[HP] Don't talk to me

To Professor Snape:

Professor, hi!

Would you blame me for calling you professor at this time?But the acquaintance between us started when you were a professor and I was a student.I like the way you are a professor, although I'm afraid few people would agree with me.Natasha would pinch her nose and say no, and Ellie would frown and pout in protest.Speaking of them, I haven't seen them for several years, my few female friends, we cut off contact, not because of the messy times, but because my world has only you left before I know it .

You, my first and only love.I thought about it for a long time, and finally decided that knowing that I love you is more important to me than you love me.This is real.

Whether you love someone or not, maybe you will immediately cry and say you only love me - I don't care that much anymore.I am very selfish, I only care about my own feelings, anyway, I love you, I have spent my whole life loving you, that is enough.

If you really want to struggle, I think you have to take it easy. After receiving this letter from me, in another ten years or more, your black hair will be interspersed with a few white hairs, and your back It will become slightly rickety, but those natural aging still can't hurt your inner strength.You can still hold your head high, stand in the middle of the cellar classroom, look around at your students, stare into those dark eyes of yours, and say what you have to say.You can walk fast, eat a lot, do a lot of things, go on vacation once in a while, be able to lie down and fall asleep every night, and be at peace—then, you can start to think about this question: have you ever only Love me, or ever only love Lily Evans.Or, have you ever loved both?

There's nothing to be ashamed of, just think about it, and bring me your final answer, and I'll accept it any way.I will be at my mother's grave, waiting for you to come.But it must be that day, the day you think clearly.

Before that, I don't accept any expression from you.If you want to kill yourself, you and I will just take a road leading to Merlin, and we will never meet.

You are a normal man, just like I was once a normal woman.You should get married and have kids, you need a woman to spend the night with you, a kid to annoy and laugh at.I'm not jealous, I said it, I care more about the fact that I love you.So you lived a happy and stable life, and you didn't go with him until old Demerlin came to see you in person. This is the result I most want.If you care as much as I do about you loving me, then you know what to do, right?

I write this letter intermittently, lest you see it.When I think about the day you really see it, you may collapse, and I don't want to write any more.

But there is no way.Professor, in our lifetime, the days of each other's company have run out.I know you hate it, and so do I.That is more important than life, but at the same time it must depend on life to exist.Very cruel.

I used to hate you just a little less than I loved you.But in the end, love triumphed over hate.I love you, really love you.

And I have to say goodbye to you, goodbye.

Yours, Ta Effa.