Cold violence

Yu Jingzhou's voice sounded a little far away, carrying memories, being slowly blown by the mountain wind from the valley of time.

"He always played alone. At that time, I actually didn't dare to look for him, because his expression looked scary to me. You know the kind, when you should be laughing and laughing at a childish age, but there is a person Someone who never smiles, always lowers his eyes and is completely uninterested in the outside world? Probably like Ah Yu."

"His eccentricity is the kind, not only on the surface, he seems not very happy, but he gave people a message that strangers should not get close to him since he was a child. The children in our area I don’t even want to take the initiative to approach him. Sometimes people will come over and tell me that Ah Yu looks fierce.”

"Sometimes when I go out to play with my friends, I can see him sitting alone in the yard reading a book, or just sitting there in a daze, and when we come back, he is still sitting there alone."

"From then on, I was very curious about him. I wanted to know what he thought, so I often observed him. After observing for a long time, I probably knew which room he lived in. I went out with my friends on weekends. Playing, when you see him not in the garden, you can look up and see him standing on the balcony and staring at us."

"At that time, I knew that he really wanted to have friends by his side, and it was sad for him to be alone. But he never took the initiative to come to me. Every time he watched me go out with other children, he was alone. Stare at us."

"A Yu likes his mother very much, but... I won't say anything about his mother. After all, I haven't had direct contact with the relationship between the two of them. It's not too late for you to know when he is willing to tell you. He is now In fact, a large part of the reason for this is related to his mother. He rarely had contact with other people when he was a child, so he can't remember the faces of outsiders until now, and it is probably easier to hear the voice."

"His mother is a very strong woman, and she is one of the best women in our area. My mother also mentioned it to me. I only learned a little about their family from my mother."

"Let's just say that Ah Yu originally followed his father, but then his father had an accident. The family seemed to be in harmony but actually went about their own business. Our family, or... your family should be in a similar state. You should Can you understand what I mean? So he lived with his mother afterwards, but his mother actually didn't like him very much."

"He doesn't want to tell you. I think it's actually because...it's hard for him to establish the most basic trust in other people. He doesn't trust anyone, and sometimes he doesn't even trust his own thoughts. I just met him back then. At that time, he was so guarded against me that he didn't even want to tell me my name, but he stood on time every day and waited for me at the place we agreed on. I led him for three full years before he was willing to follow me. I'm going to tell you something from my heart..."

"At the time, I thought he was just a child who hadn't grown up yet. But then he told me once that he didn't want to tell people about himself, because he wanted to talk to people when he was a child, but no one wanted to listen. The reason, he was willing to tell me at that time, probably because he felt that I was by his side for a long time and I was the one who would never leave, so he trusted me."

"In fact, I have seen his experiences when he was a child. So many times and many things, you should be able to find that he will show a lot of stress reactions. He doesn't like physical contact, and he is also very afraid of those hurried and chaotic footsteps. It’s a problem that has been brought up since I was a child.”

"His psychology is actually very extreme. When he is gentle, he is very gentle. When he is violent, he may feel scared when he thinks about it later. He can keep all the little things in his heart, hold grudges, and he will not be unhappy. I would say at the time that I would only keep it in my heart, and slowly digest it by myself, and slowly pile up in my heart what I couldn’t digest, until one day I vented it all together. I think you can’t bear it when you think about it.”

"It's just such a stuffy temper, so you can't force him to tell you, or he will be very upset."

"In fact, he is very strong in many aspects, but he also has a shrinking mentality in many things. It seems that I have something to hold back before. He actually wanted to ask me, but I didn't mention him and kept refusing to ask. In fact, he I'm starting to get anxious."

"To put it bluntly, the evasion mentality is actually very serious. Don't look at him who is indifferent every day and doesn't care about anything. He won't refute what others say behind his back. This is actually a very bad state of mind, because He actually knows everything, but he just thinks that if he can't solve the things, he thinks that one thing is worse than one thing, and in the end he will only have more and more problems in his heart."

"Of course, if you want to tell him something but don't specify it, don't think about him asking you. If you don't take the initiative to say it, he won't think of the deep meaning of what you said."

"He doesn't do much, and he rarely takes the initiative. He has been like that since he was a child. He will only let him know what he likes. If others still don't know after he mentions something, he will also act as if nothing happened on the surface. Same thing."

"A lot of times he actually can't tell what's in his heart. He told me before that it's like two villains fighting together. He's not decisive, especially when it comes to emotions. Before that, he couldn't tell what is like."

"Confused like a girl, you can probably feel it too? He doesn't like many things, but he is very delicate in many things."

"Having said so much, I hope you understand, He Chu." The tone of Yu Jingzhou's words before had a taste of memories, as if he was just talking to himself from a distance, he didn't give He Chu time to reply, just like It was recalling to himself the child he had been with for so many years, but he suddenly became serious, with an extremely serious taste.

"Since you are the person Ah Yu likes, there must be something that moved him." Yu Jingzhou said a lot, since He Chu really wanted to know what Zhou Yu he knew, so he only talked about himself. As for what Zhou Yu said back then, there is no need to mention it again.

Those words that can most intuitively express Zhou Yu's inner fragility.

He still hoped that Zhou Yu would be a stronger person in the eyes of others, because even he himself would not want more people to pry into his inner thoughts.

He stared at He Chu's clear color for a long time, lowered his head and sighed softly, and said in a low voice: "Don't think about whether there will be anything between me and him, if you really want to, then today must be It's not your turn. In fact, he often has very simple ideas in dealing with things, and in my opinion, he is still the same kid back then."

"I've said everything I need to say. Ah Yu is someone close to me. If you want to be with him, please make him happy and don't let him down."

Because he has lived for so long, the little happiness he has is really too little.

Now that he really has his own heart, he has nothing to ask for except that he can be happy.

He took a sip of coffee slowly and smiled slightly: "The coffee is good, thank you for the hospitality."

Then he put a finger on his lips: "Remember to keep it secret." Then he walked to the counter, paid for He Chu, turned and left the coffee shop.

He Chu stared at his leaving back with deep eyes.

It turned out that it was Zhou Yu's past.

That is the past Zhou Yu that you have thought about for so long.

He Chu walked out of the coffee shop with heavy steps. He felt that every step he took was so hard that his feet seemed to be sticking to the ground.In less than 2 minutes, he left profusely in sweat, and his body was covered with cold sweat.

Through the glass, he saw Yu Jingzhou standing on the side of the road, his face quietly twisted behind his back, and saw the young Zhou Yuan sitting quietly at Yu Jingzhou's feet, facing him with a cold face.

Was Zhou Yu as cold and cold as he was when he was a child?

Thinking like this, he stretched out his hand to bring Xiao Zhou Yu back, but he felt as if his feet were stuck with glue and he couldn't move.He crawled forward slowly, but just when he was about to touch Xiao Zhouyu's hand, he was dragged back to a place farther than before by some huge suction force.

In his dream, he didn't know how many times he had done this action, but he felt that his hands were numb in the end, and suddenly he saw the distorted grimace opening his bloody mouth and biting down on Zhou Yu's.I saw that Zhou Yu's body was only able to twitch slightly, and then it was completely silent.

How could He Chu bear such a stimulus? His eyes were red and his eyes were about to crack, but it didn't help.

He yelled: "Zhou Yu!" He woke up from the table instantly in a cold sweat.He looked at Zhou Yu in shock, and Zhou Yu was looking at him blankly while he was holding his hand.

"Still having nightmares at such a short time? What did you dream about?" Zhou Yu touched He Chu's head, sweating coldly.

He Chu was taken aback, and found that he woke up after only 10 minutes of sleep, but what happened in the dream made him feel that a century was as long.

He looked at Zhou Yu's face that surprised him when he first saw him, and smiled at him, "I dreamed of you." Seeing Zhou Yu's puzzled eyes, He Chu added, "I dreamed that you were going to eat me up." gone."

After Zhou Yu heard this, he unconsciously rolled his eyes and smiled.

Zhou Yu is like this, he usually treats him with a cold and indifferent look, but as long as there is something wrong with him, Zhou Yu will come up to care for him as soon as possible, speak softly, and sometimes He Chu insists on keeping his heart We can't solve those things together by talking them out.

He Chu was actually touched and sweet in his heart, but Zhou Yu never told anyone what was in his heart.

Many times He Chu felt that what he said to Zhou Yu must have made him angry, but Zhou Yu always said "nothing" and "won't be angry with you" when he asked about it.

Before, He Chu was happy with Zhou Yu's good temper, but later he felt that Zhou Yu's attitude was very wrong, especially after meeting Yu Jingzhou, he knew that even if Zhou Yu was angry, he would not say it out , as if nothing had happened.

He Chu felt very frustrated with this feeling.Because he felt that since the two of them were together, of course they would solve it together if they had something to say. Even though Zhou Yu kept silent to prevent He Chu from worrying, in He Chu's view, this was because Zhou Yu didn't trust him. Performance.

He is willing to help He Chu solve all the problems, but he doesn't want to share his difficulties with others.

"How could I eat you..." Zhou Yu reached out and poked He Chu's forehead, "What are you thinking about all day long?"

"What else can I think about except you every day?" He Chu sat up, stretched his waist, yawned again, and winked at Zhou Yu, "I said...you really don't feel sorry for me coming so early every morning Looking for you? Look, I'm so sleepy every day now..." He Chu and Zhou Yu would immediately forget the things that worried him when he was joking with Zhou Yu. As long as he was facing Zhou Yu, he would have no negative feelings. Emotions.

Because in front of him is the person he likes.

He couldn't bear to let this person worry about himself.

Zhou Yu was stunned, and said helplessly: "I told you not to come so early, just stay at home and sleep for a while. It will be even harder to get up when winter comes, and then you are going to..."

He Chu heard that Zhou Yu was about to start a long speech again. Last time, Zhou Yu even sent him an email at twelve o'clock in the evening to prevent him from getting up so early.

He Chu was overwhelmed with surprise at the time, and thought it was some touching love story, but when he opened it, he found that Zhou Yu actually wrote a document by himself, listing the disadvantages of going to bed late and getting up early, and He Chu fell asleep lying on his stomach in front of the computer that night. This time, no matter what, he didn't want to hear Zhou Yu say it again.

"Wait, isn't my statement very suggestive? Do you really not understand what I mean?"

"What hint?" Zhou Yu's mind is really single-minded in these matters, as long as He Chu turns a corner, his IQ is not enough.

He Chuxin knew that he couldn't count on this piece of wood, but it was really too shameful for him to say this... He covered his face and turned his back, mourning for a moment for what he had just thought, and said: "No, no No nothing, no hints."

"Oh." Hearing his muffled voice, Zhou Yu knew that he didn't want to talk and there was no need to ask. His eyes drifted back to the blackboard, thinking about how to solve He Chu's sleeping problem.

But now He Chu felt as uncomfortable as a cat scratching.

Sure enough, just like what Yu Jingzhou said, he will not take the initiative to ask you. If you don't take the initiative to tell, he will pretend that he doesn't know anything.

He raised his hand to take notes, and turned the pen around. Suddenly, happiness came to his heart. He poked He Chu, who was melancholy from the back, and whispered, "Hey... let me ask you a question."

He Chu turned his head slowly, his beautiful eyes were full of sadness, but it was just pretending.

Zhou Yu saw it all at once, and said with a chuckle: "Ask a serious matter. You...do your family always take care of you?"

Control me?

"My dad is not at home 360 ​​days a year, 350 days [-] days a year, my mother...my mother doesn't care about me." He Chu rolled his eyes when he said this.

His mother is one of the few people who knows his orientation, and she said that she doesn't care about it. She is as big-hearted as a child, and her daily life is traveling. a phone call.

It doesn't matter... Zhou Yu breathed a sigh of relief, there was a sentence on his lips that he couldn't get out of his mouth, he hesitated for a long time, until He Chu asked "what's the matter" again, he whispered:

"Then you...the family doesn't care about your words, do you want to..."

He Chu actually couldn't hear what he was saying clearly, Zhou Yu's voice was as low as a mosquito humming at this moment.

But Zhou Yu's rare hesitant tone made He Chu feel a little more hopeful, hoping that Zhou Yu would say something earth-shattering.

——Because Zhou Yu would speak in this tone only when he felt embarrassed.

"Do I want anything?" He asked tentatively.

Zhou Yu took a deep breath, and felt that he already had this idea, and it was no big deal to say it.So he simply asked, "Do you want to move in and live with me?"

After speaking, he felt a little embarrassed again, and silently added: "My house... still has a spare room."

He Chu was stunned, a small spark was burning in his heart, making a crackling sound, and that sound formed a huge echo in his mind, shaking him so much that he didn't even know how to feel at that moment.

The next moment, ecstasy surged and flooded the entire chest, and that little spark was finally extinguished by the flood, and the tumbling water turned into a huge wave, which could not be calmed down.

"I think it's more convenient." Zhou Yu cleared his throat and found a less "subjective" reason for himself.

It is indeed too rare for him to take the initiative to make demands on people.

He also didn't know why he had become so indecisive about many things since he was with He Chu. He was like this with He Chu, and he talked like this, it was not like himself.

"Ah? Then I... What if I disagree?"

The corners of Zhou Yu's eyes twitched.

Not to mention that Zhou Yu himself is not proactive, even if he takes the initiative once in a while, he would never make such a shameful request. This is like saying a sentence once in a thousand years for the first time, but He Chu, who usually takes the initiative in everything, refuses up?

But Zhou Yu soon calmed down. It took only half a minute for this idea to form in his mind, and now he feels that this proposal is more suitable. Now that he thinks about it again, he thinks this proposal is very good, and he doesn't care about it. What an embarrassment.

He twirled his pen around his fingertips, and then he said calmly: "I'll make a table for you to list the pros and cons. If you think it's not enough, I'll write you another report."

At this time, the get out of class was over, and He Chu couldn't hold back the restraint he had just pretended to hold. He hugged Zhou Yu's arm and asked loudly, "Are you inviting me to live at your house?"

"Ah."

"So can we live together?"

"can."

"Then can I live with you forever?"

"can."

"Then can we be together every day?"

"Yes."

"Then I'm the first person you see every day?"

"Yes."

"Does that mean that you...do you really accept me?"

"Yes."

"So can I do everything I want to you!?"

This time Zhou Yu hesitated for a while before slowly saying: "Yes, but you can't do whatever you want to me just because I like you."