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Xu Yihan stayed in an hour room with yellowed walls for five hours.Among them, four hours are used for sleep, and one hour is used for writing and drawing.

At around eight o'clock in the morning, he washed his face, held a few A4 papers full of words in his hand, and dialed Deng Yuan's phone number.

The phone rang for a long time before Deng Yuan picked it up, his voice was a bit vague: "Hello?"

"Sister, it's me...Xu Yihan."

"what happened?"

When Deng Yuan asked such a question, Xu Yihan felt that there were so many things to think about, and he didn't know where to start.

"I'm in Zhengzhou." He said.

"...what are you going to do?"

"'Sinxin' is no longer available."

"..."

About half a minute passed before Deng Yuan whispered, "I know."

Xu Yihan: "Stop the live broadcast."

Deng Yuan was silent again, as time passed by, Xu Yihan waited silently.Outside the window, the sun spreads a layer of golden yellow on the dirty street, and it is another new day.

"Why?" Deng Yuan asked.

"Because I don't want to take revenge on Xu Yize."

"A man named Peter came to me yesterday. He told me a lot about your past. He said that you have been bullied in Xu's house. It's very pitiful, but this is your best chance."

Xu Yihan was taken aback: "He's looking for you?!"

"He roughly told me about your plan, which is very good," Deng Yuan said calmly, "You have prepared so much, but you gave up now, what a pity? Anyway, I also spent your money, so I should pay for it." your."

"Sister," Xu Yihan said eagerly, "I'm sorry, I was talking nonsense, I don't need you to pay back..."

"There's nothing to be sorry about."

"No, I just realized that what you did...let me do something for you too, okay? Sister, I won't take revenge on Xu Yize. I just want to do something for you now."

"doing what?"

"Sister," Xu Yihan was silent for a few seconds, and his voice became softer, "Actually, I don't know if this will work, but give me some time and let me try it, okay?"

In the end, Deng Yuan didn't say "good" or "bad", as if he didn't care much about Xu Yihan's decisions.Xu Yihan didn't ask about Cheng Xiaobai either, he hoped that one day, when Deng Yuan was willing to talk, he would tell him himself.

At 08:30, Xu Yihan drank a bowl of Hu spicy soup, drove the rented car to a certain newspaper office.

At a quarter past seven that night, he took the high-speed train to Xuchang, where he saw a chubby girl whose online name was "Little Tangyuan".Xiaotangyuan's job is an elementary school teacher. At the same time, she is also a Weibo big V with more than 30 fans. She will share some information related to Japanese animation on weekdays.

She is 31 years old, married, and has an emerald ring on her ring finger.

Xu Yihan chatted with her about Internet addiction, and she squinted her eyes with a smile, with a simple and honest look: "At that time, when I was new to computers, I fell into it all at once. In fact, thinking about it now, it's just a child's trick."

"What happened later?" Xu Yihan asked.

Xiao Tangyuan still smiled and said: "Later, I quit my addiction and went back to study, but I stayed one level, I was quite embarrassed..."

"You know that's not what I'm asking," Xu Yihan looked into her eyes, "Now you are still playing Weibo and watching anime, all of which are inseparable from the computer...Does your family agree?"

Xiao Tangyuan's expression froze, and she stopped talking, just lowered her head and turned the ring on her ring finger.

Xu Yihan didn't rush, just sat and waited for her.

After a long while, Xiao Tangyuan raised her face with a gray expression:

"Later my father died of illness, and my mother remarried to Shanxi, so I started using computers again," she looked out the window, "From the age of 17 to 25, eight years in between, I never touched a computer... Really never Pass."

Through the introduction of Xiaotangyuan, Xu Yihan successively contacted several "patients" who had been in "Zhengxin" - so many years later, due to some complicated reasons, they still kept in touch.

Among them, the oldest was 33 years old, who opened a homestay in Suzhou, and talked with Xu Yihan on the phone for more than an hour, enthusiastic and alert.The youngest, 23 years old, has just received the admission notice of Taiyuan Institute of Technology for master's degree.Their occupations are also varied, some are civil servants, some run Internet cafes, and one woman is even a psychological counselor.

Xu Yihan met or talked with them on the phone, and the communication was smooth. There were many moments when he was in a daze, thinking that if he hadn't known everything in advance, he would not have noticed that they had been abused in various ways in "Zhengxin".The one who ran a homestay was locked up in Zhengxin for five months because of Internet addiction, and suffered a broken leg; A reliable counselor, after leaving "Zhengxin", she received psychotherapy for three years.

If they don't say it, then the abuse they have suffered will eventually disappear in time, and no one will pay for it, and no one will explain it.

At noon on the fifth day Xu Yihan came to Zhengzhou, when he and Tan Ji were sitting in the Lanzhou ramen restaurant hula hula eating noodles, the mobile phone in his pocket rang.

Deng Yuan: "Where are you?"

Xu Yihan still had a mouthful of noodles stuffed in his mouth, and it was a little hot: "I'm in Zhengzhou."

"Where is Zhengzhou?" Deng Yuan said, "I'm also in Zhengzhou."

Xu Yihan put down his chopsticks: "Where are you?"

"High Speed ​​Rail Station."

Xu Yihan stood up abruptly: "Wait for me."

He didn't even have time to explain to Tan Ji, he just buckled the car key on the table: "Brother Tan, you go to see her yourself this afternoon..."

Xu Yihan rushed into the taxi on the street and said loudly: "Master, go to the high-speed rail station!"

These days he comes into contact with many strangers: "patients", gatekeepers, chefs, reporters, doctors, and even funeral home employees... For these people, he is rational and restrained, and he has to suppress it time and time again. The remorse and pain in your heart, talk to them calmly.

The phrase "Master is going to the high-speed rail station" was the only time in so many days that Xu Yihan felt refreshed, and all the depressed emotions in his heart poured out like a flood, almost crushing him.He was sitting in the taxi with his hands clasped on his knees, his heart beating faster and his arms feeling weak.He had never been so excited.

After getting out of the car to pay, Xu Yihan saw Deng Yuan as soon as he entered the gate of the high-speed railway station. Deng Yuan was guarding the gate with a bulging backpack on his back.

He tied his hair into a low ponytail. He was wearing a sky blue round neck T-shirt and black wide-leg jeans, revealing a section of fair ankle. On his feet were the pair of white canvas shoes that Xu Yihan was very familiar with.

Deng Yuan also saw Xu Yihan, and Xu Yihan walked towards him, the two looked at each other, and the distance gradually narrowed.

People were coming and going at the high-speed rail station, Xu Yihan wanted to hug Deng Yuan, but he didn't dare.He could only stand in front of him, with a dreamy expression, and called: "Sister."

Deng Yuan said, "You have lost a lot of weight."

Xu Yihan: "...Really?" He looked down at his stomach and legs, but couldn't tell.

"Are you investigating the matter of 'righteousness'?"

"Ah."

Deng Yuan nodded: "Let's go."

He didn't wait for Xu Yihan, and walked out of the door.Xu Yihan was stunned for several seconds before he suddenly recovered and quickly chased after him.

People coming and going, I can't control it anymore——Xu Yihan hugged Deng Yuan from behind, wrapped his hands around his waist tightly, and pressed his cheek against his hair.

His whole body is like a scallop, enveloping Deng Yuan.

"Sister," he said with a sore nose, "I'm sorry."

Deng Yuan let him hug him, didn't speak or move.

Xu Yihan's tears wet Deng Yuan's hair, the sky was bright, in the eyes of everyone, Xu Yihan hugged Deng Yuan sobbing, he wanted to say sister, I love you, his throat was so rough that he couldn't say it, he wanted to kiss Deng Yuan hard, knowing He didn't deserve it, he thought—he wanted to apologize, apologize again, not just for himself, but for the world.

Deng Yuan turned around with difficulty, his face was very close to Xu Yihan.

"Why are you crying?" he said.

"I..." Xu Yihan grabbed Deng Yuan's hand.

Deng Yuan sighed softly: "Don't cry, I'm here."

After walking a long distance, Xu Yihan stopped crying, but his voice was still hoarse: "Am I still your relative?" He seemed to ask a ridiculous question, blood relationship will not change.But he was afraid that Deng Yuan would answer "no". If they were not even relatives, then why would he stay by Deng Yuan's side?

"Of course." Deng Yuan replied.

Xu Yihan held Deng Yuan's hand tightly. He knew that Deng Yuan was the victim, but at this moment he couldn't help relying on Deng Yuan. This feeling was very complicated. He knew that Deng Yuan was the victim, but he was too afraid of losing Deng Yuan. , he was too afraid that he would lose even the chance to make amends and repent, just like he lost his mother.

So he was led by his injured sister and walked along the road for a long time. They were two complete strangers, a pair of siblings who depended on each other.The sun was shining, and their palms were sweaty, wet and sticky, but Xu Yihan didn't let go, and Deng Yuan let him hold them.

After an unknown amount of time, Deng Yuan took Xu Yihan and sat down on a bench with an unfamiliar street scene around him.He asked helplessly, "Are you alright? Stop crying?"

Xu Yihan's eyes were red: "Okay."

Deng Yuan looked down at their hands, meaning to let go of them when he was done.

Xu Yihan didn't move.

Deng Yuan stared down at the tip of his shoe, and said for a while, "Leave this matter alone."

Xu Yihan: "Why?"

"Because it has nothing to do with you." Deng Yuan still broke away from Xu Yihan's hand, his palm was already blushing, "Yihan, Cheng Xiaobai has been away for many years... It has been many years, and 'Zhengxin' has also closed, you can check again What can be changed about this matter? Moreover, formal media will not easily report this kind of sensitive content. Wu Yan wrote a manuscript before and couldn't publish it."

He looked at Xu Yihan with gentle eyes: "After all, this matter is over, Yihan."

Xu Yihan wiped his face, but asked: "You went home with me that night because I was your younger brother, right? We are relatives."

Deng Yuan said, "Yes."

"Being with me is also because we are relatives."

"Yes, I haven't been back to Jingzhou for a long time." Deng Yuan smiled, squinting his eyes, as if he was trying to remember, "I mentioned the sweet-scented osmanthus tree when I was cooking rice wine last time. In fact, I lied. I don't know the two trees Is the sweet-scented osmanthus tree still there? After I escaped from 'Zhengxin', I never went back home."

"Then since we are relatives, can you trust me once? Just this time, sister."

"What exactly do you want to do?"

"I can't do anything, just like you said, what happened can't be changed," Xu Yihan leaned lightly on Deng Yuan's body, resting his head on his soft shoulder, "I just want others to know... Sister, Your suffering should be known."

Deng Yuan remained silent, Xu Yihan turned his head, through a thin T-shirt, carefully kissed Deng Yuan's shoulder with his lips.

"I had previously contacted a large number of self-media, as well as the navy, which was originally used to deal with the Xu family," Xu Yihan said, "I made an agreement with them, and when I collected enough materials, they would come to expose 'Zhengxin'. "