

She just nodded vigorously, just nodded, choked up and unable to speak.

"Sister..." Yu Bei burst into tears, supporting Shu's mother in grief, and looked helplessly at Shu Qinxue before she died.

Yan Wenqin, calmly endured the grief, only felt that his heart was slowly stopping, every breath was painful, and every swallow was like inserting a dagger into his throat.She pursed her lips, and Shu Qinxue held her hand with all her strength, her eyes were watery, and her pupils gradually dilated.

"You can go at ease, I will take good care of my uncles, aunts and Belle, and I will also..." Yan Wenqin said with difficulty, paused before continuing, "I will start again, and I won't be alone forever." Yan Wenqin His eyes were watery, and the blue veins in his neck were slightly exposed due to the strong grief, and his whole body felt pain.

But Shu Qinxue was still struggling, Yan Wenqin reluctantly kissed her forehead lightly, his slightly warm lips fell on Shu Qinxue's forehead, and she finally gradually calmed down.

"I will eat well, I won't have stomach problems often, I won't take too many cases, and I won't let myself be tired..." Yan Wenqin exhausted all the tenderness in the world, but failed to keep her. She only felt Shu Qinxue's hand Losing strength, pupils gradually lost anxiety, breathing stopped slowly, and the machine let out a long beep.

But Yan Wenqin still didn't stop whispering in her ear, she just stroked Shu Qinxue's face affectionately, "I will bring sugar with me to prevent myself from always having low blood sugar, I will work less overtime, and prevent myself from migraines, I will ..." While choking with sobs, she slowly put Shu Qinxue's hands beside her, and the doctor announced the time of death beside her.

She stumbled out of the ward, still muttering to herself, "I promise you, I won't be alone forever, I won't be alone forever, I won't... I won't..." Her legs gave way, and she fell into the corridor, teardrops It pours down like water, "I won't... just because I miss you... and... I won't find you for the rest of my life... I won't..."

She leaned against the corner of the wall, silent tears streaming down the corners of her eyes, scorching hot on her face, so painful.She bit her lip lightly, her nails dug into her flesh, eager to use the slightest pain to make her offset the grief in her heart, but it was useless.Yan Wenqin couldn't say a word anymore, her mind was full of Shu Qinxue's frowns and smiles, every word she said, every word was the deepest pain in her heart.

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"Wen Qin, I want to be a prosecutor after graduation, what about you? Do you want to go back and inherit the family business?"

"Well, this is indeed a problem, but what? No one can force me to do what I don't want to do. If you are a prosecutor, I will be a judge."

"Really? That's great. We are both beautiful and beautiful, with two swords combined. We will definitely punish the evil and promote the good, and make the criminals in City A fear us."

"You should walk the rivers and lakes, like a chivalrous hero, we, but we want to look up to the world and have a clear conscience."

"I just ask that I will never be separated from you, and I am content."

"You~"

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"Wenqin~ I know my health is going to die, can you promise me one thing?"

"No matter what your health is, I promise you whatever you say."

"Really?"

"real."

"You promise me that if I die, don't despair of this world, and don't close the door of your heart. If one day you meet the person who makes your heart beat again, you must be brave enough to accept it."

"How can there be someone like you who lives and confesses his will, and even pushes his lover to someone who doesn't exist, let alone ~ you are not jealous?"

"If I saw you with others in the sky, I would definitely be jealous, but I can't bear to see you spend your days alone. I would rather have such a person by my side."

"Okay, okay, Qinxue, judge Yan is the guarantor, you will be fine, and you will live a long life."

"You promise me first...Wen Qin, you promise me first, okay~"

"Okay~ promise you, promise anything~"

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The warm words are still in my ears, the light and shadow of happiness used to be so bright, but Shu Qinxue has already left, left this world forever, left her.

This is Yan Wenqin's most complete memory. In the past five years, she dared not go to the hospital because she dared not recall that scene.Shu Qinxue was too young when she left, and died of terminal illness in her prime.

Apart from sorrow, Yan Wenqin is regretful, so she unswervingly walks the path of following the law, because this is the belief she and Shu Qinxue share.

However, she no longer shed tears today, thinking of Shu Qinxue's grief, but also a little comfort, thinking that she has been blessing herself in the sky to survive the catastrophe.

Is Qinxue watching from the sky now?Watching what happened between her and Ye Xiaoran.Yan Wenqin walked to the balcony and took a deep breath, feeling relieved like never before, slowly soothing in her heart, she always likes to look up at the sky, because Shu Qinxue must be looking at her from the sky.

Sometimes facing the sky, like facing an old friend, you can talk to her, and you can also mutter to yourself. This kind of days has been with her for five years, but I don’t know when it will start, her eyes will be attracted by another person , inadvertently always think of Ye Xiaoran.

She retracted her gaze, and inadvertently glanced at a car parked outside the gate of the community. That car was very familiar, like Ye Xiaoran's special car when going out.

Is it her?

Will it be her?

Yan Wenqin picked up the phone, looked at the car in the distance, hesitated for a moment, and finally dialed it.

The author has something to say: It takes time and courage to let go of the past. Sometimes I have been relieved in a subtle way, and it is not easy to face it bravely.

Judge Yan has always been an emotional leader in the past and now, and will not shake her feelings because of any external conditions.

It doesn't matter if you doubt Ye, or if Ye doesn't accept her, it won't affect her liking.

Fortunately, a thrilling fire, narrowly escaped death, made her see herself clearly.