In this life, I will drink the long wind

Taking advantage of this gap, it leaked from between his lips and teeth.

Seeing people's demeanor and listening to people's voices, the curve of Yan Xu's lips became larger, but the waves in his eyes became softer.

"You should have noticed it."

Yao Lingyun was surprised, he was extra careful on this journey, and when did he get poisoned.

"When... when?"

Yan Xu's eyes fell on the aromatherapy at the side.

Seeing that Yao Lingyun's complexion was getting uglier, Yan Xu tilted his head slightly, half of his face reflected against the dim candlelight, and it became more plump and soft, he spoke very lightly, as if he was chatting with the other party. "Now, are you afraid?"

"You and I are together, if poison is placed on the aromatherapy, I am poisoned, you can't be fine, I don't think you will give me poison with an antidote."

"Master Xun is indeed Mr. Xun." Yan Xu applauded, his face became paler and paler, and he was indeed poisoned, "There is an antidote, but there is only one in the world. If you are as smart as you, you must have already guessed it, don't be afraid, I also sent someone to invite him, half an hour later than you, and he will be back soon."

Yao Lingyun was shocked when he heard the words: "What exactly do you want to do?"

"What do you think I want to do?" Yan Xu suddenly said sharply, with blood-drinking light and inexplicable emotions in his eyes, as if he wanted to tear Yao Lingyun into pieces.

Although his thoughts were surging, his thinking was unprecedentedly clear. Yao Lingyun's eyes widened in disbelief.

"You are crazy!"

"Why should I be trapped in this world, and you have nothing to do, in the outside world, loving each other, sitting on the world? Then forget my existence? Yao Lingyun, tell me, why!"

Yan Xu looked at the person in front of him coldly, and suddenly smiled, wantonly, ironically, and his thin lips were deeply raised.

"I can't make it easier for you, I can't make him forget me."

When Yao Lingyun saw this, a cold air suddenly spread from the soles of his feet, wrapping around his body like vines.

"He will not."

"For you, of course not, he will think of me, at a certain moment, at a certain moment, he will remember that he has a younger brother like me, then he will be sad, he will miss, and then? No more, from now on I will just Is an insignificant person in his memory, how is this different from forgetting?"

The breathing was shallow and disordered, and the more and more agitated mood led to a weaker and weaker voice, but there was a firmness in it, Yan Xu looked deeply into Yao Lingyun's eyes, with a certain unbearable feeling. verbal belief.

"So what if you face each other day and night, and live and die together. I will let myself take root in his memory, and become the person he will never forget. I dream back at midnight, and I often recall it. I can't ignore it. I want him to bear my death forever. The pain, I want him to remember it firmly, integrate it into the bone marrow, and never forget it for the rest of his life. I want him to remember me, I want him to remember me for the rest of his life, and I want you to care about it for the rest of his life. I will eventually become a thorn lying on you In the middle of the relationship, it cannot be removed."

☆, end

silence.

The candles were flickering, reflecting Yan Xu's gloomy face, but he was still smiling.

If people have greed, they will have the seven sufferings. If they cannot get what they want, they will eventually become a demon rooted in their hearts.

Yao Lingyun was silent, and sighed for a long time: "Why are you doing this?"

"Don't you understand? Of course you don't understand that you have everything. This is the thinking of a revenger, who will not hesitate to destroy everything. Since I can't get it, then you don't want to be safe either." Indescribable excitement and Enthusiastically, Yan Xu looked at Yao Lingyun with a determined face, "Or do you choose to die to save me?"

"You...you are really a lunatic, an obsessed, obsessed, obsessed lunatic."

"So I'm crazy?" Yan Xu repeated with a sneer, his eyes unconsciously showed a trace of misery, but he quickly suppressed it, and what he reflected was determination, as firm as a rock, as sharp as a blade, That was the look that even Yao Lingyun could not help but tremble, "People live to solve problems, but now I am useless as you said, since living can no longer solve problems, then use death to solve problems , It’s meaningless to be imprisoned like this, since the elder brother can’t do it, then I will help him myself.”

"You are forcing him!"

Yan Xu smiled calmly: "That's right, I'm just forcing him."

"You humiliate yourself like this, have you thought about your mother and your empress?"

In an instant, the smile disappeared from Yan Xu's pale and ashen cheeks, and his downcast complexion was especially frightening to watch in the night.

The breeze surrounds the pavilion, and the surrounding fields are quiet.

After a long time, Yan Xu raised his eyes and said: "If you can't live happily, what's the point of living? Why don't you take off this skin and realize the dream that you can't dream of all your life."

After a pause, Yan Xu suddenly turned around and looked beyond the gauze curtain. He smiled again, his eyes, which were originally as calm as a dry well, became a little brighter, moved his lips slightly, and called out for the first time in his life. The name of the person outside the curtain.

"You can't have both, Yan Chen, this is all the things in the world, how can everything go according to your wishes, if you take all the benefits in the world, it would be too unfair. "

Outside, Yan Chen had already arrived, and Yan Xu looked at him steadily through the gauze curtain.

Yan Xu has been thinking about this plan ever since he made up his mind.

Since when did he become such a twisted and cruel monster?Are those days of being unrestrained and unrestrained, riding horses and singing happily, really gone forever?

"We are all poisoned, but the only antidote is the one I gave you. Using wine as medicine, you can detoxify within a moment, you see." While speaking, Yan Xu pointed at the table, "I don't even have wine. Warm them all up for you, just this cup, choose, choose one to save, brother Chen."

After a pause, Yan Xu tilted his head, and laughed heart-wrenchingly, making people want to cover their ears with pain: "I know the person you want to save is him."

In May and June, even at night after the heavy rain, the air will inevitably be infected with that kind of heat again. The heat has suppressed the water vapor and rises quietly.

Before leaving the palace, Concubine Ning Guifei came to look for her in person, with every word she asked, she only asked her to spare the life of her fourth brother, and she also persuaded her with kind words, promising with her own mouth that she would not take his life.

The words are still in my ears, but they are gone in a blink of an eye. Why did I get lost again and again in exchange for my retreat? Yan Chen was extremely angry and speechless.

Inside and outside the pavilion, there was no sound for a while.

The moonlight is like silk, flowing lightly.

After a while, Yan Chen started to enter the pavilion, he walked firmly, walked into the pavilion with a stern expression, stared at Yan Xu, his eyes were silent, in stark contrast to Yan Xu who was eager to see through.

With just one glance, just one glance, Yan Chen turned his head away.

Yan Xu blinked, and said hurtfully, "Brother, why don't you look at me?"

"Once a person starts to hate, he will lose himself. I can't bear to see you like this."

The voice is as gentle as jade, and the brows and eyes are resolute, but even so, Yan Xu can still feel the unrest in Yan Chen's heart.

"Oh, then there's no need to say more. You choose. This is a war against time. You don't have much time to think about it, otherwise you won't be able to save even one of them."

Yan Chen pursed his lips, and suddenly there was an indescribable pain in his heart, he said sadly: "Axu, how did you become like this?"

"It's you who made me become like this." The ups and downs in Yan Chen's words, Yan Xu heard it very well, and the curvature of his lips became wider. He was originally a handsome and charming young man. His face was extremely indifferent, and there was even an indescribable ferocity in his dark eyes. He stared at Yan Chen firmly, and he attributed all his faults to him.

Feel guilty, blame yourself, suffer, so that when I am not around, you will miss me involuntarily.

Yan Xu quietly looked at Yan Chen, waiting for his reaction, as if he didn't notice that his hands were trembling under his clothes.

After a long time, Yan Chen's expression finally changed as Yan Xu wished, but it was not the expression Yan Xu wanted to see. Yan Chen looked at him with calm eyes, piercing through all the secular identities, passing through all Parting and reuniting, joys and sorrows, I saw Yan Xu himself.

Under such gazes, Yan Xu's heart that had been frozen for a long time unexpectedly flashed a burst of desperation with flowers splashing tears and birds frightened.

"Brother, why don't you love me?"

Yan Chen couldn't help but close his eyes when he heard the words, this young man, for him, his hands were stained with blood, and he shouldered the burden of killing, he was supposed to be a smooth and easy-going young man, but in the end he ran counter to what his heart wanted.

Repeatedly breaking the precept of killing and accumulating karma, who is at fault?

Sorrow and resentment are intertwined, and no love creates disaster.

Fragments of moonlight spilled through the gauze curtain, and along with the noise of cicadas began to emit heat.

Suddenly Yan Xu leaned over and coughed violently, and it took a long time for him to recover.Yan Xu twitched the corners of his mouth mockingly, propped up his upper body with some difficulty, raised his face, his long hair was disheveled, his brows were tightly frowned, his eyes were slightly absent-minded due to the severe pain, and cold sweat dripped down his slender neck, deep into the Inside the collar, a mouthful of black blood spewed out.

Yan Chen subconsciously turned his head, and Yao Lingyun who was sitting opposite did the same.

"A Xun." Yan Chen stepped forward quickly, supporting Yao Lingyun.

Ha, although he already knew that he was not as important as Yao Lingyun in his heart, but seeing such a scene for the first time, Yan Xu still couldn't help but feel sad.

"Brother, it will be too late if you don't do anything." In a word, Yan Xu's words were dry, like a tree that has lost its leaves in winter, desolate and mournful, and even the words in a hoarse voice are somewhat difficult to decipher.

Yan Chen took out the antidote in his bosom and put it into the wine.

At this moment, Yao Lingyun suddenly raised his hand and grabbed Yan Chen's right hand, which was about to pick up the wine glass on the table.

The Yan Shi brothers all turned their heads and looked at him in amazement.

In fact, even Yao Lingyun himself was shocked the moment he raised his hand.

He didn't speak just now, not because of anything else, just because he was struggling, he was thinking, he was wandering back and forth between life and death.

He is the person who cherishes life the most. In his view, life and death are nothing important in a person's life. As long as he is alive, there is hope.But at this moment he panicked, he seemed to be able to see that after today, under Yan Xu's calculations, he and Yan Chen stepped into the abyss of despair step by step.

He was afraid.

Do you have regrets for the rest of your life, or do you want to risk everything to gamble on this game?

He was at a loss. When Yan Chen and Yan Xu were talking, Yao Lingyun thought a lot, but he didn't seem to think about anything.The pain of suffocation in his chest was as clear as thunder, causing him to grab Yan Chen's hand with increasing strength. He was still struggling, and finally Yao Lingyun let go of his hand slowly, and raised his eyes to look directly at Yan Chen. Chen, and shook his head heavily at him.

He didn't want to die, he didn't want to die like this.

But even more he didn't want Yan Xu to succeed, he didn't want any rift between them.

If Yan Xu died today, even if he told Yan Chen in the future that all of this was Yan Xu's plan, but people's hearts and benevolence are always unwilling to inflict malice on others, especially those who were buried by him. He just left himself struggling in pain.

They promised to be together for the rest of their lives, but if they have to bear such life and death in this life, how can they be together in the future?

Even if Yan Xu died, he should have been interrogated by the three divisions, and the final verdict was that he shouldn't have died like this!He intends to make this situation unsolvable, but he will never do what he wants, even if the final price...is to lose his life.

No matter how sensible, a young man who is deeply in love is still an unreasonable young man, Yao Lingyun laughed to himself.

The silence in the wind caused Yan Xu's heart to feel inexplicable panic.

Yao Lingyun wants to spoil my big business again?

"Big brother..."

After Yan Xu finished speaking, he was interrupted by Yao Lingyun: "Give it to him, take me to find Xingfeng!"

Yan Xu sneered: "This is the secret poison used by the Murong royal family to deal with the concubines in the harem. No one in the world can decipher it, not even Qi Yufeng."

"Ah Chen." Yao Lingyun also raised his other hand, and firmly grasped Yan Chen's other hand.

Yan Chen held it tightly with his backhand.

"The king of hell will definitely die within six hours after being poisoned. Qi Yufeng, even with his superb medical skills, cannot develop the antidote in such a short period of time. Brother, you don't need to waste your efforts." Yan Xu looked at their clasped hands, slender Yes, fair, flexible, they stirred the sticky heart in his chest back and forth, "Actually, you don't have to hesitate at all, big brother, don't worry about mother and uncle, I am the son of a traitor, not your younger brother, and I still want to kill you, you keep me, just to leave a factor of instability, I am a person who is not easy to be satisfied, so there is no need to hesitate, brother Chen."

Yan Xu said in a low voice, yes, you have no reason to give up Yao Xun for me.

Thinking of this, Yan Xu's heart felt sad, but a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, he was going to die in front of him eventually, he wanted him to watch clearly, and he wanted him to remember with heart-wrenching heart for the rest of his life, It was he who killed him.

"Ah Chen, I'd rather our fate end here than for you and me to have a rift for the rest of our lives. A disharmony between the ruler and his ministers is a taboo in governing the world."

Yan Chen fixedly stared at Yao Lingyun, and Yao Lingyun did the same, and the eyes of the two competed in the air.

"it is good."

I don't know how long it took before Yan Chen heard his own voice, it was deep and hoarse, but it was calmer than imagined, as calm as a sea of ​​silence.

No one knows how he tidied up his mind during that brief moment just now, and how he restrained those complicated personal feelings.

A glass of wine and a glass of antidote were put in front of Yan Xu by Yan Chen.

Yan Chen said: "From now on, you and I will have nothing to do with each other."

After finishing speaking, Yan Chen ignored Yan Xu, hugged Yao Lingyun and lifted the gauze curtain, and left without looking back.

The gauze curtain floated up, the wind poured in, the residual candle on the table flickered, and then went out, and then the boundless darkness swept in, wrapping Yan Xu layer by layer, but this darkness was also icy cold, without a trace of warmth .

When Yan Chen spoke, he didn't even look at Yan Xu again.

Yan Xu sat in the dark, looking at the distant figure under the moonlight through the tulle, never turning his head to look at himself, his body getting weaker and weaker, his eyes getting more and more stinging, in the extreme eyes, only The only remaining coldness left in my heart.

He clearly heard the sound of his heart falling to the ground and being smashed into pieces.

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha."

Yan Xu suddenly burst out laughing,

How can he not smile?Seeing that he was about to die, but suddenly had the only chance to live, how could he not laugh?

Amidst the burst of laughter, Yan Xu swept away suddenly, and he swept the antidote on the table to the ground, and disappeared without a trace in an instant.

Yan Xu understands that from now on, to him, he is just a sigh under a lamp, a pot of tea to talk about, and an insignificant stranger.

Yan Xu raised his steps and was about to walk out when he felt a sharp chill rushing into his chest from between his fingers, his internal organs seemed to have been soaked in an ice cellar, and he disappeared in an instant.

☆, end

Outside the Fourth Prince's Mansion, a figure galloped towards the palace, and disappeared under the moonlight in an instant.

After that, it was Yan Chen who walked out quickly. He was holding Yao Lingyun and was about to get into the carriage, but was blocked by a person.

The person who walked out slowly from the darkness was Murong Huai.

Seeing someone blocking the way, the Xuan Ying in the dark appeared one after another to be on guard.

"Looking for the son."

Murong Huai called out indifferently, the gentle voice resounded like a tide, permeating the night in the street.

Yao Lingyun looked sideways, and saw that the person only yelled, and then stopped talking. He couldn't help but frowned, showing a slightly puzzled expression.

There was a distance of several feet between the two, and there was a guarded Xuanying guard between them, so Murong Huai couldn't see the look on Yao Lingyun's face. Before anyone could speak, Murong Huai blinked and said: "I appeared at the So, aren't you curious?"

No, Yao Lingyun was amazed, but he was powerless to express it, the poison penetrated into his lungs, and the pain made him feel like he was rolling through the oil pan of the [-]th hell, like ten thousand swords piercing through his body.

He is in so much pain.

At the same time as the severe pain, Yao Lingyun suddenly coughed again. The sound of coughing was urgent and heavy. Every cough seemed to exhaust all his energy. Nowhere is burning.

Yan Chen frowned when he heard it, he didn't want to stay here for a moment, and said sharply: "Take it."

After finishing speaking, he didn't want to stay any longer, so he was about to walk into the carriage with Yao Lingyun in his arms.

Xuanying got the order, but before he could do it, Murong Huai said: "It was developed by the Murong royal family a hundred years ago, to punish the disloyal. I am the orthodox orphan of the Murong royal family. His Highness the Crown Prince is sure to treat me. Do it."

In a word, Yan Chen was blocked from stepping forward, Yan Chen turned around, narrowed his eyes slightly, and ordered: "Catch him alive, don't hurt his life."

Ha, Murong Huai raised his eyebrows, looked at Yan Chen, and said again: "I have the antidote."

While speaking, Murong Huai slowly took out a brocade box from his bosom and opened it, inside was a white, almost transparent pill.

"The pill in His Highness's hand is not the real antidote."

Hearing the words and seeing this, Yan Chen suddenly stepped forward a few steps, a crack appeared on his face that had been pretending to be calm all night.

Murong Huai stared intently, seeing his haste and being caught off guard in this instant, and said slowly in his heart, it turns out that even if he has the world in his hands, he is not without weaknesses.

After the initial excitement, Yan Chen calmed down. The appearance of the person in front of him was too coincidental and too cooperative, which made Yan Chen feel abnormally vigilant.

"Why?"

But even so, Yan Chen's heart was still anxious, and a string was tightened in his heart, and it was inevitable that people would show some signs of anxiety.

"Because I'm of the same species as him, when he sent someone to ask me for the third watch of Hades, I knew what he wanted to do."

When Murong Huai was speaking, there was a sudden wind blowing around him, and the night wind that blew up hit him like a shower, and the fallen leaves rustled and wailed.

"I thought you wouldn't pay attention to him. I kept this antidote to save him." After a slight pause, Murong Huai smiled lightly, his eyes intertwined with light and dark, "I don't think it's now Such a result."

Feeling the trembling body of Yao Lingyun in his arms, Yan Chen thought for a while, carefully put Yao Lingyun on the carriage and sat down, rubbed his hair, closed his eyes tiredly for a while, and then turned around At that time, he had recovered his silence, and said directly: "Tell me your conditions."

The green leaves along the road move with the wind and rustle.

Murong Huai, who had been silent for a long time, spoke slowly amid such voices: "Young Master Xun, do you still remember the meeting between you and me in Nanping that day?"

Yao Lingyun raised his bloodless face and nodded.

Murong Huai sighed, and said again: "I don't know why, tonight, I have been thinking about those words you said to me that day."

Murong Huai's voice was very flat, without any ups and downs, but there was a deep and empty feeling of exhaustion in it.

Yao Lingyun was astonished, and asked aloud: "Then, what is Mr. Murong's opinion now?"

The low and hoarse voice indicated the current weakness of the master.

"A wise man thinks, a benevolent loves benevolence, maybe you are right." When Murong Huai talked about the past, a trace of loneliness flashed in his eyes, but there was still that indifferent but never indifferent smile on his face. "A soft heart is not necessarily a bad thing. The reason why the principles of this world are so precious is that some people insist on them at all costs, even if that persistence is ridiculous in the eyes of others."

"In just two years, Mr. Murong has changed so much, I don't know whether to be gratified or emotional."

"Perhaps I have experienced enough."

Murong Huai's voice was not loud when he said this, but in this silent night, it was as clear as words falling to the ground, clearly audible.

The doubts in Yao Lingyun's heart deepened. This was the same as the fierce and unrestrained Murong Huai Pairuo he saw in Nanping that day.

He will appear here at this time, obviously coming to escort Yan Xu.

With no relatives and no reason, why should one person imagine this for another person? Could it be...

While hesitating in his heart, Yao Lingyun asked suspiciously, "You...?"

"Yes, it's what you think, I like him."

What Murong Huai said was frank, but Yao Lingyun didn't know how to respond, and was speechless for a while.

Yan Chen was also startled when he heard this, he couldn't help but look up, this was the first time he looked at Murong Huai carefully tonight.

"But in his heart, there is only him, and there is no room for others." While speaking, Murong Huai turned his eyes to look at Yan Chen, met his eyes for a while, and then turned back.

One sigh, one lifetime sigh.

Emotional matters are the most frustrating.

For a moment, the surroundings fell into a strange solemnity.

After a long time, Murong Huai didn't care much, and continued: "In everyone's life, there will be a period of turmoil and chaos. The difference is probably that some people settle down quickly and start a new chapter of life. , and some people can't get rid of this kind of mental torture for the rest of their lives, what kind of person does the young master think he is?"

"Master Murong himself knows this answer, so why ask me?"

The interrogative sentence is an indisputable statement tone, as cold as a cold knife, sealing the throat with blood.

"Yes, I know."

"What does the young man want?"

"But I'm not one to give up easily."

"But in matters of relationship, it's not that if you don't give up, there will be results. Even if there are results, it may not be the one you want."

It had just rained earlier, but now, the crescent moon is shining brightly, the stagnant water is bright, and the eyes are full of deep green.

After being silent for a long time, Murong Huai smiled, genuinely, that smile, like a belated guest, finally stuck on his face: "But I want to gamble."

For people like them, standing on the edge of the cliff for so long, it will be a matter of time before they fall, the difference is only how and when they jump off, but to Murong Huai, these are not important.

Murong Huai handed out the pill in his hand.

"This antidote is to thank you for your teaching that day."

Murong Huai stretched out his hand, but no one came to pick him up. He couldn't help but smiled again, and said again: "Don't worry, he won't die. Although there is only one antidote, the poison of the third watch of Hades is not unsolvable. As long as I am still alive He won't die, it's just that he won't have an easy life in the future."

Yan Chen's eyes moved slightly, but he didn't express it, he just looked at it and said, "Why is this so, Your Excellency?"

Seeing his expression, Murong Huai laughed: "There are always some people in this world who deserve to be different. Maybe it's true as Mr. Xun said. A man of benevolence and righteousness will be cherished by heaven. As for whether the antidote is true or not, you might as well let Qi Yufeng Recognition, six hours, still too late."

Yan Chen and Yao Lingyun looked at each other and gestured to Xuanying.

Xuanying stepped forward to take the brocade box.

Murong Huai silently stepped out of the way.

The carriage passed slowly.

The rolling wheels crushed the dead leaves on the ground, but they couldn't crush the loneliness between heaven and earth.

"The pulse is gradually stabilizing, it's all right."

Qi Yufeng, who hurried over from the Imperial Hospital, finally withdrew his hand on Yao Lingyun's pulse after half a night of busy work, and spoke truthfully.

"Take good care of him for a few days, and he will be a alive and kicking Yao Lingyun again."

Yan Chen watched Yao Xun silently and didn't answer.

Seeing this, Qi Yufeng sighed lightly, got up and walked out of the room, and closed the door for the two people in the room.

At this time, the moon is sinking to the west, and the dawn will come out.

A brand new day is coming.

In the room, Yan Chen sat down beside the bed, and raised his hand to caress the hair beside Yao Xun's ear.

There was a look of weariness on his face that no one had ever seen before.

The sun in the east has just risen, and the temperatureless orange warm light can actually dispel a little bit of the bone-chilling cold throughout the night.

After a while, or a long time passed, Yao Lingyun slowly opened his eyes and woke up from his lethargy.

Yan Chen's face came into view.

Yan Chen asked: "You're awake."

Yao Lingyun nodded slowly.

"Does it hurt?"

"I had a dream, a very, very long dream." Yao Lingyun's voice was a little hoarse, and the corners of his opened and closed eyes were filled with tears, "In the dream, I went to the Gate of Ghosts and stepped on the Naihe Bridge."

"Why did you turn back?"

"There's no you there. I heard you calling me. As soon as I turned my head, I woke up and saw you."

Yan Chen laughed: "Just wake up, are you hungry?"

"A little bit, but I don't want to eat it, Chen, you can stay with me, okay?"

"Okay, I will always be with you."

"Ah."

at the same time.

South City Gate.

A carriage drove out of the city gate at dawn.

☆, postscript

Finally finished writing, this is my 10-year brain hole, which has been stranded, and I never thought that there would be a day when it would be finished.

Although not many people have seen it, but at least I have completed the self-challenge, come on!

In fact, it is not easy to write this article. I locked the article several times, wanted to abandon the pit several times, and even gave up in the middle. I ran to open a sand sculpture article. I had a lot of twists and turns, but finally finished writing.

When I started writing, I was full of expectations and ambitions. I felt that I was creating a big work. After writing, the more I wrote, the more embarrassing it became. Looking back, it’s nothing o(╥﹏╥)o. Readers commented and cheered in various ways, and in the end it was deserted and desolate. I was happy for several days after I had a favorite. I saw a comment and felt that the other party was an angel.

If I don't say too much, I will cry.