shadow lover

After resting in the park for a while, I went to Xiao Zhang to finish the rest of the work. When I passed by, I saw Xiao Zhang scolding the two apprentices with a dissatisfied face. He walked over to pat her and said: "I am also anxious to see, They have a short time to start, so don’t be too anxious.” Xiao Zhang complained that it’s really terrible to bring this kind of thing, and he can’t help but make trouble, he smiled lightly, then poked her on the cheek and sighed softly, you can’t wait until you grow up No.

Xiao Zhang asked me how the situation was, I shook my head and said nothing happened, it was just an ordinary dinner, I didn't want to say anything, and I didn't know what to say, I went home in the middle of the night, washed and slept, closed my eyes and tossed and turned.

Mo Han, who was keen to introduce my girlfriend to me, dragged me to meet the girl again, and she dragged me to a high-end western restaurant with a disheveled make-up case. The lady opposite looked very clean and refreshing in a pure white dress. Raise your glass and tap.

"Can you be a little bit more energetic, can you just say something."

"Oh, I'm sorry, I came here in a hurry, and I didn't change my clothes and makeup properly. I'm taking the liberty."

"I'm with Mo Han, and I can't go wrong with the person she likes. It's a pleasure to meet you, Anyang."

"Thank you, Miss Gao."

"My skin is very dry recently. Please see when you have time to show me my face. Do you need to renew the contract? If so, I'll make an appointment today."

"Okay, then let's add the contact information, and I will notify you when I get back."

Except for the unreliable first one, the latter ones are all pretty good, Mo Han said, don’t let me waste my time, anyway, you should get in touch with one and have a look, it’s really not good.Hurry up, I feel like she's running a dating agency.After arranging a time for Ms. Gao, I immediately sent a message to her. The ringtone reminded me that the message came in. When I clicked on the chat dialog box, I sent a picture with ILoveYou engraved on the harmonica. Any news from Miao will be replied to her as soon as possible. At that time, I was looking forward to the pity and love from the other party, but now... I am afraid it is....

Senmiao, I remember you said to me in the past: "Love is a long-term habit, I hope one day I can let you get another habit." I think I should have succeeded in getting you another habit , That's what it feels like to be loved, but Sen Miao, have you ever thought about when you sent over and over again when the rent is about to expire, the car insurance is about to expire, and those gift photos.Without exception, you are reminding me that I, Anyang, love you or love you, Sen Miao, my wise Sen Miao, do you think that loving and being loved are two different gestures, if it is not for my actions You, who are in a high position, seem to be right and understandable. If so, why did I fall into such a situation.

I don't want to refute, from the beginning of love to the deep love to the heartache, Sen Miao, all my emotional lines are drawn by you. I am the shadow left by Sister Ke in your heart. You have portrayed my love according to her appearance, you Draw the trajectory of my life according to her appearance.If I love you, I should hate you. You don't need to love me, don't care about me, or even throw me away, but you still regard me as that person's shadow, her reflection.

Ms. Gao is a delicate person. She has many discussions on cosmetic products. She said that women live on this skin, and they have to take care of it before they get old. Although she doesn't look close, she chats It's humorous.Xiao Zhang was fascinated by Ms. Gao after serving her a few times. From time to time, she asked me if Ms. Gao had an appointment.

Although Ms. Gao and I have added contact information to each other, there is nothing other than the topic of makeup. She never mentioned her personal information or asked me. She only asked me if I would like to come when she bought cosmetics of a certain international brand Try a bottle, it is precisely because of this that we have more opportunities to communicate and meet.

One day we made an appointment to meet and she gave me the limited edition she bought, and I handed her the money in the envelope. She glanced at the white paper bag I put next to the water glass and smiled and said to me: "You You can’t owe me a favor, this bottle is worth your monthly salary plus bonus, and you don’t even leave a mouthful of food for yourself.”

"Even if I pre-book this brand, it's rare to buy it. Ms. Gao spent time and effort to buy it for me. How can I accept it? Although Ms. Gao doesn't like the 2 yuan, if I can feel at ease, Gao Miss is better off accepting it."

"I said Anyang, if I bring you back a bottle of [-] yuan or even more expensive next time, what should you do?"

"If the price of the product exceeds my purchasing power, please ask Ms. Gao to take back the gift."

"Heh, since you know that this is a gift I specially made for you, and you are still like this, you really make it hard for me to step down."

"I remember that I told Ms. Gao that Mo Han was kind enough to introduce me to a girlfriend because he was afraid that I would be lonely, but I don't have that thought now, not to mention that Ms. Gao has a noble status. People like me will definitely not be able to climb high."

"You, let me take it, okay? I'll take this back, and you can take the money back, and I won't look for you everywhere in the future. Then don't rob me of this meal, okay? Friends."

Mo Han slapped me on the head angrily after learning that I rejected Ms. Gao, she said whether your brain is rusted or your brain is flooded, I rubbed the back of my head bitterly and said loudly: "Han Mohan, it hurts. "

Suddenly one day Mohan asked me this way, she pinched my chin and asked me very seriously, what would you do if Fu Senmiao had someone else, I replied to her, then I will die alone.Mo Han said, Anyang, do you really want her? I really don't want to look for her anymore, I really prefer to live alone. I kept silent and just nodded slightly.In other words, it's not that Senmiao is necessary, it's just that this relationship has left me on the verge of a mental breakdown. I'm a little scared, a little afraid of the extremely yearning love.

The rent of the apartment was due, and the landlord called me to renew the lease. The insurance company called to remind me to renew the insurance. I said that I was not a tenant or the owner of the car, but then I told the convenience that I was a tenant. , It was the owner of the car who asked him to contact me, saying that I was the one who signed the contract.

Sen Miao, let's not argue about who is right and who is wrong, and don't dwell on who was right and who was wrong in the past. The past is already an established fact. Even if the debate is clear, what's the point? But you are still you, and I am still me That's all.

When the name printed on the bottom of my heart lit up again, I answered the call, and I said, "Hello, hello."

"You finally answered the phone, Anyang, let's meet."

"Okay, I'll go find you someday when you're free."

"Saturdays and Sundays are fine. I'll wait for you at XX Cafe."

"it is good"

"Anyang"

"Um"

"Loving me makes you hard"

"Saturday at three o'clock in the afternoon, I will go there, goodbye."

Before I went to the meeting on Saturday, I went to a nearby bank to withdraw tens of thousands of yuan. I was worried that I didn't have enough money and I overdrafted my credit card to withdraw another 5000 yuan.

At the door of the coffee shop, I subconsciously tugged on my collar, and pushed open the glass door. Wearing light-colored jeans and a gray T-shirt, I walked up to the woman sitting by the window.

"Sit down, I'll let Xiaoliu get you something to drink, oh, I never told you that I sold the water bar and opened this store with some money."

"Don't be too busy, I'm here to tell you about rent and car insurance."

"Lotion..."

"I brought it, ten bottles, which is enough for you to use for the past two years, and all the cosmetics in this box are what you want."

"I don't have time to move, let alone go to the insurance company."

“Staff said they can provide □□”

"no time to see you"

"Then let the police handle it."

"Anyang, I know that if I say this, you will feel that I am extremely shameless, but I still want to ask you, do you really not love me at all?"

Pause and stare at each other, the sorrow and expectation in her eyes are together, don't you love me anymore, don't you love me anymore, don't you love me anymore, if I ask if I will be so stubborn, look away Turning around and pushing the door away, two hours later the landlord received a full year's rent, and the clerk received another security deposit.

Sen Miao, there will not be two identical people in this world, even if they are like two or three layers, just because there are no two identical characters and appearances in this world, everyone’s love for you is also A unique exclusive, no matter family, friendship or even love worth mentioning.

I was silent and stopped talking about love, I was silent and went to the colorful things in front of me, I was silent and listened to the bitterness of the people around me, I was silent and lowered my head to do what I should do, I was silent and lay down on the emerald green I squinted my eyes on the grass and looked at the sky with white clouds in the distance. I smiled silently and walked with the laughing people around me.

Mo Han said, if I don't speak, it means that I acquiesce in being kind to Sen Miao.

Mo Han said, if I don't speak, it shows that I can't bear Sen Miao.

Mo Han said that if I didn't express my opinion, it proved that I was giving Sen Miao a chance.

Mo Han said, Anyang, if she can love you sincerely, then let her love you more in the future, at least let her taste the bitterness and bitterness.

I said, take care of your own affairs and leave me alone.

Loneliness is not born with you, but starts from the moment you fall in love with you.