Cold violence

The biological clock that Zhou Yu had insisted on for so many years had a rare failure, and it was already past noon when he woke up.

Not waking up naturally, but waking up with a start.

He has slept for so long, but he has not been made clean. He has been ups and downs in his dreams for several times, until now he suddenly woke up.

He took a few breaths, feeling that everything in that dream was still in front of his eyes, and now he had finally escaped from the dream, and his tense nerves finally relaxed with this realization.

He turned to look out the window.

The temperature suddenly dropped today, and there seemed to be warm sunshine at noon yesterday. Today, the strong wind can already blow in along the screen window, and the heavy curtains are rattling.

He Chu insisted on changing the curtains for him back then. At that time, he was afraid that it would be too bright outside at night and Zhou Yu would not be able to sleep well.

What a perfect lover they sounded, everything was thought out for Zhou Yu.

The weather also seems to understand people, parting hands, even the sky is cold, as if deliberately came to make him unhappy.

He sat up in a daze, looking at the curtains fluttering in the wind.

He almost forgot what he did last night.

When people's emotions break down, it is easy to selectively forget some things they have done.

Zhou Yu felt that the corners of his eyes were a bit dry, so he stretched out his hands to rub them, and suddenly remembered that he probably cried yesterday.

why are you crying...

That's right, it was because he broke up with He Chu, and when he returned home, He Chu actually left two lamps for him.He looked at the head of the bed, where the small lamp was emitting a faint light.

He inexplicably felt a little irritable, he didn't know if it was because he thought of He Chu, or the dream that woke him up from his sleep, so he turned around and raised his hand to turn off the light.

Zhou Yu got up to close the window, and took a look at the deserted street.

The ground had already been cleaned, but the way the strong wind rolled down the sparse dead leaves and swirled in the air made him feel even more desolate for no reason.

The wind blew in, and Zhou Yu shivered suddenly.

He suddenly realized very strongly that it was already autumn.

I didn't feel it before, but now even the cold is so deep.

He was used to being alone by his side before, but now that no one is there, not only is the room empty, but his heart is also empty, even a gust of wind scares him.

He slowly closed the window, went to the living room to retrieve the mobile phone he had forgotten on the sofa, and then lay back on the bed.

He closed the door when he came in, and now the whole room was airtight, blocking the only place where light could pass through, and the room was plunged into darkness. Zhou Yu shrank himself under the quilt, staring blankly. up to the ceiling.

The light was firmly blocked by the curtains, like a devoured monster, blocking all hope from the outside.

Even when he just woke up, he still felt that his quilt was not warm, and the soles of his feet had already started to feel cool, and the temperature of his whole feet had cooled down.

He thought of the dream he had just had.

It is said that he can't remember all the dreams he had, but Zhou Yu remembered every detail, and he didn't know if it was because of He Chu in the dream, he almost couldn't tell the difference between dream and reality.

Zhou Yu had only had one nightmare since he was a child, the dream that he struggled fiercely in the darkness, but was pulled into a deeper darkness.

But this dream is different.

The dream was still dark. Zhou Yu was walking on the single-plank bridge in the middle, and there was a fog in front of him. He should only be able to see the road under his feet clearly.

But there were dimly lit candles on both sides of the narrow single-plank bridge, and the flames were so small that they could barely shine into Zhou Yu's eyes.

So he walked forward along the candle, aimlessly, until he bumped into the person in front of him - that was He Chu.

Zhou Yu saw He Chu's face clearly almost instantly. He was smiling faintly, but he didn't look at Zhou Yu, he just stared at the small candle in his hand.

Zhou Yu reached out to touch him, but he turned around and walked forward without looking back.

"He Chu... He Chu!" Zhou Yu didn't care so much, and called him from behind, but He Chu kept walking, as if he was walking on flat ground on the single-plank bridge.

Zhou Yu had no choice but to follow He Chu cautiously, trying to maintain the balance.

After walking for an unknown amount of time in the mist, He Chu suddenly stopped and looked at him with a smile on his face.

"You have been following me for so long, are you following me, or are you following the light in my hand?"

Zhou Yu was taken aback for a moment, just as he was about to speak, He Chu continued, "Follow it."

"No, I'm following..."

"Then go and chase it." He Chu smiled, Zhou Yuzheng was puzzled, and saw He Chu casually throwing the candle in his hand into the boundless mist around him.

"I'm here..." Zhou Yu wanted to speak, but was interrupted by Gu Sui.

"Go, go chase, go chase your light!" He Chu suddenly became sharp, and his tone was extremely sharp.

no!I came after you!

"Go!" He Chu suddenly pushed Zhou Yu, and Zhou Yu was caught off guard and fell to the side. In the confusion, he grabbed the direction where He Chu was standing, and the tentacles were extremely hard—it turned out that He Chu had already landed. .

In the end, he stood in that position of watching the fire from the other side, watching Zhou Yu walk forward cautiously by himself.

It turned out that He Chu could always see the road ahead clearly, that's why he was walking on level ground, and that's why he stood motionless at the end of the single-plank bridge, because he was safe, and he didn't have to worry about falling down.

But what about me?Zhou Yu wanted to ask, I came after you, He Chu... How could you let me go?

"Why don't you chase after it? There are so many lights along the way that you don't even bother to look at it if you catch it. Why do you just chase after the one in my hand?! Why don't you chase after me?"

Zhou Yu wanted to say no, I wanted to say, I came after you, you are my light.

But He Chu went on to say: "You have so many opportunities and you don't seize them, why do you want to cross this single-plank bridge with me?"

Zhou Yu was stunned.

Obviously it was you who led me forward, and I looked at your back along the way, but now you tell me that you are not my hope?You are just walking forward alone, in fact, it doesn't matter if there is me or not, doesn't it?

"It was you who gave up so many opportunities, and now you have to take this last one if you don't want it!"

After finishing speaking, he knelt down and looked at Zhou Yu who was struggling to support him, and stretched out his hand to break away Zhou Yu's fingers pinching the broken wall, with an almost ferocious expression.

Zhou Yu only felt a sharp pain in his heart.

Why, you led me to go forward, I chased you all the way until now, but you don't want me anymore?Want me to chase after that so-called... light?

Is it because you no longer need that little candle because you already know you are safe?

His five fingers were picked up one by one by He Chu, and Zhou Yu knew that he was about to fall.

But the moment he fell, he suddenly saw He Chu's mouth shape in the mist.

He Chu smiled distortedly at him, and said slowly, "Let's fall, Zhou Yu."

fall...

Zhou Yu knew that his body was constantly falling, but he didn't have time to feel the end of the dream - because he woke up from the dream.

This was one of the few other nightmares that Zhou Yu had had over the years, but it made him break out in a cold sweat.

This dream is so real.

The words were still ringing in his ears, the expression that did not belong to He Chu appeared on He Chu's face very fittingly at that time, he silently said to himself word by word: "Let's fall, Zhou Yu."

Like the most poisonous curse in the world.

Corrupt?How else can I fall?Where else can I fall?

Zhou Yu laughed silently in the dark.

The faces of those people in the school came to him one by one.

Li Qi's brilliant smile, Fang Xian's simple and honest smile, He Chu's gentle smile... all turned into the ugly faces of Shen Changjian and his gang. They laughed at him loudly and kept saying:

"Fake aloofness, fake prudence..."

"Copying is copying, what to pretend..."

"Oh, dare to contradict the teacher, good students are different..."

"Ha, what a good student, copied, cheated!"

"How funny, hypocritical!"

In the end, the words became: "Admit it, you are a morally corrupt student, go down... because we don't need you at all..."

Yeah, they don't need me because I can't do anything.

I pretend to be high-spirited and prudish, and in their eyes my grades can be obtained without any effort, because I copied them... In their eyes, my resistance is maliciously contradicting the teacher, because I am a hypocritical student... So in their view I was the one who was supposed to be isolated because I had no friends, I was nothing.

Isn't that depravity?Who wouldn't?

go to school?Then what to learn.

"Last fart." Zhou Yu suddenly sneered, and the person who never sweared before did not find it awkward to say it now, as if the word "degenerate" had been formed in his mind, the idea had already been in his mind It's ingrained in the same way.

He has been quick at everything since elementary school, just like how he quickly learned the way of communication between lovers not long after being together with He Chu.

The same goes for the fall.

So the standard of self-regulation that has been adhered to for so long since childhood, in fact, the collapse is only a momentary thing.

Zhou Yu stared at the dark and confined space, his heart was blank.

It's just that he suddenly felt a little regretful, which made him suddenly want to drink very strongly.

To drink the strongest wine, he felt happy only when the strong wine made his internal organs burn.

He turned over, wrapped himself in the quilt, then took out his cell phone and dialed his mother's number.

Isn't that depravity?Then let it fall to the bottom, and give everyone a good time.

After waiting for many years, whenever Zhou Yu thinks about this period of time, he will feel crazy.

This time the call was quickly picked up by a woman.

Zhou Yu listened to the slightly mixed electric sound on the phone, and knew that the woman was waiting for him to speak, but he chose not to speak this time.

Perhaps it was because she hadn't waited for a long time to speak here, the woman finally got a little impatient.

"What's your business? I don't have a lot of time to waste with you."

A woman's indifferent voice came out, Zhou Yu also heard the sound of paper flipping, presumably the woman was reading documents in the company.

"I want you to ask me to take a leave of absence from school." Zhou Yu stuck the phone to his ear and put his hands under the quilt.

The weather was very cold, and he was inexplicably lazy today. He put his hands on his body, and the coolness slowly traveled through his limbs, making him shiver slowly.

A person who is used to being serious on weekdays, his behavior and behavior reveal his good upbringing at a glance, so he wants to indulge in this way today.

Usually when Zhou Yu called her, he always sat upright as if he was on call at any time, but today he just didn't want to sit still, and he didn't even want to reach out for the phone.

"You can settle this matter yourself."

"It's a bit long." He interrupted quickly and explained what he meant: "I won't bother you with things that can be solved by myself."

"..." The woman pondered for a while, then asked, "How long do you want to stay?"

"One month."

"One month? You don't want to go to school anymore, do you?"

The woman's voice on the other side was a little displeased, Zhou Yu seemed to be able to imagine that the two eyebrows on that beautiful face were deeply knit together.

Zhou Yu has gotten used to it when women rarely talk to him in a pleasant manner.

Since he was a child, he had been observing words and expressions, and when a woman raised her eyebrows sometimes, Zhou Yu could feel if her mood had changed.

"Get out if you don't want to go to school..."

"I will go back for the midterm exam. I was still the first in grade last month, so don't worry."

He interrupted in a hurry, speaking a little weakly, sounding like he was sick, and seemed a little convincing.

The woman was silent for a while and finally let go: "Yes, just this once. I will send someone to send the leave note to your school in the afternoon."

Zhou Yu laughed again.

Sure enough, as long as it doesn't affect his studies and doesn't let his money go to waste, women don't care whether he asks for leave or not.

After she finished speaking, she was silent for a while, as if she felt that she had nothing to say. Zhou Yu heard her taking a deep breath, as if she was about to hang up the phone, and suddenly said:

"we broke up."

When he said this, his tone was flat, exactly the same as when he said this to Li Qi.

He suddenly remembered the only time a woman called him that day: "Are you with a man?"

What did he say at that time?He seems to be so plain, he said:

"Yes, with a boy."

In the words, he corrected the woman's wording.

It is a "boy", not a casual "man".

At that time, what he said was extremely candid, just stating his opinions as if he had already announced the facts to the world.

What he thought at that time was actually the same, since they won't break up, it's okay to tell her.

So the woman asked him sarcastically how long he could be with his so-called boyfriend, and he seemed to have sworn something?

Oh, what he's saying is: as long as he wants.

Facts have proved that the woman's ridicule is actually well-founded-because it didn't take long for that person to "don't think about it anymore".

"Now I'm not the disgusting existence you said, am I?"

He said, chuckled twice, and said with self-mockery: "Probably, I am in your eyes, but I am not even as good as the dog you have raised for more than ten years."

"What are you crazy about?"

The woman's voice was extremely impatient, and she seemed to have dropped the document on the other end of the phone.

She is always like this, she will become impatient when she encounters anything related to Zhou Yu, and will easily abandon her cultivation of being a lady, her tone of hatred seems to be seen through Zhou Yu's voice Her man who delayed her youth for half of her life.

"Crazy? I'm not."

Zhou Yu's tone was cheerful, and he couldn't hear his depression last night at all.

He seldom shows such a side, and he wants to cover up the exhaustion in his heart with his cheerfulness.

Then he said casually: "I'm just short of money recently."

In this world, without feelings, what is more joyful than spending money?

The sense of reality that fills the emptiness brought about by unlimited consumption, what else can be achieved except evil money?

He remembered Shen Changjian's words mocking him at that time: Don't you want to play well with others because of their money?

money?He has no shortage, but he is not rare to find this woman.

He always did some embarrassing things, such as thinking that the two of them would not break up at the time, such as now he began to be rare for the money women gave him.

"I'll transfer the money to you." The woman hung up the phone without hesitation.

The phone finally slid down Zhou Yu's side face, first hitting his tall nose, and then falling to the edge of the pillow.